[Angie] Double Wings

Chapter 086 ◇Decision to die

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Jules pays attention to efficiency; Clavis is too lazy to transfer from this trailer to a light car, and then move to the dining car to eat; Lumière doesn't care about eating; and Oscar has always followed Jules' habits... Therefore, the rest area in the second car is for the four patron saints to eat or rest.

But the meal time is hardly full...even the breakfast time when everyone has just woken up.

Lumière's job content has little to do with Jules here. They are all injured anyway, so they just need to be treated, and there is no need for him to wait for orders.He always got up early, usually before the patron saints of this trailer got up to have breakfast, Lumiere had already rushed to the Swan Troop to encourage everyone to work.

It wasn't every day that Oscar had the opportunity to sit in the lounge area and have breakfast.He fights on the front line almost every day, and he will try his best to adjust the situation to the best.He will go to bed a little later if necessary.

The problem with Jules is that there are too many things.He often went to check the messages left by the night communicator before eating, and then he was entangled in all kinds of reports, which made him lose his appetite, so he simply stopped eating.

The problem with Clavis... Jules gets up for work at six or seven o'clock, and he will accompany Jules to get up resignedly, but if there are no other important things, he will go back to lie down again.His breakfast usually had to wait until after he got up for the second time, to accompany his lunch.But lately he's been trying to get it right -- Jules is waiting for him for breakfast.

Lumière was absent from breakfast this morning.

"Didn't you say that the Swan Troops are relatively free these two days?" Kravis frowned.

Oscar said that he didn't know... Lumière was still hiding in the room and did not come out.

He was avoiding him... "I'll go and have a look," Kravis put down his fork, "I'll be back later." When he reached the end of the second carriage, Jules got up from his seat and walked to him .

"I didn't look right before..."

"I didn't ask," Kravis said simply. "He didn't want to."

"Don't you know the reason?"

"...Maybe I don't know at all." Klevis frowned, and walked back without saying anything.Jules stood there in silence for a while before returning to his seat to continue his breakfast.

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"Lumiere? It's me."

The door of their berth was quietly opened, and Lumiere poked half of his face through the door, "Master Clavis."

"Didn't come out for breakfast?"

"Ah...I had a little supper before going to bed last night, and I'm not too hungry now, I always feel that I don't have much appetite...Master Clavis, I didn't expect to make you worry, I'm very sorry."

"Well, won't you invite me in and sit down?"

"Ah, yes." Lumière pushed the door a little wider, sideways to let Cleves step in.He was not too polite, and sat down in an armchair by the door.

"What time do you want to go to the Swan Squad in the morning?"

Lumiere was silent for a while, "... probably in a while."

Hearing this ambiguous answer, Cleves was sure that his silence just now was a question of whether to lie or not.If he answered truthfully, there might be enough time for Cleves to have a long talk with him, but Lumiere didn’t want to have a long talk, he just wanted to avoid it as much as possible... After all, Lumiere didn’t want to lie to him yet, Cleves felt a little inexplicably relieved...and then felt even more uncomfortable.Has their unfamiliarity reached this level?

"sit down."

"Yes."

Lumière sat down quietly on the edge of the bed, smoothing his long hair behind his ears.Klevis frowned, and grabbed Lumière's wrist firmly.

"You're shaking. Your blood sugar is low, right?" Clavis pursed his lips, feeling extremely bad. "If you're not hungry after supper last night, it's a lie, right?"

Lumière bowed his head and did not answer.

"...You don't want to say it, and I don't force you. Lumiere, I don't like to force others."

"Yes."

"I don't like people to interfere in my affairs."

"Yes." Lumiere replied again, hesitating for a while before speaking again, "...If you have any difficulties, Mr. Clavis. If you trust me, please do it anyway Talk it over with me, okay?"

"I had no 'difficulties' whatsoever."

"Master Clavis..."

"I'm doing very well."

Can this be considered as 'living well'?Lumiere grabbed his clothes tightly and did not speak.

"...The entire Holy Land thinks you are following me, but you and I both understand that I am relying on you."

"It's not as simple as you said, Lord Clavis. From the time I first came to the Holy Land, I faced the unfamiliarity and fear of being a patron saint... In this regard, Lord Clavis is a role model for me to learn from. "

"I'm not a good role model...didn't I do the things you couldn't stand and become the person you couldn't stand?"

"Lord Clavis! I have always believed that what you have done... will... be worthy of..."

"I'm just an ordinary person, Lumiere. A weak ordinary person. You know this better than anyone else. I'm easy to be pessimistic, negative, and easy to give up. I even have to rely on your judgment to make decisions... I'm not your study role model."

"What exactly are you trying to explain?"

"Lumiere, I also need someone to be by my side."

"If you need someone to be by your side, we will always be by your side!" Lumière said earnestly, grasping Clavis' arm with his trembling hand, and squatting in front of him Come down, "Sincerely... Lord Clavis, everyone in the Holy Land respects you, no matter what the difficulty is..."

"I said I had a good life! Lumiere, don't try to put me in the frame you set, I am not such a great person as you think... I am a very ordinary person... I need love too." Klevis pressed his shoulder until Lumiere felt a little painful, "Listen to me, Lumiere..."

But he refused to listen, "Lord Clavis, I beg you, please don't say this, such..."

Clavis sighed, "You look so slender and weak, Lumiere, but you and I both know that you are many times stronger than me. You are so complete, but I am not. I Needs Jules as much as he needs me."

"...It's not that I don't need it, it's just that you didn't notice it."

"Lumiere?"

The gentle eyes of the Guardian Saint of Water were moist, "I don't know what changed you, and I don't know what Lord Jules said to you, Lord Clavis. If possible, I would like to take Everything of mine is in exchange for your awakening..."

"But I don't need to."

Lumiere sighed softly, sat back on the edge of the bed, grasped his robe with trembling fingers, and still held on weakly, "Maybe you are obsessed with those kisses or hugs, but I must remind you..."

Cleves didn't know how much he knew, it sounded like he had witnessed something... "What did you see? Or should I say... whatever you saw, Lumière, Jules and I Didn't mean to scare you."

"Master Jules is a man! He kissed you... Ah!" Lumière choked up in pain, and the voice could almost hear crying, "You forgot that it was a man's lips..."

An inexplicable accusation... Kravis thought angrily.He was brought up by his mother since he was a child, and his life was extremely simple. People on the frontier planets, regardless of gender, were all dressed in long-haired robes. He didn't know how to distinguish between men and women until he was seven or eight years old... To him, Jules is What is the difference between a man and a woman?

The only one he loves from beginning to end is Jules, whether he is a man or a woman.

Klevis slowly got up, stood condescendingly by the bed and looked down at Lumiere, "... If it is unreasonable just because he is a man, then what is the reason? If he is a woman, this matter is unreasonable. It made sense instantly? What was the reason? Even if I forgot that it was a man's lips? So what? It was my dream lip."

"K, Lord Clavis..."

He stroked Lumière's pale lips lightly with his fingertips. "Do you know what it felt like to me? When I kissed Jules."

Lumière was stunned by his trance, and the itching from his lips felt extremely weird.He didn't think of avoiding it, he couldn't even move his whole body, and stared blankly at Cleves.

"You do not understand……"

"Ah..." Lumiere couldn't help shouting tremblingly, and Clavis' fingertips suddenly sank into his mouth, which was warm.That strange touch immediately alarmed Clavis, who was indulging in a certain emotion.With a low sigh, he withdrew his fingers.

"I can't help it if I don't understand."

"Even if..." Lumière trembled all over, but still mustered up the courage to insist, "Even if it is a kiss as intoxicating as honey, it is actually worse than rotten fallen leaves."

Klevis sneered, "Is it unbearable?" He turned his back, "In your eyes, what is the meaning of a kiss that is more unbearable than a decaying fallen leaf, do you know what it means to me? Or... you Have you ever thought about it?" His voice lowered, "Lumiere, I am known as the patron saint of darkness, I have status, fame, a powerful Zakria, assets and wealth... I have many, but I have nothing... none of those things I need. I have nothing but Jules."

"This, this... This is not something I can decide."

"And it has nothing to do with you." Klevis added coldly for him, "I know you have been troubled by this, you care about me, a worthless person...but this happens to be the last thing I want to let You meddled in the matter. Lumiere... The matter between me and Jules is purely personal. You don't have to meddle, and you don't have to care about it."

"...Do you want me to turn a blind eye? Lord Clavis?"

"Otherwise, what are your expectations?"

"I want an answer." Lumiere remained calm, "You said you have nothing but Master Jules...Is that true? You don't need Lumiere's gaze..."

"You know that I don't mean it. But if you must force me to make a choice, it's right."

Lumière bit his lip and did not answer.

Clavis looked at Lumière expressionlessly, "Why do you force me to make a choice? There is no conflict between the two of you."

"I can't stand by and watch you do wrong!"

"What's wrong? Doesn't that violate your moral values? What kind of man should Cleves be in your eyes? I'm not the role model you imagined... I'm just a person who needs love."

"You always exist, that's not what I imagined..."

Lumière was already shouting hoarsely, but Cleves's voice became colder and colder, "I've thought about a similar situation...I came to you to talk to you and let you know My opinion depends on whether you are willing to accept it. If you think that this kind of Klevis is still Klevis, that is your freedom. If you deny the existence of Klevis from now on, then I...I don’t The room for consideration is that you force me to make a choice, and you know I will make a choice."

Is Lord Clavis really going to break with him over this?

"why?"

"Perhaps I came to the Holy Land to become the patron saint of darkness because of Jules... It was my destiny. I was destined to be born for him, to be beautiful for him, to follow him when he was exhausted... I There is no other choice."

"You..." Lumière looked sad and desperate, "Aren't you considering changing your decision?"

Cleves lifted his head and took a deep breath towards the ceiling of the car.

"...I will not change even if I die."

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The author has something to say: Note: Clavis' lines "live for him, be beautiful for him, and follow him when he (dead/exhausted)." comes from Shanlan Zijizi's " Stanley.ホークのEvent Book Clevers-Kudzu-vine-".This danmei-oriented work is of great significance to some dark light CP fans, because its (with H) radio drama voice actors are Mr. Shiozawa Kanento and Mr. Hayami Sho... Shanlan is a dark light CP fan, our circle Big hands inside.