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"Mom, it's not that I don't ask for it, but what should I ask for?" Han Fei didn't understand. He had no fame or fortune. He was still proud of Gaoxin International after four years of graduation, and he hadn't won any glory for Gaoxin International. What face is there to ask the alma mater to accept a student with insufficient scores?Not to mention asking for a waiver of the tuition fee, even if he paid the tuition fee in full, he would have no face to go back to his alma mater, just begging for this.

"How many points did Xiaobin get in the test?"

"Forget it if you don't want to!" Han Bin rushed out of the room, rolled his eyes and glared at Han Fei, and said, "Why are you talking so much nonsense? What's wrong with me wanting to go to Gaoxin International? Why can't I go if you can? Cut If you don’t want to, just say it, why put on an air. Half of the tuition fee is waived? But the money you spent on painting and painting these years, isn’t it as much as I borrowed to study?”

"..." Han Fei had a headache for a while, "Where do I have money? How can I have connections to ask for this favor?"

"Oh, now that my father is dead, you think my mother and I are useless, and you just say it if you don't care about us! You still mention my borrowing fee? If my father is still alive, he will definitely pay the money no matter what. Also buy me a good future, instead of being so selfish like you, just thinking about yourself..."

"Han Bin! How can you say that?"

"Mom is still alive! Don't treat yourself as a parent!" Han Bin sneered, and retorted: "Why... If it weren't for you, Dad wouldn't die, and Mom doesn't have to beg you..."

"..." Han Fei hammered his aching chest, unable to vent his anger, looked at his stubborn brother and mother who shared the same hatred, and said helplessly, "What exactly do you want?"

"A total of five..."

"One hundred thousand." Han Bin blocked his mother and said, "One hundred thousand must be paid."

"... 10? Where do I have money?" Han Fei's head was almost blown by the [-]. "Mom, tell me, where can I steal [-]?"

"..."

"Stealing is so ugly!" Han Bin sneered: "Whether 10 yuan is too much depends on whether you have a conscience..."

"I...why do I have no conscience?" Han Fei patted his chest and asked, "Han Bin, you are not young anymore. If you speak clearly today, why do I have no conscience?"

"You killed my father and ruined my life and my mother's life. Now you still want to leave us alone, which is not unconscionable. Why, is it enough to drive me and my mother out to live on the streets? You deserve it too? This house is a Oh shit!"

"you--"

"Xiao Bin, why are you talking to your brother!" Liu Ying raised her hand angrily, but it didn't come down for a long time. Han Fei stopped him, Han Bin sneered, and slammed the door away.

"Don't blame him, your brother..." This time Liu Ying finally didn't say that Han Bin was still young, although she still meant that.

Han Fei rubbed his bulging temples, unable to speak for a long time, and his dry eyes were not moistened at all. He was used to his mother's bias, and he couldn't cry.

"Have you signed your job yet? Where do you work? Is it close to home?" Liu Ying changed the topic slightly, and said with a smile, "If it's close, you can come to eat..."

"..." Han Fei looked at his mother, who was almost flattering, and felt uncomfortable. Why is this so, she is his mother!He looked up and smiled at his mother, and said, "I haven't signed a job, so I'll continue my graduate studies."

"what?"

"I got the notice from the Academy of Fine Arts."

"Then..." Liu Ying heard the news for the first time, and blurted out, "The tuition fee..."

"..." Han Fei smiled wryly, it's still money!

He said: "Graduate students can take a substitute class, I can take undergraduate courses, and use the substitute lecture fee to make up for tuition fees, you don't have to worry about my studies..."

"Your tuition fee has been paid," Liu Ying interrupted him, and said, "Then what about your brother?"

"..."

"Your father..." Liu Ying was very anxious, "You know, we borrowed a lot of money at that time..."

"Mom, I will pay back the money," Han Fei promised, "I will pay it back, don't worry..."

"But if you continue to study, how can you pay it back?" Liu Ying cried out, realizing that it was inappropriate to be so excited, she quickly covered her mouth and murmured: "That's not a small sum! "

"...Mom..." Han Fei looked at the strange mother, not wanting to think about the meaning behind her words.

"Think about it for yourself, we can't always owe people money..." Liu Ying said, glanced at Han Fei, and said cautiously: "Besides, after you graduate from graduate school, you still want to find a job. Since it's the same, Why bother..."

"Mom, I want to draw." Han Fei didn't want to face it, but he couldn't help it.Because this stranger who said "You can't" to him like everyone else is his mother.

"But now... you have to face the reality. I'm not letting you paint, but... Han Fei, don't be so naive. You can't paint for a lifetime, let alone live by painting. We are such an ordinary family. How could such a good thing happen! Take ten thousand steps back, even if you become a painter one day in the future, but you... But you can't wait until that day to pay back the money! Are you right? You have to live as long as you live. Reality, face reality..."

"Mom, I will work hard."

"But this world is not useful just because you work hard, do you understand?" Liu Yingtan couldn't help raising her voice, she was anxious, anxious and angry, endured and endured, finally suppressed her anger and said in a low voice: " You've been drawing and not dealing with people, but that's not normal! You know that? That's not normal!"

"I want to draw." Han Fei gritted his teeth and insisted: "Even if it's not normal, I still want to draw!"

"But you always want to enter the society, you have to open your eyes to see the world and those people around you who have never been in your eyes... One day, you will come back to live a normal life, and you must learn from your colorful life. Wake up in the colorful bubbles and face these realities! And you have always been surrounded by your father... so you don't know that the real world is not 'hard work can make up for one's weakness', nor is it 'work hard and you will succeed', let alone what you imagined As it should be!"

"But I will work hard, I want to paint."

"You can paint even after you work!" Liu Yingdao: "Not only can you paint, but you can also get paid. Why don't you sign with a state-owned enterprise? It's an iron rice bowl, and you can share the house like us..."

"Mom, any company won't divide the house!" Han Fei said: "There is no such thing as a so-called iron rice bowl for a long time. Let me deal with people, it is better to let me deal with paintings, I..."

"Then you can sign a job related to painting soon?"

"Mom—" Han Fei felt uncomfortable, why couldn't he explain it?

He wants to keep reading!

He wants to draw!

"I will pay off the debts at home. I will earn my tuition and living expenses. I will miss it. Mom, I want to paint!"

"So you don't care about me and your brother?" Liu Ying asked dumbly, "For...painting?"

"..."

"Han Fei, you can't do this, I... I'm doing it for your own good, I'm doing it for your own good! Your father shouldn't have protected you so tightly, spoiling..." Liu Ying was anxious and incoherent. He lost his face, quickly stopped his remarks about Han Biao, and said hastily: "It's not that Mom won't let you paint, it's really not that I won't let you paint, but it's just Xiaofei, you have to know that painting really has no future, you can't Live by painting and eat. In the future... you will always get married, have a wife and children, live a life of being a parent, perverting the law, but these... none of these things can be replaced by painting."

"Painting will never be and will not be the most important thing in your life. We, your relatives, and your wife and children in the future are the most important thing!" Liu Ying said firmly: "No Listen to your mother, and you will regret it. Mom is a person who has been there before, how can she not know how difficult the road is? You will regret it, you will definitely regret it! You are obedient and listen to your mother, you can’t live a lifetime of painting! "

"..." Han Fei's heart ached, wishing he could be deaf.

Living and eating?

Get married and have children and raise a wife?

These are not as important to him as painting!

But he could hear and see clearly.Mother didn't understand him at all, and she didn't want to understand him. She didn't even want to understand his thoughts. She just blindly measured him by the so-called normal standard and told him that he was abnormal.

The mother just said: "Han Fei, you are not normal, you are a selfish ghost who will die badly."

"You don't feed the whole family by yourself, Han Fei, you can't do this!" Seeing that Han Fei didn't intend to let go, Liu Ying blurted out and almost exploded, but she suppressed her anger again She was angry, but she could no longer control her words, and murmured: "Mom is old, and your brother is still young, you can't be so selfish and only care about yourself... His grades are not good, so it's okay if he doesn't go to Gaoxin International, but He has to go to high school, he has to go to university to make his way out, you...you are a big brother, you can't remember the grudge he had when he was young..."

"Han Fei, mom, please don't ignore him. Mom really can't help it. Your father is gone. You are the eldest son. I... I won't look for you, don't beg you, what else can I do, tell me, I What else can I do..."

"If you want to blame, blame me. Mom insisted on giving birth to a younger brother. You blame me, but don't hate your younger brother, and don't ignore him. Xiaobin is innocent... Your father knows that you don't care about us, he..."

"Stop talking..." Han Fei picked up his backpack and walked out.

He couldn't bear it, the pain in his heart seemed to be pulled from his muscles and bones.

I can't stand my mother's retreating into progress, and my mother's comparing him with my father, and I can't bear to talk about it. Everything my mother does is for Han Bin. She favors Han Bin while blaming him. he.

Liu Ying grabbed him, wept and begged, "Xiaofei..."

"..." Han Fei was silent, raised his face and said, "I see..."

In the final analysis, it was to tell him not to continue studying.

And father... father...

What the mother and younger brother said was correct. If the father was here, he would buy this future for Han Bin no matter what. It was owed to Han Bin by the three of them.

And he promised his father.

He promised him to take care of his mother and younger brother for him.

Chapter 7