On the New Posture of Being Captive

The years are getting farther and farther away, I don't know if it slipped away quietly or was squandered wantonly, but when I look back, I find that it has already changed.

Autumn accidentally slipped into winter.

A heavy snow fell one after another, turning everything in the world into silvery white, beautiful and quiet.

When the sun fell, the pure white snow shone with fine silver light.

This winter is so beautiful.

"If, I can forget the whole world, I just don't want to lose your news..." A big boy hummed softly, holding a book in his hand, lying on the balcony basking in the sun, the winter sun scattered It fell on him with a slight warmth.

After a while, the man lay down on the chair and closed his eyes. A woman came over to look at it, then took the book in his hand, covered him with a small blanket, her eyes were gentle and loving, and gently A sigh, drifting in the air like nothing.

It was still the familiar dream, the dream that kept appearing again and again, the dream was clear and terrifying, but it made people feel at a loss.

An ancient peach blossom tree, the petals are slowly falling with the wind, a figure in black is now under the tree, with a slender figure, the whole person seems to reveal a kind of deep and long-lasting tranquility, the petals are falling on the tip of his hair , falling on his shoulders.

There seems to be something attractive about that person, and people can't help but want to get closer, and get closer.

"...What if you can't find me?"

"Then I'll wait for you, wait for you to come to me."

"You must wait for me, I will come to you."

What kind of voice is this, why is it inexplicably familiar, and who is speaking?

Just as I stretched out my fingertips to touch that figure, I suddenly felt a sharp pain in my chest, and a clear sense of suffocation came up, as if my chest was being violently stirred by something, intense pain, and great sadness.

"Xing'er, Xing'er..." A familiar voice came, calling anxiously and worriedly.

Opening his eyes, everything seemed to be quiet again, Xu Xingxing paused for a moment, "Mom..." His voice was hoarse and deep as if he had just woken up, "What's wrong?"

Mother Xu looked at her son, worry flashed across her eyes, and said softly, "Someone called you just now."

"Oh, let me take a look." Xu Xingxing got up and looked at his mobile phone.

Xu's mother looked at her son with pity, she was haunted by a nightmare just now, almost every time she took a nap, Xu's mother's eyes flashed with helplessness, but she was relieved again, as long as people are fine, now it's gone It's much better, at least I can fall asleep, it will always get better, right?

Seeing the familiar name on the missed call, Xu Xingxing pursed the corners of his mouth and called back.

The phone was picked up quickly, with a relaxed and happy "Hello."

"Little Xingxing, what were you doing just now, you didn't answer my call?" The person on the phone said deliberately with a slightly complaining tone, with a picky ending, with a familiar kindness.

"Just for a while," Xu Xingxing chuckled, "What's wrong?"

"Okay, I forgive you, go out to play this weekend, do you have time?"

"Should be, where to?" Xu Xingxing asked.

"Of course it's a good place, I'll tell you when I go." The voice on the other side of the phone was slightly excited and excited.

"Okay." Xu Xingxing agreed.

The two chatted for a while, and then hung up the phone while joking with each other.

Xu Xingxing walked to the balcony and looked at the scenery outside the window. The sun was shining on the snow, and the snow slowly melted, but after a while, a puddle of water was left, which seemed to be dripping from regretting the melting of the snow. Tears are normal.

"Mom, I'll go out for a while." Xu Xingxing shouted.

"Wear more."

"I see."

Xu Xingxing was forced by his mother to dress up like a ball, Xu Xingxing was very helpless, "Mom, I can't walk if I dress like this."

Xu's mother said without letting go: "Then go slowly and be careful."

Xu Xingxing looked at his mother's worried but careful not to show it, and finally compromised, letting his mother wrap him around and around, like a bear.

"Mom, why don't I go out?" Xu Xingxing said hesitantly.

Mother Xu's hand suddenly stopped, her eyes looked elsewhere, and then she said indifferently: "It's good to go out for a while, otherwise you will get moldy if you stay at home, and the winter vacation will be fun..." Mother Xu said while wrapping her clothes. Bear son.

"Mom..." Xu Xingxing felt a little uncomfortable looking at his mother.

"Okay, let's go." Mother Xu patted Xu Xingxing lightly and said with a smile.

Xu Xingxing went downstairs, feeling a little uncomfortable. Seeing that his mother was cautious and worried every time he went out, Xu Xingxing felt a little bitter in his heart. He knew why his mother would be so worried when he went out, but I don't know.

All he knew was that he seemed to be in a dream. When he opened his eyes, he was lying in the hospital with a blank mind. Looking at the people around him, Xu Xingxing's head was a little slow and dazed.

Until a familiar voice said: "Xing'er..." The voice trembled, as if there were countless emotions hidden.

Xu Xingxing thought about it slowly, as if he realized that everyone in front of him was his mother, Xu Xingxing moved his lips, "Mom..." The voice was weak and hoarse, because he hadn't spoken for a long time and made a groan. The trembling of the vocal cords began to have some discomfort.

"Son..." Tears rolled down the woman's face, and the emotions that had been hidden all along finally burst out uncontrollably.

Xu Xingxing didn't know why his mother was so sad. He wanted to stretch out his hand to comfort him, but he found that he didn't have any strength. When he raised his arm, he still trembled slightly, "Mom, why are you crying..." Xu Xingxing said in a weak voice with.

Xu's mother took her son's trembling arm and choked up: "It's okay, mom is fine, it's just... I'm very happy to see you wake up." Said Xu Xingxing and smiled.

The corners of Xu Xingxing's mouth curled up with difficulty, showing an extremely shallow smile, and said to the man next to him, "Dad, you don't want to coax my mother, just cry again, this is not a gentleman at all." He also showed a naughty and disdainful smile. Although the smile on his face was very difficult, the tall man who had been standing beside him suddenly had wet eyes.

Xu Xingxing hasn't smiled like this for a long time, and there hasn't been an expression other than a daze on his face for a long time.

The man said: "Well, it's all my fault, it's my fault." The bewildered and flustered look on the man's face was the first time Xu Xingxing saw.

Xu Xingxing asked: "What happened? Why am I in the hospital?"

Xu's mother and Xu's father were stunned for a moment, then smiled and said, "It's nothing, I just fainted suddenly, it's nothing serious."

"Oh, that's it," Xu Xingxing said slowly, with difficulty in uttering every word, "Why do I feel like I have no strength in my whole body." Xu Xingxing said with some puzzlement.

Xu's mother hurriedly said, "That's because you just woke up and you still need to recuperate for a while. It's okay, it will be fine after a while."

Xu Xingxing nodded, as if something was wrong, but he couldn't remember what was wrong.

Later, Xu Xingxing stayed in the hospital for many days, recovering little by little. Xu Xingxing only felt a little strange why he fainted, and why his body became like this after fainting. The functions of the body seem to be weakened.

Until one day, when Han Yang came to see him in the hospital, Xu Xingxing felt a little uneasy when he saw Han Yang, but Han Yang looked at him for a long time, but his eyes turned red, "It's fine, it's fine." But Xing Xing clearly saw him turning his back and secretly wiping away his tears.

Xu Xingxing asked Han Yang why he was hospitalized and how he fainted. Han Yang hesitated and said that he didn’t know, it seemed that he just fainted. Xu Xingxing was quite puzzled and wanted to ask something However, Han Yang babbled carelessly, taking the topic off topic.

Later, Xu Xingxing accidentally heard from the nurse on duty that he had been lying in a coma on the bed for nearly three months. Xu Xingxing wanted to ask the reason, but the nurse didn't say a word after seeing Xu Xingxing himself. Willing to mention it again.

Xu Xingxing felt that things were not that simple. Everyone said that he was hospitalized because of fainting, but no one mentioned the reason. When Mom talked about it, they all looked cautious and nervous.

Xu Xingxing recuperated in the hospital bed for half a month and then went home. The school was also on vacation. After returning home, Xu Xingxing still felt that something was strange, but he remembered that he had fallen into an infinite loop and couldn't think of anything. clues come.

It's just that every time he sleeps, he will be haunted by a continuous dream. He always dreams of a man in black and dreams of many messy and clueless dreams, which makes him feel strange.

Han Yang often came to see Xu Xingxing. Xu's father and Xu's mother were very familiar with Han Yang, and they were very grateful to Han Yang. They could see that this person really regarded Han Yang as a good friend, and they were very relieved of Han Yang.

Because of this serious illness, Xu Xingxing's body immunity is also low. The doctor said to be extra careful. Xu's mother is usually very careful. Since Xu Xingxing was discharged from the hospital, she has been recuperating at home. Xu Xingxing also knows that her mother is worried, so she doesn't go out much. In the beginning, it was because his body was lying on the bed for too long and he was very inflexible, so Xu Xingxing simply didn't want to go out.

But later, when his body recovered little by little, Xu Xingxing was afraid that his parents would worry, so Xu Xingxing would occasionally go downstairs for a walk until the doctor said that there was no problem after a long time.

Xu Xingxing walked downstairs, the air was a bit cold after snowing, but it was very fresh, Xu Xingxing raised his head and breathed, "Today is a good weather." Xu Xingxing murmured to himself.

Xu Xingxing squinted his eyes after seeing a slight movement under the greening tree, walked over, and saw a familiar figure as expected, Xu Xingxing squatted down, looked at the big dog in front of him, and said with a smile: "Hey, Why did I see you again, did you know I was coming, so you were waiting for me?"

The dog in front of him is a little thin and looks a little downcast. One foot seems to be injured, limping, and the body is also injured. Xu Xingxing felt it when he touched its body before. There is something wrong with this dog. There are many scars, and they are very hideous. Some of them can be covered by hair, but some cannot.

Obviously it is not a beautiful or even ugly dog, but Xu Xingxing thinks it is very kind.