After the divorce I married Admiral Alpha

Xiao Nian tilted his head when he heard his words: "I'm not drunk."

"Well, you're not drunk."

Li Fan carried him to the bedroom and put him on the bed.Even though he was drunk, Xiao Nian still sat with his back straight, put his hands on his knees, and stared at Li Fan as he helped him unbutton his clothes.

"Admiral, I will unbutton myself."

Li Fan glanced at him and let go of his hand.But Xiao Nian didn't continue to take off his coat, he still sat there, staring straight at the ground.

Li Fan had to squat beside him, looking at the ground with him: "What are you looking at?"

"There, there is a flower."

"Really? Roses?"

"No." Xiao Nian shook his head, "I hate roses the most."

Li Fan was taken aback for a moment, he was silent for a while, and then asked: "What kind of flower is that?"

"I don't know." Xiao Nian shook his head before taking off his coat slowly.Under the uniform is a simple white shirt, which clearly outlines his slender and graceful waistline.

He stood up and went to undo the belt around his waist.I don't know if it was because he was drunk, Xiao Nian's movements were even more elegant than before, for a moment Li Hui felt that he didn't seem to be drunk, but he became strange.

He recalled what his friend Ryan had said when he had just returned to Emperor Star.Ryan said how the nobleman O was perfect, how noble and elegant, but at that time Li Fan felt that the elegant O in his mouth, whose every move had to be calculated precisely, seemed to have no soul.

That day in the courtyard, he did not ask the question Xiao Nian wanted to ask.And I don't know if Xiao Nian discovered something, but Li Fan never discovered his beautiful but mechanical repetitive movements again until today.

As if he felt that he didn't speak any more, Xiao Nian blinked and asked: "Admiral, what's wrong with you?"

He was still standing there with his head slightly tilted to look at Li Fan.It was an angle that would make people feel weak. Omega leaned down and grabbed the hem of his clothes, with innocent and pitiful amber eyes: "What's wrong with you."

"It's nothing." Li Hui took a deep breath and smiled, "It's late, go to bed early."

He stroked Xiao Nian's temple hair, ready to leave.But the hem of the clothes was caught again, Xiao Nian stood still and asked: "Well, did I make you angry?"

"How could it be?" Li Hui said, "You will never make me angry."

Xiao Nian glanced at him, there was no expression on his face, he just sighed lightly.

He was originally standing by the bed with Li Fan, but now he suddenly moved away from Li Fan, and sat on the farthest chair in the bedroom to comb his long hair.

Li Hui was startled for a moment, walked over and asked, "What's wrong? Why..."

Before he finished speaking, Xiao Nian stood up and left the room.

Li Hui was dazed for a while, and it was the first time he understood why there was such a question of "why my Omega suddenly got angry" on Xingwang, and he was a little at a loss.

He wasn't angry, but Xiao Nian was... angry?Ignore him?Why?He didn't say anything wrong, did he?What should he do?Apologize?

Li Hui stood where he was, and began to quickly review all the words he had just said.The last sentence he said to Xiao Nian was "You will never make me angry." Then Xiao Nian ignored him.

But he is telling the truth!Why is Xiao Nian unhappy because of hearing this sentence?

Li Fan thought of several countermeasures, and walked out of the room in fear.Xiao Nian sat on the piano chair in the hall, his slender fingers pointing to the keys on the piano.Seeing that Li Hui came out, he pressed down on his wrist and played the first string.

It was followed by low and sad music. Li Hui didn't understand the music, but he could hear the sad melody.But in the sorrow, the tune is gradually rising, and the weeping sorrow is drawn to a halt, followed by stormy doubts and anger.

At the end, the doubts disappeared, the roar of anger faded away, and the tone dropped to the previous sadness again.But in addition to sadness, there is also a kind of strong despair. If you want to describe it harshly, it is like coming to the end of everything that cannot be redeemed.

His heart tightened, and when Xiao Nian finished playing, he said: "Is this some famous piece?"

Xiao Nian shook his head: "No. Is this just now... improvisation?"

He stood up and smiled again: "Just now, I suddenly had an inspiration."

That smile was just like the smile he used to have at work, but Li Fan could see that the smile didn't reach his eyes.

"Hold... sorry." Li Fan was a little nervous, "Did I say something wrong?"

"I'm not angry, I didn't lie, and it's not angry." Li Fan said carefully, "I won't be angry with you. I just feel very sad because..."

Xiao Nian raised his hand to stop him.He was silent, and after a while he said, "I'm not angry with the general."

"I'm angry with myself." He stroked the keys lightly, "Because it doesn't matter if the general tells a lie, no matter what the general does, I should support, understand, assist and assist."

"I shouldn't make the general worry about me. If the general is angry, I should deal with the troubles for the general. If the general is sad, I should make the general happy. It should be like this."

"But I like you. You promised me that you will treat me as someone you can rely on, not a boss. "

"Admiral is the only person I can rely on." Xiao Nian said, "That's what it should be, that's what it should be, that's enough."

"I seem to be...really drunk."

He shook his head and smiled: "How could I say such a thing... Oh, I'm sleepy."

"I'm going to bed, Admiral."

Xiao Nian waved to him and was about to go upstairs.Li Fan instinctively felt that he had to hold him back, and he did.

"Of course you can be angry because I didn't do well, and that's right," he said. Of course you can be angry with me."

"I will make mistakes, and you will be angry too. This is normal, isn't it? Why can't you be angry with me? It's not fair. We are a couple, right? So we are equal." Li Hui pressed his shoulder , "Last time you coaxed me, this time it's my turn to coax you. I want you to be self-willed, even if you ignore me, don't say 'it's okay' to me."

"...I was drunk today, so I'm already self-willed." Xiao Nian said in a low voice, "You don't understand anything at all."

"If you weren't drunk, you wouldn't have said these things to me at all." Li Fan hugged him gently from behind, "I think you can rely on me because you rely on me because I'm by your side, not because I'm by your side. I will show you the way at night."

Xiao Nian struggled for a while: "It's nothing different."

"I feel different. I know you are a very strong person. Sometimes I think, you have done everything for me, so what should I do for you? Because you don't seem to need me to do anything, I just need to be there for you. It's enough for you." Li Fan said softly, "But you promised me and stayed with me. I feel very happy, I think, you can still maintain your own appearance, but if someone makes you angry , if there is anything interesting, I am here, you can tell me."

Xiao Nian fell into silence again.After a long time, he said, "That's it."

"It's because the general is always like this that I'm angry." He pushed Li Fan away.

"The admiral always says things that can touch me, always does things that move my heart, and always tolerates me unconditionally like this--I will get angry because of a little thing!"

"It shouldn't be like this. I obviously thought it through. I can always be good to the general and be loyal to the general. I can give everything for the general. I don't need the general to do anything to me!"

"So you're mad because I said 'you'll never be mad at me'? I've said that before, I said I'm not going to hate you, I'm not going to be mad at you. You've never been like I cared so much today, because no matter what I said before, you didn't take it to heart, did you?"

Li Hui hit the nail on the head: "You didn't care before whether I would hate you or get angry with you, because you would help me no matter what. You are angry today because you really start to care about what I say, because of you,"

He paused: "Because now you really, like me."

Xiao Nian was speechless.He felt that it was really a mistake to drink, and his brain turned slower than usual, otherwise he would still be able to deceive Li Fan today, instead of Li Fan dissecting him here.

What Li Fan said was right, he really didn't care what Li Fan said in the past, because no matter what Li Fan said, he would always be by Li Fan's side.But because of drinking today, he lost control when he heard Li Hui say "you will never make me angry".

He was very happy, and felt that Li Fan valued him by saying this; he also felt that Li Fan was lying, which was a promise that was completely impossible to fulfill.He also felt panic, panic that one day Li Fan would be angry with him, and he would think of today, Li Fan once said to him, "You will never make me angry".

Xiao Nian once disliked his indecision in the past, but now he feels that he is no different from the past.The same hesitation, the same preoccupation, and the same care because of a casually spoken word.

He knew it was wrong, it wasn't a promise, it was just because Li Fan cared about him, he said that.He should have just laughed it off like before, but because of the damn wine, he heard it in his heart, so he started to panic, panicking about the loss of the future.

"I'm sorry." Xiao Nian could only say this in the end, "I really drank a little too much... I caused you trouble."

He walked up the stairs with some messy steps, and locked the door tightly.The light was turned off, Xiao Nian buried his head on the edge of the bed, reminding him over and over again in his heart.

He can give everything for Li Fan, he can like Li Fan, but he must not mix any deeper feelings.Otherwise, it will be like today, he will become weak, he will have doubts about Li Fan, he will feel wronged, and his correct judgment will be disturbed because of his personal emotions.

He is here first for Li Fan, and secondly for himself.

He cannot be capricious.

The author has something to say:

Xiao Nian is sad, because I really started to like the general, that's why I'm sad to provoke qwq

Li Li downstairs: I really owe you, why did I say that Xiao Nian likes me, why can't I learn how to coax people!I should say I like you and I am your licking dog!What have I done ah ah ah ah ah!

In fact, Li Li is still very careful.