What a pity to miss the rebirth

Li Xianghua felt Liu Yingnian's refusal and struggle in his arms, Liu Yingnian turned around firmly no matter how tightly he hugged him, and withdrew from his embrace.

Liu Yingnian pushed him away, looked up calmly, "Please don't hug me casually, you are molesting a stranger."

Li Xianghua reached out to touch his face, "What are you making trouble about?"

"Are you still Li Xianghua?" Liu Yingnian raised his hand to grab his wrist, "I don't know you."

Li Xianghua's hand stopped in mid-air, paused, and still landed on Liu Yingnian's face, "I love you."

Liu Yingnian's eyebrows and eyes are full of sadness, delicate face, delicate eyes, all the masks have been stripped off at this moment, leaving only the truth that can be seen through with one glance: "This is your answer? Love is the reason? Is there love? Can you forgive everything? Because you love me, don't I even have the right to hate you?"

Li Xianghua was silent for a long time and said: "You love me too."

At that moment, Liu Yingnian just wanted to cry up to the sky.

He was overjoyed by Li Xianghua's anger, smiling was uglier than crying, he slapped Li Xianghua's face, tears just fell down, grinning and crying: "I love you, and you know I love you? You know I love you, but you still treat me like this? You fucking know I love you, yet you still treat me like this! Li Xianghua, are you still human!"

He really had enough and couldn't hold back anymore.

For 30 years, no, 40 years, in the past 40 years, Li Xianghua, whom he thought he knew very well, turned out to be just a false appearance, a fallacy!

The man he loved so deeply in his memory was actually just an illusion deliberately created by his own body!

Liu Yingnian has been suppressing himself ever since he knew Li Xianghua's real identity.

He thought he didn't care, he thought he could look away, he thought he had already lived a long time, so he didn't need to care about it!

When Li Xianghua was in Mercenary City, he was still as gentle and warm to him as before. At that time, he even told himself that it was just an identity, and it didn’t matter anymore. , don't worry about it.

Liu Yingnian is also a man, he can understand that men have difficulties in many situations, mercenary city, soldiers with special professions, there are inevitably some secrets in their identities that cannot be clearly stated, and there is no way to deal with professional requirements, he thought for a while , is not unacceptable.

But that day in Shuang's villa, the Li Xianghua who lost his composure to reveal his original nature, was so cold and ruthless, so powerful and terrifying, he had no similarities with the Li Xianghua he knew, he was a complete stranger!

At that moment, Liu Yingnian realized that Li Xianghua not only concealed his identity when he was with him, but also concealed his nature!

This is what really scares him!

The lover who slept next to her pillow for ten years turned out to be just a gentle deception!

Who is not afraid to change?

Who doesn't want to escape?

Who can accept it?

Liu Yingnian backed down, he couldn't accept it, he couldn't afford such a Li Xianghua, and he didn't dare to have it!

Why did Li Xianghua lie to him?

Why keep him in the dark like a fool from beginning to end?

But just relying on him to do as he wished and fell in love with him!

Li Xianghua clearly knew...

know everything...

But he has been lying to him all the time...

Li Xianghua's face was slapped to the wrong side. Hearing Liu Yingnian's crying into his ears, he felt as if someone had been stabbed into his heart. Every word Liu Yingnian said hurt more than the slap on his face. .

He hugged the crying man who was on the verge of collapse, leaned against his back, and said softly and firmly, "I love you. I love you, I love you, I love you..."

His voice was calm and gentle, bit by bit, entangled in Liu Yingnian's ears over and over again, whether he wanted to listen or not, it was sealed word for word.

Once people's emotions are backlogged, they will always have to vent when they reach a certain level.

Liu Yingnian is venting now, all his dissatisfaction, aggrieved, depressed, fear, bad, failure, remorse, self-loathing, all vented in his cry, and flowed away with the cry, without image, There is no mature demeanor, just crying like this, crying loudly, venting loudly, like a newborn baby.

Men can also cry, but they don't cry often. They cry when they are under too much pressure and depression.

For many things, when there is no solution, there are only two paths left.

Either cry or laugh.

If you don't want to laugh, you can only cry.

After crying and venting, Liu Yingnian felt much better immediately. He went into the bathroom and washed his face, washing away the traces of tears, his eyes were still red and swollen, as if he had pink eye disease.

"Why haven't you left yet?"

When he came out of the bathroom, seeing that Li Xianghua was still in the room, he couldn't help being irritable again, and immediately drove him away without even thinking about it.

I have to say that the influence of the past 40 years is still very great, and Li Xianghua is also very calm and gentle today. Of course, Li Xianghua's warm embrace and repeated confession of love just now have a great effect, which greatly reduces His vigilance allowed him to selectively ignore the fact that Li Xianghua is also a superpower.

If Shuang were here, Liu Yingnian would never dare to say such a thing.

During the time when he was crying, Li Xianghua realized silently and figured out some things, such as why Liu Yingnian ran away, why he cried, and why he beat him; he also thought of some comforting methods and coping skills, For example, Liu Yingnian seems to eat both hard and soft things, but in fact he doesn't eat hard and soft things. Inside he is a stubborn rock, a big elm lump. You can't use too soft methods or too hard methods on him. It is necessary to touch him gently, but also to force him appropriately. Liu Yingnian has never been suitable for quick treatment, let alone herd.

It is estimated that he scared Liu Yingnian enough this time. Liu Yingnian had already developed a suspicion of him, and his opinion of him even retreated back to before liberation.

If Li Xianghua wanted to get back together with him, there was no rush, this matter had to be done step by step and gradually consolidated and cultivated bit by bit.

He didn't mind wasting a little more time. If he could spend ten years on Liu Yingnian, he could spend another ten years on him. Liu Yingnian belonged to him in the first place, so he couldn't run away.

"I've been looking for you for a long time, and I almost searched the entire old city before I found you."

As soon as Li Xianghua saw him coming out, he wanted to go up and hug him. It was rare for Liu Yingnian to cry. The fragility and tears that he showed just now, after the initial pricking, also scratched his heart.

When Liu Yingnian went to wash his face, he still felt a sense of emptiness in his arms.

He knew what to do to fill this emptiness, but he was afraid of scaring Liu Yingnian again, so he could only bear with it, and waited as calmly as possible until Liu Yingnian came within reach of him before stretching out his hand to hold her. Liu Yingnian's wrist.

"I want to hug you, can I?"