The moon sleeps for you

Xu Yueliang has always known that he is an ostrich.

It is the kind of ostrich that buries its head in the sand because of timidity, fear of losing, and fear of the unknown, even though the facts are in front of it.

She has been like this for as long as she can remember, more than 20 years of her life.

For example, when she was six years old, her brother snatched her toy, which was a car that she begged her parents for a long time.She played for a short while, letting the car slide from uphill to downhill.Xu Yang picked up the car and said it was for boys.

So he took the car to the floor slab factory, rubbed it back and forth on the rough cement, and finally got stuck in the crack of the floor slab, and couldn't get it out no matter what.

Xu Yueyue struggled for a long time, until it was dark, and she returned home disheartened.

Mom asked her why she was so dirty, and said girls should not be so dirty.Xu Yueyue looked at Xu Yang, Xu Yang was presenting treasures to his father, jokingly begging his father to buy him the latest and greatest toys.Xu Yue said nothing.

Because what she knew was that her father would definitely buy it for Xu Yang, and what she knew was that her mother hated girls making noise.And if she accuses Xu Yang of stealing her things and destroying toys, she can't predict the result, she doesn't know what terrible things will happen.

For example, when she was 13 years old, she was in the first grade of junior high school, and Xu Yang was preparing for the senior high school entrance examination in the third grade of junior high school.

Parents were very busy at work during that time, and there was often no one to cook the meal at noon.My mother told her that my brother was going to take the senior high school entrance examination, so he had to concentrate on his studies.The Moon has grown up and can take on the responsibilities of being part of the family.

Xu Yueyue was very happy. She felt that this showed that she was useful, important, and powerful.So she started to learn to cook. At that time, the food at home was not rich. She learned it well. In front of the older brother of the TV.

In the past six months like this, Xu Yang didn't get very good results in the high school entrance examination, but he was admitted to high school after all.Mom said a few words, but Dad took it very seriously, saying that boys' grades will go up when they reach high school.

They are full of hope for the future. Boys are good at mathematics, physics and chemistry, and boys have stamina. Even if the grades are not good, a lively and active boy like Xu Yang is very smart. Buy a house with a car, and give it to the old Xu family to honor their ancestors.

Xu Yueliang felt that this might be the case, so in the next two years, she would cook when she could, and do housework when she could. The whole family had a common goal of cultivating Xu Yang into a talent.

In the past two years, Xu Yueliang also entered the third year of junior high school and was also facing the high school entrance examination.She found that the questions in the senior high school entrance examination were not as difficult as what Xu Yang said before, and she also found that Xu Yang watched TV when it was time to do homework, and went out to play when it was time to review homework.

Like Xu Yang, it is impossible to have good grades.

But Xu Yueliang is very good, Xu Yueliang will listen to the class and do his homework seriously.Xu Yueliang's Chinese and English are very good, and he can get the top three in the class.

Xu Yueyue wants to get the top three in her grade, she needs more time to study.So one weekend, she wanted to talk to her mother and ask if it was possible to hand over the housework to her brother, just as she had done for him back then.

However, that afternoon, mother was busy finding supplementary classes for Xu Yang, and father was busy talking with his son. They repeated countless times that high school was the most important time, and Xu Yang could not waste time.

So Xu Yue shrank back again, she felt that her request would probably not come true.Think that might be the way it should be.I think the parents may be a little biased.

But as long as she doesn't ask, she doesn't bring up this topic, and she doesn't conflict with Xu Yang, then there won't be a definite answer.

Then she can find many reasons and excuses to prove that she is still valued, loved, and has a happy family.

Another example, another example is when she was 16 years old...

Xu Yueliang went to high school, and saw Lin Qimian when he reported for duty on the first day.

At that time, she didn't know that Lin Qimian's name was Lin Qimian.

She just thought, how can there be such a good-looking person in the world, how can there be someone who is arrogant and cold, as sharp as a sword with a cold light.As soon as his eyes fell on her, he felt that his body was broken into neat pieces one after another.

Xu Yueyue looked at her and was stunned for a long time, until Lin Qimian walked through the corridor and disappeared around the corner.

Xu Yue felt in a trance all day, new school, new grade, new life.

During the class meeting, the teacher organizes activities and asks everyone to write down their wishes for the entire high school period.Like the people around her, Xu Yueyue wrote about studying hard to get into an ideal university.But when the tip of the pen slid across the paper, all she could think about was Lin Qimian's face.

That glimpsed figure.

If he could really make a wish, Xu Yueliang hoped that he could become like Lin Qimian.

She walks as she walks, with a clear direction and a clear goal.She never cared about what happened around her, nor did she care about whoever looked at her.

She is so selfish that Xu Yue can feel the strong aura of "I am me" just by looking at her.

It was the cowardly and cowardly Xu Yue, who never had it.

Then, for half a semester, she observed Lin Qimian.

In all the unknown corners, her ordinary figure can blend into any unnoticed corner.

She saw Lin Qimian's photo and name on the honor roll. At the school awards ceremony, she raised her head and tried her best to see Lin Qimian walking on the stage.

She listened to her speech as a representative, Lin Qimian's voice was diffused by the microphone, hanging above her head, and when she was surrounded by stars, it was still a handful of snow on the top of the mountain.

Xu Yueyue's heart was filled with bubbles, and Xu Yueyue couldn't help but clasped his hands in front of his chest, forming a prayer posture.

Anything related to Lin Qimian has always been above the most admired Xu Yueteng can imagine.

Whenever he sensed the distant aura belonging to Lin Qimian, Xu Yueliang felt his body and soul tremble together.

The students are chasing stars. When someone asks Xu Yueyue which star he likes, Xu Yueyue will feel happy and feel lucky.

The stars of others are in a more distant time and space, but her stars breathe the air of the same campus as her.

No, Lin Qimian is not a star, stars are not enough to describe Lin Qimian's brilliance, she is a cold sun to Xu Yueyue.

Xu Yue thought that she would look at her sun forever like this.

Until, when Xu Yang came to her to get something, from that excellent viewing angle, he saw Lin Qimian passing downstairs.

Xu Yang's eyes lit up, Xu Yang pointed at Lin Qimian, and asked, "What's her name? Do you know her? There are too many beauties in your campus!"

Xu Yueyue didn't say anything, but Xu Yang always got what he wanted in their house.He slapped Xu Yueyue's back with a slap: "If you don't know her, get to know her. Hurry up and give me her information. I want to chase her."

I want to chase her.

Xu Yueyue was stunned, it turned out that in the eyes of others, if one is interested in a classmate, they can chase her.

Xu Yang is a boy and Lin Qimian is a girl.It is natural and reasonable for boys to chase girls.

Xu Yueliang seemed to have nothing to stop him, just like Xu Yueliang couldn't stop everything that his parents gave Xu Yang.

Xu Yueyue stayed for a week, and when he was doing homework at home on weekends, Xu Yang brought a big bag of snacks over, threw them on her desk, and told her that as long as she helped him chase Lin Qimian, he would give her a gift every week. She buys snacks.

Xu Yang's grades are not good, and he is in the third year of high school. He is in another campus, so it is really not suitable for him to do this by himself.

Parents said that in Xu Yang's third year of high school, the whole family should work hard to create a perfect learning environment for Xu Yang.

Everything is for Xu Yang's college entrance examination, and the rest is left to the family.

Xu Yueyue agreed, and she asked Xu Yang: "How to chase?"

Xu Yang chuckled: "Of course you can think about how to chase after her. You little girls can give her whatever they like. Don't worry about the money. I'll pay for it. You just give me the man."

Xu Yueyue bit her lip, and answered after a while: "Yes."

She began to approach Lin Qimian in an open and aboveboard way - open and aboveboard in her heart.

She began to choose her favorite snacks, she began to write love letters to Lin Qimian one after another, and she followed Lin Qimian's trajectory in the limited spare time... Like a thief, she sneaked into the classroom of the upper grades, The things were stuffed into Lin Qimian's drawer.

At that time, everyone was doing this, and Xu Yue didn't think it was a problem.

She didn't sign the love letter, she thought, if one day Lin Qimian was really moved and was willing to reply, she would probably write a reply letter and keep it in her drawer.

This will allow the moon to be seen the next time it passes by.

But this probability is really too low, as low as a value of negative infinity.

And Xu Yueyue didn't want to make this number higher. She was happy when she was doing this, but the result of this matter would not make her happy.

She enjoyed this process, taking Xu Yang's money every week to buy gifts for Lin Qimian.

The more she wrote her love letter, the less it looked like a love letter, because she knew so little about Lin Qimian, she wrote it and it became her own diary, she said some nonsense, and handed it to a friend like the sun.

This is Xu Yue's happiest thing in a long, long time.

But this also became the thing that Xu Yue regretted the most after a long, long time.

Xu Yang's interest in Lin Qimian did not last long.After the college entrance examination, his grades were poor, and his father beat him up for the first time, and then used the family savings to send him to an expensive private school.

After entering university, Xu Yang didn't need to do homework, and he didn't need to be supervised by teachers and parents. There were so many things to play with, and he quickly forgot about chasing Lin Qimian.

This did not affect Xu Yueyue, Xu Yueyue continued her work, saved her own pocket money, and wrote her own boring letters.

Lin Qimian is one level higher than her, and will soon leave this school to go to a bigger and farther world.

Xu Yueyue wrote the last letter very seriously.She took advantage of Lin Qimian's class to take a group photo, and slipped into the classroom.

Lin Qimian's seat, stationery and books are always neatly arranged.

Xu Yueming buried her head in stuffing things, when someone entered the classroom and held her hand.

That was the first time Xu Yuet saw Lin Qimian so close.

It was like the radiance of the sun suddenly shone into her eyes.

She felt stinging and embarrassed.

She suddenly realized how stupid she was, and she pushed out all these stupid things in a panic, trying to escape from the light that she couldn't look directly at.

She said, my brother asked me to do this, and it's none of my business.

There seemed to be a big hole in her heart, bottomless and constantly expanding.

Lin Qimian did not make things difficult for her. On the last day of her high school career, Xu Yueyue ended all past and future contacts between herself and Lin Qimian.

She was an ostrich, and she quickly buried the huge event, filling the huge hole with whatever she wanted.

She went on with her life, and sure enough, as she expected, she didn't deserve a bright life.

She is timid, cowardly, she dare not jump out of the trap of the family, she is unwilling to admit that she has always been the one who was abandoned.

Xu Yang graduated from university and soon had a girlfriend.Dad is sick and he is going to marry his girlfriend.

Mom is incompetent, can't make money, and has to take care of sick father.

Only Xu Yue, Xu Yue can be sacrificed and can fulfill the happiness of others. He needs to take on all the responsibilities of the family in exchange for the so-called love and sense of value.

Xu Yueyue thought that this was the end of her life, but she met Lin Qimian again.

She met Lin Qimian again.

Xu Yueyue sat on the balcony, the wind bulged her coat and slapped her hair against her face.

She hugged the coat and hugged herself, tightening it tightly.

She met Lin Qimian again, she refused to admit that she met Lin Qimian, she only regarded her as Dr. Lin who pulled her teeth.

She enjoys her goodness, and she doesn't want to delve into it, and she doesn't want to tear up the tattered past. She thinks that there is such a beautiful person in her life, and she has seen it once and again, and that is enough.

But Lin Qimian refused to do this, she wanted to make it clear to her, she wanted to untie the scar between the two of them, and she wanted to be friends with her. the world in general.

She let Xu Yueyue see hope, she let Xu Yueyue see possibility, she realized Xu Yueyue's dream step by step, she was teaching Xu Yueyue how to be herself.

Xu Yueyue didn't feel that Lin Qimian didn't respect her. There was no one in this world like Lin Qimian who regarded her as an independent Xu Yueyue, a shining Xu Yueyue, and a precious Xu Yueyue.

It's just that the answer sheet that Xu Yueyue handed in was really bad. Every step she took to solve the problem was a wrong way of thinking. The miserable self she refused to hand in all of it finally spread out to her in a more shabby way. under the sun.

The scary thing is not, living in a hopeless world.

The scary thing is that when hope is in your hands, you fail the expectations of the people you care about most.

Xu Yueyue's face was in hot pain, Xu Yang's words, Lin Zixuan's words, and even Lin Qimian's concerned gaze towards her all hit her face like a whip, making her feel ashamed.

So she made another mistake, she used Lin Qimian's most unacceptable words to prevent Lin Qimian from approaching.

Just like turning away from the sun, darkness seems to be a matter of course.

But the sun has long since shone through every corner of her, but the sun has long since illuminated every corner of her.

Regardless of whether he can have Lin Qimian or not, whether he deserves to have Lin Qimian or not, Xu Yueyue at least wants to have a self that he can value.

Xu Yue got up and went back to the room.

Xu Yang sat on the sofa, he didn't know who he was texting, and he was typing very fast.

Xu Yueliang quietly walked to the dining table and poured himself a glass of water.

"Have you considered it?" She asked Xu Yang.

Xu Yang wrinkled his face: "Your sister-in-law and your nephew really need this money, I can't give them a penny and they won't be able to get it back.

"You definitely don't want to be like this, Xiaochun likes you so much.

"And Mom and Dad have called you several times, you can answer one, Dad's body is like that..."

"No need." Xu Yueyue interrupted him, "Mom and Dad are getting older, and now we are in charge, so we can discuss it."

Xu Yang: "Then we can't ignore their opinions..."

Xu Yueyue smiled: "Isn't their opinion your opinion? If you agree, they must agree."

Xu Yang: "Then I told you my opinion, I told you when I was in the car, the money is taken, we go home and live a good life, and you don't have to do this job anymore. Anyway, those rich people , not short of this little money, don't keep thinking about messing with them, we are not of the same class..."

"Whether I am in the same class as them, I will consider for myself." Xu Yue said, "Should you take this money, you should consider for yourself."

Xu Yang: "I have considered it, and this is the result of my consideration."

Xu Yueyue squeezed the cup tightly in her hand: "I'll let you think about it again."

Xu Yang: "I..."

Xu Yueyue suddenly slammed the glass to the ground, with a loud noise, the glass shattered into pieces.Xu Yueyue grabbed a piece casually, held it in his palm, and walked towards Xu Yang.

Xu Yang was frightened to death, he shrank back on the sofa: "What are you doing, you are like a lunatic..."

The room is so big, Xu Yueyue came in front of him in a few steps, she rushed over like a madman, suppressed Xu Yang with all her strength, and then pressed the broken glass to Xu Yang's throat.

"I'll let you think about it again." Xu Yueyue said, her voice trembling, but her hand holding the glass did not shake at all, "If you want to get this money, either I will kill you today, or you will stab me to death .You know what I'm living. I don't have much to live for."

"In the future, when you are in prison, your parents will do what you want, your wife and your children will be raised by whomever you love.

"Do you think I really care about you? Have you ever cared about me? How dare you push me to this point?"

The point of Xu Yueyue's knife went forward, and the blood slid down her hand to Xu Yang's neck: "Now listen to me and pay back the money. I will transfer all my savings to my parents' accounts Come on, they have nothing to do with me in the future, if you still want to get the money, just ask them."

Xu Yueyue smiled: "Anyway, you are their good son, and they will give you whatever you want."

Xu Yang was already frightened, his body was shaking, his eyes were staring, his mouth opened and closed, and he couldn't make a sound at all.

"Which one to choose?" Xu Yue asked.

Xu Yang held her arm with both hands, tremblingly raised them up, making a two-for-one comparison.

Xu Yueyue let go of him, and stepped back a few steps, blocking the direction of the gate.

She rushed to him and raised her chin: "Okay, now turn Lin Zixuan's money back the way it came from."

Xu Yang picked up the phone, his hands were shaking so much that he could hardly type.

Xu Yueliang thought about what else her brother could do to overthrow the current situation and win her.

Then she found that she couldn't figure it out.Normal people have many methods, but none of them work for Xu Yang.

Xu Yang was raised as a waste by their family. He neither had the responsibility to take on family responsibilities nor the ability to survive in this society.

The 3000 yuan he earned every month was not even enough for their family to eat.

This is real garbage.

Xu Yueyue laughed, she was really happy.She laughed out loud, laughing so much that Xu Yang didn't even dare to look at her, and just focused on transferring the money.

Xu Yueliang locked the door, walked up to him, threw the bloody glass on the table, sat down calmly, and said, "Okay, let's settle the score now."

The account was settled until dawn, and Xu Yueming listed the money that he had transferred to Xu Yang and his parents over the years, clearly and clearly.

After the calculation was settled, she tidied up the stack of papers, feeling that the sky was clear and the air was clear, and her breathing became clean.

"I won't let you pay back the money, but I reserve the right to pursue it." Xu Yueyue smiled, imitating Lin Qimian's expression unconsciously, and said contemptuously and indifferently, "Get out."

Xu Yang got out, Xu Yue started to tidy up the room, threw all the things Xu Yang had stained into the trash bag, and threw those sexy performance costumes that he had bought to please the male audience into the trash bag.

She moved out the oldest suitcase. In the mezzanine of the suitcase, it was the time when they went home two years ago. Their whole family got together and took a fake family portrait.

In the photo, she is smiling hard, playing the role of a sensible daughter and obedient sister.

Xu Yueyue threw them all into the garbage bag.

She just threw it away and sorted out a huge garbage bag.

She needed to drag it out, dragged it into the elevator, dragged it out again, dragged it through the lobby, and when she opened the door and pulled it backwards, someone grabbed the door handle and opened the door for her.

The bitter wind blows in, bringing with it the chill and fragrance.

Xu Yueliang froze there, all the numb facial features became sensitive, and all the coagulated blood began to flow.

She came alive just like that, she was just so dumbfounded.

"Doctor Lin..." She could only cry out in such a small way, tears poured out like boiling hot water.

"En." Lin Qimian responded softly, her voice was a little hoarse, like a pine tree falling in snow, "I received your message, and I think I have something to say to you face to face."

Xu Yueyue didn't move, her heart was beating so fast and painful, she couldn't move.

Lin Qimian grabbed the trash bag in her hand, and dragged it towards the trash bin in a familiar way: "Lin Zixuan, I will handle it, but I don't agree with you paying back my debt."

Xu Yueyue finally pulled back and followed Lin Qimian closely.

Lin Qimian's clothes were still the same as yesterday, Xu Yueyue didn't dare to look at her, but only stared at her black corners.

Lin Qimian didn't go to see her either, but said calmly: "As an adult, I have the right to spend on my own entertainment. If you think the gift of z92565611 has the nature of a gift from me as a friend, then the gift you gave me It's just a watch, and I've already returned the gift."

Xu Yueyue's gaze shifted and landed on Lin Qimian's wrist.

Lin Qimian wore that watch, which looked as good as a top-notch print advertisement.

With such hands, she lifted Xu Yueyue's trash bag and threw it into the trash can.

"I like this gift very much." Lin Qimian looked at her wrist, "So I stayed."

"As for the other so-called what you owe me, it's just my voluntary contribution when I pursue the person I like.

"Ms. Xu Yueyue, please respect me too."