[Bottle Evil] Sleepless

A century has passed.The panting had already subsided, like entering the world of a silent film, but the two remained motionless like sculptures.Zhang Qiling finally spoke, his voice was low and hoarse: "Qin Haiting." Without waiting for Wu Xie to speak, he continued, "Without her, I think... at least I can spend you a few more years."

Wu Xie was stabbed in the heart, and muttered: "...what?"

Zhang Qiling kept silent, pecked on his lips, and after a while, said: "You didn't do anything to upset me, Wu Xie. It's me." Stopped and kept quiet for a while, breathing straight into Wu Xie's face Flutter, "It's all myself. You're fine."

It took Wu Xie a long time to digest the string of words that Zhang Qiling, who cherishes words like gold, suddenly spouted out.It was like a piggy bank was broken, and the coins that originally needed to be shaken one by one were thrown out one by one. Wu Xie held it in the palm of his hand and stroked it one by one as if he had found a treasure.

you are fine.

This sentence was almost a red flag, if there hadn't been that beastly kiss beforehand, he would almost have thought that the next sentence would be "but...".Fortunately, Zhang Qiling didn't say but—more coins poured out.

13

Zhang Qiling knew about Qin Haiting, he always knew about it.

That year he was a senior with black glasses.Wu Xie was still a freshman at the opposite university.In fact, Wu Xie had a face that he couldn't dig out even if he threw it into the crowd, but he just dug it out.Whether it's the bus stop near the school, the noodle shop, or the cold drink shop, he can always pick this person out of the crowd at a glance.Smiling very warmly, laughing often, throwing a few foul words from time to time, discussing with friends next to her that the voice of a woman’s chest is not low enough and not even realizing it; The museum settled down.

This is the first time Zhang Qiling likes someone, and he thinks there will probably be no second time.

Black Glasses said that it would not be worthwhile to convict himself of decapitation without trying anyway.Then he helped him inquire, and not long after, he learned of Qin Haiting's existence.The black glasses didn't say anything.Zhang Qiling couldn't tell what he felt at the time, he had no expectations, so he probably wasn't disappointed, he didn't sentence himself to death, he died right from the start—it was obvious that Wu Xie liked women.

Wu Xie is kind and has a good network.So in fact, people who have a good relationship with Qin Haiting know a little bit about Qin Haiting, and it sounds so easy to fight.Probably only the person involved didn't know—in fact, only she knew whether Qin Haiting knew or not.

Even without Qin Haiting, Wu Xie was still trying to date other women, never a man.

The news that Wu Xie entered the company came from the black glasses.At that time, he had just taken office as director of the technical department.But what about coming in, it's impossible to go over and say hello - "Hello, I'm Zhang Qiling." Wu Xie is a newcomer in the editorial department, so he has no reason to do so.But getting a number is easy.It's actually pretty good, at least we can meet again.That's enough.Since it is impossible, even friends should not do it.Don't get too close, the closer you are, the easier it is to be exposed.

A pervert who has been unrequitedly in love with Wu Xie's homosexual for eight years. —Probably this is the most accurate description of him.

I don't want to be more humble than now.cannot be exposed.

At this point, he never thought about it, never dared to think about it.

Like a dream, reminding myself to wake up before I can't leave but can't wake up-but I know I will wake up one day.Just like what Wu Xie and Fatty said in the countryside, he is an only seedling.But to Wu Xie, he couldn't say the word "breakup" no matter what - then don't wake up, just waste it like this, it will consume him for a few years, just these few years.

Qin Yan's appearance was undoubtedly an alarm bell.Qin Haiting is back.Probably only Wu Xie couldn't see her thoughts.Xie Yuchen should be very clear, otherwise he wouldn't be such a nice person.

Zhang Qiling sat in the car, watching Wu Xie and Qin Haiting standing side by side from a distance, waiting for Xie Yuchen to drive over.Qin Yan stood between them.He turned up the volume on the stereo and leaned his elbows on the steering wheel.

Being with Wu Xie, earning every second, there is no time for him to think too much.Even if there is no Qin Haiting, there will be countless Qin Haitings in the future—just like this, a family of three, happy and harmonious.He is like a terminal cancer patient, there is no need to think about what the world will be like after death, otherwise he will only hate himself for not living long enough.

The female voice on the stereo was still singing, and the record was given by Wu Xie.

Can't last until death, sickness, or separation

If you can lean on and see the world, you are not blessed to play

Some deadlines may not be reasonable

Xie Yuchen drove past, the window was rolled down, Wu Xie walked over and opened the driver's door, sideways to let Qin Haiting in, and then picked up Qin Yan, Qin Haiting took it with open arms, and hugged the little girl on her lap.Xie Yuchen went over to say something, Wu Xie shook his head again and again, with a gentle smile on his face.The whole street is dark, like a cave where you can't see your fingers, and it's like a lonely room that is condensed by black when you wake up in the middle of the night.But it's not all black——Wu Xie is on, as the only light source in the black space, it's on blatantly.

However, sooner or later

There is no need to share the pain, there is a future

The whole room was like a black quagmire. He hugged Wu Xie tightly, like holding a life-saving grass.

Wu Xie listened quietly, and in the end almost her whole body stuck to Zhang Qiling, unable to tear it apart.His head was deeply buried in Zhang Qiling's neck, no matter how much he kissed his ears, he would not lift it up.Zhang Qiling didn't make a sound, and tightened his arms around his waist, continuing to be a sculpture with him.

Of course, Zhang Qiling didn't tell everything.

I don't know how long it took, but both of them felt sore hands, but they still didn't let go.Zhang Qiling called Wu Xie in a low voice, and he responded.After a few minutes of silence, Wu Xie stretched out his tongue and licked his neck, feeling Zhang Qiling trembled, and said in a muffled voice: "You just don't say anything, is it interesting to torture yourself? —— Make me ugly like this."

Zhang Qiling lowered his head, put his face against his hair, and said, "You made a fool of yourself?"

Wu Xie said: "The key... can I get it back?"

Zhang Qiling was silent for a moment, then suddenly smiled, and said, "Yes."

Wu Xie pressed another string of kisses on his neck, then stopped, and said in a low voice: "Actually, I won't leave, and I won't leave if you don't pull."

Zhang Qiling slowly touched up with one hand, the palm of his palm rubbed along his spine to warm his back.

Wu Xie added: "It's been nothing to Qin Haiting for a long time. Sometimes I wonder, even if she was not married at that time, would I still like her?" After a short pause, "It's actually like an excuse. If you can’t find someone you like, just remind yourself habitually—because I like Qin Haiting. Now that I think about it, that’s probably what happened, a psychological hint.”

Zhang Qiling said: "I don't mind her."

Wu Xie was silent for a while, then tightened his neck, and said, "You didn't waste me. I didn't think it would only take one time."

There was another silence.

Wu Xie said, "When did we first meet? How did you notice me?"

Zhang Qiling rubbed against his hair and said, "Forgot."

"……forget?"

Zhang Qiling said: "It's been too long, I forgot."

Wu Xie was silent for a while, and suddenly became manic like a tsunami eruption.

"Where have I seen such words?" Zhang Qiling suddenly stopped, as if he was thinking about it, but his tone was still flat, "I have liked it for too long, so long that I almost forgot about it."

Such lines were recited by Zhang Qiling in a dry tone, just like pouring coffee with tap water.Wu Xie's heart skipped a beat.Unable to describe the astonishment in my heart, I said after a while: "You are hiding something, you still say such things?"

Zhang Qiling said: "Suddenly thought of it, it's just a quote."

Wu Xie laughed and said, "I can't tell, but you also read Xiaoyan?"

"It should be in a love letter."

"..."

Is this to stimulate him not to have received a love letter?

But it was enough—even if he died now, he would have no major regrets.He would never have dreamed that Zhang Qiling was the one he liked first, and the word "first" could be equated with eight years.When I heard about Zhang Qiling's mention of university, the fleeting guess in my mind turned out to be true.Secretly falling in love with this kind of thing, movies, TV dramas and novels are almost badly written, but the script and reality are too different.Whether it is a tragedy or a comedy ending, all secret loves that can be written into a script have more or less intersections, and there will be more or less love in the middle. The reader subconsciously understands this, and there is also a limit to the anxiety of the protagonist.In reality, there is no screenwriter, and no one knows what the next step will be. The person you miss may not pay attention to you in this life.He understands this fear and confusion all too well.

Eight years, not eight months, eight weeks, eight days.Keeping the secret alone—there might be black glasses who know about it, but with Zhang Qiling's character, there will never be such a thing as complaining.He even wondered if it was him, would he have persisted for the past eight years - in the past few years, the other party didn't even know him.

For this feeling, he always thought that he was the one who was humble and the fool.

The phrase "it's not you", he can probably guess the whole sentence.

Zhang Qiling suddenly said: "It's in the noodle restaurant, they are queuing up. Xie Yuchen is introducing someone to you, and they laugh at your name."

Wu Xie digested it for a while before realizing that he was correcting the joke just now - he remembered.

Wu Xie was taken aback, and said, "So? You also think my name is funny?"

Zhang Qiling said: "The blind man laughed."

Wu Xie was taken aback for a moment, and squeezed out the word "fuck" from between his teeth.Zhang Qiling let go of him with one hand and turned on the light again.This was the first time after the quarrel that their eyes met brightly. The two people's eyes collided, and then they staggered away again.In fact, only Wu Xie dodged, Zhang Qiling was very