What a pity to miss the rebirth

It was already past lunch time when Liu Yingnian hung up the video and exited from the chat software. He closed his laptop, sat on the bed and stared blankly for a while. He heard the kitten's weak and small cry, knowing that it was hungry, and went down again. The bed fed Xixi some more milk, Xixi yelped twice, and he went to the kitchen to get a small piece of fish for it, Xixi looked very happy, licked his mouth in satisfaction after eating, and He raised his paw and wiped his face.

Shuang didn't come back, so Liu Yingnian ate lunch alone.

He steamed the rice, cooked a stir-fried zucchini, and reheated the unfinished soybean rib soup in the refrigerator. After the rice was steamed, he ate it with the rice.

He chatted with Jie Feng about a lot of company matters, and said some meaningless nonsense, until now he was surrounded by the smell of food, his stomach was comfortable, and he was also comfortable, so he was in the mood to carefully analyze what Jie Feng told him. those messages.

What does it mean for the three big men to go to the Ji family to ask for someone?The answer is self-evident.

The mercenary city is the master of the Ji family.

Unexpected, but also reasonable.Liu Yingnian was not too surprised, he attributed this to the fact that he already knew the status of the Ji family brothers in the Mercenary City.Yu is the leader of the mercenary city, and sits firmly as the city lord; Shuang is the head of the Tianhu Kingdom, who is under one person and above ten thousand.Their status is both strength and power.It is an exaggeration to say that the Mercenary City is a subsidiary property of the Ji family.

Thinking of what happened to him shocked even a big man like Ji Boyang, the corners of Liu Yingnian's lips twitched, without any sense of reality.It’s not that he admires Ji Boyang so much, it’s that such a powerful person is too far away from them. No big deal basically belongs to the relationship that he will never see each other in his life. In his previous life, he just watched the images of big shots on newspapers and TV. That's all.

only--

Liu Yingnian stood by the pool and fell into a state of absent-mindedness, the water in the pool was splashing.

"As long as you're alive, there's no problem coming back."

The words Xie Fengxue said rang in his ears again, and Liu Yingnian's mood now was as heavy as Xie Fengxue's expression when he spoke.

The Ji family did not directly agree to release him.

If he had promised, he wouldn't be here now.

He could understand that Ji Boyang and the other three had reached a consensus, probably that Mercenary City would not force Liu Yingnian to stay, and Liu Yingnian could return to Xincheng at any time.But the prerequisite is that Liu Yingnian is alive.

Liu Yingnian had to have this life to survive in order to have a chance to return to Xincheng.

He was very upset.

It's not that he thought too much, but that what happened yesterday is too telling. Ji Xingyuan's appearance, he was almost shot, and he was almost drowned after being shot...

Liu Yingnian raised his hand to rub the center of his eyebrows, the cold water on his hand touched his forehead, the cool feeling pulled him back to his senses, and then he remembered that he was washing the dishes, his hands were full of water...

Ji Boyang, Ji Xingyuan...

Liu Yingnian now has a headache when he thinks of these two names. If he hadn't cultivated well, he would have wanted to growl in his heart, how could he meet two such difficult characters!

At this time, the doorbell rang, and Liu Yingnian heard it. He washed the soap foam off his hands with water, dried his hands, and prepared to open the door.

The person who can ring the doorbell is definitely not Frost.Shuang never rings the doorbell, either directly opens the door to come in, or simply comes in without opening the door.

Liu Yingnian guessed that the people coming from the door were either Sirius or Lin Lan, and there were only two people who knew they lived here and might come.The former is a little more likely, the latter hasn't been seen in a while.But Sirius just came yesterday, and there is no need for diagnosis and treatment today, so what is he doing here?

Liu Yingnian was still laughing at himself before opening the door, Sirius would never come to him for a drink and chat, Sirius' dislike of homosexuality can be seen by everyone.

The door opened, and the two people inside and outside the door looked at each other, and for a moment, they had the illusion of not knowing what day and night it was.

Liu Yingnian was still in a daze, but Li Xianghua had already smiled gently and said to him, "Yingnian, it's me."

With the warm wind blowing outside, Li Xianghua was wearing a well-fitting casual outfit, with a very short and energetic haircut. The afternoon sun was blazing, hitting him, and his whole body was radiant and handsome.

Liu Yingnian's first reaction after regaining consciousness was to pinch his thigh, Li Xianghua's thigh.

Li Xianghua didn't have this opportunity at all, so he took the opportunity to firmly grasp Liu Yingnian's hand, pushed him into the door and turned half a circle, closed the door, pressed against the back of the door, pressed him tightly with his body, kissed him.

He kissed eagerly and passionately, lingering and domineering, the suffocating kiss made Liu Yingnian breathless.

For a moment, Liu Yingnian was very uneasy and uncomfortable. He wanted to avoid it, but he was pressed so hard by Li Xianghua that he couldn't move, so he could only accept it passively.

The restlessness and flustered emotions in his body were quickly soothed by Li Xianghua's uninterrupted deep kisses and moving hands up and down.

"Don't reject me." Li Xianghua's breath sprayed on Liu Yingnian's face, ears, and neck. He bent one leg and squeezed between the trembling man's legs. The hem of his shirt was stretched in, and he stroked back and forth along the sensitive and slender waistline of the man. He kissed Liu Yingnian and said, "I miss you. Yingnian, I miss you... I'm going crazy thinking about it... "

Liu Yingnian could only pant after being teased by him, he couldn't say no to him, and he was furious because he also missed him very much in his heart, and couldn't say it... Soon, surrounded by familiar atmosphere, He responded, and wrapped his arms around Li Xianghua's neck...

"Dong dong dong!" There was a not-so-loud knock on the door, and at the same time there was a very regular doorbell.

"Someone..." Liu Yingnian still had a sliver of reason.

"They are all damned!" Li Xianghua cursed in his ear, but let him go.

Liu Yingnian's cheeks were hot, and he looked down at his shirt, most of the buttons were unbuttoned, the belt was also taken off, and the trousers fell to his ankles at some point... He didn't need to look in the mirror, he knew what he was doing right now. What kind of virtue, if the knock on the door is later, he and Li Xianghua will have sex in a hurry...

Liu Yingnian didn't want to have sex with Li Xianghua in this villa, thinking about it after waking up would be very repulsive.

This is Frost's house.

He was glad someone interrupted them.

It took a little time to get dressed and tidy up. Before opening the door, Li Xianghua kissed him and complained, "We are lovers, but it's like having an affair."

The door opened again, and this time, it was the Lin family father and son standing outside.

Lin Mao hugged his son and said with a smile, "Excuse me."

Liu Yingnian and Lin Shu in his arms stared wide-eyed, the little baby's black pupils flashed a look he couldn't see through, but it quickly turned into a sweet smile, and stretched out his hands to him and said: " Uncle hug."

Li Xianghua: "..."

Lin Mao: "..."

Liu Yingnian hugged Lin Shu, and entered the living room with Li Xianghua and Lin Mao.

Lin Mao glanced at his son who was sitting in Liu Yingnian's arms, and sighed silently in his heart, with the smile on his face still unchanged, "Although I don't want to disturb your two-person world, but time is limited, I think it's better to get down to business first. Good. Mr. Liu, Yixiang probably hasn't told you about our visit, right?"

Liu Yingnian was embarrassed, "Uh, not yet."

Lin Mao glanced at Li Xianghua, and Li Xianghua played dumb indifferently.

Before he came here, he had promised Lin Mao that he would never have sex with his brains, but God knows that he and Liu Yingnian had been separated for so long, and he hadn't found anyone else, so it was too embarrassing for him not to touch Liu Yingnian.

Lin Mao was too lazy to waste time on this question, he smiled, "My baby hasn't seen Mr. Liu for too long, so I know we're coming, so I'll follow you to see you no matter what."

Liu Yingnian looked down at Lin Shu and smiled softly, and asked him, "Do you want some fruit? There are strawberries, mangoes and watermelons, which one do you want?"

Lin Shu raised his small face and looked at him, "I'll eat whatever uncle feeds you."

Li Xianghua was annoyed for a while, and said with a dark face: "How old are you and still need to be fed?"

Lin Mao and Lin Shu looked at him together, and Liu Yingnian also looked at him, "He is a child, what do you care about with him?"

As he said that, he put Lin Shu on the sofa, got up and went to the kitchen to cut some fruits. The strawberries were washed while cooking, and they were also brought over.

Li Xianghua and Lin Shu stared at each other, this was the case every time they met, last time, and this time too.

Some people are naturally conflicted and cannot coexist peacefully.

Lin Mao was also polite, and took a chopped mango, "Xiang was imprisoned in the mercenary city before and couldn't get out. Today, we took the risk to release him because Yu and Shuang were away. But There shouldn’t be much time, and the effect of mind power won’t last long, so he has to go back before the power of mind expires. I’m here to make sure I can bring Xiang back on time, and let him tell you about other things.”

Liu Yingnian looked at Li Xianghua after listening.

Li Xianghua also looked at him: "Sirius said that you want to break Liushang's seal."

Liu Yingnian snorted and sneered twice, "Do you have anything to say?"

Li Xianghua seldom saw Liu Yingnian sneer at him like this. He knew that Liu Yingnian still cared about the things that happened to his memory. This matter was Li Xianghua's fault, but in that situation at that time, Liu Yingnian didn't believe it at all. Him, he couldn't ask the reason, so he could only choose to ask Liushang to help.Do it all over again, he will still make such a decision.

"What Liushang sealed is only a small part of your memory, except that you know that I and Nifeng have known each other for a long time, and that the threat box was sent by Mercenary City, there is basically nothing particularly important in it. .Yingnian, if you are not very persistent, I do not recommend that you unblock."

Lin Shu suddenly raised his head to look at Li Xianghua.

Liu Yingnian fed Lin Shu two strawberries, and asked calmly, "Why?"

"Because Liushang's mind power is limited, it can only have three effects on each person, and every time memory is activated, it will actually cause great damage to your mental value. Correspondingly, your mind power to Liu Shang will also Produce antibodies, after three times, all memory seals will be invalid for you."

"Wouldn't that be great? Then I won't have to be fiddled with my memory by you."

"However, you will suffer a great deal of pain when you release the seal, and you have to bear a great risk. Unlocking the memory seal will cause more damage to your mental value than when you sealed it, and it may also cause other negative mental effects." Li Xianghua He looked at him with some hesitation and said, "If it's something else, I won't stop you, but it has something to do with the spiritual aspect. I...you used to..."

He didn't say the whole thing, but Liu Yingnian knew what he was referring to, so his expression changed slightly.

"Eat, uncle." A small hand stretched out in front of Liu Yingnian, holding a strawberry in the palm.

Liu Yingnian looked at the strawberry handed to his mouth, and remembered that it was not only him and Li Xianghua, but also Lin Shu and his own father, so his complexion improved a little, he smiled at the little baby, and put the kind strawberry in front of him. One bite into the mouth.

Seeing him eating it, Lin Shu brought another one to his lips.

The child's innocent eyes were irresistible, and Liu Yingnian ate another one from his hand.

Lin Mao saw that Li Xianghua's face became more and more gloomy and expressionless, and he looked at the interaction between his son and Liu Yingnian. Either his son had been a man with superb skills since he was a child, or he watched too many TV dramas. I don't know who I learned it from.As a father, Lin Mao didn't know whether to be proud or worried.

Pride is because his son is naturally romantic, and worry is because he is worried about the safety of his son's life.

If possible, he still hoped that Liu Yingnian would disappear from this world, and it would be shameful to keep him. The most important thing is that his son's life is not guaranteed at all.

Unfortunately, the time is wrong...

Lin Mao thought regretfully, otherwise, he would have to fight for both sides, and he would have to... It can only be said that his luck was bad.It can also be said that Liu Yingnian was very lucky.

Lin Mao smiled and raised his eyebrows, half guessing and half wondering: "Mr. Liu has suffered from mental or psychological diseases before?"

This is actually easy to guess. Although Li Xianghua didn’t say much, Lin Mao is very familiar with Liushang’s ability, which can cause negative effects on the spirit, which means that all diseases that are mainly dominated by mental power may relapse, and mental diseases In the final analysis, and psychological diseases are actually related to mental power.

Li Xianghua closely watched Liu Yingnian's changes.

Lin Shu also quietly clenched his little hand.

Liu Yingnian's nervous system jumped a few times uncontrollably, his browbones and the corners of his eyes twitched slightly. Patients didn't like to mention the diseases they had, especially psychological and spiritual diseases. I don't like to say these things.

"Yeah." He seemed to be calm and nodded his head.

It seemed indifferent, but in fact, he was not as relaxed as he appeared in his heart.

He has a history of depression, and now he has a history of claustrophobia, as well as other psychological problems, not to mention whether those diseases have been cured. Mental diseases are the most likely to leave sequelae. If they all relapse, Liu Yingnian didn't dare to think about how terrifying the result would be.

Liu Yingnian also knew that Li Xianghua stopped him for his own sake, if he was smart, it would be best to give up memory recovery as Li Xianghua said.

The picture flashed in front of Liu Yingnian's eyes, it was a pale hospital ward, a dark basement, and himself scratching his wrist with a knife...

He unconsciously grabbed his collar, loosened it and then loosened it, his eyes were a little dazed and uneasy, and he suddenly felt uneasy. He hugged Lin Shu tightly in his arms again, The strength was completely unconscious, and the bones holding Lin Shu began to ache.

"Yingnian!"

"uncle!"

Two simultaneous shouts, one big and one small, pulled Liu Yingnian out of the momentary trance.

Liu Yingnian's face turned pale. After a pause, he forced a smile and said, "I remembered something unpleasant. Maybe you're right. It's inconvenient to restore the memory now. I'll think about it again."

He can listen to advice, knowing that this matter is [-]% detrimental to his body, he will not make fun of his body casually.Life is his, not to let him do it without any scruples, but to let him know how to cherish himself, he will still live for many years, health is very important to him.

Liu Yingnian secretly bit the tip of his tongue, the pain could keep him awake, so he didn't have to think about it.

Li Xianghua's complexion is not very good either, he sees Liu Yingnian's reluctance, Liu Yingnian who thinks clearly about things and knows how to make changes is better than Liu Yingnian who perseveres to the end no matter what happens before It made him feel even more distressed.

Since when did Liu Yingnian know how to compromise?

Li Xianghua actually knew all about it.What happened back then was caused by him alone, if it wasn't for him, Liu Yingnian wouldn't be scarred and left with nothing.He knew that Liu Yingnian had always been brooding over the events of that year, the memory was too deep, the lessons were too tragic, everyone paid a great price for their growth.And because of him, Liu Yingnian paid a higher price than ordinary people.

Li Xianghua lowered his eyes slowly, covering the strong possessive desire in his eyes that cannot be concealed.

Only this person, no matter how much you love him, you can't be too much.

Li Xianghua couldn't imagine what it would be like without Liu Yingnian in his life. He discovered this man and kept him by his side to support him. His life was already full of Liu Yingnian.The separation again and again only made him understand how important Liu Yingnian was to him.

Only this person.

Only this person, he wants to love until death.

Lin Mao glanced at Li Xianghua indiscriminately, then shook his head secretly, such a terrifying love was so strong that he couldn't even suppress it, thanks to Liu Yingnian who has been able to bear it for so many years.If he had any sympathy for Liu Yingnian, it was the fact that Liu Yingnian was favored by Li Xianghua.

Although……

He also glanced at his only son, who was glued to Liu Yingnian's body like super glue and could not get off. He knew what his son looked like and his temperament, and it was not easy for his son to fall in love with him.

What to say?

Liu Yingnian may have committed this kind of evil in his life, so he always meets people with the same attributes.

If you like it, you will admit it.

If you fall in love, you will never let go.

Terrible life.

Such a cold-blooded and sympathetic person like Lin Mao couldn't help but silently light the wax for Liu Yingnian.

"Then don't unseal it." Lin Mao finished eating the fruit in his hand with a smile, "Anyway, there is no rush. Since you all know that there is nothing special that needs to be remembered, why don't you wait until later to mentally and Mr. Liu If you are psychologically stronger, you can solve it when your memory recovers. After all, it’s better to move less about things like memory.”

Liu Yingnian had no objection, nor nodded in agreement, but just smiled faintly, the smile was so shallow that it was almost invisible, "This is not the only thing you want to talk about, is it?"

Lin Shu interjected and said, "Uncle just needs to remember me."

Lin Mao: "..."

When Li Xianghua raised his eyes again, he had recovered his calm and rational expression. He looked at Liu Yingnian gently and said, "I really don't have much time. This time, I mainly want to see you. I just heard about you recovering your memory." Yes, that's not what I'm going to say."

"What is that?" Liu Yingnian asked.

"You and Shuang..." Li Xianghua paused, his expression distorted for a moment, he looked into Liu Yingnian's eyes, and said slowly: "I have thought about what happened last time many times during this time, what do you say?" That's right, I haven't considered your feelings a lot of times. It used to be the same with you and Shuang. I know that you were just designed by someone, not his fault, nor your fault."

The Lin family father and son stretched their ears calmly.

Liu Yingnian didn't expect him to speak so directly, his eyes met, he looked at Li Xianghua, and said calmly, "But you still mind."

Li Xianghua gave an indescribably wry smile, "Then have you ever thought that I am also a man, and it is impossible for me to be indifferent to such things."

Liu Yingnian said slowly, "I have thought about it."

"Because I've thought about it, I think it's better for us to separate. I ask myself, I can't be more calm than you. You are already very good, really, Xianghua, even if you say you want to break up, I will I am not qualified to say anything. Everything has already happened, and no one can change the fact. You can’t keep asking us to never break up, while the matter between me and Shuang is like planting an untimely bomb. I don’t want us to Hurt. What's more, now," he smiled bitterly, thinking of Shuang, his heart is now different from before, there are some things that are different, unclear, and more and more confused, "you can see it too , I live with him."

Lin Shu's small face was very ugly, he lowered his head, knowing that this incident had also hit him hard.

Li Xianghua froze like a sculpture for a long time.

Yes, they live together.

Neither Li Xianghua nor Liu Yingnian can escape this fact, and no one can deny that Shuang has become an inescapable thorn in the wall between them.If one or two months ago, Liu Yingnian and Shuang were just a mistake, then one or two months later, this mistake has successfully tied Shuang and Liu Yingnian together.

Li Xianghua's tendons all exploded, and his finger bones made a sound. He smashed the coffee table angrily, and with a "crash", the glass all over the floor shattered into slag.

"I don't want to be jealous, and I don't want to mind, but I can't." His voice was unexpectedly calm.

"Well, I know." Liu Yingnian had no way to comfort him.No matter how comforting this kind of thing is, it hurts his heart to say anything, he himself is a mess, so how can he ask Li Xianghua to accept it completely.

"Once." Li Xianghua said calmly.

"What?" Liu Yingnian looked at him incomprehensibly.

No one knows what Li Xianghua wants to express with these two random words.

Only Lin Shu raised his eyes to look at Li Xianghua, a trace of complexity flashed in his eyes.

Li Xianghua seemed to be so calm that he lost his mind. He was so calm that he couldn't even feel the pain when his hand was bleeding all the time. Liu Yingnian wanted to bring the medicine box, but he also refused.

"Listen to me." He stopped Liu Yingnian, and the two of them stood face to face on the other side of the sofa. He raised his uninjured hand to stroke Liu Yingnian's face, "I can't be so magnanimous." .Share you with other men, I can't do it. But I love you so much, to the extent that you can't imagine. So, once, only this time. Frost that fishbone, I can promise you to keep this matter Leave it to you to decide how to arrange it. But, I want you to never say goodbye to me, never exclude me, I want you to always have my place in your heart. "

Liu Yingnian looked at him dumbstruck, he was so shocked that he was so dumbfounded that he forgot to bandage Li Xianghua's wound.

not like this……

It shouldn't be like this...

How could someone as proud as Li Xianghua say such a thing?

How could he give up his principles and accept another person by his lover's side for his sake?

If he really loved him so much, how could he have abandoned him so heartlessly in the last life!

Liu Yingnian felt that a chaotic time and space appeared in front of his eyes, and the scene of Li Xianghua turning and leaving with Lin Mao that day once again appeared in his mind, with such a cold and heartless expression...

He stretched out his hand to grab Li Xianghua, but he couldn't...

The sky is big and the earth is big, and he is the only one left. He suddenly fell from heaven to the ice cave, shivering from the cold, unable to find his way.

Liu Yingnian was dizzy, he looked at Li Xianghua, his eyes were straight and unfocused.The Li Xianghua in my memory and the Li Xianghua in front of me have been fighting, one Li Xianghua said "Liu Yingnian, let's break up, I fell in love with someone else", the other Li Xianghua said "Shuang's fishbone, I can promise you to keep it"——

How could this be?

He couldn't tell the truth from the fake, his head was in a mess.

Which Li Xianghua is real?Which Li Xianghua is fake?

Which one should he believe?