The world doesn't fit me

He fell in love with Fu Yanchuan, fell in love with a... man.

Lu Chen lowered his head and rubbed Fu Yanchuan's outline with his eyes. The roommate was breathing evenly, his closed eyelashes were silent, and he had already fallen into a deep sleep.

He felt that he was really bewitched, and when he realized it, he stumbled and opened the door and carried him to the bed.

The roommate has a place to sleep in this 1.2-meter-wide bed, so what should he do?

There was an empty bed in front of his eyes that Yue Xia was fascinated by, but he had turned his face like that before, no matter how hard-faced he usually was, Lu Chen couldn't open his mouth to ask that thing for something.Besides, even if he let go of his face, can he agree?

Or, squeeze?

Lu Chen stood by the wall and looked at the size of the bed.

Or don't, the two big men are tall and have long legs. It is estimated that one of them will roll down in the middle of the night.

Let's get another room.

Lu Chen walked out with his things, and the phone rang as soon as he put it in his pocket.

Afraid of disturbing Fu Yanchuan, he clutched his trouser pocket and frantically fumbled for it. He didn't have time to care who the caller was, so he rushed to the bathroom to answer it.

"Hello?" Lu Chen asked.

"Brother Chen..." The voice on the other end of the phone was trembling, and he hesitated to speak, "You... the new video you uploaded is... what's going on, you really follow..."

As soon as Shen Yulou finished speaking, Lu Chen's mind was stuck, "What video?"

"Just... just the one you posted on Weibo, and your roommate's...you..."

It took about five or six seconds for Lu Chen to figure out what Shen Yulou was talking about.

He didn't care about what Shen Yulou said later, and said to himself: "It was taken a few days ago, I almost forgot. Don't--hey, I have something to do here, late at night I'll talk about it tomorrow, hang up."

Lu Chen hung up the phone in a hurry, looking dazed at the words "Call ended" on the screen.

He actually wanted Shen Yulou not to think too much just now, but he was choked when the words came to his lips, and he couldn't say anything, and he was afraid from the bottom of his heart that the other party would ask more questions, so he pressed the red button as if fleeing, without mentioning anything. How strange.

The light in the bathroom dazzled him, and he couldn't tell what was bothering him for a while.

Lu Chen turned his head slightly and saw himself in the mirror with empty eyes. He turned on the tap and poured cold water on his face, propped himself up to feel the coldness of the marble in his palm.

The heater had only been turned on not long ago, and it was freezing cold.

There was a gentle knock on the door, and the visitor asked in a tired tone, "Lu Chen?"

Lu Chen froze, "What's wrong, roommate?"

"No. I didn't see you when I turned over just now, I thought you were gone." The figure swayed slightly, and Lu Chen could see his palm propped on the door from inside, the outline was so clear.

Lu Chen: "Relax and sleep, I'm here."

There was a brief silence outside the door, and after a while, Fu Yanchuan responded in a low voice: "Yes."

When the shadow outside the door disappeared, Lu Chen turned his head and looked at the mirror again.

Seeing this, he froze in place obediently, half of his body froze.

That young man with a bright smile in the mirror just now, is it really him?

In the end, Lu Chen considered again and again, and chose to move with Fu Yanchuan to the newly opened big bed room.

Who knows how awkward he was when the receptionist told him that there were only couple suites and double rooms left, and even the idea of ​​saying a few sweet words to make the receptionist happy was thrown out of the sky.

Fu Yanchuan was also special. He was persecuted by alcohol so much that his eyelids twitched, and after being forced to wake up a few times, he still fell asleep as soon as he touched the bed.

Moreover, Lu Chen found that this man was not only sleepy but also clingy when he was drunk.

If he turned over and didn't see Lu Chen, he would lazily call a few times, and then fell asleep peacefully when he got a response, which made Lu Chen feel restless in the shower.

Thinking of this, Lu Chen smiled.

One of them was drunk and cried loudly, and the other fell asleep until unconscious.

Lu Chen slept next to his pillow, listening to his breathing as a sleep aid.

This wasn't the first time the two of them slept together, but Lu Chen felt a little uncomfortable this time.

The bed was big, but he seemed to be able to feel the body temperature of his roommate no matter how he moved, as if he had nowhere to hide in whatever he did.

In fact, the baby roommate's body temperature is only slightly higher than his, but it is inexplicably hot, making him feel hot all over his body, wondering if the heater is turned on too hard.

Lu Chen didn't quite remember how he fell asleep.Faintly fell into a nightmare, and was wrapped in layers of velvet when struggling in the depths, and then fell into a peaceful dream.

Enduring the pain in the back of his head, Fu Yanchuan opened his eyelids and raised his forearm lightly, but he felt a sinking, slightly sore feeling.He lowered his head slightly, and a fluffy head came into view.

Lu Chen's back was facing Fu Yanchuan, his head rested comfortably on his arm, and his sleeping position was also very honest.

He froze for a moment, then stretched out the other hand to lift it up, gently and slowly pulled his arm out, and helped Lu Chen tidy the quilt after getting up.

The sheets and quilts in the hotel are all white, Lu Chen seems to be lying in the snow, and his skin is even whiter.

When Lu Chen woke up, Fu Yanchuan had just finished taking a shower. As soon as he got up together, they met eyes.

The air freezes for a few seconds.

Lu Chen wanted to break this inexplicable silence.He moved slightly, wanting to say something, but his movements suddenly became stiff, his back straightened, and his brows furrowed slightly for a moment.

"Are you awake? It's still early, do you need to sleep a little longer?" Fu Yanchuan said as he was about to step forward to straighten the quilt that had slipped off his body.

He hurriedly stopped: "Don't move!"

Lu Chen couldn't resist the other party's questioning gaze, he turned his head in embarrassment and said, fearing that Fu Yanchuan would ask more questions, he grabbed the quilt nervously.

Looking at his actions, and thinking of the embarrassment he had experienced before, Fu Yanchuan understood it.

But he suddenly took a few steps towards Lu Chen.

He had some doubts in his heart, as if he had caught a glimpse of something from Lu Chen's recent behavior, and was eager to make sure.

The moment Lu Chen was grabbed by his wrist by his roommate, his head was nearly blank, and his heart was clamoring to jump out.

Fu Yanchuan leaned over slightly, propped his other hand on the bed, and looked down at him.The distance between the two of them is only a few decimeters, and anyone who breathes heavily can hear clearly.

Lu Chen was in a daze, and asked, "What... what's wrong?"

Did he read it right, the roommate was giving him... taking... his pulse?

The other party didn't speak, and he couldn't figure out the deep affection in his eyes. It took a long time before he let go and said, "It's okay."

Lu Chen suddenly breathed a sigh of relief, and shrank into the quilt with his body.

Fortunately, Fu Yanchuan let go immediately, otherwise he might suffocate if this continues.

He was still thanking God here, so he heard Fu Yanchuan chuckle and said: "The spirit is good."

The tone and demeanor were the same as when Lu Chen spoke to him before.

"Uh..." Lu Chen felt a few slap marks suddenly appear on his face, which turned shockingly red.

Faceless.

He turned over and covered himself with a quilt, and said in a muffled voice, "Oh, roommate, don't embarrass me, I...I can't stand it."

Fu Yanchuan thought it was a little funny, "You're usually pretty good at talking, why can't you do it now."

"Ah?" Lu Chen wanted to play dumb, but felt that he was too fake, so he had to tell the truth, "I don't know—hey, don't look at my jokes, and leave me alone, let me take it easy."

Hearing that his words were serious, Fu Yanchuan stopped teasing him, "Okay, then I'll go downstairs to buy breakfast first."

The sound of the door being closed was very clear. Lu Chen poked his head out from under the quilt, looked around twice to confirm that the person had left, then sat up hesitantly, and hurriedly glanced under him with a sad face.

He knew that this was a normal physiological reaction for men, but it was the first time he was so embarrassed by it.

If it was one of his brothers in the room, Lu Chen could still laugh and tease himself.

Unfortunately not.

The person standing by the bed and talking just now was the person who would become very strange whenever he saw him, and the person who would make Lu Chen lose everything in his mind as soon as the other party approached.

He leaned against the back of the bed with a headache, and there was an itching in his lower abdomen that could not be ignored.

Normally, Lu Chen must wait for it to lower its head.But this time, the air in the quilt was full of Fu Yanchuan's breath, mature and sexy, he couldn't hold it in at all.

Thinking of the appearance of his roommate coming out of the bathroom just now, his lower abdomen felt hot again.

Lu Chen hesitated again and again, gritted his teeth and attached his hand, and murmured a certain person's name restrainedly deep in his mouth.

He was shocked all over, and at the same time he released it, he suddenly glimpsed the thoughts deep in his heart.

Although he never thought about it himself, and he didn't want to believe it, the physical reaction was often the most honest.

But how long have we been together?

Lu Chen put the back of his hand on his forehead, his chest was still heaving, and he could even smell his own absurd smell from the tip of his nose.

Is it because I am too sentimental, resulting in cheap feelings, or I can't resist being single for a long time, and I want to put my heart into it at every turn?

It's ridiculous to say that he fell in love with Fu Yanchuan, fell in love with a... man.

But Lu Chen thought, he can't be blamed, his roommate is so good, it's inevitable to like him.

Fu Yanchuan told Lu Chen that it was still early, but in fact the hour hand had already moved to nine.The shops downstairs are all open, and the cars on the road stop and go, already showing signs of heavy traffic.

The hotel's breakfast was served long ago, and it was really hard to find a nearby breakfast shop. When Fu Yanchuan returned to his room, Lu Chen had already packed himself and was watching TV boredly. When he heard the sound of the door opening, he subconsciously looked up.

The ends of Lu Chen's eyes were wet and red, and his expression was sleepy, but it was not hard to see the astonishment in his eyes.

His Adam's apple rolled, and he let out a rogue smile as usual: "You're back? What delicious food did you buy me?" Lu Chen looked forward to seeing his eyes shine like a boy in his teens.

Fu Yanchuan's heart shuddered, and he walked over with the bag.

Lu Chen held the bread in one hand, looked at his phone while eating, and raised his head to signal to Fu Yanchuan to unscrew the milk for him.

It has to be said that Fu Yanchuan really likes the feeling of being needed.

"Sweet?" Lu Chen smacked his lips and asked after being fed by him.

"Well, I asked the clerk to add some sugar." Faced with Lu Chen's puzzled gaze, he smiled and said, "You like sweet things."

"for……"

"Because of that jar of sugar by your bedside."

Lu Chen smiled and stopped laughing, because he couldn't control himself, his beating heart, and his liking for the man in front of him.

Every word that Fu Yanchuan said seemed to be poisonous, the secret joy was real, the temptation was real, and the fear was also real.

Usually he is used to talking high, but in fact Lu Chen is not ready to like someone at all, he doesn't want to let himself fall too deep.

He lowered his head to cover up and continued to fiddle with the phone, clicked on WeChat in a daze, and the notification sound rushed out.

"Ji Jianglin": What's going on with you and your roommate?

"Ji Jianglin": I rely on you to be really stable, Weibo is going to blow up, you know? !

"Ji Jianglin": No, what is this?Official announcement? ?

"Ji Jianglin": Why haven't you returned?What's wrong?

Lu Chen glanced at Fu Yanchuan guilty, and replied sideways: It's okay, I just woke up not long ago;

"Lu Chen": What's going on, isn't it just a game between brothers;

"Lu Chen": What is there to guess?Why do other people post this kind of video and watch it as a joke, but I took it seriously once I posted it? Lu Chen was dealing with other people while waiting for his reply.

After about a few minutes, he wanted to get up and wipe his hands with a piece of paper, when the notification sounded again.

"Ji Jianglin": This is different!

"Ji Jianglin": Feng Congchuan is gay, who doesn't know about it? ?

Lu Chen paused, his hanging hand stopped in mid-air, and subconsciously looked towards Fu Yanchuan.

Sensing his gaze, Fu Yanchuan twitched the corners of his lips, seeming very happy, and said with a smile, "I'll make a call."

He had already walked away with his mobile phone, but Lu Chen still stayed where he was.

Yes, Fu Yanchuan was gay. Lu Chen knew about it, but he never took it seriously, and buried it deep in his memory.

It seems that it was not until Ji Jianglin told him that the dust was blown away and the memory became clear.

Since Fu Yanchuan is gay, is it possible for his liking to be responded to? Can he try to take a step forward?

It was not the first time that Lu Chen had someone he liked, but it was the first time he fell in love with a man.He was also a little uncontrollably curious, wondering what it was like to be with a man.

While you are young, can you let him indulge for a while?