[Death] Boss is difficult to be

Just when I was in a predicament where I couldn't move an inch, another major event happened in the Jingling Court. The souls of Liuhun Street disappeared inexplicably on a large scale.The reason for the news is something I need to investigate, but I can confirm that this incident is definitely related to the mastermind behind the Mutation Void.

Because I chose to believe, when I saw Aizen again, I had already adjusted my mentality, and there would never be another situation where the two of them were silent.But I found that I still underestimated the other party's understanding of me. The smile on his face is still there, but the tiredness in his eyes has deepened. Not only that, but he always avoids my gaze... He must have discovered that I doubted it before It's about him.

Did you find out but didn't defend yourself, just waiting for my choice...

Just trust me like that...

Calm down, I pulled out a game of Go, and wanted to take this opportunity to let him know that I didn't suspect him!And judging a person by chess style is a very good way, I trust my eyes, but I don't mind getting to know him better.

What I didn't expect was that Aizen-san couldn't play chess at all.Apart from some common sense knowledge, he knows nothing about Go.After one plate, the result is... a mess.

If there were traces to follow at the beginning, I would suspect later that he was playing chess pieces in a vacuum.Fortunately, he was able to stare at the chess game seriously, as calm as a master.

... This is probably the most incomprehensible game I have played so far. I don't know where to play until the end of the game!

If you can't even play chess, let alone understand the meaning of my chess.Looking at his slender and fair hands picking up the chess pieces, I really can't imagine the scene when such hands will be stained with blood...

As time goes on, I also know that if I don't express my truest emotions, the rift between us will become bigger and bigger... Making up my mind, I raised my head to meet his pair of eyes. Eyes, slowly said: "Lan Ransang, there is something..."

I want to tell him that I will no longer doubt him. This is not only a kind of blasphemy to him, but also a kind of injury.Moreover, I also want to tell him that you are not the only one who has that indescribable emotion for me, I am now... too.

Aizen met my gaze, and my confidant could settle his mind with just one glance.He had a calm expression on his face, and before I wanted to continue, he said slowly, "Urahara-kun, I'm sorry, I have to go."

This is denial.

Rejection after knowing what I mean.

Just like when I understood the meaning of his words that day, I pretended to be stupid and turned the topic away to refuse.He is also at this moment, and also said Ping Zisang.

I understand, he wants me to know that now his heart has been entrusted to others!

Afterwards, he changed the subject, and when he asked me what to say, I also gave the answer he wanted, "I want to talk about the matter about Xu, and now there is a clue, don't worry."

Missing will really become eternal?

I definitely don't believe this truth...

But things later proved that the miss at that time made us take different paths, and we went further and further apart, and we could never find the day of reunion.

I will never forget the scene of that night in my whole life. Pingzi and others blurred to the ground. When I arrived, it was already too late.I subconsciously tried to save people, but the moment the main messenger turned around and looked at me with a smile, my heart sank heavily.

His eyebrows were smiling, as if he looked at me on weekdays, "You are finally here, Urahara Kisuke, I have been waiting for you for a long time."

He knew I would come and was still waiting for me.He knows me as I know him.

He understood that I would not choose to walk the same path as him, so he told me with a bloody truth that we had already diverged from each other.

Looking at Pingzi and the others on the ground, my eyes fell on him... He was still reluctant to shoot at me in the end... Otherwise, I must be the same as them now.

Even though I knew his emotions very clearly in my heart, at that time, I still couldn't restrain my anger.

Although he said a lot on the spot, I could tell that they were all false.If the feelings invested in those years are all mixed with water, it is absolutely impossible.

That person said that just to make me give up.

He is guilty and cannot be forgiven, but for that crime, I need to bear half of the responsibility or more.So I stopped Yaling Tiezhai and told him to leave.

My hesitation at the beginning led to repeated mistakes in the future. Thinking about it this way, there is no difference between me and him.

Among the sins he committed, I also have a share.

……

After coming to the present world, I explained these things to Hirako and others.There was no expression on the other party's face, neither anger nor sadness.Because of the mistakes between the two of us, so many innocent people have been affected, I must stop all of this.

Then there is waiting.

I know very well that that person still cares about our relationship, especially after reuniting after a long absence.For him, I am afraid that the only thing that can shake him is this.But I'm not sure how much weight these things still hold in his heart, so I can only test them with words.

As long as I'm a little cold, the man's brows can't help frowning, which proves that he still can't forget the past!

Not only can't you forget it, but it will continue to deepen as time goes by.

He has also changed a lot these years ago, others may not be able to see it, but I who know him best can see it when we meet, he seems to have not been happy for a long time.

It is precisely because the memories are too good that they hurt even more when they are recalled now. When I see him again now, I don't feel that he is within reach like I did at first.There seems to be an invisible wall between us, forcibly drawing an insurmountable distance between me and him.

He will come back with me this time, presumably because of Bengyu, his obsession with Bengyu has exceeded my imagination.

If it was in the past, it doesn't matter if I send you off.

Seeing that I was still lukewarm, the man withdrew all the emotions that were rarely shown on his face, and he sat opposite me and looked at me.I am the same at this moment. I don't know how to say a thousand words, and I know very well in my heart that if I can't control my emotions, I will definitely lose everything.

The two looked at each other speechlessly, and finally he spoke first, "I'm very glad to see you again."

The affection contained in a short sentence can be felt without elaboration.

But since you are like this, why do you want to do such a thing?

"Aizan-san, is everything you want more important than what you had before?"

Is it really surpassed, surpassed the years we spent in Jinglingting, surpassed those past events that have been dusty for a long time...

He obviously didn't expect me to ask that question, but he quickly replied, "Of course."

There was a burst of sadness in my heart, and the matter finally reached an irreversible situation.

In his heart, the purpose is always far greater than feelings.

Just thinking about this here, he said again, "Urahara-kun, I didn't want to be your enemy, because you are my only friend."

The word "unique" exploded in my heart, and it seemed that my thoughts froze for a moment.

Now in your heart, am I just a friend?

"But my judgment at the beginning was indeed correct. You and I are not the same. This is really a pity...It must have been hard to spend a hundred years in regret."

Remorse, he thought I was remorse?

Regrets are just regrets that we failed to accept your feelings at the beginning, which made us pass each other and take a completely different path.

I have never regretted meeting you.

Because I know this is wrong, I will try my best to stop you.

Then we will face the sin karma together, and I will pay for the time that made you lonely.

……

"Kisuke... If Aizen is not what you imagined, he may just be a person who can do anything for his own ambition." Ye Yi once nestled by my side, licking lazily at sunset. My own paw said, "After all, I will do such a thing, no matter how I think about it, it must have been planned for a long time."

It is inevitable that it has been planned for a long time, but it has nothing to do with how he really is.

But the answer was not without struggle. Looking back on the past, thinking about the present and him who has become unreachable, I slowly replied, "I believe he is not, this is the most basic trust."

Ye Yi didn't speak again.

The appearance of Kurosaki Ichigo is not accidental. A series of things that happened since he was a child show that the result of his becoming a god of death and being involved with Rukia is inevitable.

Of course this was also planned by that person.

But he told me about it too early.

Even at this point, he treats me differently.

The Kurosaki boy is quite energetic and energetic, and he is the type who will not repent even if he hits a wall with his own beliefs.If I had been as frank as he was back then, I probably wouldn't be in the situation we are in today with Aizen.So in training, I also talked to him more or less about each other.

"Because of my indecision, I missed a good friend forever." After thinking about it, I still can only use good friends to explain our relationship, "So just do what comes to mind, don't think too much."

The orange-haired boy nodded and shouted to me, "Don't worry, Uncle Urahara, I will definitely save Rukia!"

The meeting with Hirako Mako after a hundred years was after seeing Ichigo, and his impression did not change significantly.It's just that when we talk about a person, we can't help being silent.Excluding the personal affairs between me and Aizen, I will tell Yupingzi about the previous events and my speculations.

Hirako didn't say much, and just left after learning about it, but what I didn't expect was that when he went to rescue Rukia, he, who dislikes fighting between gods of death, would choose to go with him.

"Because he is going to find his first love." Ichigo replied, "When I told him before, Hirako-san's expression became very strange for a moment."

……first love?Is it that person?

But what happened to this report...

Could it be that Aizen had been in contact with Ichigo before I knew it?

Before I had time to ask, Ichigo and the others went to Jinglingting through the world-transmitting gate, to the place where that person existed, and it was also a world that I could no longer enter.

It is indeed the best situation to be able to come back in peace, and Aizen also left Soul Soul Realm exactly as I planned.But when I came back this time, everyone had a strange look on their faces. Before I had time to ask, Yeyi threw a letter to me, saying it was a souvenir from a trip.There was a playful look on her face, with the taste of watching a good show.

I opened it and found that it was the suicide note written by that person. After describing the feelings for Hirako-san, it even pushed the guilt of my own death onto Hirako without a trace.I seem to be able to imagine how much uproar this suicide note will cause in Jinglingting. It is indeed a good step to appreciate it from the perspective of planning. It diverts all attention and allows him to have more space to act...

"Kisuke... I didn't ask you to comment on how clever Aizen's approach is..." Ye Yi looked at me with golden eyes, and twitched the corners of his mouth, "...Your focus is wrong..."

I understand what Ye Yi means, and I also understand the meaning of this letter.I know that something between us is broken and can't be glued back, but no matter what choice he makes, I will respect him.

Then go all out and stop him!

……

In order to calm down, I have been preparing for the decisive battle in the near future.This is not only for myself, but also for him, but the things that man did repeatedly exceeded my expectations.

I can think of sending Poface to the present world, but why did Dai take the initiative to appear in front of me again?

Beng Yu has been taken away by him, there should be nothing he wants here...

So what is it for, is it me, or someone else...

Although his expression was the same as usual, the worry he showed inadvertently couldn't escape my eyes.This may be the last time we see each other before the final battle.In fact, there is nothing special, but I have to say that his hot pot is quite delicious, although I only saw him throwing things in it...

During the moment of eating, I wanted to say something, but I was interrupted by him every time. It seemed that he didn't want other things to disturb this last peaceful relationship.

He gave me so many dishes that night, and it was the first time in a hundred years that I ate his delicious dishes again. It may be that there is no regret left between the two of us.

He didn't leave immediately after dinner, he was hesitant to say something, and I, who didn't want to waste this time, was naturally willing to accompany him, and took out the chessboard to enjoy this time...

The moment he saw the chessboard, his eyes changed, as if recalling something, his eyes were full of helplessness and sighs.I, too, can recall that time in the past, but can never go back.

Holding the chess pieces in his hand, he looked at the chessboard quietly for a while, as if waking up from the past memories, he said slowly, "It was Urahara-kun who taught me how to play chess that day."

No matter how beautiful the memory is, it is useless to talk about it at this moment.

But that game of chess really made me unable to forget, I have never seen anyone play chess like this...

Presumably he knew in his heart that the decisive battle that will come after this farewell is destined to be the death of you and me.I also wanted to follow his words and finish what I hadn't said back then, but I couldn't.If I express my emotions here, I am afraid that in the future, I will no longer be able to establish the consciousness to confront him with a sword.

So I calmly replied, "I remember." I wanted to tell him that I just remembered and didn't think about it.

But the other party was not satisfied, thinking about it, it was another hundred years of parting that made him unable to wait until the final confession. Maybe he, like me, understands that if he does not express his feelings at this time, he will have no chance to speak in the end.Whether his feelings towards me are the same as usual or just guilt, or something else... I think I know what he wants to say.

Even as a confidant, I understand some things that I don’t say clearly.

But because I understand it, I can't forget it even more.

His attitude was stunned, didn't he think that even today, I can still understand his heart?In fact, I don't know enough about him all the time, otherwise there wouldn't be what happened today.

After a while, he slowly replied, "I see."

He still knows me.

……

But until the end, I didn't expect that he would end all this in such a decisive way, whether it was for me or for others.

Death is indeed the best way to cut off all knots, but I never thought he would choose this way.

Sophisticated deployment in exchange for such an ending is like a joke.

Before the decisive battle, I thought that if there was really no other way, then killing him might be the best way.

But after seeing his wounds self-healing on the battlefield, I felt a faint sigh of relief in my heart. With Beng Yu, it would be impossible to kill him.

fair enough.

But I didn't expect that this was not only an illusion created by the mirror, but even the sarcasm he uttered was fake.

A play was performed just to annoy Hirako.

He had long wanted to end everything like this, to die in the hands of Hirako Mako, so that all mistakes would stop.

I should have followed his wishes, since this was his last hope.But at that moment, after all, selfishness prevailed, how could I watch him die in front of me.

And in this heavy sin, there is still my share.

The moment I took him over from Pingzi, I realized that I don't understand him as well as I did when I was in Jinglingting.The betrayal of that accident still changed my opinion of him a little, which affected the correctness.I even think he didn't want to do it at all in the first place.

But it doesn't matter what you think about now.

Whether it's true or not, no matter what he thinks, no matter what his final choice is, it doesn't matter anymore.

Let him survive first before he is eligible to talk about the future.

The process of redemption is long and carries the weight of two people.

I will try my best to prevent him from making mistakes again and again, but this time I will not let him bear it alone, but no matter what happens again, I will bear it together with him.