Eat this toad [Entertainment]

The experience of living together for more than ten years has taught Su Jinjiang that his father doesn't really want to listen to his explanation, but just wants to vent his anger.All verbal disputes are futile and useless except to add fuel to the fire.

Su Jinjiang waited quietly until the voice on the phone stopped before saying, "Are you finished?"

He had never spoken to his father in such a tone. The father on the other end of the phone was obviously taken aback for a moment, and then became even more angry: "What's your attitude?!"

"What attitude do you want from me?" Su Jinjiang raised his voice and asked back, "I kowtowed to you on my knees and said I was wrong?"

"You..." His father was choked, and Su Jinjiang heard the sound of slamming the table, "You!"

"What exactly are you trying to do when you make this call?" Su Jinjiang stabilized his mind and tried his best to restrain his emotions, for fear that he would accidentally explode, "If you want to know the situation, don't worry, I have nothing to show people I haven’t done anything before, I’ll take care of it so that you don’t get involved with me. If you want to scold someone, you’ve scolded enough just now. I’m very tired today and I’m going to rest.”

"Su Jinjiang!" His father roared through the receiver, "Who do you think you are? Have you done anything good for your family since you grew up? Trash! You've been a trash all your life!"

Su Jinjiang put down his phone and took a deep breath.He has been used to hearing these words since he was a child, and he can get over it if he bears it, but tonight it sounds particularly harsh, every word is like a needle.He wanted to hang up the phone, but his fingers couldn't press the hang up button on the screen.

A nameless fire that had accumulated for many years suddenly shot up to the top of his forehead, and Su Jinjiang yelled at the phone: "Are you finished?!"

With this voice, there was no sound on the phone.

"I'm a waste, do you know how failed you are?" Now that he yelled out, Su Jinjiang simply poured out the resentment that had been stuck in his chest for more than ten years, "Why did my mother divorce you? Why do people break up with you, why do relatives at home don't want to see you, have you really never thought about the reason?"

"Su Jinjiang! Do you dare to push your nose in the face with me?" Through the phone, his father's anger almost overturned the table in front of Su Jinjiang, "Do you want to die again? Believe it or not, I will go over and get you right now." Broken legs?"

Su Jinjiang ignored these words, and continued in one breath, "Dad, I just want to ask you something. From what I can remember to the present, in all these years, have you ever given others a little respect? Back then, my mother Your company quit your job, you did housework at home, and you cheated on the outside. Do you think I didn’t know anything when I was a child? Do you know why relatives come to my house every Chinese New Year? Do I rather hide in the toilet all night than go out to meet people? Because I don’t want to see them looking at you from behind, and I don’t want you to embarrass me in front of them! I want to be a normal I don’t want those relatives to know that you and I are crazy! Your interpersonal relationship is so failed, have you never thought about why? You never think about others, and you never even treat your own family members. No thought of respect! What are we to you, and what am I to you?"

Su Jinjiang felt that his throat and lungs were hurting, and the pain made him want to cry, but there was still a breath lying in his chest, and he couldn't spit it out or swallow it.

The phone fell silent, and the heavy breathing of both sides could be heard.

"We will not disturb each other in the future, and I will not trouble you, and you should not contact me again. I have nothing to say to you, so be it. "

Su Jinjiang hung up the phone, heaved a long sigh, then deleted and blocked his father's number.

This time, he really didn't intend to have any contact with his father anymore.

During the years when he left home, he always had a glimmer of hope: Maybe his father would slowly remember his kindness after a long distance; maybe one day, the relationship between him and his father would improve.The result was the same as when I lived at home, just repeated disappointments.

Since it is impossible to change, so be it.

Su Jinjiang washed his face and lay down on the bed without taking off his clothes. He wanted to have a good sleep, but he couldn't fall asleep.His brain seemed to be separated from his body, and his body was exhausted, but his brain had no intention of going to sleep, spinning countless thoughts like a revolving lantern.

After having fans, he used to think that his life would start to be different.

Because someone likes him, so he tries desperately to pretend to be worthy of being liked, worthy of being loved.After a long time, even he himself had an illusion, as if he was really what his character set showed.

But the truth is that he has never liked himself, and will never like himself.

After figuring this out, Su Jinjiang suddenly felt relieved.

Tribulations in the external world are like a cold and fever, which can be severe and leave you with vomiting and diarrhea.But as long as you survive the most uncomfortable period of time, your body will gradually recover.

Loathing oneself is a poison.It doesn't have to be painful all the time, but there is no cure.It is like another self lurking in your body, slowly expanding with your life, gradually replacing you, and then quietly ending your life at a certain moment.

If you run counter to yourself, even if you put in a lifetime of hard work, who are you trying to please and who can you please?

After a while, Su Jinjiang picked up his mobile phone to check the time, and for some reason, habitually clicked into his social network account.

From the fund gate incident to the present, he has not logged into his account to see the reactions of fans.Large-scale de-fans are probably inevitable. He has enough mental preparations, but he still doesn't want to see it with his own eyes.

But now he felt that nothing mattered.The him that fans like is another person who has nothing to do with him, a character in the play.The play went well and the audience came.The play flopped and the audience left.The audience outside the stage came and went, but his real life behind the stage was still a mess.

Under the post he posted last, Sutang is struggling to control the comments.

In this situation where the whole network is hacked, the power of fans is very limited.The Sutangs change shifts every few hours, and continue to control and comment overnight without interruption, pushing up the well-intentioned messages.

【Come on Susu, we will wait for you to come back】

【Susu is not afraid, we are all here】

Among the most popular messages at present, there is a very long one:

[Not counting as fans.The first time I knew this actor was a TV series a few years ago. I don’t remember the plot, but the supporting role he played was very warm.At that time, I was about to graduate, and I was in a bad mood because my job search was not going well.That role of his healed me subtly and gave me a source of support during those anxious days.Later, when I was preparing for my graduation project, I took his photo to encourage myself every day.

After graduation, I was very busy with work, I didn't chase stars, and I didn't pay attention to him for a long time.A while ago, I heard a colleague mention him by chance, and I searched the Internet, only to find out what happened to him recently, and I feel very sad.

Those who have become role models may not know how their unintentional little light will warm the hearts of others at certain moments.

I am also a person who has been illuminated by his light, even if I have not been chasing his trajectory, the feeling of being illuminated has always existed.

In this sense, I think whether a star chaser is chasing for a moment or for a lifetime, maybe the essence is the same, and they all want to let that person's light shine into their lives.

Life is not easy.We need to borrow a little warmth from others.You may not imagine that the little light and heat you give may allow others to survive a long period of darkness. 】

Su Jinjiang read this message over and over several times, took a screenshot and saved it, and felt a strange feeling in his heart for a moment.

He also had a similar experience, also before graduation, and he can understand the anxiety that the messager said.During that time, Wei Tan was his spiritual motivation, a ray of light that shone into his dark life.At that time, he didn't think that one day, he himself would inadvertently affect other people in an accidental way.

The light that penetrated the curtains brightened little by little.Su Jinjiang opened the curtain a crack and looked out.This room is on the top floor with a great view, with a big view of the sky.

Su Jinjiang raised his mobile phone and took a picture of the sky and clouds through the glass.The sky was still semi-dark, and the light in the photo was not very good, but the rose-gold glow at the edge of the clouds could be seen.

Su Jinjiang posted the photo on his social networking platform and wrote two simple words: Good morning.

Su Tang, who hadn't slept all night, saw this new post in a second, and immediately ran over to leave a message:

[Good morning Susu! 】

[Such a beautiful cloud, Susu is so beautiful when you take a picture casually]

After a while, many friends in the circle reposted his post, and the comments were all two words: Good morning.

Wei Tan also reposted them, like everyone else, without saying anything.

Su Jinjiang clicked on WeChat, and sure enough, he saw a message sent by Wei Tan, 【You woke up so early? 】

Su Jinjiang replied with a voice message: 【Are you still up so late? 】

After posting this, after thinking about it, I sent another picture of the expression of the lips.

At the same time, Wei Tan also sent the same expression.On the screen of the mobile phone, there are two red lips on the left and right, with the big mouth staring at the small mouth.

Su Jinjiang couldn't help laughing, and typed a reply: [Looking at it makes me hungry]

Wei Tan: [Yes.Are you feeling better? 】

Su Jinjiang hesitated for a moment, but still told Wei Tan the truth: [I had a quarrel with my dad, and it was very fierce.I really fell out with my family this time. 】

After two or three seconds, Wei Tan replied: [It's okay, I'm here. 】