Wear it until the scum A tortures the heroine

Xu Jinzhao was stunned for a moment.

She could understand every word the doctor said, and she could understand clearly, but how could Song Jiao be the core person in these orders?

She didn't believe it at all.

"Doctor, that's not right. My wife is not mentally ill. She has always been normal. We... grew up together and lived together for a long time. Would you like to watch the film again?"

In order to prove his statement, Xu Jinzhao also brought out [Xu Jinzhao]'s experience of growing up with Song Jiao, and asked the doctor to read the scans again.

She was also convinced that everything was normal for Song Jiao, and before going out in the morning, she joked with her about kissing her goodbye, and she had a sudden temper tantrum last night, so she had to make sure that her appearance was the type she liked.

How could such a lively person be implicated in mental illness?

It's not that Xu Jinzhao discriminates against patients with mental illness. She has some relevant medical knowledge and knows that it is a common disease just like various chronic diseases that humans are prone to suffer from.

After she fell into anxiety and depression, she also went to a psychiatrist, but considering the various side effects of the drug, especially extrapyramidal reactions such as resting tremor, she finally did not take it.

But that was Song Jiao, full of energy every day, joking and joking with her, occasionally willful and coaxed, but caring and caring for her.

Xu Jinzhao didn't think there was anything wrong with Song Jiao. Seeing that the doctor didn't intend to overturn her previous judgment, she asked again:

"Could the movie be typed wrong?"

She acted so positively, the doctor asked again seriously, confirmed that Song Jiao had no relevant medical history in the past, and then said:

"It's unlikely that there will be a wrong CT and MRI film at the same time. If you are worried, go to the imaging department and ask."

Xu Jinzhao felt that he had to ask again. If he really got the film wrong, it would be troublesome. After all, besides Song Jiao, there was another patient involved.

She found the imaging department of the hospital. The medical staff of Hwaseong Hospital were very serious and went to verify it immediately.

Xu Jinzhao was not willing to believe that Song Jiao really had some kind of organic disease in the brain, and decided that he had made a mistake in the film. He was a little annoyed, and even thought it was funny.

It was outrageous, she had to tell Song Jiao about it and make her smile too.

Unexpectedly, the hospital quickly responded: the film was correct, and the two brain scans were both Song Jiao's.

Song Jiao was the only patient who underwent both CT and MRI examinations due to concussion in the morning, and the other scans did not match up.

Xu Jinzhao seemed to have been poured cold water on her head. Standing where she was, she felt that the temperature of the hospital's air conditioner was turned on so low that it made her feel chilly all over.

She seemed to have returned to the moment after she heard about Song Jiao's car accident, her mind was in a mess and she couldn't find a clue.

Xu Jinzhao found the doctor who was in charge of Song Jiao. Without her previous confidence, she was in a panic.

"Doctor, my wife and I did grow up together. Her parents stopped being with her a long time ago. We have lived together for several years. I can confirm that she has no experience in psychiatry and her daily behavior is normal. , very normal. How could she have a brain lesion?"

The doctor also found it strange, his attitude was extremely gentle, he was not impatient because of Xu Jinzhao's tossing back and forth, but re-read the two scans.

Xu Jinzhao was extremely nervous. She asked, "Will it endanger her life? What should I do?"

The doctor could not give a definite answer: "It will not be directly life-threatening, but if the patient does not have a history of mental illness, it may be born with abnormal brain structure."

He pointed out several parts. Xu Jinzhao is not a medical professional, so he doesn't quite understand what is related, but the other party's conclusion is very clear.

"...Theoretically, these would interfere with the patient's cognition of emotion and regulation of social behavior."

Xu Jinzhao asked, "Can you be more specific?"

The doctor was a little hesitant. He considered the words: "In daily life, common phenomena, such as not easy to empathize with others, lead to seeming lack of empathy, indifference, and not often upset about their own behavior, etc. But human beings The brain is very complicated, and it cannot be said that it will definitely be so.”

The doctor's statement is already very implicit, he only uncovered the tip of the iceberg, carefully speaking about possible empathy obstacles and lack of guilt.

This is a term that is relatively easy to accept.

Considering that the female Alpha in front of him repeatedly emphasized that his wife’s daily performance was normal, in order not to irritate her, the doctor did not mention the possibility that the patient was disguising, and at the end emphasized the complexity of the human brain mechanism.

Although the doctor was very tactful, his words were enlightening and made Xu Jinzhao think about many things.

She thought of the "sense of performance" that she had vaguely investigated, thought of the many strange things in Song Jiao's life that she had been ignoring, and thought of Song Jiao asking her blankly:

I don't know how to return your emotion.

Xu Jinzhao said to the doctor, "Thank you."

She took the two scans that the doctor took off from the viewing light, put them back in the plastic bag, got up and left.

Xu Jinzhao was walking in the corridor of the hospital. There were people in wheelchairs being pushed by their families, some with their injured arms in plaster casts, queuing up to pay bills alone, some anxiously waiting for the test results, and sick children waiting for their parents to wait. There was a slight cry in my arms...

She walked through it, and there was an index map of the hospital at the corner, one building at a time, breaking down each area and giving instructions.

Xu Jinzhao stopped in front of the index map and saw the words of various departments and wards representing various physical diseases. Finally, she let out a long breath.

At least, she thought.

At least Song Jiao didn't have these difficult diseases, she didn't need chemotherapy, dialysis, or surgery.

The lost strength and soul gradually returned to Xu Jinzhao's body.

This is indeed the truth. There are so many patients coming and going in the whole hospital, and how many of them are tortured by physical diseases.

In any case, Song Jiao has at least got rid of the fate of dying before the age of 40, and she still has a long life to live.

As for those, sympathy, guilt, what kind of messy normal human emotions, if you don't have it, you don't have it.

What's more, Song Jiao really doesn't have these?

In the confusion caused by the concussion, she kept repeating that she couldn't tell herself about the car accident.

"Don't tell Xu Jinzhao, she's busy..."

Song Jiao's feeble murmurs sounded in Xu Jinzhao's ears again.

She trusts more in what she sees and hears, in her daily observations.

No matter what happened in the past, Song Jiao is indeed fresh and lovely now, and her concern for herself is not fake.

How stupid is a person to deny the authenticity of the behavior of the person he cares about just because of two brain scans?

Human emotions are so subtle that they cannot be roughly summarized into chemical reactions and physical phenomena, at least they will not be dismantled in this way at present.

She chooses to trust her intuition.

When Xu Jinzhao returned to Song Jiao's ward, Aunt Li had just come out of the bathroom. She said to Xu Jinzhao:

"Xiao Song vomited badly just now. She said she was thirsty, but I didn't dare to let her drink water."

Xu Jinzhao hurried into the ward and saw that Song Jiao's hospital bed had been rolled up. Omega was wearing a hospital gown, with a pillow on his back, leaning on the raised half of the bed.

Song Jiao's face was still pale, but her expression became much clearer. She was surprised when she saw Xu Jinzhao, as if she wanted to speak.

Xu Jinzhao stopped her: "Don't worry about talking."

She sat on the small stool by the bed, took Song Jiao's hand, and held the little hand that was still cold in the midsummer.

Song Jiao turned her head and looked towards Xu Jinzhao slightly, her gaze remained on her face, as if she couldn't get enough of it.

Xu Jinzhao felt a little sore and sad, and said softly, "I've come a long time ago. You were in a car accident, and Yu Lan called an ambulance to bring you here. I asked her to finish the transcript and go back to the company to keep an eye on you. Just rest here and observe for a few days."

Song Jiao's fingers moved in her palm, held it lightly, and squeezed again.

Her voice was very small: "You divided my good luck in half, I'm fine."

Xu Jinzhao didn't realize it at first, but after two seconds, he realized that Song Jiao was talking about the parting kiss and that she was joking about giving her good luck.

The pain in her heart became heavier, and she didn't feel that there was anything wrong with Song Jiao, so she leaned over slightly and kissed Omega on the cheek again.

Xu Jinzhao's long hair was tied into a ponytail, and with the movement of leaning over, the braid slipped down the back of his head.

When she approached, the tail of her hair brushed Song Jiao's collarbone slightly, and a warm and soft kiss slowly fell on her cheek.

Song Jiao felt her heart speeding up, as if something sprouted from the invisible, but because of the discomfort in her brain, she was involved in a burst of physiological dizziness and nausea.

She held back her discomfort, but let go of some kind of fleeting inspiration.

Xu Jinzhao sat up straight again, and lightly put the other hand on the back of Song Jiao's hand: "Then I will give you all the luck, and you will get better soon."

Song Jiao was still a little dizzy, but she couldn't help but raise the corners of her mouth a little, and only joked in a low voice when the feeling of vomiting stuck in her chest faded away.

"Then what can you do? If you give me all your luck, what should you do?"

She spoke very slowly, stopping after a few words, and when she finished speaking, Xu Jinzhao said, "It's just a little less luck, but it doesn't mean you will be unlucky, right?"

Such a cunning statement made Song Jiao laugh again, and she said, "I'll take a good rest, you can go back."

Xu Jinzhao said: "I will accompany you again."

Song Jiao shook her head slightly and insisted, "Go back."

She even took the initiative to let go of Xu Jinzhao's hand, retracted her hand to her side, and turned her face away, not looking at her anymore.

Song Jiao knew very well that Xu Jinzhao attached great importance to Wanwutong. This was the other party's current focus. She only had a slight concussion, and she wasn't about to die.

Although she really wanted to have Xu Jinzhao by her side, she thought of the annoyance and helplessness she felt when she couldn't get up and go back to the company immediately. If she let the other party stay, Xu Jinzhao must also miss Wanwutong.

She couldn't implicate Xu Jinzhao and let her waste time in the hospital needlessly.

Xu Jinzhao looked at the Omega who was stubbornly avoiding his sight, and suddenly realized that this was almost a move to subvert Song Jiao's previous behavior pattern.

She should have acted like a baby and screamed for pain, asked her to accompany her, and pestered her not to leave. She should have only cared about her own interests and didn't care about other people's thoughts and difficulties.

Xu Jinzhao can't count how many times she has been willful and stalking in the past, but the kitten who was originally the most inhumane, is now sick and drives people out, refusing the company she offered.

Xu Jinzhao said softly, "Then I'm leaving?"

She saw Song Jiao's fingertips move slightly, and Omega finally turned his head again and looked at her.

Xu Jinzhao saw reluctance and urging in the other party's eyes.

She felt all kinds of unspeakable emotions lingering in her heart. At first, it was hatred for the world mixed with bitterness, and hatred for why she gave so much suffering to the people in front of her.

On the contrary, the back is filled with countless positive emotions. For Song Jiao's precious feedback to herself, the beautiful kindness released to her by this physiologically judged personality who can maintain selfishness with confidence makes Xu Jinzhao feel that his soul has been washed.

"You are not indifferent at all."

After blurting out this sentence, Xu Jinzhao realized that she had made a slip of the tongue, which was too abrupt. She avoided Song Jiao's gaze and only said firmly:

"You're fine, really fine. Take a good rest, I'll go first, and I'll accompany you at night."

Xu Jinzhao turned and left, but Song Jiao fell into deep doubts.

Her mind was not fully awake, and her overall condition was not good, but what Xu Jinzhao said before leaving was obviously abnormal.

Aunt Li was originally outside the ward, leaving space for the two of them, and only now came back in.

Song Jiao whispered, "Auntie."

Aunt Li felt distressed when she saw her pale little face, and hurriedly asked, "Are you thirsty? I'll give you a drink with a spoon."

The doctor told her not to give her a big gulp of water for now, Song Jiao emptied the contents of her stomach, and had been talking about thirst since just now, but Aunt Li only dared to let her moisten her mouth.

Song Jiao shook her head, and she asked, "What did Xu Jinzhao do before?"

Aunt Li told her: "It seems to be showing a CT film to the doctor, and I went there for a while."

Song Jiao was thoughtful, and she asked again, "What did the doctor say?"

"Xiao Xu didn't tell me, don't worry, it's fine." Aunt Li thought she was worried about her condition, and comforted her.

Song Jiao nodded and said nothing more.

When the doctor came to make rounds, Song Jiao had recovered a lot, she was no longer so weak, she could sit normally by herself, and her voice became strong again.

After the doctor finished asking about the situation, she said to Aunt Li, "Auntie, I really want to drink milk. Go and buy me a bottle of milk."

Aunt Li looked at the doctor, and the doctor said: "Since you don't vomit anymore, it doesn't matter if you drink some milk. You can also eat properly. Remember to keep it light and don't eat greasy food."

After getting the permission, Aunt Li had no worries and happily went to buy milk.

This ward in the southeast corner has a total of two beds. Another patient just left the hospital in the morning, and Song Jiao is the only one present.

She stopped the doctor who was leaving too.

"Doctor, wait a minute, I have something to ask you."

Before Xu Jinzhao left, he did not take the two scans with him, but gave them to Aunt Li, who put them in the locker.

After Song Jiao got better, she asked her aunt to bring the film, but of course she couldn't understand it, and now the plastic bag containing the film was hanging beside the hospital bed.

After sending Aunt Li away, she took off the plastic bag, took out the CT scan and MRI scan, and handed them in mid-air.

"Please take a look at these two films."

The doctor took the scan, and he had already forgotten about the female Alpha in the morning and what she asked.

With so many patients, it is impossible for a doctor to write down all the details in detail, and he will also review the inpatient medical records for comparison during ward rounds.

But Song Jiao's situation is quite special. As soon as the two films came into view, he recalled the previous events.

The doctor couldn't help looking at Song Jiao again. The female Omega patient in front of him had behaved well during the conversation just now, and she was a well-educated young man with clear logic.

Just looking at the behavior is indeed normal, the expression does not have the stiff and dull expression that mental patients often have, and he is acting like a baby to the middle-aged woman who is accompanying the bed, begging for help.

Song Jiao asked softly, "There is something wrong with my brain, right?"

Her voice was not loud, and her expression was calm. Although she used a questioning tone, she was determined.

The doctor was stopped by her question for a moment, but he didn't know how to answer.

After handing the scan to the doctor, Song Jiao kept her gaze on the other person's face, carefully observing his reaction.

The doctor got the film and obviously recognized it immediately. He had an impression of the two scans, and then looked up at her, as if comparing the real person with the brain map scanned in the film.

At this time, Song Jiao was [-]% sure that her guess was right.

After Xu Jinzhao left, her mind gradually became less chaotic, and she thought over Alpha's two words over and over again.

The core keyword among them is indifference.

Xu Jinzhao asserted that she was not indifferent. This sentence was obviously said impulsively, as if to refute something.

Song Jiao thought that it was likely that someone said she was indifferent not long ago, and Xu Jinzhao responded to this comment from a distance.

The two of them separated only in the morning, and Xu Jinzhao's behavior from last night to this morning showed nothing unusual. She is not someone who can hide things from her, and this thing must have happened after she left home.

And now that she was injured in a car accident and was staying in the hospital for observation, with Xu Jinzhao's character, she shouldn't be distracted thinking about her attitude towards people at this time.

Unless it is greatly stimulated.

Indifference, mental state, CT film, Song Jiao just combined a little association, and there was an inference.

There may be abnormalities in her brain CT, and the direction of the abnormalities is related to her psychological state. Someone deduced her problem based on the scans and disclosed it to Xu Jinzhao.

Song Jiao had consulted relevant information, and her emotional cognitive impairment had already appeared when she was a child. This is obviously not a complete acquired factor, but a physiological one.

At that time, she vaguely realized that her brain was not normal.

The person who pointed this out to Xu Jinzhao through the CT image was most likely her attending doctor, and the other party would certainly not have malicious intentions, and there should be some misunderstanding.

Song Jiao's question has her own considerations, she needs to get an accurate answer, whether things are as she thinks.

So she didn't make any detours, and asked the question directly. Before the doctor gave a reply, Song Jiao got the answer from the other party's temporary silence.

She said: "You don't have to answer, I understand. Can you tell me, how did you tell my wife? Please tell me the details, it is very important to me."

Song Jiao's voice was earnest, her face was half-truthful and tired, she had to get the details.

Xu Jinzhao left the hospital this morning, and before he arrived at the company, he received a call from Yu Lan.

The hit-and-run driver turned himself in. That person drove on the road without a driver's license. After the rear-end collision, he tried to find Song Jiao privately, but Song Jiao fell into a coma and couldn't wake up no matter what.

He panicked immediately, his mind was confused for a while, he returned to the car and drove away, trying to find someone to cover the bag.

But the road where the accident occurred was at an intersection, and he tossed about getting out of the car and getting in the car. His face was captured by the surveillance camera, and he surrendered under the persuasion of his family.

Xu Jinzhao really hated this person so much, seeing that Song Jiao passed out and didn't call an ambulance in time, and Yu Lan, who lives in a nearby apartment, just happened to be passing by for work, so she immediately called for an ambulance.

Fortunately, it was only a slight concussion. If the injury was really serious, the rescue time would be delayed.

Yu Lan: "This mentally retarded thing, I called the lawyer just now. Song Jiao's condition may not be able to determine minor injuries, but he committed suicide driving without a license, and found that Song Jiao escaped in a coma. Although he turned himself in, it was enough for him. Detention for a few days."

Xu Jinzhao was annoyed at first, but when he heard Yu Lan greeting the driver in Juzhou dialect, he was afraid that she would take the initiative to ask the lawyer, and [-]% of his anger dissipated [-]% of his anger.

She said: "Stop scolding, I'll go to the traffic police, and you send me the list of expenses for Song Jiao's examination and hospitalization."

Xu Jinzhao took a taxi to the traffic police team, and the perpetrator was already detained. The other party cried with snot and tears, and promised to pay for the medical expenses and pay compensation.

After dealing with these matters, it was past noon when we returned to Xinhu Square. Jiang Chao asked her, "Why are you back? Is Xiao Song seriously injured?"

After Xu Jinzhao finished speaking truthfully, Jiang Chao, like Yu Lan, criticized the escaped driver, and blazed out the words like a machine gun.

Xu Jinzhao's residual resentment was wiped out by the various dialect insults from the two real Juzhou people.

"Oh, that's fine, I'll get rid of the backlog in the morning and go to the hospital to accompany Song Jiao at night."

She made up her mind, Song Jiao's mind was delicate and sensitive, and now she was injured and lying in the hospital, she wanted to spend as much time with him as possible.

Xu Jinzhao put aside all the thoughts triggered by the two scans. The emotional side of her character often troubled her, but now it helped Xu Jinzhao stabilize her mind.

Get rid of his fucking reason, get rid of his **** medicine, in her eyes Song Jiao is just as good as ever.

Taking a step back, even if Song Jiao is really a cold-blooded kitten, what she does is a disguise, so what?

Song Jiao no longer needs her protection, but still clings to her side. Isn't this more convincing than any cognizable emotion that exists in consciousness?

Song Jiao cared about her, she cared about Song Jiao, there was nothing wrong with it!

At the end of the day's work, Xu Jinzhao didn't take dinner seriously. She didn't care too much, so she bought two sandwiches for dinner.

Xinhu Plaza was very close to home, so Xu Jinzhao went back to change clothes, packed his toiletries, and rushed to Hwaseong Hospital again.

The night is dark and the lights are on.

When Xu Jinzhao arrived at the hospital, she didn't have a escort certificate, but the guards in the ward were not very strict, so she entered the ward floor after a few accompanying family members who had returned from cooking.

Song Jiao was eating dinner, and the table was set up on the hospital bed, while Aunt Li was babbling about her.

"The doctor won't let you get out of bed, so just stay on the bed obediently, how can there be so many people who can't sit still..."

The door of the ward was open, and Xu Jinzhao slowed down.

She saw Omega resting his chin in one hand and holding a spoon in the other, looking down at the takeaway porridge bowl with his head down, with a look of lovelessness.

Aunt Li: "Don't play with the food. If you stir it again, it will be cold. Drink it up. You're as thin as a cat, and you're picky eaters. Be good, and I'll make casserole porridge for you when I get home..."

Xu Jinzhao heard Song Jiao say, "Xu Jinzhao must be eating hot and spicy food outside, but I want to drink pot water."

Xu Jinzhao: "?"

Wrong, she ate sandwiches for dinner and forgot to buy water, almost choked to death.

Aunt Li: "Nonsense, this porridge is a bit watery, and it won't be a pot of water."

Song Jiao: "Xu Jinzhao is sure..."

Xu Jinzhao could no longer let the bad-hearted kitten slander his personality, so he coughed loudly at the door.

Song Jiao looked up, her eyes instantly brightened.

She pushed the porridge bowl and said sweetly:

"Honey, you're here! Have you had dinner, do you want some porridge?"

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Jinzhao: My wife really lacks a sense of shame (sigh