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"You sisters are very good, you are worthy of each other, and you are all excellent." Yan Chunxi leaned her head against her, and rubbed her hair sideways.

The two leaned together quietly for a while, Yan Chunxi flipped through a few photo albums, occasionally laughing out loud.

"You were so cute when you were young." She smiled again, pointing to a photo, when little Jing Chen had just had two deciduous teeth.

"Are you laughing or crying?" Yan Chunxi couldn't stop laughing, flipping through the photo album with relish.

"This one has no clothes on."

"You also have little red dots on your forehead."

"Don't look at it!" Jing Chen reached out to cover the photo album, got up and walked out, touching his red earlobe uncomfortably.

"There are some other things there, you can look at them casually, I'll go out for a while."

Yan Chunxi bit her lips and smiled, her starry eyes sparkled: This guy is shy, so awkward and cute.

Yan Chunxi flipped through the album twice, and wanted to ask Jing Chen if she could take it back with her, but this was what Jing Chen's mother thought, and it was not good to take it away, so she simply took pictures with her mobile phone.

There are still some things in the drawer, various awards, a pieced together storybook, a copybook with the same font as Jing Chen, as well as pens and composition books.

Yan Chunxi carefully picked up the storybook first. The cover of the book was torn in half, and the inside was damaged to varying degrees, and many places were glued with tape.

This book is a collection of many short stories, each page or two is an independent story, accompanied by illustrations.She flipped through a few pages and found that some Chinese characters had been drawn in circles with a pencil, and now the traces are very faint. These circles are unevenly distributed, sometimes there are several on a page, and sometimes they appear only after several stories.

Yan Chunxi tried to connect the Chinese characters in the circle, and the first sentence made her feel a little nervous.

【They don't like me. 】

[Why should I let others. 】

[I did nothing wrong. 】

[Why do you still get murdered when you are bullied? 】

[So wronged. 】

A drop of crystal fell on the yellowed book paper, Yan Chunxi raised her hand and touched her chin, she didn't expect that she would cry out, fate was so unfair to her Jing Chen.

No one tells, no one cares.

Being in the haze, peeking at the rainbow.

She couldn't fully empathize with her, it was impossible to experience Jing Chen's past, and she didn't want to take the initiative to mention those pasts and uncover her scars.

Those absurd remarks that have been handed down are the main reason for her and Jing Chen's injuries. This kind of concept is deeply rooted, and they can't change it now.But she still has a little doubt, since all four are granddaughters, why are they treated differently?

Jing Chen is well-behaved, with good grades and a good personality. This family is a bit strange.

Yan Chunxi raised her hand to wipe her eyes, took the book closer and read it carefully, and finally saw another message at the end of a certain story.

"Dad is here...Dad likes you very much."

Jing Zhen should have left her messages in this way several times, but the traces of the pencil had disappeared, and Yan Chunxi could only guess a few of them, and managed to piece together such a sentence.

She was more surprised by Jing Zhen's delicacy and education methods, and thanks to Jing Zhen's existence, Jing Chen's gray sky was able to show a touch of gentle blue.

-

In the middle of the night, several people were waiting in the kitchen to eat dumplings. On the small glass round table, there was a photo of Jing Zhen in one place, and a bowl was also placed.

Yan Chunxi was lucky, she was the first one to catch the dumpling with coins in it. She didn't eat much at first, but one or two dumplings was interesting.

Jing Nuan was growing her body, so she ate one at a time, Jing Chen looked indifferent, and didn't put one in her mouth for a long time, Yan Chunxi always felt that her face was turning blue.

The next moment, she really put down her chopsticks in a depressed manner, and stared at Chen Juan.

Only then did Yan Chunxi notice her. Chen Juan kept her head down, and she didn't talk to anyone. She covered her eyes with her hands, and tears rolled down her cheeks and pooled on the edge of the round table.

Jing Nuan also put down her chopsticks, and looked between her and Jing Chen, not knowing what to do.

"Jing Nuan, you continue to eat."

"You eat too." Jing Chen put a dumpling on her plate with a gentle tone.

Jing Chen ate by himself and didn't care about Chen Juan. They finished the disgusting meal hastily.

After the meal, Jing Chen told them all to go back to rest, she wanted to be alone for a while.

"How about I stay? I turn my back to you and don't look at you." Yan Chunxi asked.

Jing Chen nodded, acquiescing.

With their backs facing each other, Jing Chen lowered his head to wash the dishes and refused to let Yan Chunxi help, so Yan Chunxi silently accompanied her.

After everything was tidied up, Jing Chen washed his hands with warm water. He wanted to reach out for a towel, but Yan Chunxi handed it over to her one step ahead, and wrapped her arms around her back, and kissed her tenderly on the side of her face: "Are you ready?"

The soft warmth fell on her heart, Jing Chen stretched her brows and eyes, eased her mood, and kissed her back on the cheek: "Okay, senior sister is so kind."

This person's emotions are digested silently by herself, but Yan Chunxi hopes that she can vent them, just like that time.

-

The two stayed at Yan Chunxi's house until the third year of junior high. They communicated a lot more for the first time, and felt that they had returned to the way they got along in school.On the seventh day of the seventh day, the two of them went to a single party held by a college classmate before their marriage.

As soon as the two entered the box, they became the focus.

"Senior, why did you come with Jing Chen?" A male classmate poured wine for a female classmate.

The woman took the wine glass and glanced at Jing Chen: "I heard that the two of them got married, but I don't know how they got together, there wasn't even a wedding."

She took a sip of her wine, and wiped her lipstick on the side of the glass: "Who were you who spread that Jing Chen was gay? Now it seems that it is true. Didn't it mean that she failed to pursue Senior Sister Chu Xin? Senior Sister didn't like her, nor did she I know how senior sister Yan Chunxi can fall in love with her."

"It's a pity that senior sister Yan Chunxi, a goddess, actually fell into the hands of a woman. Hehe, if you meet me..."

"Why are you so talkative? Other people's sexual orientation has nothing to do with you. Besides, at that time, a boy in our class was chasing senior sister Chu Xin, but it turned out that senior sister liked Jing Chen. That's why he spread bad things about Jing Chen and ruined her. reputation." Finally, a normal person told the truth, but those few rolled their eyes at her and went elsewhere to gossip.

At that time, Jing Chen and Chu Xin hadn't been together for long, and always wanted to have close contact with her. Jing Chen felt unreasonable disgust in his heart, and at the same time persuaded himself to accept her. .Chu Xin is very clingy to her, and always wants to pull her out to play with her friends, always on call.Among her friends, there are everyone. Jing Chen doesn't like to be lively, and almost every day is full of classes, so it is easy to refuse.

A male student in the same class liked Chu Xin very much, but Chu Xin rejected him, and even kissed Jing Chen who knew nothing in front of him.

Jing Chen couldn't bear her restless enthusiasm from time to time, and subconsciously pushed her away.

The distance between the two is sometimes close and sometimes far, sometimes close and sometimes distant.

I don't know when it started, people around me began to look at her differently, whispering and pointing.When you meet her on the road, you will walk around.

The person in charge of the college asked her to talk, overtly and secretly testing her reaction to the rumors, whether her sexual orientation was true or not.

Jing Chen remembered that he smiled a little at that time, without denying or refuting.

She knows that what she says is meaningless, you already have the facts you want to see in your heart, and you have judgments, so what if I say nothing.

If the ideological assessment is not up to standard, the scholarship cannot be applied for, and the entry into D will be rejected.

It's okay, are these things all the same?

It's just that she didn't know that Yan Chunxi had argued with the director about these matters.

Yan Chunxi sat in a corner, holding a small glass of white wine in her hand, and had a good conversation with a few school girls who were curious about her subject.Jing Chen touched her arm, and when he told her to go to the bathroom, she waited alone, but she was thinking of some excuse to leave early.

After Jing Chen came back, his face didn't change much, but he accepted some people's persuasion to drink, and he didn't drink much but it was mixed.

Yan Chunxi found an excuse to take her away, Jing Chen seemed to be sitting awake, but her cheeks were already flushed, and she let her play with her.

But she was still obedient, she said one step, and Jing Chen took one step.

"Be careful, there are steps."

"Get in the car, lift your feet."

Yan Chunxi took the drunk home, first placed her on the sofa, carefully looked at her eyebrows, helped her adjust to a comfortable sleeping position, and then went to the kitchen to make lemonade.

She inserted a straw into the cup, moved the person to lie on his side, and passed the straw to the person's lips.

Jing Chen moved his body, and instinctively took two mouthfuls of lemonade, diluting the smell of alcohol in his mouth and feeling much more comfortable.

Yan Chunxi squatted on the ground and watched her slowly open her eyes. The man sat up suddenly and asked her with red eyes, "Why did you marry me?"

Some questioning means.

Yan Chunxi squatted there and froze, thinking that Jing Chen knew that he liked her and was still organizing his words, but this person continued.

"Do you think that I am honest and can be manipulated by you? See that I am stupid, I will not lose my temper with others, I will not fight back, and I can obey you."

"I've never seen you like this before, Jing Chen, it's not like this." She looked at Jing Chen's blurred eyes, took her hands in her palms and explained.

"I'm human and I have emotions, I just don't like to talk about them."

"I like it and I hate it. I am very wronged. Why do they all know a person from the language, but don't think about the person's usual behavior. They have always been... always like this."

"I don't like to talk...but I really haven't done anything bad."

"I don't understand, am I not good? I have been obedient since I was a child, and I did what they asked. Why don't they treat me as a child of the Jing family?"

Jing Chen began to speak incoherently, this was the first time Yan Chunxi had peeped into her inner world, this man clenched his hand tightly, and the back of her white and tender hand was covered with red marks.

Yan Chunxi leaned over slowly, hugged her in her arms, let her cry and accept her sunshine and haze.

When Jing Chen was tired from crying, she patted the man's shoulder, put her fingers on her chin to make her look up, and pressed her forehead to her forehead, and said seriously: "Jing Chen, you are the best person I have ever met."

"Look at me, I really admire you." Yan Chunxi held her small face, eyes full of tenderness.

Jing Chen was in a daze, and didn't know if she heard it, so she fell directly on her shoulder. She raised her hand and rubbed the back of her neck, and smiled for a long time before carrying him back to the bedroom. Bite and rub the side of his neck lightly to vent his anger, which led to the little red mark.

-

The two hugged quietly for a while, when Jing Chen suddenly remembered something and said, "Sister, do you have any questions?"

Yan Chunxi took her hand and replied as she walked towards the bedroom: "I prefer to hear what you say, you can say anything."

"But I don't know what to say, you should ask."

The two of them kicked off their slippers and sat on the kang. Yan Chunxi leaned on Jing Chen's shoulder, took her left hand, and pushed away the peach core with the ink string, and twirled her thumb around the small mole.

The sound of fireworks and firecrackers outside is still continuous, Jing Chen feels light, don't want to sleep tonight: "Let's talk more."

Yan Chunxi turned sideways, took the storybook, and asked, "Why is this book broken like this?"

Jing Chen didn't answer the question, she looked down at her left wrist, and felt that Yan Chunxi liked to touch it many times.

"Do you like it here?"

"Well, I think this mole is just the finishing touch. It's so pretty when it grows here, and your skin is fair, so this mole looks even more coquettish." After finishing speaking, she took Jing Chen's left hand and pecked at the mole. small mole.

Reddish but not red, somewhat raised.

Jing Chenyu slapped her eyelashes, and said slowly, "It's actually a scar, left when my parents quarreled."