night torrent

At the beginning of the year, Liuyan returned to the city in the morning.

The residents upstairs and downstairs haven't come back yet, the whole apartment is quiet, and Yan Chen will have a terrifying feeling of being alone when lying on the bed at night.

On the last day of the New Year's holiday, Yan Chen woke up early to make breakfast for herself.

Outside the window of the living room came the noise of children chasing and chasing, and the chilly early spring wind stirred the light blue curtains.Yan Chen slowly spread a thin layer of butter on the toast bread and fried it in a pan until both sides were crispy.

Yan Chen turned off the gas and was bending over to look for a plate when Andy came back from outside in the early morning chill.

"Are you off work now?"

Yan Chen looked up at the wall clock, the hands pointed at 26:[-].

"Ah."

Andy nodded, and walked quickly into his bedroom without looking back.

"Have you eaten? Do you want to eat something together before going to bed?"

"No, I'm not hungry."

Andy closed the door, and silence filled the room again.

Yan Chen's appetite was poor, he couldn't eat any more after eating half a slice of toast.He got up and cleaned up the cooking table, turned on the faucet, and soaked the cups and saucers in the sink.

"I have something to tell you."

Andy's voice suddenly came from behind.Andy's footsteps were light, and he didn't know when he stood there.

Yan Chen turned to look at Andy.

"I'm dating Han Yi."

Andy held the corner of the dining table with his right hand, and stared fearlessly at Yan Chen with a pair of big eyes.

"I think I should talk to you."

"Are you gay?"

In just a short vacation, friends and roommates actually formed such a relationship. What is even more surprising is Andy's sexuality. Is this world so small?

"Yes, I am like you."

The world is surprisingly narrow.Yan Chen blessed Andy, he hoped that all the lovers in the world could finally get married.

The daily routine of working overtime from [-] to [-] started again, Yan Chenba put most of his mind on work, and he didn't have much time to think about the relationship between Han Yi and Andy.Han Yi is immersed in a new relationship, and Yan Chen hasn't seen him since returning to S City.Andy leaves early and returns late, but most of the time he spends the night at Han Yi's place. The apartment shared by the two has now become Yan Chen's single apartment.

Usually he is so busy with work that he doesn't feel anything, but when it comes to weekends or days when he doesn't work overtime, and stays alone in the apartment facing the empty room, Yan Chen will have the illusion that he has been forgotten by the whole world.

I don't know how long these lonely days have passed. One day, my mother called from my hometown.

"Are you ok?"

"pretty good."

"That's good."

Mother was silent for a while, and then said: "Someone wants to introduce someone to you, do you want to come back and have a look?"

"..."

Mother already knew that she was gay, and during the New Year Yan Chen impulsively slipped her mouth, and then simply confessed everything to her mother.

From discovering his strangeness in high school to confirming his sexuality in college, Yan Chen told his mother about his journey. Speaking of the entanglement and pain of these years, Yan Chen broke down and cried.

Less than a month later, her mother brought up the blind date again, which caught Yan Chen off guard and disappointed at the same time.

"The girl's parents are both teachers, from a scholarly family..."

"not see!"

Suddenly a surge of anger rose in his heart, Yan Chen gritted his teeth and said two words from his throat, then hung up the phone roughly.

He obviously came out to his mother during the New Year, but now he feels dizzy and unreal like having a dream.

But I am neither crazy nor crazy, reality and illusion are clearly distinguished in my mind.

"I like men."

At that time, what I said was so straightforward, it was impossible for my mother not to understand.

Yan Chen recalled the scene at that time, he wanted to take out his heart and show it to his mother, but his mother sat across from him and watched him with tears in her eyes without saying a word.

Why is mother so calm?

Knowing that her son is gay, the mother should be emotionally broken, angry, crying... This is a normal reaction to a big shock, why so calm?

Why do I have the feeling of singing a one-man show in front of an empty audience?

What was mother thinking at that time?

Did she really listen?

Yan Chen felt that he had walked into a dark and deep dead end, and some terrible thoughts were floating in his mind. He was motionless, listening to his heavy panting and shaking his eardrums. At this moment, the phone rang in the empty room. .

Yan Chen was taken aback, his heart beat fast.

"How are you doing? Are you busy with work?"

Lu Yao's steady voice rang in his ears, and Yan Chen felt rescued for a moment.

"Fortunately."

"What's wrong? What happened?"

There was a trembling end in Yan Chen's voice, which was keenly noticed by Lu Yao.

"No."

"Don't close yourself up all the time, it's best to go out for a walk once in a while to relax."

Yan Chen was relieved that Lu Yao didn't get to the bottom of the matter, and went out for a walk... Now is a good time for spring, thinking of the green grass and brilliant spring flowers... It seems like a good idea.

"I talked about traveling before, why don't you go around Hangzhou this weekend?"

"..."

"Leave on Saturday and find a quiet and elegant place to stay for a few days, what do you think?"

"Well......"

"Then I'll book the ticket right away. It takes an hour to get there by high-speed train. When the time comes, shall I pick you up, or meet at the station?"

"At the station."

Yan Chen declined.I don't want Lu Yao to come to the apartment. There are residents upstairs and downstairs, and there are too many people.

"Okay then, I'll call you when the time is fixed."

"it is good."

After the call was over, when night fell outside the window, a sea of ​​lights lit up in the community.

I didn't expect that I would agree to the trip according to Lu Yao's wishes, and I had already made up my mind to draw a clear line with Lu Yao... neither a friend nor a lover, such ambiguity makes Yan Chen uneasy .

Is it really okay to go on like this?

The waiting hall on Sunday was crowded with people. Although it was not as noisy and crowded as during the Spring Festival travel rush, the flow was still constant.

After getting out of the taxi, Yan Chen pushed open the glass revolving door, walked into the hall and looked around.I made an appointment with Lu Yao to meet in the hall at 08:30, and the clock hanging on the central wall of the hall pointed to 35:[-].

Before going out, Yan Chen deliberately dawdled, wandering aimlessly in the apartment for a while before going downstairs.I stopped a taxi at the intersection of the community, because it was Sunday and the time was early, and I went all the way to the station smoothly.

Yan Chen walked towards the security check gate, where there were many people waiting in line to pass the security check.Lu Yao stood aside, wearing a dark gray windbreaker and carrying a leather bag.

"Today is a little different."

"what's wrong?"

"Praise you for looking good, like a college student who just graduated."

Yan Chen looked down at himself, a white shirt with jeans, and white sneakers on his feet, nothing special.

The two passed through the security gate, checked their tickets, and followed the crowd on the platform into the carriage.It was the first time for Yan Chen to travel with Lu Yao, maybe because he was concerned, he always felt that the passengers in the car were watching him, and he was very nervous.

"Does your family know what happened?"

Yan Chen leaned against the window and sat side by side with Lu Yao.

"Don't worry." Lu Yao patted Yan Chen's thigh lightly, and said lightly, "I booked a resort hotel, with green mountains and green waters, far away from the city, very quiet."

"..."

Yan Chen's body trembled, and his whole body became stiff.

No matter how you look at them, they are a weird pair, and they are acting so unnaturally, will people see something?

The train raced on the tracks, the city was left behind.

The rocking of the train from side to side is lulling to sleep.Yan Chen glanced at Lu Yao beside him.He closed his eyes tightly as if asleep.Although the two had had closer contact, it was the first time for Yan Chen to quietly look at Lu Yao's appearance like this.

Unlike the coldness and sharpness when he was awake, Lu Yao was peaceful and quiet when he was asleep, revealing a sense of weakness.

After two or three stops, the announcer informed that the train was about to arrive.Lu Yao opened his eyes and looked out the window.

"Arrived."

The train slowly entered the platform, and when it came to a complete stop, Lu Yao stood up first, and took down the handbag that was placed on the luggage rack above the seat.

"Let's go."

Walking to the door of the car, the gentle spring breeze blew on Yan Chen's face.

The two walked through the lobby of Hangzhou Station, got into Houzai's taxi in front of the station, and drove towards the resort hotel.

Drive for 10 minutes to arrive at the hotel where you are staying.The hotel is a garden-style building in the south of the Yangtze River, with small bridges, flowing water, and winding paths leading to seclusion.Yan Chen followed the hotel waiter through the winding corridors and corridors shaded by green trees to reach the guest room.

The privacy of the guest room is excellent, which made Yan Chen feel a little relieved.When checking in at the reception hall just now, Yan Chen almost fainted under the sight of the guests and waiters coming and going.In their eyes, he was probably a little boy who was taken care of by a rich man, right?

After the waiter left, Yan Chen's heart finally settled down.Open the white curtains, come to the balcony and look at the distance, see the green leaves and flowers, and the deep courtyard.

"Do you want to rest for a while? Or go out?"

"It's all right."

From the hotel's private waterway, we took a boat into the West Lake for sightseeing, and enjoyed the scenery of the lake and mountains all the way. The two had dinner in the building outside the building.

In the afternoon, the two wandered to the Su Causeway where the weeping willows were just green.

"It would be nice to live a leisurely life by the West Lake."

Looking at the mirror-like West Lake, Yan Chen couldn't help sighing.

"It will get tired after staying for a long time."

"is it?"

Yan Chen looks at the lake where the water and the sky are uniform. This is a dreamy fairyland on earth, but the high-end hotels and mansions piled up with money surround this fairyland. It is very expensive to stay in this beautiful place.

"Do you come here often?"

"I came here once with my classmates when I was in college."

The answer was surprising. The journey from hotel reservation to travel route was arranged by Lu Yao. Seeing that he was very familiar with the geography of West Lake, Yan Chen thought Lu Yao was a frequent visitor here.

After returning from West Lake at [-] o'clock in the evening, Lu Yao suggested to sit in the bar on the first floor of the hotel.

"How about going for a drink?"

"Okay, okay, I'm afraid of getting drunk."

"Anyway, I'm going to sleep when I go back, so what are you afraid of?"

Yan Chen nodded, thinking that he would be in the same room with Lu Yao later, it would be better to drink some wine.

From the hollow carved windows of the bar on the first floor, the sound of gurgling water can be heard, and a bright moon hangs in the clear night sky.

Yan Chen asked the waiter for Japanese sake, feeling that this would be more in tune with the current atmosphere.

The sake is clear and transparent, soft and sweet in the mouth, but has a lot of stamina. After only drinking two small cups, Yan Chen's face turned red.

The two stayed in the bar for more than an hour, and returned to the room at about 09:30.

While Lu Yao was taking a shower, Yan Chen sat on the sofa to sober up.In the bedroom separated by a wall, there is a wide bed.

"feelling better?"

Lu Yao, who came out of the steamy bathroom in a bathrobe, came over.

"It's better, I'm going to take a shower first."

Yan Chen got up from the sofa and hid in the bathroom.

After closing the door, unscrewing the shower, Yan Chen sat on the toilet.I knew what was going to happen next in my heart, but when it happened, fear sprang out.He could never get used to this purely physical relationship.

After staying in the bathroom for almost half an hour, Yan Chen came out of the bathroom, unexpectedly Lu Yao fell asleep on the bed.

In the silent room, Lu Yao's snoring sounded.This day I took the train and boat again. Although I went out for a leisure trip, I must be exhausted after a day of bumpy running.

Yan Chen let go of a hanging heart, he came back to his senses, lifted the quilt and lay down under the quilt, reached out and turned off the wall lamp.In the dead of night, the demure moonlight shines in through the carved window panes.Yan Chen was lying on the soft bed, his slightly curved legs were aching from the day of running around.After a little adjustment to a comfortable sleeping position, Yan Chen felt his starry eyes dimmed, and fell asleep in a daze after a while.