Chase me and be responsible for me

Zhou Ze's mother's cemetery is on the mountain, and it takes at least two hours from the apartment.When Ruan Qiang was on the side of the road, he dragged Zhou Ze to choose a bouquet of lilies and prepared to take them with him.The two of them didn't talk all the way until they got down the mountain. Because Zhou Ze was driving unsteadily, the two decided to put the car on the mountainside, and they climbed up.

The mountain is not too high above sea level and can be climbed in less than an hour.The small steps leading to the mountain are made of stone, and maple trees are planted along the way.

"This used to be a tourist base, and the place under your feet used to be full of maple trees."

Zhou Ze walked up the last step panting, while not forgetting to introduce Ruan Qiang.When she finally stood up straight and saw a small piece of woods in front of her, her voice jumped up again, "There are still there, let's go and have a look."

Naturally, Ruan Qiang didn't have any objections, and let Zhou Ze hold her hand and walked over together, shoulder to shoulder.

That place is actually a maple forest. The maple leaves covered the road, layered on top of each other, covering the original color of the ground impenetrably. At a glance, it seemed as if it had been splashed with burnt yellow bee sugar, and lost the vitality of autumn. It is bleak, with the softness of the alternation of seasons.

"Before, every time I saw my mother, I would pass by here."

Zhou Ze's hand was a little cold, and he curled up holding Ruan Qiang's hand. Ruan Qiang noticed that she was cold, so he put Zhou Ze's hand into his pocket without saying a word, and the two continued to walk forward.

The road was covered with maple leaves, and Zhou stepped on them, listening to the crisp sound, with the person he loved the most at hand, so happy that his eyes narrowed unconsciously, and his whole body was full of comfort.

"So, every time I see the maple leaves falling, I know it's time for me to visit my mother."

Ruan Qiang felt a pain in his heart, as if being pierced by a fine needle.

She couldn't believe that Zhou Ze, who was working hard by herself, and Zhou Ze, who couldn't express all the joy and sorrow, how she persisted.

"Sister, stop talking."

Ruan Qiang looked at the people beside him, unable to hide the sadness in his eyes.

The wind on the mountain is actually stronger than the one down the mountain, and the rustling sound of maple leaves can be heard in my ears, and Zhou in front of me is wearing a white turtleneck sweater and a camel coat, with long curly hair hanging behind him, very Comfortable and casual attire.

"Don't be sad." Zhou Ze buried his chin in his collar, revealing half of his small face.Her eyebrows lost the sharpness of the past, only the gentleness she had when facing Ruan Qiang.

She said: "When you are sad, I want to be sad too, so you better not be sad."

The cemetery is surrounded by a circle of pine trees, with dense needle-like leaves, which are particularly conspicuous in the bleak autumn scenery around.

Ruan Qiang hugged the lily, followed behind Zhou Ze without saying a word, walked straight up, and then turned a corner before stopping.

It may be that I haven't been here for too long, and the tombstone is covered with dust.Zhou Ze first asked Ruan Qiang to put the flowers in front of the tombstone, then took out a handkerchief from his pocket, squatted there, although there was no expression on her face, her expression was very gentle.

"Mom, I haven't seen you for a long time." Zhou Ze followed the deep handwriting on the stone tablet and carefully wiped it with a white handkerchief.

"You should be doing well over there recently." After wiping the tombstone, there are other corners, Zhou Ze patiently wiped, "I don't have a mop bottle over there, and there is no him."

"You have a good personality, gentleness, and a warm heart. You must be liked by many people."

When she said this, the smile on her face never disappeared.

She has to reassure mom that she can take care of herself.

The tombstone had been wiped, Zhou Ze held a white handkerchief and put it in his pocket, stood up, followed Ruan Qiang's pace, and took a step forward, "I don't know how to call her, just remember that she is my partner. Anyway, I brought her back to see you, so I have met her parents."

"She's a very good girl," Zhou Ze said, taking a deep breath, as if making a difficult decision, "Mom, I'm gay."

"I know you might scold me, but you can't control me now."

"Her name is Ruan Qiang." After Zhou Ze finished speaking, he pushed Ruan Qiang's body, "Say hello."

Ruan Qiang hummed, with a serious look on his face, "Mom, my name is Ruan Qiang, and I am Ah Ze's girlfriend, and she will take care of her for the rest of her life."

When she said this, her mind was blank. The words she had organized in her heart were out of order. She only knew that what she could do now was to promise Ah Ze's mother that she would take good care of Ah Ze in the future. .

It was rare for Zhou Ze to see her frantic quarrel, and when she couldn't say anything, he couldn't help joking: "The ugly daughter-in-law doesn't know what to say when she sees her in-laws?"

Ruan Qiang asked confusedly, "What?"

"It was prepared when you came." When Zhou Ze said this, his eyes were full of joy, "When you came, you couldn't drive with trembling hands, so I drove it."

Ruan Qiang lowered his head in embarrassment, and couldn't help poking the people around him with his arm.

It's embarrassing to ask her not to talk so much.

Zhou Ze seemed to really feel it, but she didn't like it, and continued, "Let's not let people talk about it, who came to choose clothes in a hurry."

Ruan Qiang finally couldn't hold back anymore, "That's not because you said it was too sudden."

Zhou Ze pursed his lips and smiled, and focused his eyes on the tombstone again, as if they really came to see her mother, or as if they really complained to each other in front of her mother, revealing each other's truth.

After the joke was over, Zhou Ze sat down along the stone steps in front, without the airs of a big star at all.It wasn't enough for her to sit down, so she wanted Ruan Qiang to sit down too, but Ruan Qiang naturally refused, but she didn't force it.

"Actually, I came here today to give you an explanation."

What she said was actually a bit unclear, but Ruan Qiang knew what she was going to say.

Do you want to tell her how such a pair of years came here?

Ruan Qiang didn't dare to listen for a while, not because he was afraid of scaring himself, but because he was worried that Zhou Ze would say it, so he had to recall that time again.

Although she didn't stay in the circle for a long time, she saw more and more rotten phenomena. Those things grew wantonly in the dark, as if a big tree had broken down even its roots.

She didn't dare to think about how Zhou Ze got here in those few years.

How does a girl struggle with capital?

But on the other hand, her understanding of Zhou Ze made her want to hear this.

She wanted to understand all aspects of Ah Ze, and knew how to love her so as not to hurt her.

"In fact, before I was 15 years old, my family was happy and happy, my parents loved me, I studied well, and I looked good. It is not an exaggeration to say that I am the proud son of heaven."

When Zhou Ze mentioned this, the smile in his eyes was pure, and Zhou Ze could even imagine how high-spirited Zhou Ze was at that time.

Immediately afterwards, I heard Zhou Ze continue to say: "But then I don't know when, my father came back very late every night, and even for several days, I couldn't even see anyone."

She still remembered that on her birthday, her father, who had always prepared gifts for her when she woke up in the morning, was absent from her birthday for the first time.

At that time, she still didn't understand anything, and innocently asked her mother why she didn't see her father.

Mom seemed to be making breakfast at that time, and when she mentioned this, she just wiped her eyes with the back of her hand.

Dad came back very late that day, and didn't come back until she was about to fall asleep. His hair was messy, as if he hadn't washed it for a few days, and his clothes were dirty.

He told himself that he was going to earn money for a small dress for himself.

"Until the things in the house are emptied little by little, TV, sofa, all kinds of things." When Zhou Ze said this, he took a deep breath and slowed down. When he spoke again, his voice was a little Trembling, "You can buy small skirts, why do you need to use these skirts in exchange?"

Accompanied by the sound of speaking, Zhou Ze blinked, her slender eyelashes were wet, and with her movements, a crystal clear teardrop had already fallen down.

Zhou Ze stepped forward and held her wrist, wanting to give her some warmth at this time.

The teardrop was scalding hot, and it fell on the back of Ruan Qiang's hand impartially, making Ruan Qiang's heart ache uncontrollably.

Zhou Ze will never forget that day, when her mother was not at home, she watched the things in the house being emptied little by little, and the gangster who took the lead said such a cruel thing to the crying little girl who could only call her father.

That sentence was like the end of a good life, and it was pronounced that she would never go back.

He said: "Little sister, don't cry, these are what your father gave me."

Your father, give it to me.

Look, those pieces of furniture were originally a symbol of a happy life, but now they are torn down by a person who built them by himself.

But what makes her even more sad is that the father who used to put her on his neck and let her ride a horse when she was a child has completely disappeared.

"Later, we moved out from our original home and lived in a tube building. You probably don't know the environment of the tube building, with narrow and cramped corridors, dirty floors everywhere, and a dozen people sharing a kitchen and toilet. , The sound of mahjong all night made my nerves almost weaken."

"But at that time, I didn't feel sad, because I knew that even if I didn't have my father, I still had my mother. Until a film crew came to our school to pick a child star, I was naturally selected because of my good looks, and then I went to the film crew. "

"I thought that as long as I made money, my mother would be able to relax. Until my mother suddenly fainted and the doctor told her the diagnosis result, I felt for the first time what it was like to have the sky fall."

Hearing Zhou Ze's words, Ruan Qiang was already distressed. She stood in front of Zhou Ze, protecting her from the cold wind, while stroking her hair comfortingly with one hand.

The sky was still gray, and the wind on the mountain was still blowing Zhou Ze's hair. When Zhou Ze raised his head, his eye circles were full of red. The top of her head was resting in Ruan Qiang's palm, and her face was full of fragility, like A glass doll standing in the window, delicate but also has the risk of breaking.

She said: "I tell you this, not to make you feel sorry for me, but to say, I am not a doctor, and you are not Xiao Wu, you need me."

"I need you too."

The author has something to say: their love has always been mutual