What a pity to miss the rebirth

There is a very sweet love in front of you, but you know in advance that it is only valid for half a year, and you will fall from heaven to hell after half a year. If there is such a love in front of you, will you accept it?

It's hard.

why?

Because I have experienced this kind of love once, the painful feeling is still engraved in the bone marrow, and I can't forget the feeling of being betrayed. I don't want to experience the same injury for the same person again.

But you are not as relieved as you appear, you are not really indifferent to him, don't lie to yourself, you have never forgotten him, and you still like him.

I……

Is your rejection of that child really just because you want to protect the so-called face in your mouth?Just to maintain that unrelated father-son relationship?Don't be hypocritical, the reason why you keep rejecting that child is not because you still have a ridiculous obsession with the past?

I...just can't see it...yes, I can't see it...

Choose, either accept love, or end love.

If only it could be as easy as it said, I have lived my whole life, but I still can't see it, am I a bit stupid.

……Um.

"What are you doing?" A boy's voice came from behind.

"I'm talking to myself." Liu Yingnian turned his head and smiled at the boy.

"Facing the moon?" The boy's voice was a little unflattering.

"The moon is the best companion to confide in." Liu Yingnian looked at Luo Yu who walked to her side and was also looking at the night sky, and asked with a smile, "Did you finish your homework?"

Luo Yu said indifferently: "It's not difficult, just do it casually."

Liu Yingnian said hehe: "Don't underestimate the first year of high school, or you will be underestimated by the third year of high school two years later."

"Whatever, anyway, I don't plan to go to any good school."

"It's different." Liu Yingnian smiled meaningfully, "The treatment you get when you get into a good university is different from that of an ordinary university."

"So what, looking for a job after graduation is the same as a college degree." Luo Yu still looked indifferent.

"But it's different when I was in school. A good university dormitory has its own bathroom. You can take a bath alone. Ordinary or inferior ones are public bathhouses. A group of people take off their clothes and wash together," Liu Ying Nian looked at him sideways, was satisfied to see the boy's discolored face, and continued to tease him: "Looking at each other, you can also rub your back, grab the shower, accidentally touch your skin, ha ha, just think of it." Nosebleeds."

Luo Yu's expression could no longer be described as ugly. The young man pondered for a while and raised his head to ask the young man beside him: "How do you think I will work hard for the dormitory with its own bathroom?"

The young man replied with a smile: "Good idea."

"I think so too." The young man nodded, then glanced at him, and said with a half-smile, "Liu Yingnian, did I ever tell you that you have to go to the public bathhouse to take a bath in our place?"

Now it was Liu Yingnian's turn to change color.

"Looking at each other, you can rub your backs, grab the shower, accidentally touch your skin, hehe, just thinking about it makes people nosebleed." Luo Yu patted him on the shoulder soothingly, turned around and turned back. I went to work hard for the dormitory with its own bathroom.

"..." Liu Yingnian looked at the sky speechlessly.

There was the sound of a door opening next door, Liu Yingnian looked sideways and saw a tall and thin young man coming out of the room.

That is the last resident of the house. When this building was built, it was probably for safety or other reasons. The door of the house on both sides of each floor is in a different direction from the other houses. The door is designed to be at right angles to the door of Luo Yu's house.

The young man looked a few years older than Liu Yingnian. He was a gentle and handsome man with fair skin and a morbid beauty. He wore a pair of black-rimmed eyes, his bangs were so long that they almost covered his eyes, and his hair was longer. It has grown to the knees, and it looks like an artist at first glance. The most incomprehensible thing is that he is only wearing a black turtleneck jumper and a pair of slim pants on such a cold day.

Liu Yingnian couldn't help but fight for him just by watching it.

The young man was holding a small washbasin in his hand, and there was a pile of things in the washbasin. He walked up to Liu Yingnian and gave him a friendly smile. He couldn't tell whether it was malicious or kind, and asked: "Mr. Liu, do you want to go together?" The bathhouse?"

His voice was soft and gentle, very calm and polite.

Before Liu Yingnian could react, the long-haired youth opened the door of Luo Yu's house again, and shouted inside: "Little Luo Yu, do you want to take a bath?"

Luo Yu replied loudly in the room: "I have already washed it, Uncle Yue, go and wash it yourself."

"I'm leaving."

"it is good."

Liu Yingnian entered the room and asked uncertainly, "Did he say that on purpose?"

Luo Yu looked up at him and smiled, "Uncle Yue sometimes makes a little joke."

Liu Yingnian was stunned: "Did he hear our conversation just now?"

Luo Yu nodded.

"Is there no sound insulation here?" Liu Yingnian couldn't understand.

"Yes, but it's not very good. We were standing in the aisle just now, and we could hear what we were talking at night more clearly." Luo Yu looked at him with pity, "The whole floor can probably be heard."

"..." Liu Yingnian closed the door silently, deciding to stay inside.

"Liu Yingnian, you've never lived in this kind of place before." The boy who had been reading suddenly asked, he meant such a small house with no kitchen, no bathroom, no toilet, and poor sound insulation.

Liu Yingnian couldn't see his expression, so he answered honestly: "No, it's the first time."

"Your life is really good." The young man said, "It looks like you have never suffered."

Liu Yingnian: "..."

When going to bed at night, the boy generously gave up half of the bed, "Fortunately, you and I are not fat, otherwise you won't be able to sleep."

Liu Yingnian said apologetically, "Sorry, I have to occupy half of your bed."

Luo Yu said, "Why are you still wearing a turtleneck sweater while sleeping?"

Because there are a lot of strawberries growing on it.

Liu Yingnian didn't have the face to say such an answer.

He coughed uncomfortably, "I like to sleep in a sweater."

"Rich people have a lot of problems." Luo Yu glanced at him sideways, turned on the lamp, and then quickly got into her bed.

The two of them lay side by side on the bed, both of them were not used to it, and neither of them fell asleep after tossing and turning for a long time.

"Liu Yingnian," Luo Yu said first, staring at the young man with eyes adapted to the darkness, "When did you know that you like boys?"

"Twelve or thirteen..." Liu Yingnian paused and said, "I don't remember clearly."

"How did you find out?" There was a little more searching in the boy's tone.

"It's just that I vaguely realized that I didn't like girls. At that time, half of the topics discussed among the boys in the class were girls, but I was not interested at all." As a senior, Liu Yingnian could imagine Luo Yu's What kind of mood does one ask such a question? A person must be very scared when faced with such a thing, right?Back then, before Xie Fengyou knew about this matter, he was also afraid all the way here, and it was very hard to hide it.

Liu Yingnian said while recalling: "I don't like them, their eyes light up when they hear a girl, they don't blush when they talk to a girl, and they don't know whether it has anything to do with whether a girl has big breasts or small breasts. , being confessed by a girl feels ridiculous... But on the contrary, I like to get close to boys, and when I get close, my heart beats faster."