fall in love with chaos

There were not too many people on the train, loose and loose, and when Ranbu and I sat down, the train was still 5 minutes away from the start time.

Luanbu sat opposite, and as soon as he sat down, he took out one of the marbles in his pocket and put it on the table.

And I was thirsty, so I took a sip from the water glass I brought.

Luanbu suddenly said: "I'm thirsty too."

I looked over, and the black-haired young man folded his arms, ignoring the lonely marbles on the table, and I said, "..."

I took a disposable cup on the table, poured the water in my cup, and pushed it to him: "Here..."

"Uh..." He drank it lazily.

……

When we arrived at the station, we went to the hotel first, and I was dumbfounded by the presumptuous words that Luanbu said that there was only one room.

This guy... Forget it, he doesn't seem to be a threat.I decided to forgive him again.

It was already dark when I entered the room, and I dragged my feet to prevent him from spreading pancakes on the bed: "Put your toothbrush and those away first!"

"I don't want to move! I'm so tired!" Luanbu tugged on the quilt and beeped loudly.

"Uh..." I said coldly, "You who don't wash up are not qualified to sleep on the bed."

Ranbu: "..."

He let it go listlessly.

I didn't go in after Luanbu finished washing, he had already gone out and threw himself on the bed.

I silently glanced at the messy toothbrushes and other things placed in disorder, which can be called a mess.

For some things, you seem to be in a mess, but in fact, it is enough for the owner to know the location. This is called order in chaos.

It's like your own bedroom, the surface is messy, but you just know where everything is and can find it.Once it is tidied up, you can't find those things everywhere, and it loses its meaning.

Hmm, very useful reasoning.I immediately convinced myself not to move around, and An Anxin started to brush her teeth.

After washing up, I yawned and sat on the edge of the bed.

There is only one queen bed, but it's big, so don't worry about it.

Luanbu quietly leaned over: "I'm going to tell you."

I:"?"

Oh, about Dazai-kun?

I paused suddenly, with a premonition.

I'm out of Yokohama now, that's what Ranpo is for.

Immediately, his random steps confirmed my thoughts. He struggled to pull out a crumpled newspaper from the corner of the suitcase.

He said, "Because I promised you that I would not lie to you."

……

The headline on the front page was the news that an entrepreneur arrived in Yokohama and would stay for three days.

The familiar face in the newspaper made me tremble all over, and I couldn't tell what I was suppressing.

Killing intent, or fear?

Viscous, unshakable emotions that once again poked their heads out of the dark.

Like bursts of black mud, suffocating.

Until my back was covered with heat, and the arm belonging to the other was firmly and tightly wrapped around my waist from behind, I felt that Luan Bu gently leaned his head on my shoulder, infinitely close to my neck.

I just woke up...

I hastily folded the newspaper and threw it on the bedside table: "I...I'm fine..."

That's not right, I shouldn't use this tone, I need to be firmer.

I swallowed and repeated: "I'm fine. Nothing to think about."

The silence brought a slight illusion of suffocation, and I heard my heart beating like thunder.

Luanbu still had a coquettish tone: "I've said it all, don't lie to Lord Ranbu."

While speaking, he turned his head towards my neck, so he was breathing and the slight breath of speaking scratched my skin, causing a shiver.

I began to breathe heavily for no reason, and my chest kept rising and falling, as if no amount of air could enter my lungs.

I didn't seem to know what to say, and I was incoherent to this detective: "I, I didn't want to hurt him anymore...at least not this month, maybe last month...last month I...I might..."

"I know." He interrupted me, Luanbu seemed to know my trajectory better than me, "Because you saw his message last month. You must have hidden there and cried secretly after thinking about it all day. .”

I can't speak: "..."

I want to hurt Toru Katsumura, I can't help it, from the moment I lost my parents.

Because he indirectly killed my parents, but he can live freely, I am not reconciled, since I was a child.

But I am more afraid of blood, more afraid of hurting others, and more afraid of becoming someone I shouldn't be.

The killing intent and the stronger sense of guilt and shame that followed tightly wrapped around my heart, almost tearing me apart.

One second I had the idea that since the law cannot be used, I can do it myself, and the next second I fell into self-loathing that I can't think like this, how can I think like this.

Going to hell as a criminal will not be acceptable to my parents, nor will it be acceptable to me.

I can never do this.

A hand was touching my head, once and for all, as if coaxing: "It's okay, it's okay."

Just like the first time I accompanied him to investigate the case, I was scared away by the cruel corpse, hiding in the corner and crying by myself.

The young man in the detective suit accurately found me and put the beret on my head like a barrier.

"What are you afraid of, I won't let you become like that."

All I did then was hug him tightly, my strongest shackles.

I understood what he was saying, and so did Luanpo.

—he will not turn me into a cruel criminal, let me destroy myself.

A unique detective, a detective who can see through the truth at a glance, and an excellent hunter who can predict criminals even before they commit crimes.

I have no doubts.

After a long time, I calmed down and my turbulent emotions calmed down.

"I won't cross the bottom line." I said suddenly.

"Of course not Taojiang." Ranpo said naturally, "Because you are very kind. You will stop before hurting others. That is..."

He seemed to be venting his dissatisfaction, and his tone was emotional: "It's easy to hurt yourself, but fortunately there is Lord Ranbu."

I just realized that I was in a cold sweat.

I am noncommittal to the random steps.

I also couldn't agree with his good evaluation.

I don't think I'm kind. Kind people can have hatred, but they won't lose control. They are firm in their hearts and never lost.

My hatred, my desire to kill was completely contrary to the education I received since I was a child, and it made me miserable.

Even if there is a reason... But in the legal column, there will always be a sentence that can't step over the law and trample on the law to express the evaluation of the avengers.

And I feel right.

After the slowdown, I moved my elbow to signal for Luanbu to let go, he was too sticky and I couldn't even move: "Let go first."

"Uh..." He let out a slight humming sound from his throat, but obediently let go.

I was instantly cooler.

This kind of thing has happened so many times in a year that we have all formed a pattern of turning off the lights and going to sleep after we finish talking.

I tried to clear my mind, but the people around me approached restlessly: "I can lend you a hug."

I do not want……"

The random steps did not stop, and I was hugged in my arms like a doll, and the comfortable plush pajamas were as warm as others.

I didn't refuse, and with my forehead against his chest, I slowly fell asleep.

Before falling asleep, I vaguely heard his voice: "I told you not to lie in front of me, Qingtao."

It went straight into my ear, so close that it seemed that I was about to squeeze it.

When I was very small, maybe not so small?Almost forgot the exact age.

My parents are a very loving, kind and helpful couple. Toru Katsumura is our neighbor.

At that time his career was just getting started.

How happy and happy our family was at that time, we no longer need to recall.

I just remember the day I lost my parents, the small creepy crackling and crackling of the fire.

I got away with it because I was in school.

Everyone believed that it was a tragedy caused by a momentary negligence, and my parents broke into the fire again because they wanted to save Tulang's younger brother in Shengcun.

buried in flames...

On the day of the funeral, there were not many people.My parents met in the same orphanage and have no relatives.

I seemed to be crying so much that I almost lost oxygen.

Mother's hug, father's rough palm, never again.

At the end of the funeral, out of the corner of my eye, I occasionally saw Katsumura, who had sprained his ankle in the fire, and I was taken aback by the careless expression on his face.

Obviously his brother died too.

But the next second he returned to grief.

"What about the daughter of the rich family?" They discussed.

A few days later, when he cried bitterly and said he wanted to adopt me, for some reason, I refused.

I entered the orphanage, amidst the excitement of countless peers, I felt that the whole world was extremely quiet.

Occasionally, I dream of my mother smiling gently and saying that I want to be a good child, and those who encounter difficulties should help them.

I will dream of the excitement of my father lifting himself up and flying into the air.

Every day that is ordinary in memory is now a luxury, a miracle.

A few years later, I came to Yokohama for the first time because I was admitted to a university here.

At that time, I had been unable to sleep all night because of the difficult situation.

Katsumura Toro's career is getting bigger and bigger, but I am more and more suspicious when I think about it.

All I did was ask for help and reassure myself that I was told I was a good detective.

The first time we met was a man in a windbreaker with bandages talking romantically, I: "..."

Is this a serious detective agency?

"Huh?" The young man in a brown detective suit not far away put down his soda, looked at me thoughtfully, and suddenly smiled, "What, I came here because of my detective's ingenuity. I will accept your commission." Already!"

I wondered: "What?"

I haven't said anything yet...

But he stood up hurriedly: "It's not too late, we're leaving now! Oh, by the way, Dunjun, you don't have to go."

The silver-haired boy was surprised: "Huh?!"

I went in with a dazed face, came out with a dazed face, and followed the detective: "That, that... I'm Kino Kiyomi..."

"Edogawa Ranpo." Ranpo raised the brim of his hat with his fingers, showing a pretty cat-like face, and said with a smile, "Finally out, let's eat dessert first!"

I:"!?"

Did you want to find an excuse to come out! ?

Because I was not familiar with it, I forced myself to complain.

And... the detective actually has the attribute of a road idiot! ?

In the end, I led the way. He had a great time eating at the dessert shop, but I was so nervous that I asked Chi: "Mr. Edogawa, then... Excuse me for the commission fee..."

Too expensive and I may not be able to afford it.

"Just call me Mr. Ranpo just like Dunjun. There is no fee, 0." He took the time to answer.

I thought it was kind people who were helping me and helping me investigate the case for free, and I was so moved that I couldn't be more moved.

"Thank you very much Mr. Ranpo!"

He nodded indiscriminately: "A little more praise is fine."

I:"……"

I took him to the old address, and on the way I realized that the detective was clean and beyond human.

You can see through the truth at a glance...

At the destination, it is a new residential area.

I was taken aback.That's right, rebuilding after a fire makes perfect sense.

only……

I suddenly realized that my request was very unreasonable, and I was about to apologize.

The other party touched his chin and nodded with ease, and put on black-rimmed glasses: "Yeah, that's how it is."

"Then let me tell you the truth." Luanbu smiled, "It's very simple. Toru Katsumura actually saw his younger brother burned before he escaped, and he escaped by himself without saving his younger brother. Your parents and his younger brother are still inside, making them think that his younger brother is still alive, because there is no time to wait for the firefighters, Katsumura Turang injured his foot, and they were the only ones who broke into the fire."

I:"……"

There was so much information that I didn't even realize it for a while.

After reacting, I murmured: "So it's really..."

Me: "Then..."

He suddenly stretched out a finger against my forehead, stopping my words.

I saw the detective restrain his smile and show his sharp side.

"The commission fee is not charged because..." Ranbu seemed a little annoyed, and frowned slightly, "I can't convict you. I'm sorry Miss Kino, your commission failed."

"Uh..." I hurriedly said, "But, you can reason it out, can't you? Mr. Ranpo... right?"

"Ah, this." Luanbu put down his hands, leaned against the wall and folded his arms, "Actually, everyone is just too stupid."

He suddenly began to taunt.

"Too dumb to see what I saw. Need to find more obvious evidence. And the crime scene has been badly damaged."

"Besides, even if you know the truth, you can't deal with it as murder, Miss Kino."

Ranbu suddenly reached out and patted my head, his emerald green eyes were extremely beautiful: "Although we have only met for a few hours, I am not a god, Ms. Kino. Maybe in a few years, or if that Katsumura dies, then it will be me I can't guess the truth all at once, um...it will take a lot of work. Don't cry..."

I just realized that I was crying and wiped it away in a hurry. Even if I was angry in my heart, I knew that what he said was right.

"Okay, Mr. Ranpo. It's not a failure... commission." I whispered.

At least verified my idea.

It's strange, maybe it's a conjecture that I've been thinking about for several years, but my heart quickly calmed down when I got the real confirmation.

Maybe, maybe... no, it can't.

I took him back to the detective agency, downstairs.

"Miss Kino..." He suddenly said, I looked up, and Ranbu had already taken off my black-rimmed glasses.

"Uh..." He paused, and seemed to change his words, "See you next time..."

When I learned the truth, I was calm and in a trance, and nodded indiscriminately, not paying attention to his words.

"Goodbye, Mr. Ranpo."

We are just an ordinary employment relationship, and of course we don't have much communication.

……

After that, whenever I saw a picture of Toru Katsumura, I was in agony.

Can't explain...

I can't understand, I can't understand that people who have done wrong things can still live openly.

I didn't let my roommates find out that even if I had insomnia all night, I would just lie on the bed motionless in order not to disturb them.

Then weep silently.

Heart is burning.

Insomnia, loss of appetite, restlessness all day long.

A few days later, when I saw him appearing on TV, his smug look made me fall into emotion for a moment.

When I came back to my senses, I found myself browsing the news about him, looking for his trace.

what i want to do.

Shame and condemnation of my own morality ate me from head to toe in an instant.

In any case, I can't... I can't judge or lynch myself. The best reward I can give my parents now is to live a good life.

The keen Chunfei seemed to have noticed something and asked me, but I went back in a daze.

The front seems to be covered with a layer of dangerous fog. I am afraid of falling into the abyss, so I want to stop myself before I fall.

……

Sure enough, I met Ranpo-san again, but on the kidnapped ship.

Luanbu even took the initiative to deliver it to my door. I was a passing gift, and I was brought back with me when I saw it.

Damp, empty, airtight.

I'm with the detective.

He chattered endlessly: "I just said that we will meet again. I haven't seen Miss Kino for a long time."

I didn't speak...

He said himself: "Don't worry, someone will come to rescue us soon."

"By the way, Ms. Kino. Why did you hurt yourself? Obviously you are your biggest obstacle, so you don't have to worry about killing yourself, because you will kill yourself before you kill yourself. It's really kind."

I began to shiver from the cold, and the scratches on my arms began to ache.

I can only vaguely think;

If I can leave the detective unscathed, I'll be fine.

Not because of deep emotion.

Simply because he can help more people, but I am restraining myself from harming others.

Compared to living in the world covered in filth, leaving clean may be more worthy of myself and my parents.

Once I hurt Toru Katsumura and broke the bottom line, I knew that I would never go back.

With an opening, the crack will grow bigger and bigger.

"I said, you entrust me in a year. He will commit a crime in a year." Ranpo said.

At this moment, I have a little desire to speak: "Can you predict, Mr. Ranpo?"

"A lot of things are hidden from the beginning." He said indifferently, "But they don't believe me. They have to wait until the crime is over before they are caught."

I calm down.

There was a burst of powerlessness and sadness in my heart.

After all, going to jail is based on other things too.

Something seems to be broken in my mind. I am afraid that I will do something irreversible every day, restrain myself every day, and I am close to the edge of exhaustion.

too tired.I couldn't stop my vicious thoughts, and likewise, I couldn't flip the switch that broke my bottom line.

They are pulling at each other, tearing me apart.

As if standing on a precarious cliff.

I can't remember what happened afterwards, I just remember what I seemed to be doing with my head empty.

When he came back to his senses, he had fallen to the ground, and there were constant gunshots outside.

"Miss Kino, why did you save me like this? I told you, nothing will happen."

The beret didn't know where it fell, revealing the messy black hair, and hugged me in disorderly steps. It should be stained with sticky red blood. His initially flustered expression calmed down inexplicably.

I felt that my vision was blurring, and the sense of guilt from seeing Ranbu shed tears just now dissipated a little bit, at least he was safe and uninjured.

Just die, it seems okay?Anyway, I don't want to be so tired.

"Too capricious and naive, Miss Kino."

certainly not……

"are you tired?"

Of course.Now I can't wait to fast-forward the worst result, go to prison, at least the dust has settled, instead of being so erratic.

"Miss Kino, did I tell you when we met just now..."

My thoughts gradually emptied, my eyes closed heavily, and he whispered the last words before I fell into a coma in my ear.

"In just one week, Ms. Kino seems to have lost a lot of weight. Also, she clearly sees my ability, but she still doesn't believe in Ranpo-sama enough, she thinks it out as soon as she thinks about it."

"It's capricious."