I love you, I won't kill you

The girl she loved the most in her life was blown to pieces by suicide ambushers who covered her body with explosives.Julie Mitchell had to stand aside from the beginning to the end, forced to accept this "fact" motionless.

She really wanted to pull the trigger of the carbine in her hand, and pour all the thirty rounds in the magazine, the anger towards the Arabs, and the nostalgia for the loss of the person she loved the most, all on the same decapitated place. "Elena" body.

In the end, she couldn't bear Amanda's tragic death at all, and suddenly woke up from this terrible dream after a loud cry.Suddenly turned over and sat on the bed in the women's dormitory of the law school, sweating and panting heavily.

"Hey, what's the matter with you? Are you okay, I see you are sweating profusely." Roommate Susan Whitney heard her screams, and immediately got out of bed and walked to Julie's bedside.Sitting down and hugging her, stroking her back, comforting her.

"I...I...so uncomfortable! I was frightened by my dream!" Julie could no longer bear the tragic death of Amanda in the dream, and cried out in Susan's arms.

Susan smiled and said nothing, and quickly took a tissue to wipe the tears off her face, "It's okay, baby! Look, am I still here? Tell me, what did you dream about?"

For a moment, the excitement was effectively comforted.Julie's consciousness is also gradually waking up, "I'll tell you later. Uh... by the way, how could I be in bed? I remember I fell asleep sitting at the desk after taking a shower, right? "

"Hehehe, you don't even know that you went to bed to sleep by yourself!? Hehe, I'm not your Colleen, who will have 'devil' thoughts about you without clothes."

"Shut up! I hate you! Aren't you asleep? How do you know I'm only in pajamas?"

Susan peeked at Julie's pajamas, which were wide open, because there was nothing inside.He said perfunctorily, "Okay, I'm an annoying girl! Can you tell me now? What did you dream about just now?"

After glaring at her, Julie said slowly, "It's strange, why are you so curious about my dreams? Well, let me tell you, she's dead!" After a pause for a second or two, she said again, "It's the one I mentioned to you, the neighbor who used to live in Jasmine Town, the girlfriend Amanda McLaren!"

Upon hearing this, Susan suddenly had a strange look on her face, "You know? God, how did you know?"

"What did you say? Wait, you're kidding me, aren't you? No, it's never possible!"

"No! I'm not joking, I'm serious! As I told you, I met her on Facebook for less than three months. Later, she was deployed to the troops stationed in Iraq."

Julie didn't believe that she would explain it like this, and what was even more puzzling was that the two of them knew each other.Turned over and got out of bed, stood on the floor and shouted, "You know her? Tell me clearly, how did you meet her? Don't you know that she is my ex-girlfriend?"

Susan stood up slowly, stroking Julie's arm, "I'm sorry, I thought I told you about this. At least you didn't say anything at the time, don't approach her!"

"Don't touch me, you bastard! You want a lesbian lover, I have no problem. But why did you choose her? When I needed her most, you took her away?" Julie was angry , suddenly shouted at his roommate.

"Calm down, calm down, okay? Now, we all need to calm down and think carefully about what you just mentioned." Susan didn't return the same anger to Julie just because she yelled at her.

It's strange that the quarrel between the two of them in the dormitory didn't bring the students from other rooms over to persuade or make noise.At this time, Susan's expression was very solemn and sad, "Whether she is your ex-girlfriend or my current girlfriend, I don't think it is necessary anymore. Isn't it?"

Under the rage, what was exchanged was a burst of breathlessness and frustration.Seeing that Susan didn't argue with her, Julie sat back on the bed, "What did you say? Is it true? She died?"

"Yes, I got a call from the Marine Corps yesterday. They told me that just before [-]:[-] p.m. local time in Iraq, Shooting Sergeant McLaren was attacked by a suicide ambush. The logistics transport she was escorting On the passage, I was killed on the spot!" Susan spoke slowly, so slow that anyone could think of the tragic and unbearable scene at that time.

"She's dead? She's dead? You were clearly dreaming just now? No! No! No!" Tears welled up in Julie's eyes, and she suddenly felt dizzy like never before. He fell down on the bed with his upper eyes.

"Julie, Julie, what's wrong with you? You...you wait, I'll get some water!" Susan immediately stood up as if she had lost her soul, and ran to the bathroom in a panic.

Holding a large glass of tap water, he ran back to Julie's bedside.Pulling her up to sit by the bed, splashing tap water on her face, "Wake up! What's wrong with you, don't scare me!"

Ten seconds later, Susan heard several sounds coming from Julie's throat.He hurriedly reached up to pinch her, when Julie said, "Susan, I love her very much! Really! Now that she is dead, what should I do?"

"Ah! Since it was her choice, we have to respect her professionalism. She died for her country and we should be proud of her! Take a break, we have to go to Arlington in a few hours National Cemetery!"

Julie seemed to come back to life, and said immediately, "Arlington National Cemetery? Her body was brought back from Iraq? Well, I don't want to sleep. You find my clothes for me, now!"

From New Haven, Connecticut, it takes nearly three hours to drive to Arlington National Cemetery in Virginia, which is located on the west bank of the Potomac River and across the river from the Lincoln Memorial.Along the way, in order to relieve Julie's excessive sadness, Susan always found various topics to distract her.

In a trance, Julie suddenly found that she was already at the funeral ceremony of the Marine Corps today.Since it was a funeral for soldiers who died during their service, not many people came to express their condolences.Except for herself and Susan who are civilians, the others are basically soldiers and officers in uniforms of the Navy and Marine Corps.

In the slight drizzle, Nelson, wearing a navy captain's uniform, stood firmly at the front.Standing next to him is Amanda's eldest brother Vincent, a major officer in the Marine Corps of the Ministry of Defense.And on Nelson's right side, there is a young boy wearing a navy lieutenant's uniform. This is the second brother Billy they both laughed and teased.

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