What a pity to miss the rebirth

"Young people, take good care of your body. You can't finish your work. You don't need to work so hard," the doctor in a white coat said earnestly. ?”

"..." Liu Yingnian looked at this doctor who was obviously much younger than his actual age, his eyelids twitched, but he still nodded sincerely and humbly.

Let’s do it again, back to the young age, there are too many things to learn to adapt to, such as now, it’s too embarrassing to be called a young man by someone younger than me, the old face is so ashamed that I can’t have any Objections!

"Remember to take the anti-inflammatory medicine, and hang water for another day tomorrow." The doctor simply ordered.

"Okay, thank you doctor, see you tomorrow."

It was still early to come out of the hospital, Liu Yingnian looked at the sky, thought about it, and decided to go home.

The car stopped at a red light, and he counted down silently following the red numbers boredly. His gaze swept across the roadside inadvertently, and when he saw a children's clothing store, he couldn't help being dazzled, and suddenly remembered the child he had seen today.

There is still half a year to go, according to the trajectory of the previous life, the child will come to his house in half a year, he wondered in a daze, should he prepare some clothes for the child in advance, so as to avoid being in a hurry...

There was a piercing sound of a car from behind, and he was taken aback for a moment, only to realize that the traffic light had turned green, so he quickly started the car and continued on.

Liu Yingnian felt that he was very pathetic. Just before he left the house today, he thought that if he wanted to live only for himself in this life, no matter whether it was Li Xianghua or Lin Shu, he didn't intend to have any entanglements with them anymore.

But what?When I saw that child as a child, I still couldn't remain indifferent.

He could be cruel to Li Xianghua, but he couldn't turn a blind eye to that child whose whole life was ruined by him.

How can things like feelings be easily broken up once they have been touched?

Even if he could be ruthless to himself and to that child, he couldn't lie to himself, and the result of deception would only hurt everyone.

He has been deceiving himself and others all his life, forbearance and restraint all his life, even if he really wants to let go of the deep feelings he once had, it will probably take a long, long time to settle down.

The idea before going out, after an unexpected test, it seems that it needs to be carefully considered.

It was too simple for him to think.

……

For dinner, he made pumpkin porridge. Considering that he had a fever, it would be best not to eat greasy and spicy food, so he cooked mushrooms and green vegetables, and made a stewed fish head tofu.

When the meal was ready, Li Xianghua happened to be back, as if he was pinching the order so that people had nothing to say.

After washing his hands, Li Xianghua touched his forehead naturally, measured his current temperature, and said with a sigh of relief: "The temperature is normal, it seems to have stabilized, have you been to the hospital?"

Liu Yingnian himself admired his calm mentality. In those years, in order to avoid the child's feelings, he had to force himself to treat him indifferently. Skill, facing Li Xianghua now, it is really a piece of cake.

"I've been there. The doctor said that the water will be hung for another day tomorrow." He closed the lid of the rice cooker, took two bowls of pumpkin porridge, turned around and put them on the dining table.

"Then hang up. I'm here for the company's affairs, so you don't have to worry. You can rest at home these few days and go to work after your health is fully recovered." Li Xianghua said, "Ying Nian, you have to listen to everything you say this time. Mine, don't say no."

"It's just a fever..." Liu Yingnian used to try to be brave again, but seeing Li Xianghua raised his eyebrows, he stopped talking, smiled faintly and said helplessly, "Okay, this time it's up to you."

Only then was Li Xianghua satisfied, he frowned and smiled softly, like a quietly blooming magnolia flower, extraordinarily beautiful.

Liu Yingnian was fascinated again just looking at it. For many years, since the person in front of him left him without hesitation, he has never seen such a smile again.

Yes, it's just those repeated gains and losses in the dream.

In the few years before Li Xianghua left, he lived by constantly recalling such a smile.

"Ying Nian, what's the matter? Let's eat." Li Xianghua sat down at the table, looked at his lover who was still standing there in a daze, and raised his eyebrows slightly.

"Oh." He replied, and then sat down.

"Are you feeling unwell again?" Li Xianghua asked concerned.

"I'm probably a little tired. I'll be fine in a while." His expression returned to normal, and he smiled slightly, "Let's eat."

Li Xianghua looked at him disapprovingly and said: "You are still sick, you should go to rest when you come back, and you should leave the meals until I come back to cook. Why are you always so ignorant of taking care of yourself? If one day I'm gone , what can you do?"

He was just talking casually, in fact, he has been used to Liu Yingnian's brave and desperate appearance over the years, every time he talks about him, he always speaks nicely, and he still does things in his own way, if he is not by his side all the time Looking after him, Liu Yingnian had already been plagued by a bunch of illnesses, big and small, and he had to go in and out of the hospital so many times.

Li Xianghua knew in his heart that this man could not live without himself.

But he wasn't too worried. Although a man doesn't know how to take care of himself, he can take care of him with him. They agreed to hold hands, shoulder to shoulder, and grow old together.

Hearing this, Liu Yingnian lowered his head and took a sip of pumpkin porridge, drinking all his thoughts into his stomach.

He knew that Li Xianghua just said it casually, and now he hasn't changed his mind, there is no other meaning in the words, he thinks he should smile, comparing what Li Xianghua will do in the future, he should laugh, because what he said sounds like a joke at the moment Same.

He wanted to laugh, but couldn't.

what to do?What else can I do?Even if Li Xianghua is not around, he still lives on day after day, no matter how big or painful the wound is, as long as the person is not dead, there will always be medicine to cure it.

It's just that the lover has run away, it's just that the love is broken, there is no antidote, time is the best antidote, and love transfer is also a good way to treat broken love.

Everyone knows common sense, but the difficulty of doing it varies from person to person.

Some people can think about it in a day, and some people may not think about it for a lifetime.

Li Xianghua will never know how long it took him to forget him.

Because I really loved it with all my heart.

"This porridge is really good." Li Xianghua praised the pumpkin porridge after tasting it, and then tasted the dishes, "The fried mushrooms and vegetables are also delicious, and this fish is really delicious, without any earthy smell .”

"Really?" he asked looking up.

Li Xianghua nodded in praise and said: "I can't see that you have developed a good cooking skill after being ill for a long time."

Because the soul in this shell is already 30 years old, Liu Yingnian thought to himself, no matter how bad his cooking skills are, even if he has been an exclusive cook for 30 years, he is no longer the one who made food that is only edible Liu Yingnian is here.

His cheap son is not so easy to raise.

Liu Yingnian jokingly said, "Maybe it's because the sense of taste has changed after having a fever, so I can make this kind of taste. When the illness recovers, maybe my cooking skills will return to its original shape."

Li Xianghua smiled, rolled his eyes at him, and said amusedly: "You say that, do I hope you recover from your illness soon, or do you not want to recover?"

He thought for a while and said, "Why don't you?"

In exchange for a slight anger, there is a crooked smile: "Stupid."

In all fairness, Li Xianghua has always been very kind to him, except for the fact that he finally got rid of him and ran away with other men.

The two know each other well, they have supported each other for ten years, and have endured all kinds of hardships together. Many times, Li Xianghua takes care of him more than he takes care of himself. Even if he doesn't have any good things, he will still think about Liu Yingnian. he got it.

Li Xianghua never disliked him, never complained a word, he was with him, no matter how poor or poor he was, he never complained about him.

Li Xianghua never avoided him when he was sick.Regardless of whether he has a fever or a cold, it is always how to sleep or how to sleep, or lie on the same bed with him, at most share a quilt.

Lying on the bed, Liu Yingnian sighed secretly as he looked at the sleeping person beside him.

He was thinking for a moment just now, now that Li Xianghua hasn't empathized with that wild man, he decided to break up with this man so privately, it seems to be unfair to the current Li Xianghua.

After all, he loved him once, and he has personally experienced the future. If he prevents any accidents before they happen and cuts off all possibilities of Li Xianghua's derailment, maybe in this life he can grow old with Li Xianghua...

When he thought of this, he was also a little moved.

But a pair of indifferent eyes immediately appeared in front of his eyes, thinking of the paranoid person who gave him a headache, thinking of all the things that person did, the excitement in his heart disappeared immediately.

Then I slowly thought, even if this Li Xianghua had never done anything to be sorry for him, but the betrayal in the last life had hurt him severely, no matter how generous he is, true love can forgive everything, but he can't do nothing at all. Don't care about it.

If he chooses to end up with Li Xianghua in this life, then in the days to come, no one can guarantee that this care and aversion will never appear.

What's more, he still didn't know why Li Xianghua flirted with others. He couldn't figure out what was so good about that wild man and what attracted Li Xianghua. If he couldn't figure this out, he would never be able to avoid the fate of being dumped.

He can guard Lin Mao, but he can't guard Li Mao, Wang Mao, Zhang Mao...

One Lin Mao fell down, and there were thousands of Lin Mao hidden in the dark.

The human heart cannot be seen, touched, or guarded against.

It's better to separate.

With such awareness, Liu Yingnian slowly sank into a dream.