a setting sun

Here, Xu Xin took the pillow and was about to lie down when he found that Shen Sihan had pulled the pillow before her and lay down next to her.

Shen Sihan, who was already lying down, saw Xu Xin looking at her with a dazed expression, and reached out to pat the pillow where Xu Xin was going to sleep, and said as a matter of course: "Come on, don't you want to sleep?"

"...Are you sleeping too?" Xu Xin blinked and asked after a long silence.

"That's right, I got up early to pick you up, I squeezed the subway and waited for the bus, and I didn't sleep well, oops, lie down!" As she spoke, Shen Sihan directly dragged Xu Xin who was still sitting down on the bed.

"I don't sleep actively, I have a problem with my mind!" The finger pointing to Xu Xin's forehead had a warmth that Xu Xin felt he hadn't seen for a long time.

"Long time no see." Xu Xin, who was lying next to Shen Sihan, suddenly said this with a smile. She stared at Shen Sihan's face, feeling inexplicably at ease in her heart.

"Well, long time no see. Go to sleep, good boy." Shen Sihan stretched out his hand and patted Xu Xin's cheeks twice, making Xu Xin a little dumbfounded like coaxing a child.

However, having said that, she didn't reject such physical contact at all, and even felt very nostalgic.

To Xu Xin, this was actually quite unbelievable.After all, there are too few people who can make her feel not repelled.Even among her female classmates or friends of the same sex, there are very few people who can have natural physical contact with Xu Xin.

It's not that there was no such opportunity, but Xu Xin avoided it on purpose.Because she doesn't like to have too much physical contact with others, even if it is talking, not everyone can make Xu Xin talk non-stop, so she has gradually become a cold guy in the eyes of others.

But the strange thing is, when Shen Sihan's place, all Xu Xin's rules for others have become air and decorations, and all the rules seem to have never existed in Shen Sihan's body. Obediently, like a doll, let Shen Sihan pinch, flatten and round it.

When the two woke up, it was almost dusk, Xu Xin opened his eyes still a little dazed, and it took him a while to realize where he was.

"Are you awake?" Shen Sihan woke up a little earlier, already put on his shoes and waited by the bed.

"Why didn't you call me when you woke up early? Uh...um." Xu Xin rubbed his eyes and sat up and asked while he couldn't help yawning.

"Look, you haven't slept well yet. I don't want to let you sleep a little longer." Shen Sihan put away his mobile phone, took his bag and stood up and said.

"...Okay." Xu Xin sat there with his head down and didn't know what he was thinking. After a while, he raised his head, quickly got up from the bed, jumped out of the bed and stepped on his sneakers precisely, and then three seconds later After putting on the two shoes, she straightened up and looked at Shen Sihan with a smile: "Let's go."

In fact, Xu Xin was so moved when he heard Shen Sihan's words just now, that he didn't say anything for a long time.Isn't there a saying that when everyone cares about whether you fly high or not, only those who love you care about whether you are tired or not.Although she knew clearly that Shen Sihan didn't love her, the feeling of being genuinely cared about made Xu Xin feel as warm as if she was surrounded by sun-baked quilts, and made her once again truly feel the choice between Shen Sihan and Shen Sihan. Being friends is a decision you won't regret.

……

Houses in the old city are easy to find, because many homeowners only have elderly people at home, and their children have gone to work in other places, so many vacant houses are rented out. The two settled on a simple one after two hours of shopping. It was a clean hut, because the two of them had no plans to cook for the time being, so they chose a house that was less than 400 square meters.In fact, the main reason is that the rent is cheap, [-] yuan a month, plus the water and electricity network fee is only a little over [-] yuan, it can be said that it is very easy for two people to share [-] yuan a month.

After the house was settled, the two of them went back to Shen Sihan's mother's residence. At this time, her mother had been off work for a while, and even made dinner.

Because Shen Sihan had heard that her classmates were coming, she specially made two dishes and one soup, and immediately greeted them warmly to wash their hands and prepare to eat when they came back.

The three of them huddled together at a small folding table, talking and laughing while eating, but they quickly became acquainted.

After eating, the two started their moving journey.For Xu Xin, it was very simple, a backpack and a suitcase could be solved once, but Shen Sihan had some odds and ends to pack up, so he ran back and forth three times, and finally brought the quilt on the last trip. It's over. Fortunately, Shen Sihan bought a small electric car, and the two of them avoided the nightmare of running and breaking their legs. However, on the way back, it started to rain lightly again.

"It's to cool us down, it's so cold." Shen Sihan squinted his eyes to hide from the unavoidable rain, and said with a happy smile while riding the little electric bike swaying left and right.

"Sister, watch the road carefully, my life is in your hands." Xu Xin in the back seat put his arm around the quilt wrapped in a bag, and covered Shen Sihan's head with the other, blocking the unstoppable Yu couldn't help teasing Shen Sihandao.

"Oh, don't worry! I don't have a driver's license!" Shen Sihan laughed.

"Ah?!?" Xu Xin in the back seat cooperated and pretended to be frightened. "Hey, big sister, a good person lives a safe life! A good person lives a safe life!!"

"It's such a pity, I'm not a good person either. If we want to leave, let's go together! Are you happy? Are you happy!? Ah ha ha..." On the contrary, Shen Sihan in front laughed even more unscrupulously.

Xu Xin rolled his eyes in the back seat, he was too lazy to cooperate with her, and simply pretended to be dead.

……

On the first night, because Xu Xin didn't have all the daily necessities, he and Shen Sihan could only squeeze together on a pillow and under a quilt.

But this is not a problem at all, because the two chatted for almost a night, and the two were able to confide in each other when they were in school. Now, the two have not seen each other for several years. Even during the period, they often talked on the phone, but There are still many things that they don't know about each other. The two of them basically recalled this night from when they were in high school until they met this time. It can be said that the relationship line is almost explained to each other.

It was also at this time that Xu Xin realized one thing, that is, what Shen Sihan's emotional outlook was.

How should I put it, she is that kind of person, the kind of person who will desperately want to express because of a momentary liking, and let go when the relationship is gone without looking back.But this situation is only limited to when the other party is not with her. If the other party also likes her, and after the two are together, she will not easily break up. Each other is used to such an existence.

She often said a word, she said that she seemed to have never loved anyone except herself, including being with her mother, and it was only out of the kindness that she paid for her tuition and living expenses before. As for the relationship between mother and daughter... it is really shallow.

As for her boyfriend who is still together now, Xu Xin also asked her: "If you don't love him, you are already talking about marriage?" Xu Xin was surprised. A person doesn't have any expectations for the future life, but Shen Sihan acted as a matter of course, making Xu Xin unable to comfort her or refute her. After all, the current life is Shen Sihan's own choice, she doesn't care Everything he said was denying Shen Sihan, and Xu Xin couldn't prove that he was right.

In the dark, Shen Sihan, who was lying beside Xu Xin, chuckled lightly: "I'm not in a hurry, but his parents are already organizing our wedding house, the house has already been bought, it's off-plan, and it will be handed over the next year. If we get married, we will always I can't live with his parents, I have to have a house, and I don't have to worry about anything, it's all made by their family, besides, his parents are very good to me, pampering me like my own daughter."

Having said so much, I didn't mention how that boyfriend treats her at all, but through the previous chats, Xu Xin can guess that they have no feelings for each other, but the man's parents are urging them to get married, and they can't find each other for the time being. When you find someone better, just go with the flow.

People, it seems that after all, they will go with the flow like this and go with the flow. When I was younger, I insisted on finding someone I always love to be with. At this time, it seems to have become a joke.

When we live more and more realistically, we gradually lose the ability to insist on being ourselves, especially when your closest people are kidnapping you in the name of love and telling you to obediently walk the path everyone is walking. It is correct, you are disloyal, filial, unkind, and even exaggerated to force you to die, making you a normal person in the eyes of most people, cutting off your "wings" so that you can no longer fly to The free sky makes you fall into the dust and turns you into an adult without light in your eyes.

They say they love you, but they do things that kill your ego.Because they are afraid of being different, afraid of being different in the eyes of others, afraid of being a joke in others' mouths, and afraid of becoming a talking point after dinner.

The only thing I'm not afraid of is losing you.

Those bloody examples are there, Xu Xin knows better than anyone else, but she can't tell Shen Sihan.Because Shen Sihan is different from Xu Xin, she has no reason not to take that path.Most importantly, she didn't feel there was anything wrong with that.Is there anything wrong with being a "normal" person?

Xu Xin knew from an early age that he might never become a so-called "normal" person, an ordinary person in the eyes of others.And she also knows that this is not unconventional, it's just that I am being myself, I have no intention of being someone else or something, I am me, and I will never be like others.

I hate being categorized. She is her, he is him, and I am me. They are written in different ways. How can they be grouped together easily.

So Xu Xin could only be silent for a while and asked: "Then are you happy?"

"Happy?" Shen Sihan thought for a while. "What's the point of being happy? So what if you're not happy?"

"Oh, you love to think about those deep and useless questions all day long, go to bed quickly! It will be dawn in a while!" In the end, Shen Sihan directly skipped this question, turned his back to Xu Xin and stopped talking.

"Haha, yes, thank you for chatting with me for such a long time, good night." Xu Xin is not stupid, if the conversation is too deep, it will be boring. After all, everyone still wants to live well. As for the truth and real reality, Or hide it.

"Yeah." A muffled answer came from the darkness.

The blue-black sky outside the window seemed to have begun to brighten.