Fool's Love

No matter which direction I go, I don't have the idea of ​​looking back.

After dinner, my mother went back to Wanghexuan, and I told Masumi to go back to my room to wait for a while, while I washed all the dishes and chopsticks before going up.

Speaking of which, I am usually alone at home many times, and these things must be done by myself, so I am very good at cooking or washing dishes.

After putting the bowls and chopsticks into the disinfection cabinet, I took out the iced lemonade from the refrigerator, poured two glasses, put them on a tray and took them upstairs.

I was startled when I opened the door: I saw Masumi lying on the wooden floor with his feet facing the door, his hands folded on his stomach, and his eyes staring at the ceiling distractedly.

I thought something happened to him, and I just wanted to put down the tray to check the situation, but he maintained a flat lying posture, without turning his head, just turning his eyeballs and looking at me.

"Ah, Yamagishi."

"What's wrong with you? You're motionless. I thought something happened to you. Is there something wrong?"

"No, on the contrary, the condition is very good. It's just that the weather is a little hot now..."

"So why don't you just lie on the ground for a while?" I looked at him dumbfounded.

"Yes." Masumi's answer was not sloppy.

"How about drinking some lemonade? I just took it out of the refrigerator, and there are still drops of water on the outside of the glass."

"Wait a minute. I'm sorry, I don't want to move at all right now."

So I put the tray on the desk, sat on the seat and played with the phone for a while.I like the online comics that are updated today, but I really don’t have time to read them. I have nothing to do now, so I put one hand on the desk and the other hand holding the phone and slowly flipping through them.

"What is Yamagishi thinking?"

Masumi asked me suddenly, a question without beginning or end.I look away from the screen.Masumi was looking at me with a look that reminded me of the moon.

"What do you mean?"

"Have you thought about what to do next?"

"Why do you ask?"

"Because you look extremely tired, very tired, very-tired, and confused. It's like the kind of person who can't take care of both ends, which makes people feel worried."

"Does it look like this?"

"of course."

I opened my mouth, wanting to say something, but only air came out of my mouth.I know that Masumi is really worried about me, and I'm not ungrateful, it's just that his problem is exactly the problem that I'm worrying about and has no results.

what to doBecome a cartoonist?That's too much risk.So you have to rely on the exam and spend your whole life working in a job you don't like?That was too painful.

"I'm not sure. Does Masumi know how to choose?"

A stupid question.Think about it, a few months into Reinforcement High School soliciting advice from peers about future career directions - how ludicrous it is!

At that time, I said it naturally.Masumi, who was lying on the ground, slowly sat up now.On the ground, he turned his upper body to look at me.

"Me? Of course I'm also at a loss. I don't even know what I want to do and what I can do. However, now the mountain bank is like a piece of rough jade, as if there is a way no matter which direction you go. So it can be balanced to some extent. Painting and learning the rhythm of life."

"That makes sense... nonsense."

"Yes, nonsense. But you must have forgotten, at least not recently."

Masumi stood up, "If my prediction must come true, I will tell you "Become a manga artist! You have that talent", but in this way, I will have to take responsibility for your future.

I am afraid of this.In the final analysis, no matter whether you go radical or conservative, it is Yamagishi's own path.

I can help you with anything other than choice, Yamagishi.If there is something I can help like this after-school lecture, you wave to me, and I will trot to you. "

"Having said so much, the core point of view turns out to be "Don't worry, I'm here"? "

I am a little dumbfounded.

"That's what it means..." Masumi smiled very refreshingly, "Besides, didn't we have learned a text called "Mountain Moon Tale" before? Let's read it again!"

Masumi did what he said.Since then, he began to come to my house frequently to teach me my homework.

This helped me a lot - I missed so much before, and it was still too difficult to catch up on my own.

As for the comics, let's put them first.I explained my situation to Sister Mei Hai, but fortunately she was also reasonable.

During that time, I devoted myself to my studies.With Masumi at his side, the process was hardly boring.

At the same time, I feel more and more how powerful Masumi is.Even though I have enough advantages over him in painting, when I stand in front of him, I still feel a little inferior.

He is the young master born in a good family, right?But he is not arrogant, and he has no airs when getting along.

When Masumi came to my house, I was worried more than once that someone would come to my house one day—a family with strict discipline should have access control, right?

Returning home late for so many consecutive days, even if it is said to go to a classmate's house, the parents will be very worried, right?Thinking about it this way, the reason for Masumi's character is probably nature.

As time goes by, the wind is gradually contaminated with the breath of summer.The weather became scorching hot, and Masumi, who likes to wear suits and school uniforms, finally took off her suits, leaving only the white summer shirt inside.

He has several collar ropes, which he wears in different ways.The most common ones are set with crimson stones, followed by ultramarine stones as bright as lapis lazuli, and mint blue, which looks like robin eggs.

When Masumi came running towards me with small steps, the stone in the center of the collar gleamed in the sunlight.It always grabs my attention the first time.I saw the stone first, and then my eyes slowly moved up to Masumi's face.

"Waiting! Where do I start today?"

"Science. I still don't understand a lot about what the teacher taught today..."

"Well, that's it."

Masumi nodded in agreement.With light-colored hair and light-colored clothes, he stood very close to me like a mist.

In the evening when the sky was gradually dyed orange, we met in the teaching building and walked at the same pace.

Along the way, I seriously thought about what Masumi asked me before.Do you draw manga?Or keep learning?

Right now I can't seem to make up my mind.I am too young and lack sufficient experience and judgment.

Those things that will ultimately determine the trajectory of my life, the more I decide to do it too early, the easier it is to regret it.

But at least Masumi is here, as long as he is still holding my hand, no matter which direction I go, I will not have the idea of ​​looking back.

In Masumi's soft and comfortable hum, once again, I quietly lowered my eyes in his direction.