[Ancient 2] This body and my body

When Xie Yi returned home, Xie Yi was sitting in the room reading a book as usual.

The setting sun squeezed in through the narrow window, and the slender light dragged from the wall to his feet. Xie Yi suddenly felt his heart settle down, and he just wanted to sit beside him and accompany him, look at him.

He resolutely obeyed his will, and sat beside Xie Yi.

Xie glanced at him, smiled slightly, and then turned his gaze to the scroll in his hand.His eyelashes are very long and dense, and the ends are slightly raised upwards. When they hang down because of reading a book, they are like a delicate fan, casting a small shadow under the eyelids.

Xie Yi changed his right hand to support his chin, the smile in his eyes couldn't be stopped, and he teased and poked him to talk about some trivial topics.

"What will you do Hajime when I'm not around?"

Xie Yi turned over a page, and the pages of the silk book were soft and smooth, resting on his slender fingers, like a tree stretching its leaves.

"It's mostly practicing Yanshu, and sometimes dismantling some of the Yanjia you made."

"Well, speaking of it, we've shared the same bed for so many days, and you've never called me by my name."

Xie Yi's topic jumped quickly, he put the weight of his head on his right hand, tilted his head to see Xie Yi's expression from bottom to top.

The afterglow of the setting sun danced happily in his eyes, like a small cluster of golden red flames burning.

"Master calls Huayue 'Ayue', and Huayue calls Shizun 'Aye'. When it is my turn, Tong Tong and I call each other by their first names. Presumably we are very close, so we can be so casually intimate with each other. What should you call me? If that's the case, I'll call you 'Haichi', what should you call me?"

"According to what you said, I should call you...'Ayi'?"

Xie Yi frowned slightly, turned his head to look at Xie Yi who was full of anticipation and enthusiasm, and felt an urge to add wax to his taste.

Ayi, Ayi, Auntie...

This...how on earth did he not change his face, calmly, or call out 'Ah Yi' without getting tired of it?

Xie Yi couldn't help but glanced at Xie Yi again, this time his gaze lingered a bit longer, and was soon caught by Xie Yi who was waiting all day, the young man immediately changed his left hand and put his face on his face, with an innocent look on his face Blinking his eyes to be cute.

Xie Yi silently looked away, thinking that maybe he was thinking too much...

He pursed his lips, brows still frowning.

"This—no, do you feel awkward?"

"how come."

Xie Yi frowned with a smile, stretched out his right hand to pull the braid he tied for Xie Yi.

Pulling and pulling, the fingers climbed to a strand of bangs hanging on the side of his face, and the fingertips seemed to be spinning around the chin of his cheeks.

"Come on, call out, I want to hear it very much."

Xie Yi turned a deaf ear and simply plunged into the previous volume.

"Eh? What's the matter, why don't you talk? Don't you like it?"

Xie Yiyouyou sighed, withdrew his hand aggrievedly, and shrank on the chair to complete the work, behaved like a suffocating little daughter-in-law.

"...If you, if you really don't like it, it doesn't matter if you don't call. I'm already very happy to see you accompany you."

Glancing at Xie Yi secretly, the profile of his side face strangely mixed with such a contradictory temperament, gentle and indifferent, Xie Yi sighed softly again, this time the faint bright sadness has two Three points of sincerity.

The sunset was so beautiful and so short that he was almost hurt by the sight.

"...Well, you know, the master said I was whimsical before, but you still appeared. When I saw you, I was like a dream. I saw you opened your eyes, looked at me, and talked to me Chatting, such a thing, I didn't even dare to think about it before. I'm so stupid, I don't know what you like, and I don't know what you hate, but I just want to treat you well. You and Shizun and Huayue and Tong They are all different, as long as I see you, I will be very happy, if I hear you call my name again, then I will be so happy that even Yanjia doesn't know what to do~"

I want to be nice to you, I want to know what you like and what you hate, and I want you to smile so warmly all the time.

...but I can't do anything for you.

After all, Xie Yi couldn't ignore the depressed Xie Yi, his fingers struggled to curl up and loosen on the table, and the title was also hesitating on the tip of his tongue.

He thought about it, probably Xie Yi instilled some unknown persistence that was the same as his stubbornness when he made this Yanjia man. Xie Yi moved his lips, but still only spit out two words. words.

"Thank you."

"Eh, what? Wait--I didn't hear clearly just now, did you say something? You, that, I..."

"Don't make trouble."

Xie Yi sighed, put the scroll in his hand aside, and turned to face Xie Yi.

Faced with Xie Yi's slightly exaggerated acting skills, Xie Yi had a somewhat helpless look on his face, like an elder who is facing a child who keeps using clumsy pranks to attract his attention. Helpless, there must be some pampering and indulgence.

When he stretched out his hand, his movement paused almost invisibly, but when facing Xie Yi's eager eyes, the movement of reaching out and placing his hand on top of his head was smooth and natural.Gently rubbing the top of Xie Yi's hair with the palm of his hand, Xie Yi's movements were clumsy but gentle.

Xie Yi smiled, and his voice carried warmth and peace that could infect people's hearts.

"I have always envied you for being bold and frank. I also know that my temperament is too meek. I have never spoken bluntly in the past, but today I will simply speak frankly."

"My mind is exactly the same as yours. To me, you are also different from everyone else. Although I am still ignorant of many things, I also understand that I am not really ignorant of the world like a child. I like it You, always, like you very much."

Unfamiliar feelings agitated in Xie Yi's heart, it came so suddenly, but it seemed as if it had been expected, Xie Yi hardly resisted, and completely surrendered himself to such strong emotions.

He stood up, Xie Yi's hand was still in the original position because of his sudden movement, but he had already bent down and hugged him from top to bottom.

Open your arms, wrap them around Xie Yi's shoulders, cross your hands around his waist, let his face be buried in his clothes, the whole person is imprisoned in the small space in front of his chest.Such a narrow but not suffocating cramped place is the closest distance Xie Yi can think of right now.

But he was still stubborn, muttering, while hugging Xie Yi tightly and not letting go.

"'Different from everyone else', how many 'everyone else' have you seen?"

Xie Yi, who was originally stiff and stunned because of this too abrupt and intimate hug, smiled silently.

He relaxed his subconsciously stretched body, allowing the boy to wrap himself in his arms.

"I went to ask Huayue, if a person was ordered to stay in an empty room since birth, was not allowed to go out, and had no contact with other people, would he be lonely? She told me, If you haven't seen the scenery outside, you won't know that there are flowers blooming and falling, and the vegetation is flourishing and withering outside. If you haven't met other people, you naturally don't know that there are such strange people in this world besides yourself. It doesn't matter what loneliness is..."

Resting his chin on the top of Xie Yi's hair, Xie Yi rubbed it childishly.Xie Yi's hair was soft and smooth, with a faint, indescribable smell, and the freshness of the rain-wet spring vegetation.

Xie Yi felt that he was almost obsessed with this smell, he squinted his eyes and rubbed it again in enjoyment.But his expression was very disappointed, sad but unable to cry, dull like the sky covered by dark clouds in the rainy season of Liuyue City, even his voice was a little lower.

"But I always feel... such an answer seems to make my heart hurt more than telling me 'very lonely'..."

"...don't worry about it."

Xie Yi's voice came from Xie Yi's arms, a little muffled.

He stretched out his right hand and stroked Xie Yi's back in a comforting manner, frowning slightly, his eyes were somewhat blank and earnest, as if he hoped to use this movement to pour his thoughts into Xie Yi without missing a beat. In his mind, let him empathize and no longer doubt himself.

"I still have you, why talk about loneliness."

Xie Yi shook his head, and continued to speak stubbornly.

"I'm sorry, I'm too selfish. I never considered your feelings before, so I let you wait for me here as a matter of course, and I hid so many armors for myself, so that you can find some when you are alone. Having fun and being smug. Now I sometimes think that if I could just be alone all day and not be able to see the outside world and see other people - just thinking about it makes me sad , very lonely."

Xie Yi could clearly hear the beating of the heart that was close at hand, beating regularly, which almost made him feel the same lively beating in his own chest.

He completely accepted Xie Yi's surging but inexplicable guilt and uneasiness, and analyzed all the frankness in front of him without any reservation.

Xie Yi was at a loss, the tip of his nose was slightly itchy against the soft fabric of Xie Yi's skirt.He wrinkled his nose, and the expression hidden in Xie Yi's arms showed a bit of frustration and bewilderment that didn't match his handsome and calm appearance.The Adam's apple twitched a few times, Xie Yi felt that he had a lot to say, but those words rushed to his throat, but only turned into a very light sigh.

"Ayi... is really a very gentle person."

Xie Yi smiled, this smile seemed a bit hasty, and it shouldn't be pretty.

...So, fortunately, Xie Yi couldn't see it.

Thinking of this, Xie Yi followed Xie Yi's back and stopped at his waist, paused, stretched out his other hand to hug him back.

The setting sun has fallen into the sea of ​​clouds and can no longer be seen.

Xie Yi hugged Xie Yi quietly, feeling that every inch of sunlight disappeared, and a trace of coldness slowly surged up along the sinking darkness.

He opened his eyes, and his gaze was fixed on an unknown place. Some wavering thoughts in his heart gradually took shape and became unwavering.

He lowered his head and glanced at Xie Yi, who was tightly clasped in his arms in an aggrieved posture, his arms tightened again involuntarily.

But I feel that this is far from enough.

I want... to give you more, more, whether you love it or don't.

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