[Angie] Double Wings

Chapter 069 ◇ Dirty thoughts

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Clavis's anger rose for a while, but he suddenly sighed in discouragement, "...what do you want me to do? Jules, I seem to be doing something wrong...you want me to kiss you, hug you, and I keep in close contact with you, and I am not allowed to think about it." His wry smile this time is not ironic, full of helplessness, "Julies, dare I ask you to ignore everything that attracts me in my eyes. Seductive behavior... Only you can do this kind of thing... Do you deliberately want to abuse me? You know that this kind of request is very difficult."

When did he 'know'?

Jules still subconsciously denied what he had done, and was justifiably angry with Klevis, "The Patron Saint of Darkness, who has never been able to squeeze out three sentences, talks as much today as a grandmother who loves to rant .Is this kind of thing difficult? As a patron saint, you must always know how to restrain yourself..."

Clavis was furious, "Who is this guy clamoring for hugs and kisses?"

... Jules' arrogance suddenly went out.

"This……"

"It's just that I treated you coldly, as if I abandoned you..."

"It's you who ignored me!"

"Treating you closer, it seems that I have done something heinous to you..."

"It's also you..."

"If you can speak against your conscience again, I have convinced you."

Jules lowered his head, knowing that he was right but unable to speak, hesitating for a long time, "I don't know...how on earth...how did I get used to being like this." Jules looked like It was so bitter and pitiful, "In the end... I am too indulgent and dependent on you, Klevis. If you show a little rusty look, I will be uneasy. I have warned myself countless times , can't be influenced by you... It's all agreed, I can't interfere with my duty as a patron saint... But I..."

Indeed, Jules, who is actually quite enthusiastic by nature, has been trying so hard to suppress himself... Clewis was a little bit reluctant and a little angry, "Anyway, I will only hinder you, right?"

"No, as long as you are by my side, or even just think of you, I feel very proud that there is nothing in this world that can defeat me, Jules."

"...I gave you such power?"

He sighed softly, "Cravis...I can't stand your indifference to me."

Klevis lowered his head, restraining his emotions of being suddenly uplifted and then suddenly falling to the bottom, looking at his fingertips with a complicated expression, like resentment and comfort.

"Staying in the Holy Land to be... no matter what I am competent or not, this kind of endless time is really terribly long for me. The cage in the Holy Land without a 'year', we have lived through many years 360 five days, and finally one year old. Not only you and me, but also them... Jules, we are all destined to be imprisoned in it, and we will never get out. I have a little hope that I can live like Personally... like a living person. If you will. How long do you want me to live in hell like that? I want to hear from you, Jules, that you don't want me to live like I used to. "

"I really don't want you to live like before, but I..."

Kravis spoke slowly and concluded, "I can do what you want me to do. As long as you don't reject me, I will always be yours... and I will never, never force You do what you don't want to do," Kravis said most often, as you please.He really has no interest in controlling the fate of others, "Do as you like...but don't blame me."

"Don't make your words so vague, be clear."

"Okay." Klevis raised his head and took a deep breath, "You are upright and strong, with a strong sense of morality, and a terribly tough temperament. I live by your side, but I have always been afraid of being hated and dismissed by you. .”

"I don't seem to say a lot of good things about you, but you... Clavis, you are an excellent Patron Saint, and at the same time, you are an excellent lover to me. You don't make the kind of things that make me sick The fault of hating and repelling...I'm serious." He turned his head and pointed to the empty bowl on the small bedside table, "You are considerate and gentle, always considerate of me...Although I always think of work first, I seldom worry about it. to your feelings."

He smiled a bit shyly, but the smile faded away, "You said that I would not make the kind of mistakes that you hate and dismiss, but I can only say... the boundaries of 'mistakes' are too blurred, I'm afraid I..."

"That kind of thing...after all...very..."

Cleves finished for him, "Dirty and nasty."

"I do feel uncomfortable, but I'm not blaming you."

"...Do you want me to speak clearly? Jules. I clearly didn't do it when you wronged me. It was you..."

"I didn't!" Jules denied, "I didn't do that kind of thing... I wouldn't make that kind of mistake!"

"Why is a simple physiological reaction wrong?" Klevis couldn't bear it anymore, and asked sharply, "You want me not to think about it, but I have tried my best not to think about it, but you put your own in my head Come up..."

Jules suddenly whispered something.

"what?"

"...I feel so dirty."

Klevis was really frightened by his words, and was at a loss for a moment.Jules is so confident that he is almost narcissistic. Even if he blames himself, he still has a strong desire to make himself more perfect.That kind of domineering self-confidence is like a high-ranking king. In the past 20 years, he has never seen Jules with such an expression of self-loathing.

Clavis forced himself to calm down.Jules is arbitrary, awkward and stubborn, but has always been very reasonable, "Why is it a dirty thing to have desires for the person you like? Do you hold malice towards me? Do you want to bully me? Abuse me? Or say ... Jules, do you think I have humiliated you? So humble that I will dirty you? Even if I am not worthy of you, Jules, that's not enough."

"You think too noble of me." Jules still lowered his head, admitting in a low voice, "It's really an unbearable thing."

Clavis was taken aback.In a way, he was also terribly pure.

"If it's you...as long as it's you, no matter what you do to me, it won't be unbearable."

Jules raised his head in astonishment and looked at him suspiciously.

Cleves strengthened his tone, "Really. But... I want to know, what is the embarrassing thing?"

"I don't want to say."

"I really want to know."

"Don't ask..." Jules turned his head away again, "Don't tell me to say it myself, even if I think about it in my head, I think it's blasphemy to you. I don't want to mention this."

"Okay, I won't ask any more." Clewis reached out and stroked his cheek lightly, and the slightly hot touch between his fingers reminded him of the unusual beauty on Jules' face just now.He leaned forward until the tips of their noses touched, then turned his head slightly, and gently kissed his lips in the most gentle way.

There was no such unfamiliar estrangement in this kiss. Although it did not contain fiery passion, it was still sweet and lingering.There was thoughtful understanding, comfort, and even pity in this kiss, and they temporarily regained that long-lost warmth.

"What you just said is so stupid." Clewis smiled wryly, "Why don't I want to kiss you? It's crazy to think about it."

Jules's spirit was fully restored, looking at him with eyes so bright that they looked like strange things that could glow on their own, with a radiant look, as if the convulsion just now hadn't happened at all, and gently stretched out his arms to hug Clavis.

"No matter what happens between us... it's up to you, I'll listen to you, Jules." Klevis whispered in his lover's ear, but he immediately put his arms around Jules and whispered in his ear. While provoking in a low voice, "But your whole body has aroused my evil thoughts about you..."

"...You said you wouldn't force me."

"Am I forcing you now?"

Jules felt a little fooled, "Well, no."

"Your desire, which has been sleeping for ten years, has also awakened..." Seeing that Jules wanted to deny it again, Cleves pressed his mouth without saying a word, and continued on his own, "You should know ...that's hard to bear."

"Don't say such things... I didn't..."

"Whether you have or not. As long as you don't nod yes, I will never be rude to you. If any of us... if you are angry again, remember, I didn't mean to offend you... I Just please don't blame me." Klevis gently pressed Jules' faint dark circles, "OK? I don't want you to be angry with me all day long."

Jules recalled the troubles when he was sixteen or seven years old when he was just beginning to grow into an adult, and he couldn't help but twitch, "How can I not restrain myself? It's too, too rude... very... oh, it's too embarrassing..."

Clavis couldn't help laughing, "The usually well-behaved little guy rebelled, causing a big bag in his pants..."

"Shut up! No, don't describe..."

"Okay." Clewis put his arms around him and knocked him down, "Lie down and rest for a while... You must be exhausted after fighting almost all day and night yesterday."

Jules lay down obediently, but he held Clavis' face in both hands and refused to let go.Cleves was about to lean over to kiss him when there was an unpleasant knock on the door.

"Lord Clavis?"

It turned out to be him... Cleves sighed, stood up reluctantly, and raised his voice, "What's the matter?" He walked to the door and closed the precious door that had just separated them from the outside world. Open.

"Miss Carleen Ellen is in a hurry and asks to see you. Are you..."

"In Shengen City?"

"No, Miss Kailin has already arrived here, and her convoy is following our convoy."

Cleves was taken aback, that lady came to him through the flames of war?

"Understood. Put her in the passenger compartment of the Zicuckoo troop first, and receive her well." The Zicuckoo troop is a special all-female non-commissioned officer team in the establishment of the Sun Shadow Legion, "ask the light car to wait for me at the door of the front compartment." , I'll be there soon."

He closed the door, frowning thoughtfully.

"What's wrong with her?" Jules was a little puzzled. How could Kailin be looking for Kravis?He asked Kailin to convince his father Puna.Ellen was in the military group of the Supreme Council, with Balk.Litton's fight for military power, if this matter develops, it should be rewarded to him, and Clewis should not be sought first.

"I don't know..." Klevis lowered his voice, "She gave me the violin. I had some friendship before, but you were the one who contacted her after that. I don't know if she has anything to ask me..." But Clewis's horribly accurate premonition told him that it was bad news.

Jules stood up, "She has a high status, she must be treated well..."

Klevis pushed Jules back on the bed angrily, "You rest yours, Jules. They are looking for me..." He pointed to his nose, "The patron saint of darkness received him personally, no shame Her identity?"

"...Okay. But pay attention to etiquette."

"Do you think I'm Jeffrey? Go to sleep for a while..." Klevis gave Jules another kiss, and pressed against his ear again, "Don't forget, I love you. "It was only then that they reluctantly parted.

"...For me, just say that the person who received the violin is very grateful to her."

"it is good."

Klevis was about to leave when Jules, who had already laid down and closed his eyes, suddenly called out to him again, "Klevis..."

"what?"

"I love you too."

"...Understood." Klevis laughed, "You are so nasty."

He closed the door, and there was a 'dong' sound from the door, which should be their innocent pillow.

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