Don't be sad behind my back

--courage--

"Go back to my house on weekends..." Cheng Xiao looked at Han Yi expectantly.

"Well……"

Han Yi was actually embarrassed to say that he wanted to go home with Cheng Xiao.

"Okay..." Cheng Xiao's eyes lit up, and he instantly understood: "Come home with me today, and Lao Cheng will come to pick us up."

"Okay." Han Yi lowered his head, his face was a little red, but the corner of his mouth smiled unconsciously.

Han Yi found that he seemed to be more and more inseparable from Cheng Xiao. Every day, he would look forward to Cheng Xiao returning to the classroom after training. Whenever there is physical contact, I can't help but want to stick closer, and I don't want to let go.

He couldn't remember when he started to unconsciously want to get close to Cheng Xiao, and he couldn't remember when Cheng Xiao became an indispensable part of his life.

He only remembered that Cheng Xiao was like a ray of light shining into his life when he first met.

The heartbeat of early autumn begins with a golden sunset.

But Han Yi himself didn't know why, the lack of emotion for many years made him not sure what liking is and what love is.

The restraint and depression of more than ten years completely collapsed the moment I met you, but the loneliness and depression made me cautious, lest you would disappear when I ran towards you.

I don't want to be full of hope but end up with nothing. I am afraid of the empty feeling of abandonment. It has been more than ten years. I haven't suffered from that kind of pain anymore. It's not because I defeated it, but because I hid it.

How long will this ray of hope last...

Can you... stay a little longer...

I can't seem to live without...

Han Yi looked at Cheng Xiao's face, his thoughts had already flown beyond the clouds and the sky.

Until Cheng Xiao patted his face.

"What are you thinking? Keep staring at me."

"It's nothing." Han Yi smiled slightly.

"Liar, tell me quickly, what are you thinking!" Cheng Xiao said jokingly, holding Han Yi in his arms with one arm, pressing his forehead against Han Yi's, threateningly.

Han Yi just smiled: "I'll tell you later."

At this moment, Han Yi wanted to tell Cheng Xiao a lot, but he was afraid that Cheng Xiao would be disgusted and awkward, so he didn't say it in the end.

In the end, he didn't want to understand where this feeling came from.

When school was over, Cheng Xiao took Han Yi back to his home. As soon as the two of them entered the house, the smell of the food wafted over. Cheng Xiao's mother filled the table again. Seeing the two returned, she greeted him excitedly. The two go to wash their hands first and then come to eat.

Han Yi rolled up his sleeves when washing his hands, and did not put them down while eating, revealing the aquamarine bracelet on his wrist.

"Yo, is this the rock that Cheng Xiao wants to walk?" Cheng Xiao's mother patted Old Cheng.

"Oh yes." Lao Cheng was enjoying his dinner.

For a moment, Han Yi wanted to pick it up and return it. He was a little guilty, thinking that although Cheng Xiao gave it to him, would it be possible that he didn't have the consent of his parents, if that was the case, he wouldn't be able to accept it.

"Yes, I'm sorry..." Han Yi had already taken off the bracelet.

Cheng Xiao's mother was startled: "Oh! Why did you pick it up? Didn't Cheng Xiao make it for you? Why did you pick it up for us?"

Old Cheng was also taken aback: "What's the matter? Why did you take it off? What happened to this bracelet?"

"Ah..." Han Yi held up his hand in a daze, holding the bracelet in his hand, like a small animal who was found hiding something and would take the initiative to be punished. He was so scared that he didn't dare to move, pitiful and cute.

Cheng Xiao laughed at Han Yi's guilt and surprise, took the bracelet and put it on for him again.

He knew what Han Yi was thinking, and said softly, "They both know about this bracelet, and they also know that I gave it to you, so don't worry about wearing it, and they are not allowed to take it off in the future."

"Scare me, this child, why is he so real? Xiao Han, Auntie scared you just now, I'm so sorry." Cheng Xiao's mother was busy comforting Han Yi.

"It's okay...Thank you, uncle and aunt, I like this very much, thank you." Han Yi lowered his head and stumbled.

"You're welcome, Xiao Han, you're welcome with Auntie, come, eat this."

"Mom, don't wait until Han Yi."

"Come on, Xiao Han, have some soup."

Cheng Xiao: "..."

in the room……

"Here, pajamas." Cheng Xiao found a set of clean pajamas from the closet and handed them to Han Yi.

Han Yi took it, took off the bathrobe, and put it on with a rustle, his hair was still a little wet, and he was caught behind.The wound on the forehead has been closed, and the wound on the face is basically invisible.

Thanks to Han Yi's hair that can cover up the wound on his forehead, no one found Han Yi's injury this week, only Cheng Xiao was busy changing his dressing every day.

"My hard work was not in vain. The wounds have healed, at least they are not split." Cheng Xiao let out a long sigh of relief.

"thanks……"

Han Yi sat on the edge of the bed, looking down at his two legs hanging on the carpet.

Cheng Xiao was sitting in a swivel chair in front of him.

He didn't dare to look at Cheng Xiao, he felt guilty and blamed himself.

In Han Yi's view, it's a waste of energy for others to be distracted because of him, not to mention worrying and caring, he can't bear it the most, because he is too clumsy to repay.

There was silence in the room for a while.

"Han Yi." Cheng Xiao resolutely called the name of the person in front of him as if he had made up his mind.

"Huh?" Han Yi was a little dazed, it was the first time he heard Cheng Xiao's tone, and he suddenly raised his head to meet the pair of eyes in front of him, deep and calm, clear and bright, firm and unshakable.

"Won't you be sad?" Cheng Xiao said with a heartache, his eyes were shining, tender and heart-wrenching.

Han Yi was startled, he didn't know what it was like to be sad, because he had long been numb.

But at this moment, looking into Cheng Xiao's eyes, his nose was sore, as if a thousand arrows were piercing his heart, as if his heart was being clenched tightly, the pain was unspeakable, and the pain was beyond words.

A few seconds seemed to last forever.

"Yes." Han Yi responded softly, as if he was exhausted physically and mentally.

Cheng Xiao's Adam's apple twitched, and he looked at Han Yi with a smile, his expression as soft and lingering as water.

"Can I discuss something with you?"

Cheng Xiao leaned forward and gently hugged Han Yi, with his chin resting on Han Yi's thin and thin shoulders. He turned his face slightly, and leaned his lips against Han Yi's ear, gentle and pious.

"Can you..."

Cheng Xiao tightened her arms slightly, and her two beating hearts were stuck together through the skin and clothing, sensing each other's body temperature.

"Don't secretly be sad behind my back, I want to give you a hug right away."

These words completely destroyed the rotten high wall in Han Yi's heart, and exposed the damp and cold atrium to the sunlight.

It's just that I don't know why, but there is a trace of timidity.

Just like a ray of light suddenly shone in from a dark house, the first reaction was not warmth, but glaring.

Han Yi opened his mouth, all the words were stuck in his throat, only his pupils were trembling violently, he hugged Cheng Xiao tightly, he didn't want to leave for a moment, as if he was grabbing a life-saving straw.

"Don't be afraid, I will never leave you, I will always be here."

Cheng Xiao patted Han Yi's back lightly, and he could feel Han Yi trembling violently.

At this moment, Cheng Xiao is no longer an illusory dream like flowers in a mirror and moon in water.

Cheng Xiao let go of Han Yi slowly, stroking his face with both hands, the two looked at each other, their lips moved closer and closer.

Han Yi kept his eyes down, and his breathing gradually became short of breath. When Cheng Xiao approached tentatively again and again, he hid back again and again, and finally lay down on the bed, and Cheng Xiao was also dragged down and pressed up.

Han Yi was trapped in the fluffy and soft quilt, looking weak and slender, his pale face was flushed slightly, and he was panting rapidly with his mouth slightly open.

Cheng Xiao looked down at him, put his forearm on Han Yi's ear, kept his hand on Han Yi's chin, and moved his lips closer again.

Cheng Xiao stopped when she was about to touch the lips of the man next to her.

"Han Yi..." Cheng Xiao's voice was soft and restrained: "I like you."

Cheng Xiao continued: "I'm just expressing my sincerity to you, not asking for your response. So, please don't have any burdens, just accept it with peace of mind, okay?"

Han Yi stopped trembling first, and then his breathing became more rapid. He looked at Cheng Xiao tremblingly, looking timid like a stray cat that has been taken in and cared for carefully, not daring to stretch out his dirty paws for fear of dirtying the clean area .

Cheng Xiao seemed to have seen through Han Yi's thoughts.

"Han Yi, can you muster up your courage?"

"I……"

Han Yi is greedy for Cheng Xiao's embrace, but also afraid that he will become a drag and burden.

"I like you very much, I want to hold you in my arms, and I want to protect you as much as I can. Can you give me a chance? You like me too. For yourself, can you be selfish once? Selfishly tie me up Be by your side, only belong to you."

Cheng Xiao looked at Han Yi, Han Yi tilted his head, his hair covered his eyes, he couldn't see his expression clearly, only his tightly pursed lips could be seen.

After an unknown amount of time, Cheng Xiao just smiled, and was about to get up when his wrist was suddenly grabbed.

Han Yi finally turned his head, but his eyelids were still drooping and his cheeks were flushed.

"Don't, don't go."

Han Yi looked up at Cheng Xiao, pure and innocent.

"Tie you up."

Han Yi tightened his grip on Cheng Xiao's hand.

The next second, the two embraced and kissed each other.

Courage is to embrace your rights, to leave traces of being with you, and to express my deep love for you.

All doubts have been answered, those complicated and contradictory emotions are just because I like you.

Han Yi felt that the air in his mouth was being deprived bit by bit, and he was a little dizzy. When he was about to pass out due to lack of oxygen, their lips parted. Han Yi just took a breath, and the next second his lip was bitten , along the corner of the mouth, the chin slides all the way to the Adam's apple.

Han Yi grabbed the quilt tightly, tried his best to throw his head back, and Cheng Xiao buried himself in his neck, sucking and biting.

Cheng Xiao and Han Yi are very different in size, and he trains every day, and Han Yi is controlled by him to death. At this time, he is like a hungry wolf who has endured for a long time and finally started eating meat, enjoying the clean and white little fox in front of him.

"Uh...uh..."

"Ah... um... Cheng, Cheng, Xiao... ah!"

Cheng Xiao's canine teeth dug into the skin of Han Yi's collarbone.

Han Yi gasped, gasped for breath, trembled so hard that he lost his voice.

Cheng Xiao let out a sigh of relief, kissed Han Yi on the cheek, and chuckled softly.

"Baby, you..." Cheng Xiao squinted at Han Yi, felt something, chuckled lightly, and pressed down deliberately.

Han Yi wanted to hide but was caught and had nowhere to escape.

Cheng Xiao picked up Han Yi and walked to the bathroom. He gently put Han Yi into the bathtub, stepped in himself, turned on the shower, and water fell on the two of them.

"This time...you have to bear with it, don't let them hear it." Cheng Xiao was extremely wicked.

When the two came out, Han Yi had a lot of marks all over his body, while Cheng Xiao only had a few tooth marks on his shoulders and a few scratch marks on his back, which were the marks of Han Yi's patience.