I love you, I won't kill you

Julie came out of the kitchen with a dinner plate, and put three cups of steaming coffee on the wooden coffee table.He asked Angie in a low voice, "Angie, it's February, and the minimum temperature will drop to 25 degrees Fahrenheit (minus 4 degrees). Are you sure the baby is okay?"

Angie raised her head suddenly, "Oh, I see, I'll go see the baby right away."

Amanda glanced at Angie who walked up the indoor steps from behind the sofa, and said to Julie, "Julie, what do you want to say?"

Julie shook her head, stood up and walked towards the oversized French window on the left side of the room.Amanda followed, "Okay, can we talk now?"

"The child's father is David Lin, and he has been pursuing Angie before graduation." Julie refers to Lin Hao, who is a grade higher than Angie.

"Uh huh, Angie is a heterosexual, I know." Amanda said, admiring the Quinnipiac River outside the window.

"It wasn't until Valentine's Day last year that Angie began to accept Lin's courtship. Probably dated for a few weeks, went to a few off-campus motels, and then..."

"So, is this Lin still in school?"

Julie whispered again, "He is one grade higher than Angie, and he graduated and returned to China last summer."

Amanda nodded, "Oh, I see. You mean, Lin slept with Angie before graduation, and Angie didn't know she was pregnant until you returned to the United States from China?"

"Yeah. According to the baby's birth time, Angie was pregnant in April last year. But... I don't understand. When I went to the Olympics with her and Lin, she didn't have any pregnancy reaction !?"

"What is a pregnancy reaction?"

"God, are you still a woman? The pregnancy reaction is that nausea and vomiting usually appear in the first 6 to 8 weeks of pregnancy." Julie glared at Amanda.

"Sorry, I didn't get pregnant. What happened?"

"Until Thanksgiving last year, Angie suddenly told me that it seemed like she hadn't had her period for a long time."

"and then?"

"She was over seven months pregnant at Thanksgiving, and abortion was out of the question. So Angie gave birth to a baby girl at eight months. Poor baby, premature."

"Hey, what are you talking about?" Angie smiled and walked over from behind.

Amanda turned and looked from her to Julie, "Uh, we're talking about this apartment. Angie, this apartment seems too small, is it big enough for you and the baby?"

Super high ceilings, bright floor-to-ceiling windows, several impressionist oil paintings hanging on the white walls, luxurious yet simple European and American long sofas, a 60-inch (46-inch) large-screen TV on the carpet, and a sofa A fish tank on a side table forms the layout in the living room.

And the only bedroom is just above the small steps behind the sofa, a white low wall more than one person's height stands between the bedroom and the living room.Angie thought her parents' elevator house was just the same, with two extra bedrooms.

A smile appeared on Angie's haggard face, "Well, what do you guys think of this place?"

After thinking about it, Amanda said, "No, there are too few rooms! No gym, no dining room, no basement, no studio, no rec room, no wide porches, no backyard full of flowers and plants, I even put a There's no place for a gun."

Julie touched her with her shoulder, "Okay, Angie is an international student. With her financial ability, it's not bad to be able to live in this place."

"Yes, if I can stay in the United States, I will definitely buy a big house. Well, I live next door to the two of you. My baby and I will be good friends for life with you two." Angie said happily.

"Well, good idea." Amanda nodded with a smile.

"Um, Angie, has the baby had lunch yet?" Julie asked.

"Yes, I have fed her just now. Don't worry, I fed her with my own milk." Angie said.Then he added, "God, I almost forgot, you haven't had your lunch yet, have you?"

"Angie, it's okay, we can order takeaway." After Julie finished speaking, she took out her phone and called a nearby restaurant.

"Amanda, I'm very sorry! You just returned to China, but I can't treat you to lunch..." Angie started to choke again when she said this.

"Well, as long as you and the baby live here safely, Julie and I will be happy," Amanda said.

When the three of them sat on the sofa again, Angie faltered and said to Amanda, "Thank you. However, I will graduate and return to China in three months. I...I don't know what to do with the child?"

Amanda had never seen anything like this before, and she didn't know how to deal with it.When she met Julie and Angie's eyes, she asked in surprise, "What are you looking at me for?"

Two weeks after giving birth to the baby, Angie had to imagine the future of the baby more than once.But she herself is just an international student, without a green card, stable job, social insurance, and even a stable address.She doesn't have any of the most basic material conditions to raise a child.

Even if she was killed before she got pregnant and gave birth to a child, she would not be able to tell her parents in Beijing.Not only can't tell the parents, even other Chinese students studying at Yale can't tell.

In this way, after spending an unknown number of sleepless nights and countless self-destructive times, she found Julie who had helped her go to the hospital to give birth.In her mind, she can only trust Julie and Amanda now.

Right now, Angie is unable to judge what will happen to Julie, who graduated this year, in her future life and career.But Amanda's situation is completely different. She is neither a student nor a low-income person in American society.Therefore, she has reason to firmly believe that Amanda has the financial ability to raise her children.

Seeing helplessly sending her own child to someone else's home for upbringing, Anji's heart was bleeding like being cut by a knife.But the cruel reality forced her to do this in order to give her daughter a bright future.

Angie kept staring at Amanda, and suddenly got up from the sofa and knelt in front of her, saying in pain, "Amanda, I beg you! Save my daughter, please?"

Amanda was frightened by her actions, and hurriedly grabbed her arm, "Angie, don't be like this, get up!"

Julie also quickly helped Angie who was kneeling on the carpet, "Angie, it's okay. Everything will be fine."

"Angie, calm down, okay? Tell me, why did you ask me to save your daughter?" Amanda asked seriously.

"This child was born in New Haven, and she was born with American citizenship. But as her mother, I am a Chinese student who doesn't even have a green card." Angie murmured.

"Well, you can choose to stay and find a job and raise her yourself."

"You know, I want to do this very much. Although I have done something scandalous to my parents, relatives and friends, I must go back to my country and give them an explanation."

Amanda didn't understand what she said, looked at Julie, "Do you know what Angie's words mean?"

Julie stroked Angie who was sobbing on her shoulder, "I know. In Angie's hometown, giving birth to a child without being married, uh, emotionally speaking, is a kind of extreme to parents and relatives and friends. Great mental insult."

"I heard that in ancient China, girls like Anji were forced to commit suicide." Julie was referring to a torture in ancient China for women who lost their virginity before marriage or had improper relationships between men and women-"Baptism" Pig cage".

"Forced suicide? Fuck it, this is a serious violation of human rights!" Amanda roared without hesitation.

"Calm down. It's the 21st century, of course it's impossible for this to happen again." Julie stopped her.

"Amanda, now you should know why I am in such pain." Angie choked and said something.

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