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But there is one thing at this time, at least Xu Xin can be confirmed.

That is Shen Sihan really doesn't love her, no matter before or now, she really never loved herself.But what to do?When she looked at Shen Sihan in front of her, crying like pear blossoms with rain and begging herself not to leave, her heart softened, her legs seemed to weigh a thousand catties, and she wanted to move, but they seemed to be glued to the floor Same.

She's crazy...she's probably really crazy.He obviously didn't love her, and he said he didn't love her from the beginning, so he might not choose her.Come back now and suddenly realize that everything is already a foregone conclusion?Obviously, he knew it at the beginning, and he committed the crime knowingly.If one were to accuse Shen Sihan of being wrong now, then she would be the one who was so ridiculously wrong.

Xu Xin really hated himself.I hated myself for being so hard-hearted that I really walked out of this door.She hated herself for not being able to truly let go of Shen Sihan, but what should I do, who would let me love her.It is a desperate love that knows that there may be no response or reciprocation but still insists on going its own way.The hand holding the handle of the suitcase was tight and tight, and the friction caused pain in the palm of the hand, but she finally let go.

She knelt down slowly, letting her eyes fall on Shen Sihan's face, seeing her eyes were red from crying, like a very wronged little rabbit.Couldn't help reaching out his hand to gently wipe away the tears she kept dripping.

"Why can't I go?" Xu Xin couldn't bear it, and asked again before his eyes were hot and tears were about to fall.In fact, she just didn't give up and wanted to hear the word "love" from Shen Sihan's mouth. It doesn't take much, even just once, she can live by deceiving herself and others.Even if she already knew the real answer.

What should I do... What should I do... Shen Sihan, what should I do with you?Xu Xin's voices pleading for help piled up layer upon layer as if they were about to overflow from her body, making her shiver with cold as if she had fallen into a deep pool.

"Don't want me, I have nothing to do with others. Let me show you the message I sent to him. It really doesn't matter, don't leave me, I just want to be with you now. I only have you " Shen Sihan cried and begged Xu Xin, and frantically opened the mobile phone information to Xu Xin to see how thoroughly she broke with Ma Xiaodong.

If this incident did not happen under the current circumstances, and if it happened without Xu Xin's knowledge, then Xu Xin should be very happy... How happy is it? Even if Shen Sihan lied to her that it was To the extent that Xu Xin was willing to believe that he broke up because of her...

It's just that the reality is not like this.

This is so ironic.It's like deliberately slapping Xu Xin who is always immersed in self-deception.Let her have to face reality.Let her recognize the true face of the person she loves, how realistic and selfish he is.

But who can come and save her?Rescue her from this quagmire that will only keep swallowing her.Let her rationalize and realize that her efforts are futile, and even if she does it all over again, nothing will change.

"Do you...do you love me?" Finally...Xu Xin still asked the question she knew the answer to, just like she knew it was futile but still chose to stay.

"..." Shen Sihan looked at her, tears still falling slowly, but she was stunned because of Xu Xin's question, she didn't speak, she looked at Xu Xin as if she was thinking about the answer, or she seemed to be thinking about the answer. Tampering with answers.

"I don't love you." But in the end she still chose to tell the truth.She lowered her head, looking very guilty: "Xu Xin... I really don't know how to love someone. I don't know how to love. I have never loved anyone. I don't want to lie to you, but you insist on my answer, I just want to give you an answer." I can tell you that I don’t love you. I don’t love Ma Xiaodong either. Being together is letting nature take its course, and the pain of being apart is just because I am used to existence.” She wiped the tears from her face, she became much more rational, and she was no longer the same as before Hysterical.

"If... I mean, if I don't love you and you have to go, I can't stop you. I won't pretend that I love you very much. I just like you and I'm used to it You just exist. I don’t even know what love is, so how dare I promise you that I love you casually.” Shen Sihan’s tears gradually stopped, and she slowly stood up from the ground, she looked at Xu Xin, who was squatting there without moving, turned to let the door out.

The meaning is already obvious.

After Shen Sihan uttered the word "I don't love", Xu Xin's tears also fell down at the same time, dripping onto the floor, a glistening drop of water.She didn't move, but after listening to Shen Sihan's words, she lowered her head and asked with an uncontrollable cry: "Why are you not even willing to perfuse me? Even if you lie to me casually, I will believe it."

"I don't want to lie to you, and there's no need to coax you to stay. I don't want you to go either, but I think some things should be made clear to avoid more pain in the future." Shen Sihan took a deep breath, and his tone became calmer Liao said: "I'm sorry, I can't give you more than company."

It was her that Xu Xin hated the most.This kind of performance, Xu Xin would like to call unnecessary honesty.Xu Xin hoped that Shen Sihan would be more tactful at this time. As for whether the pain will be painful in the future, that is a matter of the future, and there is no need to worry about it now.But now she wouldn't even lie to herself.Xu Xin didn't know whether he should thank her for her honesty or blame her for being lazy.

In fact, as far as Xu Xin is concerned, the current situation of the two of them has changed, and it can barely be regarded as a change in the direction of being good to her.After all, it's finally not a triangle anymore.

But just now, he had said categorically that he was going to leave, so what's the point of staying here for no apparent reason?Xu Xin stood up slowly, feeling as if all the strength in his body had been taken away, he staggered, and pulled the suitcase again.In that case, let's leave. As for whether Shen Sihan has returned to being single, it doesn't mean much to Xu Xin at this time.Anyway, she will find someone she likes, who is willing to take care of her and treat her well, and then maybe that person, unlike Xu Xin, doesn't care about love or not.

So for Xu Xin, it is now—the end time.She didn't turn her head to look at Shen Sihan's expression, but she gritted her teeth secretly and stretched out her hand towards the doorknob with tears still on her face.If you choose to embrace the thorns, you have to endure constant pain. After a long time, when the thorns have grown into your body, it will be more painful when you want to pull them out. Every time you pull out a little bit, you have to scrape off your own flesh and blood.Now that Xu Xin is determined to pull out the thorns by himself, it is natural that there is pain everywhere in his body and mind.

But there was no other way, she seemed to have no reason to stay.But when her hand touched the doorknob, Shen Sihan grabbed her wrist again.

"...Don't go." Shen Sihan was silent for a while, but said in a muffled voice.She understood that everything that happened just now was constantly overturning the reason why the two were together, but she felt that she shouldn't just let Xu Xin go, at least, not now.

"You don't love me, but you still want me to stay by your side? Don't you think you are too cruel?" Xu Xin suppressed the uncontrollable trembling in his words due to emotional influence.However, the frowning brows and the unsettled tears in her eyes betrayed the wavering in her heart.

"Be cruel if you are cruel. I won't let you go." Shen Sihan raised her head and suddenly strengthened her judgment. She also saw Xu Xin's struggle and pain from Xu Xin's expression, but she had no choice but to let her go. Letting Xu Xin go like this was not only for himself, but also for Xu Xin's sake.After all, Xu Xin was the one who swung a knife at her own wrist.If she was let go today, Shen Sihan could no longer imagine where she would go and what she would do.

"Shen Sihan! Don't be too... umm." Before he could say the word 'overbearing', Xu Xin's lips were already sealed by Shen Sihan.

Xu Xin was stiffened by Shen Sihan's proactive kiss, but her body's subconscious obedience to Shen Sihan made her gradually cooperate with Shen Sihan's lips and tongue.She even put her arms around Shen Sihan's waist unconsciously.

But after a while, she woke up, now is not the time to do such a thing!Hastily took a step back and distanced herself from Shen Sihan.

However, Shen Sihan didn't give her a chance to escape, and once again bullied her and leaned closer, this time with both hands around Xu Xin's neck, controlling her and not giving her another chance to escape.People who don't know may think that the two are reunited couples after a long absence.

Because the busyness of work almost occupied most of the time in their lives, and because Shen Sihan was very concerned about how the relationship between the two was viewed by others, during this nearly one year, except for vacations, Xu Xin was very busy. There are few opportunities to get close to Shen Sihan, needless to say, there is no chance during working hours, and even when returning home after work, it will be too late and the body is very tired, so no one on both sides will raise anything directly.For Shen Sihan, it was nothing special, it felt normal, but for Xu Xin who often had thoughts, it was very painful.But she couldn't bear to torment Shen Sihan, who seemed to be very tired, so she could only endure it.

But it's different now, Shen Sihan took the initiative to come up with it.Xu Xin's rationality was not firm, and now he was disturbed by Shen Sihan's kiss just now.In almost a moment, Xu Xin forgot what the two were arguing just now.She only focused on feeling Shen Sihan's breathing and body temperature, and didn't even notice how Shen Sihan took off her backpack and coat.