What a pity to miss the rebirth

Liu Yingnian was unprepared. It was the first time someone asked him such a question in all these years of his life.

Because the people around him have always been relatively simple and clear at a glance, basically there is no such one-to-many situation.When Li Xianghua was there, he was the only one; after Li Xianghua left, there were only scattered ONS around him, and Luo Yu was the only bed partner who maintained a relationship for a relatively long time, but because of Lin Shu's relationship, it was so intermittent. A few years; there is another person, Lin Shu.

But even when Lin Shu was the most mischievous, he just asked him, "You like him so much", "You can't forget him so much", "Is he more important than me", "Is there anything I can't compare to them?" ", "You like me, right", "Actually you like me, why don't you dare to admit it" and so on, those "he" sometimes refer to Li Xianghua, sometimes they refer to Luo Yu.

Lin Shu is clever and cunning, never asking questions like "do you like him or me".

As for the others, they would never ask him such a question.

"Who do you like?" Seeing that he didn't answer for a long time, Shui Lian asked again, those beautiful cat eyes were only as long as the palm of Liu Yingnian's eyes.

Liu Yingnian sat on the sofa for one person, turned his body to the side, and opened up a little distance.

He put one hand on his chest, trying to bury something deep in his heart, because of this question, it felt like it was about to break out of the ground, and it couldn't be suppressed.

——Is it because I love you so much that you have no fear?

——Dad, have you ever thought that if you keep rejecting me like this, I will be hurt and sad, even if I am, one day I will not be able to hold on and give up on you.At that time, Dad, what are you going to do?

--you.Liu Yingnian, you are my everything.

——In fact, you like me, why don't you dare to admit it?

——Liu Yingnian, do you miss me?

——But I miss you, every day, every hour, every moment, every second... Dad, you don't know how much I miss you...

--I love you.

—Why can't I?If even a random cat or dog picked up by the side of the road can sleep in your bed, why can't I?

——You...do you still want to be my father?

"I..." Liu Yingnian only uttered one sound and couldn't continue.

Lin Shu.

That was the only name left in his mind.

—You like me, don't you?

——In fact, you like me, why don't you dare to admit it?

I like Lin Shu.

"Why are you crying?" Shui Lian's surprised voice came from next to my ear: "Hey, why are you crying? I didn't say anything? You are a big man, don't cry! I just don't ask! Teng! Come help I persuade him! None of the men around me have ever cried! Hurry up! Ah, Captain! I, not me..."

What they said again, Liu Yingnian couldn't hear clearly, he cried, crying uncontrollably, tears flowed down, stringed into broken beads, drop by drop, falling on his white shirt, A large area of ​​the chest was wet.

When he himself died, he didn't feel anything, that feeling was still very erratic, and he didn't know what he had missed until Lin Shu died.

All the noises around him disappeared, and a familiar breath stopped beside his sofa.

Liu Yingnian reached out and grabbed the front of the person's clothes, as if grabbing a life-saving straw. He felt that if he didn't say anything, he would explode.

"I like him..." With tears streaming down his face, he confessed to another dead man in front of a man, "I like him...I like him the most in this world..."

But when he was alive, he was unwilling to admit this fact.

Liu Yingnian was crying badly.

he died.

Lin Shu also died.

He liked Lin Shu, and Lin Shu would never know about it again.

Shuang quietly looked at the man who was holding her sobbing, her eyes were cold, and she showed no expression.

"Captain!" Shui Lian covered her mouth with both hands, her eyes widened.

Shuang bent down and picked up the unconscious man, glanced at Shui Lian and Teng who were equally astonished, and said in a voice as cold as water, "Just now—"

Shui Lian responded in seconds and said cleverly, "We didn't hear anything just now."

Teng glanced at Shuang, and said lightly, "Yes."

After getting the answer she wanted, Shuang ignored them, walked past the two of them with Liu Yingnian in her arms, and went straight to the bedroom on the second floor.

Shui Lian poked her elbow, and said with a strange expression: "Hey, do you feel that the head of the group seems to be a little different? He actually hugged him and walked up without teleporting. The head of the group was not so considerate before. People. Could it be that he really likes that man?"

Teng: "..."

……

It's easy to like someone, but it's hard to forget someone.

Harder than forgetting someone is forgetting someone you love.

Harder than forgetting someone you love is pretending to forget someone you love.

……

Liu Yingnian always thought that he had lived long enough to be able to look down on some things.

Too bad he never did.

He can't look away from the past with Li Xianghua, let alone the 30 years with Lin Shu.

30 years.

How many 30 years are there in a person's life?

The 30-year relationship has grown from scratch, from shallow to deep, from strangeness to acceptance, from family affection to love, and the changes in mood have accumulated little by little and deepened little by little with the passing of each year.

After 30 years of companionship, he can no longer tell whether it is family, friendship or love. The only thing that can be confirmed is that there are all of them.

So he dare not spend too much time thinking about Lin Shu, he is afraid that if he thinks too much, he will not know how to survive in this "past" without Lin Shu.

He downplayed those 30 years as much as possible, and gently sank into the bottom of his heart.

But he forgot, he never forgot Li Xianghua in his whole life, how could he forget Lin Shu just because he met Li Xianghua?

"Then do you like Xiang or Shuang? Or do you like both of them?"

no.

She doesn't understand.

The person he likes now is neither Xiang nor Shuang.

The person he likes is called Lin Shu.

……

Shuang hugged Liu Yingnian to the bed, looked at the man with his eyes closed and tears on his face, couldn't figure out why he was crying because of a question, in his opinion, it wasn't such a difficult question to answer, Liu Yingnian Having been with Xiang for so long, and with such a deep relationship between them, compared to him, Liu Yingnian would definitely choose Xiang.

why cry?

Frost couldn't figure it out.

If you don't understand it, you don't want to.

Liu Yingnian didn't faint for long.

Shuang Xia didn't have much strength, so he woke up after lying down for a while.As soon as she opened her eyes, she saw Shuang sitting by the window sill, working with her laptop on.

Crying is a tiring thing.

Liu Yingnian seldom cried, so after crying, he would feel even more tired.

He looked at the afternoon sun outside the window, which shone through the window and fell on Shuang's body. Frost's long hair fell behind him, and his cold and alluring profile was extraordinarily beautiful and charming in the sunlight.

That's fine... don't talk... please... just sit with me like this...

Let me not be too lonely, and I can lick the wound alone.

……

In the next few days, every time Shui Lian came to see Liu Yingnian, she always looked at him strangely.

Liu Yingnian pretended not to see it. He actually remembered what happened after crying that day. Crying in front of two strangers, one of whom was a woman, was the first time he had experienced such a thing, so he had to pretend to be cheeky. Amnesia, otherwise he would be too embarrassed to talk to Shui Lian, and always feel very embarrassed.

"How are you feeling these days?"

Liu Yingnian said everything about how he feels about himself, and his attitude towards treatment has always been very pious and serious.Concealing diseases and avoiding doctors is a bad idea. Only by cooperating with doctors can patients recover faster.

"This bottle is for you. It is a pill developed by Sirius yesterday. It is mainly used to calm anxiety and tension. It has a calming effect and is good for patients with symptoms like yours and claustrophobia. You Take three pills each, and take them with water."

"Say thank you to Sirius for me."

"Don't you thank me?"

"Don't I thank you every day?"

Shui Lian rolled her eyes, "No sincerity. Where is our head? Why didn't we see him today?"

Liu Yingnian put away the medicine, glanced at the direction of the study and said, "I don't know, I haven't seen him since I woke up today, maybe he's out for something."

Shui Lian looked at him dissatisfied, "Hey, let me tell you, don't you care too much about our leader?"

Liu Yingnian's eyes moved, and he asked her calmly, "Why should I care about him?"

Shui Lian was startled by the question, remembering that day when he cried and said "I like him" in front of them, and Shuang was there at that time, that "he" must not be Shuang, and if it is not Shuang, it must be Xiang.

So Shui Lian turned her cat's eyes, shook her head regrettably, sighed again, picked her hair and said: "Although our leader has many shortcomings, he is actually not a bad person. I have wronged you, our leader must be very happy." Difficult to get along with? It's a pity that he doesn't like me, otherwise I would rather marry him. "

Liu Yingnian: "..."

Shui Lian gave him a charming smile, and gave him a look: "You're kidding, how dare I miss him, I already have a man, and you've seen it too."

Liu Yingnian raised his eyebrows.

Shui Lian giggled and said, "It's Teng."

Liu Yingnian: "..."

Shui Lian said: "Aren't we compatible? I was the one who chased him. Hey, a big man, it took me several years to chase him three times and four times. I think I was really blind at that time."

Liu Yingnian: "..."

"Actually, look, you and Teng belong to the same kind of person, and you are not very good-looking. But you have a good temper, and you are calm. You can hold the field very well, and you are not arrogant or rash. Our team leader The difference is in temper and character. It's rare to have someone he doesn't reject, I thought you would be together. It seems that you don't like our leader at all." She patted Liu Yingnian on the shoulder, "No wonder the leader said that he will send you away after your illness is cured. It seems that he really didn't lie to me."