time slow

Can't compete for the day and night, and think of the past again

I stole Qingsi and couldn't keep you

Yan Chunxi never imagined that the first person to disappear from her life would be Jing Chen...

Jing Chen walked out of the hospital in a daze, and returned to the car. She couldn't believe that she was diagnosed with a cerebral thrombosis, just like Jing Zhen.It's just... Huanchen is only five years old, and she and her senior sister have only been together for a few years, why did this kind of thing happen to her.

It took less than a year for Jing Zhen to die from the diagnosis, so what about her, how long will she be?

The fidgety cell phone rang, and Grandma Jing Chen called. She kept a close distance with her relatives and focused on living her own life.

"Hello." Jing Chen answered the phone lightly.

"Jing Chen, when will you come back and take a look? Your grandfather and I are not in good health, and now our legs are very painful. Hanhan bought us a lot of things, why don't you say come back to see us?"

look at them?

To put it bluntly, I have no money again, and I use Jing Han to mention her, which means that if someone bought it, is it appropriate for you not to buy it.

"Well, buy it, I'll buy it for you." Jing Chen changed his indifference towards them, and his sudden obedience and gentleness made the people on the opposite side stunned.

……

I'm dying... so... I want to relax, please, don't bother me anymore.

Yan Chunxi was very busy with work, so she didn't go to the hospital with her, and pestered her to know the result when she got home.Jing Chen looked at the motionless Yan Chunxi with gloomy eyes, who lowered his head and trembled slightly.Yan Chunxi adjusted her mood and raised her head, her watery eyes glowed with crystal, and the corners of her lips curled up attractively, and said briskly: "It's actually nothing, maybe I will take good care of you, and you will be fine soon. And patients with cerebral thrombosis have Many people can live normally, I...I will make you happy every day, and the bad things will stay away from you."

Smiling and laughing, tears flowed down, wet the tightly clenched paper, Jing Chen grabbed her, held her in his arms and coaxed easily: "You're right, it's not a big deal, maybe a few I'll be fine in a month."

This disease is a hurdle that they can't get over.

Yan Chunxi lowered her head and wept softly, unwillingly said: "Why, why did you..."

Why is it so cruel, she and Jing Chen haven't been together for ten years, why should she take back her happiness.

Yan Chunxi raised her head slowly, watched with tears in her eyes, her red lips opened and closed, trying to say something.

Jing Chen stroked her hair, and said proactively, "I quit my job, okay? I'll take a good rest at home and exercise vigorously. I just want you to work hard to support me. Are you willing to support me?"

Lips pressed together, Jing Chen fondly sucked on the red lips.

"I will support you, I will support you..." Yan Chunxi wiped away her unstoppable tears, and put her arms around her neck.Her original intention was the same, Jing Chen worked too hard, which was not good for her condition.

"Don't cry, I'm not very good at home, I'm happy, I have a wife and children, don't be too happy, unlike you who have to go out to work." Jing Chen took a tissue to wipe her red eye sockets, deliberately teasing her: " Well, don’t cry anymore, if you cry, you will get fine lines.”

The warm light in the living room reflected the coldness on the skin, Yan Chunxi held back tears, and hugged her softly around her neck, "What's wrong with fine lines, you have them too."

"Yes, yes, I'm growing too, so I won't cry anymore." Jing Chen bears her weight, hugs her tightly, and rubs... the end of her hair.

Yan Chunxi hugged her tightly and prayed: "Don't leave me, and live a long life."

"Okay, we're all going to live a long life."

For nearly three years, Jing Chen stayed at home without complaint, doing housework and exercising by herself during the day, going out for a walk occasionally, and enjoying a happy family of three at night.

I changed the way I didn't care about anything before, and I no longer hate taking pictures. Instead, I always want to record some videos and save them.Yan Chunxi was very uncomfortable with her change. It felt like she knew she might be leaving, so she could leave something behind for her to remember.

Yan Huanchen is very smart, always watching some science and education channels, working hard for her dream of "going to heaven".

Jing Chen sat beside her, and suddenly asked tentatively, "If Mommy leaves, will you miss me?"

"Mummy, where are you going?" Huan Chen immediately shifted her attention, and leaned over with her delicate brows furrowed, afraid that Jing Chen would not take her with her wherever she went.

The education of life and death is always a difficult problem for children.

Jing Chen stretched out a finger and pointed upwards.

"Heaven, then I can go to you when I grow up."

"But you can't find me."

"Hide and seek in the sky, at least you will see me, and you will call me when you see me, so that I can find you." Huan Chen stretched out his little hand to hug her, and Jing Chen hugged her in his lap on, didn't say anything.

Yan Chunxi comes back early almost every day, not fighting for job promotion, just doing a good job of guaranteeing the bottom line.Finally, on her birthday three years later, Jing Chen's condition improved a bit.

On May 5 of that year, after today, she will be 19 years old.

Although the lovers are not as young as they used to be, they live a comfortable and nourishing life, and they haven't been stained by the years, probably only adding to the charm.

During the day, Jing Chen took her to review a lot of their love journey, and sang one song after another in her ears in the evening.

At night, I was still asking for a reward. There are obviously more than 40 people, but the enthusiasm for this matter has not diminished.

Adding new scars to old scars on someone's chest.

……

But the next morning, everything was as usual, the lovers turned their heads to look at each other and said good morning to each other.

In the next second, a string in Jing Chen's brain seemed to break suddenly, his left hand was tightly clutching the back of his head, and the glass in his right hand was not placed firmly on the dining table, the glass wobbled and rolled down the edge of the table to the ground... …

Jing Chen also fell crookedly, as if she wanted to prop up the chair, but she couldn't. Just like that, she fell down in front of Yan Chunxi and twitched a few times.

Subconsciously, he knew that he would hide his face with a hideous face, so he would not let her see him no matter what.

"Jing Chen...Jing Chen..."

No matter how Yan Chunxi called her, no one responded, Huanchen saw her lying on the ground, crying and threw herself into Yan Chunxi's arms.Huanchen perfectly inherited Yan Chunxi's IQ, and with a few tips, she understands what death and parting are

When the ambulance arrived, Jing Chen's pupils had already dilated, he had a sudden cerebral hemorrhage, and he was in a hurry... He couldn't even leave his last words...

Yan Chunxi still didn't slow down, she just watched from the sidelines, letting others go through some necessary procedures for "dead people".

In the crematorium, everyone stopped her, saying that it was not good for her, so don't go.

Everything was properly arranged, and everyone worked together to send the coffin to the square opening

She finally couldn't hold back any longer, and just before the body was pushed in, Yan Chunxi gripped one side of the coffin firmly with her fingers.

"fraud……"

Yan Chunxi had never been so embarrassed in her life, Yan Huanchen and Jing Nuan stood by her side, afraid of any accidents.

Chen Juan was almost desperate, and really wanted to go with her daughter. If she could support herself a bit, would her eldest daughter be happier...

……

In the few years after Jing Chen's death, there have been great breakthroughs in the field of artificial intelligence, and one of the technologies has been used by people to remember their loved ones.

But the female scholar who made a huge contribution to this breakthrough never used it once. To her, it was just her job, and she wanted to leave work earlier and return to the home where her lover used to stay.

Staunch materialists have no taboo against all kinds of "unlucky" practices, and there are still three sets of bowls and chopsticks on the table.The natural advantage made her still have charm after vicissitudes of life, and made those who lined up to show her affection very ashamed.Huanchen is going to study abroad soon, and Yan Chunxi doesn't plan to accompany her. Here is her lover, whom she can't let go of.

Huanchen took a piece of stewed beef and put it in the bowl that belonged to Jingchen, Yan Chunxi put down the goblet containing the wine, the glass reflected the luster of the ring on her chest, there was always another person's shadow in every gesture.After a few years, she has learned all about Jing Chen's melancholy spirit.

"Go abroad and take good care of yourself. I look forward to the early return of our little scientist." Yan Chunxi picked up the wine glass again, and the person in front of her blended the characteristics of the two of them very well.

Holding the juice, Huan Chen happily replied, "I'll be back soon."

……

A few years later, in the ward again, Yan Huanchen couldn't remember how long it had been like this, and when it started, her mother's memory was always confused.

What I often say to her is: "Has she not come back from a business trip?"

"When will I be discharged from the hospital? I have to go home and cook for Jing Chen."

But today, Yan Chunxi looks in good condition.

No more nonsense.

Yan Huanchen knew that her mother couldn't hold on anymore, because of her, it was hard enough for Yan Chunxi to hold on for so long.

Yan Chunxi's hands were shaking non-stop, she handed the jade finger to Yan Huanchen, clasped her five fingers together, and held it tightly.

A female scientist who has made great contributions to scientific and technological progress has gone to find her lover. She fears science and is looking forward to the early arrival of the next life.

Now, a new one was added next to the black and white photo. Yan Huanchen put down the bouquet in her hand, and the person beside her held her hand tightly, with the white jade finger ring hanging on her chest.

Jing Chen didn't know how long she stood here, watching the old man ferry again and again, asking herself again and again, every time she answered him tirelessly, "I'm waiting for someone."

Waiting for her, but don't want to wait for her.

Occasionally, when I meet some lonely souls, I will kindly give them money for crossing the river once, and I can't spend it all.

He even joked with the old man, "Hey, let me change the ship for you. Do you want a plane, or a bridge? It will take a lot of trouble for you to make this trip."

Sometimes there are people in the back.

The old man left her alone and didn't speak. How rich is it?

But this moment still came, the wooden boat on Youchuan was full of passengers, the old man still smiled and waved to her, but this time it was a little different, he stretched his neck and narrowed his eyes further back.

Jing Chen didn't pay attention, and counted the time silently in her heart.

Until the familiar fragrance approached behind him, a pair of arms were wrapped around his waist, holding the letter and folded in front of him, and his shoulders were immediately weighed down, and a warm air flow swept over his ears with a chuckle.

Jing Chen's eye sockets gradually burned, covering those hands, and tilted his head, "It's still a bit early."

There are more than 70 billion people on our planet. I often wonder whether everyone has a destined lover, but after decades of life, how many people can find the soul that matches them.

Why am I so lucky.

I am an ordinary person, but I can meet her whom everyone loves.Twenty years have passed, and I can still remember the first time I saw her, but I was so stupid that I couldn't describe her appearance, I only knew that she was not only beautiful, but wonderful.

For many years, I have fallen asleep with panic and woke up to the sound of quarreling.After getting acquainted with her, I realized that what wakes people up may be the sound of the clashing of bowls and chopsticks in the early morning, the aroma of rice porridge, the kiss and body temperature of a lover, and the occasional mischief and mischief of a daughter.

But I wasted so much time to fall in love with her, maybe it is reasonable for God to take back my happiness.

I owe you a lot in this life. If there is an afterlife, if there is, please let me find you first, let me fall in love with you first, and protect you.

I will definitely not be able to achieve the promised long life, but I hope you can. We still have so many places we haven’t seen. If you go to see it alone in the future, what you see and hear, how beautiful it is, as long as you face the sun Say it, and I'll hear it.

No matter how much time I have left, I want to stick with you, hug and kiss with you.

My senior sister, my wife, Yan Chunxi.

I love you

Love you.

Jing Chen

April 5

To wife.

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The author has something to say:

The ending was decided early in the morning, it was not a temporary idea, and some casual words just hinted at the ending.

Life is plain, and the intention is to write a plain, affectionate and long-lasting story about Jing Chen and Yan Chunxi.

The originally written "something to say" disappeared again inexplicably, so let it be, take care of your health, and see you again.

(End of the book)