After creating the vest, I joined the script team

Osamu Dazai thought about the existence of God a long time ago, but after thinking about it for a long time, he only felt sad, because God cannot commit suicide.

What does God think when he looks at this hell?What do you think about when you save someone?What do you think about when you are complained?

Osamu Dazai chose to give up after thinking about it for a moment. He has never seen God, nor does he believe in God.

So there is no need, no need to think about such intangible things.

Compared with this, he is more concerned about whether he can salvage what he wants in the dark.

Violence, death, instinct, ..., maybe he can find a reason to live in all the things put on and on the surface by the black party.

So, many years later, he still remembers that day.

Even if he forgot the exact time, Osamu Dazai still remembers the sky covered with clouds and rendering it with gorgeous colors.

"Where's Oda Sakunosuke your little boy?" He sat next to Oda Sakunosuke, lying on the table and asked.

Tagore is a newly adopted child of Sakunosuke Oda, and he doesn't look very old, at most fourteen or fifteen years old. Although he is very young, his fangs and claws look amazing.

Just like now.

"Puff, hahaha——Odasaku, look at him!" He couldn't help laughing as he looked at the angry boy in the corner of another table.

You are obviously very angry, but you deliberately avoid him, really, why do you want to do this?

If you say you are afraid, you will have more understanding, but if you say it is fear, you will lose some fear.

Osamu Dazai really didn't understand Tagore's thoughts, but he would not hinder Tagore, after all, he still remembered what Tagore said to him back then.

His kind had rejected him, and he still remembered it.

The coward who was stung acquiesced that the relationship between the two ended here, and he didn't plan to do anything except the occasional prank, but he didn't expect that his former kind would give him a big gift.

A gift that is obviously well-intentioned but full of malice.

Hugo...

It was a monster of goodness, loneliness, uncertainty, and divinity.

When trying to find the meaning of life that day, Hugo pulled him up from the river and praised him for being a good boy.

And after that?

He took people to his secret base on a whim, and the two became friends somehow.

Hugo will accompany him when he is lonely, and will comfort him with a smile, just like a lamp in the dark night, not hot but very reassuring.

"Dazai, I think today's sky is very beautiful." Hugo asked, "Would you like to see it together next time?"

"Okay." Dazai replied with a smile.

It seems that we can't try a new method of suicide tomorrow, after all we promised to watch the sky together.

Hugo couldn't understand what Osamu Dazai said most of the time, about death, about hope, about pain, and even his self-destructive self-loathing, Hugo couldn't understand everything.

But Osamu Dazai knew that because he didn't want Hugo to understand, Hugo didn't understand. This understanding and respect made Osamu Dazai couldn't help being nostalgic, and finally stopped completely.

It's not that Hugo can't understand Dazai Osamu's words, it's just that he is afraid that Hugo will understand.

If one day Hugo understands the meaning of his words, will he be disgusted with him and leave?

Thinking of this, he felt that he was too hypocritical, but he couldn't help but hope, it was extremely contradictory.

Osamu Dazai always feels that no one fully understands himself, has seen his bad nature, dark side, and his painful hysteria buried under the surface, but strangely, he feels at ease when he sees Hugo.

It was as if a terminally ill patient met his own good medicine.

Many times Hugo just listened quietly and looked at Osamu Dazai.

The eyes were bright and peaceful, as if they were not affected by Osamu Dazai's shadow at all.

Ahhh, this look is like a god watching believers, tolerant and peaceful, seeing through everything but accepting all darkness.

Sometimes Osamu Dazai doesn't know whether he is happy or sad.

How amazing it is to have a being that accepts all of him, but, but why is he so sad?

Osamu Dazai held down his beating heart, and began to wonder if something was wrong with him, otherwise why would he cry abruptly under Hugo's sight?

Sure enough, it was broken.

Thinking of this, he bid farewell to Hugo and left as if fleeing.

The war that was later called the Dragon Head War—no, or should I say the killing began.

In this short month, he finally understood why he suffered so much under Hugo's sight.

Because that person doesn't love himself at all.

How can someone who doesn't love himself love others?

So all the Hugos he saw were illusions?

No, no, Hugo was clearly watching him.

Osamu Dazai fell silent when he looked at the young man who was active on the battlefield, desperate to save the lives of others.

"Master Dazai, are we going out?"

"Are you a fool, can we beat each other?" Osamu Dazai stared at the figure intently, and asked softly, "Is the transcendent so easily defeated?"

Yeah, there's no way Hugo died on the battlefield, so why is he suffering more?

Hugo, who died around this time, was still his friend.

"But Dazai-sama, the leader has orders..."

Osamu Dazai turned his head and asked with a half-smile, "I remember you are my subordinate."

"Yes, it is."

He ignored his subordinate who was shaking like a quail, and turned his gaze back to the front.

Hugo, it is impossible for you to save everyone, do you understand this truth?

You get the point, so why come forward?

Too many doubts settled in the bottom of his heart, but he suppressed the urge to step forward and instead retreated.

That's fine, don't get any closer.

Thinking so, the coward curled up again.

Osamu Dazai saw Hugo for the second time at the end of the war. When he arrived, the area had disappeared, just like a space fault.

Osamu Dazai knew that it was Hugo's superpower Les Misérables.

He once heard Hugo tell him about his superpowers, but he didn't expect it to be so dramatic when he saw it.

Is this a superpower?

This is obviously pain and death.

Looking at the figure, Osamu Dazai felt in a trance that he could hear the sound of muscle groups tearing apart, ligaments breaking, and bones breaking, but that figure and Hugo didn't stop.

Just to save some irrelevant scumbags who even scarred the city, why did Hugo go to save people desperately?

The human body simply cannot bear that much force.

Osamu Dazai clearly understood this matter.

Want to come forward?Maybe it's not too late.

he asked himself...

Do you want it?Do you want it?

After hesitating for a moment, he still threw Yuan Ye away and rushed forward.

Hugo on the opposite side may not recognize himself. Will he kill all the creatures around him indiscriminately under such extreme pain?

Osamu Dazai didn't know if it would become like this, but he still went up.

He obviously hates painful death, but he can't watch the world (Hugo) crumble before his eyes.

I don't know how many injuries I suffered, but my whole body was wounded.

Fortunately, the person he was dragging out was still awake.

Osamu Dazai wiped off the blood on his face and complained, "Why are you messing around like this, doesn't it hurt?"

"No, it hurts. I feel like my nerves are so painful and numb."

"You deserve it, who told you to develop different abilities!"

"Heh..." Hugo coughed up a mouthful of blood leaning against the load-bearing wall of an unknown building on the street, "I can't help it, I heard someone asking for help."

"Hugo, you can't save everyone."

"I know, but I want to try."

"What about me?" Osamu Dazai asked aggrievedly and blankly, "Where did you throw me?"

Osamu Dazai thought that Hugo was the one who could pull him out completely, but it was a pity that Hugo gave up halfway and fell into a deeper abyss to catch the sunlight from it, even ignoring what he stretched out.

What is this, is he abandoned?

"Sorry, Dazai, you can get better, I know."

"Why do you have to apologize, why do you have to apologize! What do you know, you don't know anything at all!" At the end he couldn't help shouting hysterically.

If you want to save him, just fish him up completely, what's the point of giving up like this!

"You, you can do it yourself, I know." The young man's emerald eyes were completely closed, leaving only a slight lingering sound.

Osamu Dazai calmed down in vain looking at Hugo.

That's it, that's how it is.

"The way you look at me is not looking at a friend at all, but a god looking at your believers. You are a god."

Hugo, you are also tired, so you chose to leave in this way, right?

Osamu Dazai ignored the dead body next to him, and said to himself, "I thought you were a lamp in the dark, but you are not at all."

Who can stop the sun that is about to crash.

People who are attracted by the sun's brilliance of the crash can't do it, so does Osamu Dazai deserve it?

He deserved to salvage his own light in the sun.

The boy lowered his head blankly and said softly, "You won, Hugo."

You managed to kill Osamu Dazai and twist him into something else.