No good cat

At that time, he was not with Zhao Xiwei. Zhao Xiwei was working in city b. He thought it was lucky to meet Zhao Xiwei not long after returning to city c.

But he greeted this long-lost reunion with an image of being embarrassed and drunk.

His house in city c hadn't been renovated yet, so Zhao Xiwei sent him to the hotel.

The lights in the hotel were not bright, which made people feel ambiguous and safe. He also asked Zhao Xiwei for contact information under Jiu Jin's instigation.

He didn't expect the other party to give it so happily. After all, they haven't seen each other for a long time, and Zhao Xiwei didn't show that he wanted him to stay when he left.

He endured the overwhelming feeling in his stomach and sent Zhao Xiwei out the door, then ran barefoot to the bathroom and vomited upside down.

In his heart, he was glad that Zhao Xiwei didn't see this side of himself, but he kept blaming himself for going out to drink.

Chen An lay on his side on the bed clutching his phone, and the phone interface stopped at the contact Zhao Xiwei's page. He actually didn't know what to send to Zhao Xiwei, because he had nothing to say to Zhao Xiwei.

Although he has been collecting information about Zhao Xiwei for several years abroad, in all honesty, he has no idea about Zhao Xiwei himself.

He defined his role: the one who is least likely to succeed among the many people who like Zhao Xiwei.

In fact, he had briefly fantasized about being with Zhao Xiwei when he was in high school, but after all, he was young at that time, and now getting someone's favor doesn't seem to be that important to him.

Because he gradually knew that no one cared about him.

But everything was too coincidental today, he happened to meet Zhao Xiwei, Zhao Xiwei happened to recognize him at a glance, and that person happened to send him back.

Just like when he frequently met Zhao Xiwei in the school cafeteria when he was in high school, he felt that he was very lucky, after all, not everyone can meet someone they like all the time.

Finally, Chen An clicked on the text message interface.

"Senior, I'm Chen An, thank you for sending me back."

"Should be." Zhao Xiwei's text message was replied quickly, and there was an unexpected surprise, because he received a second text message from Zhao Xiwei right after.

"I'm a little busy this time, next time I have a chance to have dinner together."

Chen An stared at the text message for a long time, he was not sure whether Zhao Xiwei was being polite to him or really thought so, so he replied politely.

He thought he really had no idea about Zhao Xiwei, but he lost sleep that night, and the thought of falling in love with Zhao Xiwei flashed through his mind 11 times.

Zhao Xiwei only stayed in City C for two days before leaving. Meeting Chen An might have been an episode on his business trip for him, but for Chen An, it was a correct response to what he was thinking.

Chen An uncontrollably picked up his cell phone every night after Zhao Xiwei went back. Saving Zhao Xiwei's cell phone number in his address book was a fatal temptation for him, and he couldn't do it at all. Open the photo album and take a look.

So he still sent a text message to Zhao Xiwei. The text message had been edited since noon and was not sent until evening.

Zhao Xiwei was also very kind and didn't ask Chen Ando to wait. He replied to the text message very quickly. He said that he had plans to come to City C in the near future, and we could have dinner together at that time.

Since then, Zhao Xiwei began to travel frequently between the two cities.

Maybe it was too much effort to remember the old things in the dream, Chen An slept until noon, his work came to an end temporarily, and he planned not to go to the studio today, so he just watched the projection at home that he hadn't finished before.

It is a movie he likes very much. The doorbell rang when the two protagonists kissed affectionately.

He thought it might be a gas inspector, because the community was checking gas safety recently, so he stood up and went to open the door.

Standing outside the door was Zhao Xiwei who was supposed to be on a business trip abroad.

"Aren't you...are you on a business trip?" Chen An couldn't react.

"You promised to talk to me." Zhao Xiwei reached out and grabbed Chen An's hand on the doorknob, and then stepped forward to press the door, "I'm afraid you will regret it if I come back late."

Zhao Xiwei seemed to come over right after he got off the plane. He was carrying a small luggage bag, his suit was slightly wrinkled, and there was a blue stubble on his chin.

"Come in first." Chen An turned his body sideways to let the door open.

Zhao Xiwei put the luggage belt on the cabinet at the door, and stepped forward to approach Chen An.

"Since I said I want to talk, I definitely won't go back on my word." Chen An looked down at the ground, the sunlight came in through the window and reflected a square shadow on the ground, which just happened to enclose him and Zhao Xiwei, like a family .

Chen An pulled Zhao Xiwei to the sofa and sat down, and asked him if he had eaten.

"I ate it on the plane." Zhao Xiwei was obedient, and Chen An asked him a question, and he answered it, just like dealing with teachers and students carefully.

"Do you want to sleep first?" Chen An looked at Zhao Xiwei's state and suggested that Zhao Xiwei catch up on sleep first, because he looked very tired.

Zhao Xiwei fell on Chen An's knee as if he had no strength, and stretched out his hand to take Chen An's hand and pressed it under his ear, "I'm not sleepy, I just miss you very much."

"An'an, you opened a studio in city c, do you really plan not to come back?"

"If you want to open a studio, it's the same when we go back to City B."

"How about just driving in my office building, so I can see you at any time."

Zhao Xiwei didn't seem to need Chen An's response. He spoke one sentence after another, speaking faster and faster, as if he was afraid that Chen An would mercilessly refuse him as soon as he stopped.

Chen An moved the hand that was pillowed by Zhao Xiwei, rubbed his ear, and reminded him to speak well.

Zhao Xiwei moved his lips, but still said stubbornly: "I don't want to break up, and you are not allowed to leave me."

Chen An was silent for a while, then sighed lightly.

"Do you know why I have to break up?" Chen An asked.

"Because I don't respect your thoughts, I was too busy to ignore your feelings." Zhao Xiwei summed up his crimes in his life like a judge, as seriously as if he was writing a professional report.

"Not all," Chen An thought for a while and continued, "My mother also likes to control me, and you are actually very similar."

"But sometimes I can't breathe. My mother doesn't love me, but asks me to listen to her in everything. You love me, but you put the same pressure on me."

When Chen An said these words, his voice was very gentle, as if he didn't care anymore, which made Zhao Xiwei feel scared.

Chen An didn't notice the change in Zhao Xiwei's mood, but continued to say something cruel to Zhao Xiwei's ears, "Maybe we are not born to be together."

Zhao Xiwei sat up, looked directly at Chen An, and said in a firm tone, "We are suitable."

"An'an, I know that I am arrogant and arrogant. My shortcomings may not be able to write tens of thousands of words, but the fact that I love you may be regarded as an advantage."

Zhao Xiwei turned his head and gently kissed Chen An's chin, "An An, I will change, can you not break up with me?"

Chen An didn't answer, but gently pinched Zhao Xiwei's earlobe, as if comforting a cat that had blown its fur.

Zhao Xiwei's eyes turned from full of expectation to wet, and then the affirmation in his tone became uneasy amidst Chen An's long silence.

"An'an," Zhao Xiwei said, like a wild animal showing weakness, "what are you thinking."

"I heard a fable before." Chen An said.

There was a man who raised a cat to catch mice, fed big fish and meat every day, and made a nest with cotton pads. The cat lived comfortably so that it would not hunt mice, and even play with mice. There are no good cats.

Zhao Xiwei said, "How come there are no good cats? It's obvious that he doesn't know how to raise them."

"Yes," Chen An said, "Maybe we don't know how to love each other."

He loves Zhao Xiwei, but Zhao Xiwei's desire to control is out of his habit. He blindly followed Zhao Xiwei's arrangements, and in the end Zhao Xiwei became a habit, but he started to resist.

At the beginning, he tacitly accepted this way of falling in love, but he was unwilling to do so, broke up with Zhao Xiwei, and put all the blame on Zhao Xiwei.

But the relationship between them is far from being as simple as raising a cat.

"I really don't know how to love someone." Zhao Xiwei stretched out his hand to pinch Chen An's fingertips and rubbed them gently. "It's the first time I have a heartbeat, the first time I fall in love. I don't know how to make him happy."

"Everything from childhood to adulthood is under my control. Between us, in fact, you will always have the final say."

"I just," Zhao Xiwei continued after a pause, "I just want to give you everything I think is good."

Perhaps it was Zhao Xiwei who took the initiative between them at the beginning, but since the moment Zhao Xiwei was tempted, he had no choice.

Zhao Xiwei has what Chen An has, he can choose to end his relationship with Zhao Xiwei at any time, and Zhao Xiwei has no other choice but to wait for Chen An to love him.

But Chen An is different from him, Chen An loves him only because Chen An chooses to love him, but such a good Chen An is far more than this one choice.

Zhao Xiwei's arrogant and arrogant desire to control comes from his passive position in this relationship and his anxiety.

"I will love you more than anyone else," Zhao Xiwei said, "Can you always love me?"

After Zhao Xiwei finished speaking, he hugged Chen An very tightly, encircling his arm as if he was afraid that Chen An would break free, and then buried his head in Chen An's shoulder without saying a word.

Chen An thought, Zhao Xiwei and Chen Yaru are different, Chen Yaru's desire to control is because his surname is Chen, but Zhao Xiwei just loves him.

And he also loves Zhao Xiwei little by little, and it's not all Zhao Xiwei's fault that this relationship has come to this point, so he can't help but soften his heart.

So he took Zhao Xiwei to the bedroom and showed him the sketchbook, as if to appease and as a promise.

Chen An said: "Chen An only likes Zhao Xiwei."

Remarks: The original text of "The World's Unscrupulous Cat": A certain vile rat, broke the house and begged for a good cat.Disgusted with fishy ointment, sleep with felt.Cats are full and safe, so they will not eat rats, and even play games with rats, and rats will benefit from violence.A certain fear, so I stopped keeping cats, thinking that there are no good cats in the world.It means that there is no cat evil, and it means that it does not know how to breed cats.