Do you look like me? [Esports]

"I have a free morning for you, we can have a good chat, maybe we can have lunch together."

"Ah."

"Okay, the flight went well, see you tomorrow."

After Ms. Wang finished speaking, she hung up the phone.

Jiang Xi maintained the posture of holding the phone, and it took a long time before he put his hand down.

He didn't dare to look at Ji Ruici's eyes, looked down at the black screen of the phone, and whispered: "I, I'll go to the airport in a while, I... ticket..."

"It's changed, let's go have dinner first." Ji Rui resigned.

Jiang Xi nodded, "Oh, no, I'm not hungry, then...then I'll go back to the hotel to clean up...I..."

His voice gradually disappeared, and he couldn't continue speaking.

At a loss, clueless, powerless, fear, confusion, grievance, all emotions surged up at once, becoming a poison stuck in the throat, unable to spit it out, and unwilling to swallow it.I don't know what I should do at all, I don't know what I want to say at all, just thinking about tomorrow's meeting can't help shaking hands, Jiang Xi looked out the window, looked at the blue bus chair in front of him, at that moment I even wondered why I came here.

Shouldn't he be studying at school now?

Shouldn't he be preparing the internship materials for his parents to check now?

Shouldn't he accept the fact as flatly as before when he received his mother's call now, and then live his life step by step?

What is he doing now?

Why did you move out of the dormitory?Why not do an internship?

what is he doing these days

The time span stretches, and Jiang Xi's memory seems to return to the day when the winter vacation started, the day he just arrived at Ji Rui's home.

These days are like tasting a very sweet candy in Utopia. Now that the candy is gone and Utopia has been smashed, I suddenly realize that this is like a dream, and I can’t do anything about it.

In fact, Jiang Xi is very timid, he can't handle anything, just a phone call, and he immediately has the idea of ​​running away, obviously before the other party said a word, he was already defeated and surrendered with his hands raised.

Like a fairy tale in the real world, when Cinderella heard the twelve o'clock bell, she felt no resentment or regret in her heart, only numbness and indifference, confused eyes, and only knew that she should leave the luxurious palace, leave the affectionate prince, and return to To her wretched back kitchen, lying on the soot, continuing to do her day-to-day work.

Not every day there is a fairy, not every day there is a ball, it is not so much a chance encounter in a life that can be seen at a glance, it is better to say that it is a dream that it is better not to appear.

Once a person has tasted the sweetness, it is difficult to suffer from it.A person who has already accepted a step-by-step life suddenly comes to a trip that is right to go, then he will feel fear when he thinks that he will go back to that life. It is obviously the life he accepted before. It hurts a lot, but worst of all, you discover that you have no power to change.

These days, Jiang Xi has actually been avoiding the matter of facing his parents, not even thinking about it.

But this thing of escape came so fast, so fast that Jiang Xi hadn't shown anything to his parents, so fast that Jiang Xi himself hadn't really firmed up his heart.

The sun in Chongqing always disappears. Today was originally a comfortable cloudy day, the sky was neither blue nor white, it was a delicate high-grade color, but at this moment, in Jiang Xi’s eyes, the gray with no liveliness in the sky became It was extremely oppressive, like a pervasive, shapeless deep sea, submerged him to the top, the sea level was untouchable, and he lay on the bottom of the sea, never able to breathe freely.

Are the buses air-conditioned?Why is the air so dirty, it's almost suffocating.

Jiang Xi felt that he was sweating, and he pinched his mobile phone tightly, as if he wanted to bend the mobile phone forcibly.

Ji Ruici reached out and took his cell phone away, and held his hand with interlocking fingers.

This action interrupted Jiang Xi's thoughts, he raised his head suddenly, seeing the gaze of Shang Ji Ruici, the anxiety, grievance, confusion and fear in his eyes were clearly seen.

Ji Ruici felt sorry for her.

In just half a second, Jiang Xi's hand was raised above his head, and the back of his hand was pressed heavily against the window glass, and the back of his head was protected by Ji Ruici's hand.

The curtains on the windows of the bus were drawn tightly, and it was impossible to see what was going on inside from the outside.

Ji Ruici pressed Jiang Xi against the window, his movements were too fast to estimate the severity, Jiang Xi let out a muffled snort, and was quickly gagged.

The kiss that fell was very gentle, and it was a bit outrageous to be careful.Ji Ruici placed his left hand on the back of Jiang Xi's head, and interlocked his fingers with his other hand.

Both of them sat sideways on the chairs, and the things in their arms had already rolled to the ground, and no one paid attention to them.

Ji Ruici suppressed Jiang Xi, forced him to the corner of the car wall and the chair, did not give Jiang Xi any time to react, bowed his head and kissed him.

This is a very exciting kissing position that requires input and cooperation from both partners.

After the short kiss, Ji Ruici ordered in a low voice, "The other hand, hug me."

"Well……"

Jiang Xi's other hand groped for Ji Ruici's arm, and carefully grabbed his sleeve.

"Up, hug your neck."

Jiang Xi followed suit.

Ji Ruici took the opportunity to deepen the kiss, let go of Jiang Xi's hand, put his arms around his waist, and brought him to his body.

Jiang Xi moved his foot and kicked heavily on the chair in front of him. Fortunately, the kick was a cloth bag and the sound was not loud.

In the first half of the carriage, a group of people were discussing which hot pot restaurant to go to. A group of non-Chongqing people wanted to teach on the spot with Chi Feng, who was the only person present who could speak Chongqing dialect. The proprietress of the hot pot restaurant called to order food, and she already had the excitement of hot pot before eating it.

No one noticed that in the last row of the car, there were two people kissing with their fingers interlocked.

Jiang Xi's kissing skills are still very poor, and he will never learn to breathe. After the kiss is over, he leans on Ji Ruici's body to breathe without any strength.

Ji Ruici patted him on the shoulder lightly.

Gradually, the front of the carriage became quiet. Everyone seemed to have chosen a place to eat. After sitting down, the driver started the car, and the scenery outside the window began to move slowly.

Jiang Xi still didn't raise his head, his forehead firmly pressed against Ji Ruici's shoulder, his throat was sore and his voice choked, "Ji Ruici..."

With the roar of the bus engine, Ji Rui said, "Yes, yes."

"I……"

"It can be solved." Ji Ruici restrained his urge to lift him up and kiss him hard again. He didn't want to say such a thing now, but he really wanted to pull Jiang Xi up, so he could only say: "Jiang Xi , You have to try to believe in yourself more."

"If you tell me you're going to give up, that you're going to run away just by answering a phone call..."

Jiang Xi raised his head, with wet eyelashes, watching Ji Ruici waiting for his next words.

"I have no choice but to tie you up and take you back to the club to sign the contract right now, register as a player immediately, sign up for the competition immediately, and take you back to school for a leave of absence, so that you have no room for regret." Ji Ruici deliberately fierce said.

Jiang Xi suddenly froze.

"You are walking a maze. You know that the exit is ahead, but you are blocked by the unknown guarding the exit. It is clearly the unknown. You have not tried to persuade them, so how do you know that they cannot be persuaded by you?"

"Jiang Xi, the most useless thing in this world is to worry about the unknown. The worst thing to do is to be afraid of the unknown. We should look forward to the unknown, because only the unknown represents infinite possibilities."

Jiang Xi wiped his eyes viciously with his sleeve, and looked at Ji Ruici blinking.

Only now did he understand why he was attracted to Ji Ruici in a short period of time even though he had only known him for a few months.

Because, during the time he knew Ji Ruici, Ji Ruici taught him new things all the time, he could always find Jiang Xi's most comfortable learning angle to output his ideas, and let Jiang Xi be attracted to his personality all the time Convinced, he's the older man who's been sustaining world-building throughout the two's relationship.

The best state of loving someone is seeing a better version of yourself with his company.

When the word love came out, the previous dark emotions were swept away, Jiang Xi was taken aback, only one thought remained in his mind:

I'm going to be with this person, I'm going to continue to be with this person, and I'm going to do it against all odds.

Love is not something that has been accompanied by a lifetime for thousands of years at a glance, nor is it necessarily something measured by the length of time.

Ji Ruici clearly saw the change in Jiang Xi's eyes, wiped his face with a smile, "Have you figured it out?"

"Think clearly."

"Okay." Ji Ruici got up slightly, "I will stop by the hotel later, and I will get off."

The driver responded, and the people sitting in front turned around, "Ah? Boss, do you want to bring anything?"

"No, the hot pot bill is mine, I'll go back to the base first."

"Huh? Oh, thank you boss!"

In the eyes of everyone who had their own intentions, Ji Ruici and Jiang Xi got out of the car one after another at the hotel, cleaned up a little, and they flew back to Qianzhou overnight.

The next day, Jiang Xi woke up very early, almost sitting on the edge of the bed and watching the sky gradually brighten outside. Spring is here, and the sky is getting brighter and earlier.

The latitude of Qianzhou is low, and when the sun jumped out of the horizon, the golden color instantly covered the sight. Even after watching countless sunrises, Jiang Xi was still moved by it, believing it was a good omen.

He washed up, changed his clothes, and when he went out, Ji Ruici had already prepared breakfast and was waiting at the dining table, "Come over for breakfast, I'll take you there later."

"it is good."

On weekends, at [-]:[-] in the morning, there are almost no people around the school. Students and workers from surrounding companies are taking advantage of the weekend to sleep in. The cleaners have cleaned the streets before dawn, and only workers who are preparing to dig the ground are measuring the ground area on the road. .

Ji Ruici drove very slowly and arrived at the agreed coffee shop at 7:55.

Jiang Xi unbuttoned his seat belt very slowly.

In this world, Ji Ruici may be the only person who is not afraid of the unknown, which is tempered by inhuman experiences one after another. Many times, for Ji Ruici, unknown news is good news, so he even looks forward to unknown.

But Jiang Xi hasn't practiced yet, so he would be lying if he said he wasn't afraid.

Ji Ruici held his hand to unbuckle his seat belt, leaned over and kissed him, "I'll wait for you here, one hour, you are alone, and I will go in after one hour."

"I..." Jiang Xi wanted to refute.

"I will be measured, and I hope I can help you."

"……it is good."

Jiang Xi took a deep breath, opened the door and got out of the car.

Walking into the coffee shop, a waiter came to meet him, and after confirming, he led Jiang Xi to the stage.

Ms. Wang is used to arriving at the appointed place 15 minutes earlier than the agreed time. At this time, she is sitting on a chair in the coffee shop with a correct posture. The coffee has not been served yet. A few minutes ago, she saw a black Brabus After a short while, Jiang Xi got off the co-pilot and seemed to say something to the car. The passenger window is anti-peep glass, so he couldn't see who was in the driver's seat. Ms. Wang didn't Think about it, she has never interfered with her son's social life.

She watched Jiang Xi walk towards the door of the coffee shop, and watched Jiang Xi walking under her eyes, wearing a light-colored thin coat, with a correct posture, a straight back, and the appearance she expected from the beginning to the end. .

To be honest, Ms. Wang lost her composure for a moment when she first learned that Jiang Xi had dropped out of school to become a professional e-sports player, but it was only for a moment. She is good at finding problems. Belated rebellion, this is just a small mistake, it will be corrected soon.

But when Jiang Xi stood in front of her and called out to her, Ms. Wang looked at Jiang Xi, and at that moment, she discovered something different about Jiang Xi.

The eyes are different, the posture seems to be different, and the aura she gives her is also different.

Ms. Wang couldn't quite confirm her feelings.

She felt that Jiang Xi had become more confident.

"Sit down, please," she said.

"Okay." Jiang Xi replied.

Ms. Wang looked at her son. She is not good at expressing emotions. She always only finds problems quickly and solves them. Even if she wants to say something, she can't say anything for a while, so she can only go straight to the topic, "Teacher Tell me you asked your counselor for a leave of absence."

"Yes." Jiang Xi ordered a cup of freshly squeezed juice. He has always disliked bitter things, and sneered at Ms. Wang's favorite coffee, "But the counselor didn't approve it."

"Because of me, she told you that you need my permission."

"Yeah." Jiang Xi looked calm on the surface, but in fact his hands under the table were tightly clutching the corners of his clothes, his palms were sweating uncontrollably, "I'm already 18 years old, I can decide my own affairs."

Ms. Wang's tone was calm, just like asking a student why he wanted to do this thesis topic at the defense meeting, asking: "Can you explain your reasons."

"I..." Jiang Xi knew that hesitation is a big taboo, and a second of hesitation would turn into uncertainty in the eyes of Ms. Wang, so he tried his best in this life and said quickly: "I have always known that I like the most What is the matter, I have not mentioned it, just because the original concept in my mind tells me that the most meaningful thing is to stick to my major. I know that the major I study can serve the country and help those People with diseases who want to live can even make history."

"But there is only one life, and I also want to live for myself. This world allows selfish ordinary people to exist."

"I can help others, but I also want to help myself."

The author has something to say:

I feel that every word I wrote recently is like a heart-to-heart. I still need to learn how to describe emotional changes, and I will continue to work hard!The outcome of the conversation is good, and everyone can rest assured.