I am not a good person

Feng Yueyi rolled his eyelids a few times, and finally opened them slowly. When he saw Zhao Zenian's face clearly, he said, "Are we... all dead?"

"No!" Zhao Zenian simply didn't know how to describe his current feeling, and it would not be an exaggeration to say that it was lost and recovered: "We met the kind-hearted Uncle Zhang's family, they saved us!"

When Zhang's family heard the movement outside, they came in one after another.

Mrs. Zhang saw that the food was almost finished, and said, "This little brother is hungry too, I'll go get some more food!"

Zhao Zenian thanked Feng Yueyi loudly.

Feng Yueyi was seriously injured, Zhao Zenian could still move around, but he could only sit. Zhao Zenian blew the soup cold, fed him mouthfuls with a spoon, and then fed him steamed buns and vegetables.

Feng Yueyi had a mediocre appetite, and stopped after eating half a steamed bun.

Zhao Zenian put the bowl back on the table, moved it back to the bed, looked at him deeply, and asked, "Tell me, what were you thinking at the moment you jumped off?"

Feng Yueyi blinked and looked back: "If I say it's instinct, would you believe it?"

Zhao Zenian's nose was a little sore: "I believe it!" Instinct is more precious than the feelings we have for each other!

"Zenian, I'm afraid you will be disappointed."

Zhao Zenian was taken aback: "What?"

Feng Yueyi lowered his eyelashes: "My love for you may not be love."

Zhao Zenian's heart was empty: "What did you say?"

Feng Yueyi raised his eyes to look at him: "After my parents passed away, I could only rely on my adoptive father and treat him as my only family member. Later, when I came to the shore, no matter what I did, I was the only one there. It was really lonely!"

"Remember that time I got poisoned?"

Zhao Zenian nodded.

Feng Yueyi shed two lines of tears: "I was really going to die that time, and I even saw my parents come to pick me up! But before I died, you were by my side, you hugged me and comforted me. At that moment, I was actually very sad. I can't bear it!"

He stretched out his hand to hold Zhao Zenian's two fingers: "I was fed poison at first, but I thought I would die if I died. I did my best, and the family can be reunited down below. But in your arms that night, I suddenly feel a little bit reluctant, I want to live!"

"I wonder if you can understand?"

Zhao Zenian's lips moved.

Feng Yueyi lowered his head, and tears fell on the back of Zhao Zenian's hand one after another: "I really like you, even if you said that you also like me later, I feel uneasy, and I am always worried that you will abandon me."

He exerted a little force: "I can feel it, you have many secrets, I don't blame you for not telling me, I am only worried that one day you will not need me. I am not afraid of death, I am only afraid that one day no one will want me! "

Zhao Zenian took a deep breath, and in turn took Feng Yueyi's hand in his, "I understand, I really understand."

Sometimes feelings are not important, whether it is love, friendship or family, what is important is that no matter what happens, there is always someone by your side who will never leave you, and you will never want to leave him.

Feng Yueyi's eyes were a little erratic: "Do you really understand?"

"Yes, I understand." Zhao Zenian said deeply, "Yueyi, what you said is the promise of life and death, the dependence of life and death!"

Zhao Zenian avoided Feng Yueyi's wound, took him into his arms, put his chin on the top of his head and said, "Yueyi, I told you once, I also died once, I was worse than you, I never saw it My mother who died of illness came to pick me up. After I came back to life, I always felt that something was missing, and you filled the void in my heart, do you understand?"

"That night in Guanjiang Tower, I confessed to you from the bottom of my heart. At that time, I thought, as long as Feng Yueyi doesn't leave me, I will never leave him for the rest of my life. I will accompany him to do what he wants, and I will do my best. Protect him!"

Hearing this, Feng Yue raised his head abruptly.

Fortunately, Zhao Zenian dodged quickly, so he didn't hit his chin.

"Zenian, is what you said true?"

"As for Xu Yuan, I accepted the order, so what I said was true and false. Is it necessary for me to lie to you?" Zhao Zenian gently wiped the tears on his face: "Now that we survived, wait Go back and finish your and my affairs separately, and I will take you back to Guanjiang Tower, okay?"

Feng Yueyi looked very pleasantly surprised. It seemed that he really didn't feel safe before, even though Zhao Zenian said his confession.

"Uncle He treats me very well, better than my own father treats me. I thought about it, let's adopt a child, so that he will be happy, and we will have someone to take care of me, okay?"

Feng Yueyi nodded with tears in his eyes: "Whatever you say, it's fine!"

Zhao Zenian disagreed: "Yueyi, we are together regardless of each other, no matter whether you are superior or inferior, you can speak out what you think. When I make up my mind to stay with someone for the rest of my life, I hope that person will be happy soon." I want to live my life happily, instead of needing to endure anything.”

Feng Yueyi was very moved by his last words: "I'm serious, it's really good!"

Zhao Zenian closed his eyes and smiled. Since his rebirth, he seemed to have never smiled so openly.

"Zenian, I don't think I know you well enough. You are mature and steady when you handle things, and you have a special way, but..."

"But what?"

Feng Yueyi showed a little doubt: "Since the two of us were together, you have become more and more relaxed in front of me. I didn't say it was a bad thing, but..."

Zhao Zenian understood what he meant, and said with emotion: "I used to have no caring people! Uncle He loves me, but he is always the elder, and I can't always agree with him. I don't want to disobey him, nor I wronged myself. It's different now, you'll understand me!"

Feng Yueyi smiled instantly, blushing on his face: "I'm like you, my adoptive father is strict, and I can only hold my words in my stomach."

"Oh... no wonder I only ate half a bowl of rice, so I have been holding back a lot of words here!" Zhao Zenian poked Feng Yueyi's stomach.

Feeling ashamed, Feng Yueyi opened his hand: "I'm not full yet, why don't you feed me!"

"Okay, I'll serve you right now!" Zhao Zenian said, and limped to get the food from the table: "It's still hot!"

After the meal, Feng Yueyi fell asleep again, and the Zhangs went out on business, so Zhao Zenian and Zhang Xiaoshan sat by the fire to keep warm, and enjoyed the snow outside.

Zhang Xiaoshan is a child with a thick head and a thick head. He asked: "Father said that you fell from a very high place. Why did you fall from that place? Are your feet slippery?"

Zhao Zenian laughed with a "puchi" and said, "That is the top of the snow-capped mountain that never melts. Even if people have nothing to do, they won't go up there to blow the cold wind."

He thought that Zhang Xiaoshan couldn't understand at a young age, but this kid actually understood: "Then why are you going up there?"

"Fighting, falling down."

"Ah, so the person who fought with you is stronger than you?"

Zhao Zenian raised his eyebrows: "No, that person took away my sister's child to threaten me. Only one child and I can survive, so I fell off, and the more he wanted to jump off with me. of."

Zhang Xiaoshan said "ah", his eyes widened to the maximum, he was so round and cute: "That man is too bad!"

Zhao Zenian remained silent, guilty and justified, but he never regretted it.

Three or four days later, Zhao Zenian was able to walk freely, although his right leg was not very flexible, so Uncle Zhang made him a crutch out of wood.

Feng Yueyi seemed to be seriously injured, but after lying on the bed for a few days, the pain from falling and hitting was reduced by half, and he recovered faster than Zhao Zenian.

It was snowing heavily outside, and the doors and windows inside the house were closed, and it was still cool even with the charcoal fire burning.

The three members of Uncle Zhang’s family gathered around the fire. Uncle Zhang wiped his fork and bow and arrow with a cloth, Aunt Zhang sewed with a needle and thread, and Zhang Xiaoshan was playing with the little bow and arrow his father made for him.

Feng Yueyi was still in the room, but he was meditating cross-legged to heal his internal injuries.

Zhao Zenian roasted for a while, couldn't resist the drowsiness, and went back to the house, but in order not to disturb Feng Yueyi, he went to the room where Zhang and his wife lived.

There was no stove in the bedroom, and it felt a little cold away from the stove. Zhao Zenian couldn't fall asleep, so he simply crossed his legs, sank into his dantian, and practiced with luck. It was only less than half a cup of tea, and he stopped again. down.

After repeating this several times, Zhao Zenian maintained the posture of sitting in meditation, but no longer exercised his energy, his brows were deeply furrowed, and he was puzzled: his internal strength was positive, but just when he was exercising, he found that there was too much energy in his body. A strange negative inner force.

Thinking and thinking, thinking about dinner time, he suddenly figured out what was going on!

He fell to the bottom of the cliff and landed on a snow hill, and the cold air invaded his body. Although he was still in a coma, out of the instinct of self-preservation, in order to resist the cold air, his internal force was automatically activated. It has become a negative internal force.

Zhao Zenian heard from Su Yanshou when he was in Yaowanggu that there is only one kind of internal force allowed in a normal human body, which is either yin or yang. .

When the two were almost in good health, half a month later, when Zhao Zenian and Feng Yueyi proposed to leave, Uncle Zhang was directly amused by them: "At this time, where do you want to go?"

The two looked at each other, and Zhao Zenian said, "Uncle Zhang, what do you mean by that, I don't quite understand."

Uncle Zhang pointed out the window: "The mountains will be covered by heavy snow for at least three months. If you want to leave, you have to wait until the end of February next year!"

"What?!" Zhao Zenian was surprised, and Feng Yueyi was also surprised.

"No way?" Zhao Zenian said, opened the door and walked out. He had gone out a few times in the past half month, but he had limited mobility, so he didn't go too far. Feng Yueyi cared about his injuries and was afraid of the cold. I seldom go out.

The two left the house one after another, and Uncle Zhang said from behind: "Here, don't run around, you will get lost!"

Zhao Zenian frowned and said nothing, regardless of whether Boss Yang knew about his falling off the cliff or not, the pavilion master would definitely send someone to search for him if he was missing for three months or even longer, but the heavy snow closing the mountain cannot be changed by manpower, so they would not Think he's dead?

Jingxu Pavilion is okay, but Guanjiang Tower has lost contact, Uncle He will definitely be anxious!