After creating the vest, I joined the script team

"Let me go, let go, I won't go! I want to go home!" Tagore wished he could hold the pillar and not move, but unfortunately, he was too young to reach the stone pillar next to him with his arms.

Regarding Tagore's refusal, Osamu Dazai said softly and coquettishly: "Don't - why don't we go have dinner together?"

Hearing this suffocating invitation, Tagore shouted without thinking: "I refuse, stay away from me, crazy!"

"No, no, no, I'm not crazy!"

"Dazai, why are you here?" Oda Sakunosuke, who came to pick Tagore home, looked at the boy who was holding Tagore forward, showing a surprised expression.

"Huh, Odasaku?"

Dazai Osamu glanced back and forth between Tagore and Oda Sakunosuke, and then showed a look of sudden realization, "This is Oda Sakunosuke's adopted person, no wonder... he really has it."

"Oh..." Oda Sakunosuke didn't respond to this strange compliment, he replied calmly and asked, "What are you guys doing?"

Osamu Dazai grabbed Tagore who was about to speak, and smiled at the corner of his mouth: "We plan to have dinner together."

"So that's it, you two have made friends." Oda Sakunosuke looked relieved, and he asked, "Why don't I lead the way, I just know there is a delicious curry shop."

Tagore stared blankly ahead.

"How did that happen?"

"Why!"

Instead of helping him beat the big devil, Sakunosuke joined forces with the big devil and shared the spoils (eating curry rice) together.

At this time, Oda Sakunosuke, who was determined by Tagore to share the spoils, asked, "Do you want Tagore to eat together?"

"Don't—" Tagore replied after taking a bite of the omelet rice viciously.

Oda Sakunosuke followed Tagore's line of sight and asked again: "I see you have been staring at Dazai, do you really want to eat together?"

"No! Why does Sakunosuke think I'm hungry just by staring at him?" Tagore asked while chewing his rice.

Oda Sakunosuke: "I think your eyes are very bright."

"Bright doesn't mean you're hungry, wait a minute, Sakunosuke, don't talk..." Tagore, who knew the essence of Oda Sakunosuke, said directly, "I'm just gnashing my teeth."

"Why are you gnashing your teeth?"

In Osamu Dazai's "Is there no dish soap flavored curry rice?" "Spicy" background music, the guardian and the cub started a sacred family meeting.

"Sakunosuke, you only ate dinner with me, but after seeing the kidnapper who took me away, you invited him to have dinner with him. The place to eat is still the delicious restaurant where we met!" Maomao meowed angrily. Meow's question.

That kind of déjà vu feeling like you raised another cat outside, and that cat is still my deadly enemy, but you invited that deadly enemy to our secret base to play.

Originally, it was just a cat expressing its dissatisfaction with the breeder and coquettishness that should not be taken seriously, but the breeder is completely clueless about the emotions of cats and cats.

Oda Sakunosuke stroked Tagore's head and comforted him, "Next time I invite you to dinner, just the two of us."

"I, I didn't mean that." With aggrieved and helpless expression on his face, Tagore looked at the person on the other table and finally obediently went up to say hello with his mouth pursed.

If he doesn't go up to say hello, I always feel that this dog Dazai can speak amazingly.

Well, definitely speak ill of him!

"Hiss, it's so spicy, it's killing me." Osamu Dazai tried to extinguish the spicy flame in his mouth with a small wind.

"It's useless for you to do this. Drinking ice water will relieve the spiciness." Tagore said so, asked the fat boss of the curry shop for a glass of ice water and handed it to Osamu Dazai.

He watched Dazai Osamu drank the whole glass of ice water with a "gulp", and approached him with a kind expression.

"I always feel that Tagore, you are afraid of me."

Osamu Dazai was obviously asking the question with a funny tone and an exaggerated attitude, but Tagore felt that his intuition was constantly sounding the alarm, a feeling of being entangled in the darkness and about to be pulled into the mud stimulated his whole senses .

It's really scary, isn't he obviously only 15 years old?The momentum is so terrifying.

When the matter came to an end, the emotions in Tagore's heart became silent instead.

He looked at the young man in front of him, and said with a complicated look on his face, "I'm really afraid of you."

【Hope】Looking at Osamu Dazai, I feel that I have seen something more terrifying than my reverse side.

"You are 'nothing', you have nothing in your heart, but you have been trying to pull others to fill your vacancy. I am afraid of you, afraid of being pulled in by you to become you after approaching you."

What is more terrifying than hope is not despair, but hopelessness.

Nothing, empty like a hole in the bottom of my heart, Tagore was like this when he was not "Hope", and Miyazaki Tomomori was like this.

So he doesn't want to be like Dazai Osamu no matter what, if that happens, Miyazaki Tomomori will lose even "hope".

He also wants to make Miyazaki Tomomori not so sad by sharing his emotions!

All the expressions on Dazai Osamu's face disappeared, his beautiful face was like a mask with exquisite workmanship, his eyes were as calm as stagnant water, but with a sense of depression, Tagore didn't do anything but just let him look at him like this.

After a while, Osamu Dazai laughed abruptly: "Puff, hahaha, that's how it is. I really don't know how you look like this."

"What's so strange about this? Don't people grow into different appearances in various environments? You are allowed to meet friends, but I am not allowed to meet them?" Tagore said angrily on the surface Hearing these words, he breathed a sigh of relief.

Osamu Dazai will not pester him again. After he expresses his clear refusal, the closest relationship between Tagore and Osamu Dazai is his fan friend.

This is the last understanding of the same kind for the former kind.

Tagore's heart was filled with an almost empty sadness, it was really sad.

Osamu Dazai, even your own kind rejected you.

It wasn't that Tagore didn't want to help Osamu Dazai, but that he didn't know how to help.

Tagore was pushed out of the darkness, and he staggered hard to live, making his every day poetic, just because he didn't want to change back to that appearance.

If he really tried to help Osamu Dazai, he would definitely be pulled back into the abyss.

【I want to be a sunflower born facing the sun. 】

For some reason, Tagore wanted to add this sentence to his diary.

After dinner, Osamu Dazai said goodbye and left.

Oda Sakunosuke opened the door and said, "It's rare that Dazai didn't pester you."

"Will he pester others?"

"Well, that's how he pestered Ango back then, I thought you two would make friends."

Oda Sakunosuke looked at Tagore and seemed to want to say something, but in the end he sighed and said, "If Tagore doesn't want to see Dazai, then avoid it next time."

"I will be careful."

And after that, the black mud spirit should avoid him more carefully than him, after all, he was stung.

Oda Sakunosuke: "Dazai just wanted to find a reason to live. He probably pestered you before because he wanted to find his own reason to live from your reasons for living."

Tagore lowered his eyes and said: "It's impossible, how can I get the reason for living from others?"

"Yeah, I can't find it at all, and he himself knows that Dazai just wants to get the strength to survive from others." Oda Sakunosuke looked at the complicated expression of the boy next to him and comforted him, "It's okay, Dazai knows it in his heart." .”

"What's the count? I once heard a person calling for help, but I clearly rejected him because of my own reasons."

Tagore murmured in a low voice, and after a while, he rubbed his face, said goodbye to the guardian, and returned to his room.

Compared with other things, Tagore wants to live more. This is the biggest difference between him and Miyazaki Tomomori, Hugo and others.

Although Tagore is selfish, he will experience this pain with empathy because of guilt, while Miyazaki Tomomori will ignore this pain.

If Hugo...

"If Hugo finds someone asking for help, even hell will go down to help him."

How about he introduce Hugo to the black mud spirit and ask Hugo to help him?

After sorting out his thoughts from the mixed emotions, Tagore opened and asked silently after processing a bunch of messages.

【Asuka】: When will you come tomorrow?

[Bai Ye]: Come and pick me up at ten o'clock.

[Asuka]: Didn't Mr. Higashino always say not to waste time on useless things?How come it's so late.

[World]: If you don't eat breakfast, you will get a stomachache. I told Keigo to have breakfast before coming back. Speaking of which, I heard that you don't seem to eat lunch either.

Tagore stroked his hair guiltily and said.

[Asuka]: I will remember to eat.

[World]: Well, I'm not forcing you, it's just that my stomach hurts, and it will be bad when I feel uncomfortable.

[Asuka]: It's really gentle.

Tagore hesitated for a long time, and finally sent the message.

[Asuka]: I met a person who is very similar to the previous 'me', Hugo, go and have a look if you have time, I am always worried that one day he will die alone in a corner where no one knows.

[Bai Ye]: You have rejected his call for help, why worry?

[Asuka]: Ahhh, I'm just a little selfish and a little bit guilty, I hope Hugo can help me if I have time to make me feel at ease.

[Bai Ye]: I don't understand, I don't understand at all. Selfishness means that when an individual faces a conflict between his own interests and the other party, he will ignore the other party's losses and focus on satisfying his own interests. If you are really selfish, you won't ask Hugo for help.

[Asuka]: So I'm still a good person?

[Bai Ye]: In a sense, you are indeed a good person. Sometimes I don't understand why you don't choose the optimal solution.

[Commander]: Indeed, Xiao Feiniao is a good person. He works hard and will not be angry when faced with sudden overtime. He is simply a good boy like a god.And Keigo, I also like your optimal solution, because it is very convenient to do things after all.

[World]: Alright, alright, don't discuss the optimal solution, it will be very tiring if you keep on like this, if you come to Yokohama, I will help take care of Asuka's friends, don't worry.

[Asuka]: That's not a friend!

[World]: Well, not friends (smile jpg);

[Bai Ye]: Don't stretch out, or you will be entangled in things.

[World]: It doesn't matter if you can make a person survive by entangled me.

[Bai Ye]: That's why you are in danger. Don't help anyone who is messed up!

[World]: I see.

[Bai Ye]: No, you don't understand at all!

"so good……"

Looking at the messages in the chat group, Tagore couldn't help laughing.

He didn't become Osamu Dazai, it's great to have the help and care of "myself" and the protection of his guardian.

It wouldn't be so bad to meet Osamu Dazai in this way.

Looking at Osamu Dazai and then looking at his own living environment, Tagore would feel a sense of satisfaction from the bottom of his heart.

Sure enough, contrast produces beauty.