What a pity to miss the rebirth

Liu Yingnian found himself having that weird dream again.

Yes, strange dream.

He seemed to be standing behind a dark room, separated by a transparent invisible wall, looking at the other side of the wall, looking at the child he had raised for 30 years.

Lin Shu's condition is very bad, he is sick.

"Dad...Dad..." The stern young man lying on the bed was talking unconsciously in his sleep, calling his father all the time.

Liu Yingnian recognized that it was his own bedroom, Lin Shu slept there, on his bed, leaning on his pillow, hugging his quilt, seemed very uncomfortable, closed his eyes, frowned Together, his face was blue, his lips were white, and his head was covered with cold sweat.

"Dad...Dad..."

There were prescription medicines on the bedside table, Liu Yingnian looked at the date when the medicine was prescribed, and then looked at the calendar, and compared it, the medicine was prescribed two weeks ago.

Lin Shu had a low-grade fever. He went to the hospital and prescribed medicine, but it didn't help. He had a fever on and off for two weeks.

Liu Yingnian bowed his head, two weeks, exactly from the day he fell to his death from the cliff to today.

He sometimes thinks, what did Lin Shu do wrong, why should he be treated like this, this child just likes the wrong person, loves the wrong person, neither kills nor sets fire... just falls in love with someone who can't The person who responded to him...

In the end, Liu Yingnian really didn't have the strength to hold on to the branch, and when he let go and fell, he couldn't tell if he was relieved. He felt that it was time for him to let go, and he was already in his fifties. Half a hundred years later, Lin Shu was only 34 years old, which was a very good age. After he died, Lin Shu would no longer have to worry about falling in love with another person again. Lin Shu was still young, and it was not too late.

Xie Fengyou said that he couldn't think about it, that Lin Shu's father was his father, and his father robbed Li Xianghua, what happened to Guan Linshu?He said that he shouldn't take his anger out on Lin Shu because of Lin Mao's affairs, and persuaded him to send him away if he really didn't have that kind of intention towards Lin Shu. When benevolence and righteousness are exhausted, Bodhisattvas are not like this, and they can't be dragged to death by Lin Shu for the rest of their lives.

All these years Xiefeng Xun watched from the sidelines, not to mention very clearly about the matter between Lin Shu and him, but he also knew a lot about it.Liu Yingnian remembered that Xiefeng Xun's complexion was not good at the beginning, and he talked about sending Lin Shu to a foster school, but after a long time, Xiefeng Xun was not as cruel to Lin Shu as he was at the beginning Now, apart from Li Xianghua, Liu Yingnian softened his tone when he saw Xie Feng for the second time to the people who appeared beside him.

In fact, at the end, Xie Fengyong also recognized it, and he could see that the only person who could really accompany Liu Yingnian was Lin Shu.

But what made him angry was that Liu Yingnian didn't even think about it when he wanted to.

"Is Li Xianghua so good? You can't forget him in 30 years?"

On the day of Liu Yingnian's 55th birthday, Xie Fengyong ran to his house to drink with him all night, and at the end of the drink he lay down on the table and muttered a lot.

"Niannian, you like me, right? The person you liked first, was me, right? I like you too... I like you too..." Xie Fengyou hummed and sang a ditty after finishing speaking, A person laughs happily.

Liu Yingnian was also drunk, but not as drunk as Xie Fengyong.

He looked up and saw Lin Shu standing not far behind Xie Fengyao, leaning against the window, standing in the half-light and half-darkness, unable to see his expression clearly.

Lin Shu didn't say anything, but Liu Yingnian felt it was worse than what he said.

There were three kalpas in his life, and when he thought he was about to pass the third kalpa, it turned out that he didn't even escape the first kalpa.

It's boring, really boring.

What is life?

Life is a lie.

Lies throughout, one after another.

What is the point of being alive?

It's boring, it's really boring.

It's just that you lied to me, I lied to you, and you lied to yourself.

The guest left, and was carried back by someone called by Lin Shu who knew about the house.

On the table in the restaurant, there are still large unfinished birthday cakes, candles, red wine, wine glasses, and dishes that have not been touched much on the table.

The lights were switched off again, and the candles were lit again.

Liu Yingnian was drunk, somewhat sober, but not at all sober.

He is also 55 years old. After drinking so much, how can he not get drunk no matter how good he is?

With no outsiders around, only Lin Shu and him are left at home.

Lin Shu's eyes were red, and he stared at him ferociously. He slapped his blocking hands away, and sat on his lap with his legs spread apart. The weight made his thigh hurt.

"Is what he said true? Do you like him?" The young man asked him fiercely, his expression was as if his wife had cheated on her, but there was a bit of grievance in his voice, like a baby, not at all. What the media say is calm, reserved, taciturn and indifferent.

"No, it's not..." Liu Yingnian drank too much, and his tongue was a little big.

"I knew you two were not that simple. He must have a problem with you! Otherwise, how could he explain that such a big company doesn't want to stay in our company?" Lin Shu was so angry that he gnawed on his mouth. With one bite, he bit his lips, and he laughed angrily: "His eldest son is 20 years old and he is still not married. What does he want to do? Does he still want to spend his whole life with you? If you are single, he will never get married. Old Is it possible to move here and live with you? He has a good idea! Do you think he is acting in a fairy tale? No way! As long as I am here, it will be impossible!"

Lin Shu is just an old hen, and Liu Yingnian is his one-third of an acre of land. Lin Shu is very good at protecting food, he dominates Liu Yingnian, and he never thought of giving it up to others if he protected him!

"He didn't mean that, he was just drunk and talking nonsense..." Liu Yingnian had a headache.

"Do you like him?" Lin Shu forced him to ask, his eyes became more and more red, and he was going crazy with jealousy. He unbuttoned his shirt, reached in and pinched him, and pressed his face against him. Yes, said bitterly: "Say, have you ever liked him? Dad."

"Don't... stop..." Liu Yingnian grabbed his hand that was making trouble everywhere, opened his drunken eyes, and looked at Lin Shu panting lightly: "Don't forget, you promised me, Lin Shu .”

A long line of sadness flashed across Lin Shu's long black eyes.

Liu Yingnian thought he was crying, or was about to cry, but he saw that there was steam in Lin Shu's eyes, but Lin Shu just lowered his head, and after a while, he slowly let go of his hands and got up from him. .

"Is it because I love you so much that you have no fear?"

With his back turned to him, Lin Shu left step by step, opened the door, and left the old man over fifty years old at home.

The room was so quiet at night, every word that the quiet Lin Shu said could clearly enter Liu Yingnian's ears.

Liu Yingnian felt like a thorn in his heart, the pain was severe.

He wanted to call Lin Shu to stop, but he opened his mouth, but couldn't make a sound. No matter what, the simple two words just didn't come out.

Lin Shu asked him before: "Dad, have you ever thought that if you keep rejecting me like this, I will be hurt and sad, even if I am, one day I will not be able to support you and give up on you. At that time, Dad , what are you going to do?"

Lin Shu now...is he going to give up on him...

The candles on the table finally burned out.

Sitting in the dark, Liu Yingnian realized that there was no one beside him.

There is no unblocking, no Li Xianghua, and no Lin Shu.

He was alone, alone, sitting until dawn.

Dawn breaks in the east, the sky turns white, and the sun like salted duck egg yolk rises from the skyline.

Another new beginning.

Liu Yingnian sobered up, looking at the mess on the table, he suddenly felt that his persistence all this time was a fart.

Isn't it just a father and son name?He is over fifty and still cares about such a false name?In the early years when he was just with Li Xianghua, didn't he lose his reputation at that time?Still alive?The one who should care about fame is Lin Shu.Lin Shu himself doesn't care anymore, he cares for others?He worked hard with good intentions, desperately trying to maintain the dignity of the two of them, what can he do if they don't appreciate him?He is just a foster father, not a textbook.At most, Lin Shu would go through what he and Li Xianghua met when they were young, and he would not be able to die.Anyway, with him?

He couldn't even lose Lin Shu.

Then he would really become a loner.

Although Lin Shu's love is paranoid, but the paranoia has been placed on him for 30 years, if it really disappears all at once, he will probably die.

Liu Yingnian had reported to a travel agency before to go on a mountain climbing adventure.

He had thought about it, and when he came back from this trip, if the two of them had not changed their minds, he would bow his head once, give in, and promise Lin Shu that he would live a good life with Lin Shu in the future.

So good luck tricks people.

"Dad...Dad..."

In the dream, Liu Yingnian couldn't do anything, he could only watch the man curled up in the blanket, lying alone, shivering all over his body, calling Dad back and forth.