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"No more?" Seeing that he stopped reading suddenly, Wei Tan asked.

"Oh," Su Jinjiang recovered, and closed the book, "Well, this article is only that long. I will continue to read it for you another day."

Wei Tan didn't ask any more questions, and stood up, "Have you packed all your things? Let's go."

Su Jinjiang also stood up and stuffed the diary and Wei Tan picture book into the backpack for clothes.The rest of the things were put back into the box, and I was too lazy to seal it with adhesive strips, so I just pressed two magazines on it and finished.

Until he went downstairs, Wei Tan was still silent.

Su Jinjiang finally couldn't bear it anymore, "Don't you make any comments?"

"What do you want me to say?" Wei Tan said, "Praise you for being so lively and cute when you were young?"

"No, then you have to say something, or I'll panic." Su Jinjiang shook the bag hanging on his shoulder, "Even I think that I was horrified when I was young."

"It's okay." Wei Tan said, "I also had similar thoughts when I was a child. I was afraid of becoming an adult or something. It's quite normal."

Su Jinjiang muttered in his stomach, that is because you didn't know there was the last sentence.

"There are more than two years, and you will be 24 years old." Wei Tan slowed down, "Is your current appearance the same as you imagined when you were young?"

Su Jinjiang walked with his head bowed, without answering immediately.The neighborhood is very quiet, the grass covers the high and low chirping of insects.In the direction of the lake, there are occasional gurgling sounds, like a small pond in the countryside on a summer night.

"How should I put it, it's different from what I thought." Su Jinjiang counted the croaking sounds, "The main reason is that I never thought that there would be you. I didn't even have many friends before, so I imagined that I would grow up When I grew up, I was always alone, alone. No one watched me from behind, and no one waited for me in front. Now I have you, looking forward, suddenly behind, up and down, erratic, Everywhere you look is you."

"I'm not a particle." Wei Tan smiled.

His smile made Su Jinjiang feel at ease.Just now, the moment he saw the last sentence in the diary, he felt his heart suddenly fall from a high place.The sense of panic that he felt when he fell suddenly was exactly the same as when he stepped into the air.

He can't remember at all what kind of mentality he wrote those words when he was 12 years old.Looking back at the past from the current point of view, he seems to have a special skill of digging a hole for himself, and he can bury himself after ten years.What kind of talent is this tm, shit.

In just over two years, he will be 24 again.

What will happen this time?

Su Jinjiang raised his head subconsciously and looked at the roof of the community.The buildings in this area are all small high-rise buildings with a small garden on top.Beautiful in the daytime, looking at night, those swaying dark flower images are preoccupied people, hiding half-spoken secrets.

"Hey, let me tell you, I had a dream." Su Jinjiang said, "In the dream, it was my 24th birthday. I was going up the stairs. The outdoor escape stairs are made of iron. It has just snowed a little bit Slippery, I walked up step by step. When I was about to reach the top, you suddenly called me. Before I heard what you said, I fell down the stairs. It was a very real dream. I have been in the Think about what you're going to tell me at that time."

Wei Tan was silent for a while, "The scene you mentioned... I seem to have seen it somewhere." He tried hard to think about it, but he couldn't find any relevant memories.

"Then, if it were you now, and you called me at that time, what would you want to say to me?"

Wei Tan shook his head, "I don't know. It should be to wish you a happy birthday."

"I see." Su Jinjiang nodded, "Well, it's pretty good."

"You don't seem to be satisfied with this answer?" Wei Tan looked at him, "What do you want to hear?"

"No, anything is fine." Su Jinjiang smiled, "As long as it is what you say, I am eager to hear a few more words."

The journey was not too long, I walked slowly around the lake, and returned to Wei Tan's house.In fact, the neighborhoods on both sides are similar, but Su Jinjiang just feels that Weitan's side is very popular, even the air is different and comfortable.

When sleeping, Wei Tan removed the sheets to make the bed, and asked him, "How did you sleep today?"

"How do you sleep?" Su Jinjiang turned his head, not understanding what he meant, "It's the same as before. It's fine if I still cover the little blanket with the cat's rice bowl."

"The little blanket has been washed, but it's not dry yet." Wei Tan rubbed his fingers on the edge of the bed twice, "Today... let's sleep together."

Su Jinjiang suddenly remembered that in the bathroom of the gym, Wei Tan said that he hugged him at night.

"Oh, oh oh." Su Jinjiang responded a few times, feeling that his movements seemed to be singing to the sky, but he couldn't think of what to say.

"Just sleep together." Wei Tan looked at the sheets and said in a deliberately indifferent tone, "Nothing."

"Don't do it, don't do anything, just chat under the blanket." Su Jinjiang helped Wei Tan spread the double blanket at a god-like speed, and he got in first, lying on his side and patting the side, "Come on Bar."

Wei Tan also lay down inside.Su Jinjiang hugged his waist, and suddenly said: "Wait a while. As the saying goes, a villain hides his penis, and a gentleman reveals his balls. Let's be gentlemen tonight."

"..." Wei Tan hesitated.

"I'll show my respect first." Su Jinjiang reached into the blanket and threw out his underwear, "Gentleman, it's your turn."

"Just hold it." Wei Tan said, "Just chatting, you said."

"Just chatting." Su Jinjiang raised his hands and swore, "If I touch my feet, you can just use your underwear to scratch my face."

Wei Tan lay down.After a while, I reached out and put the folded underwear into the storage compartment by the bed.As soon as it was placed, Su Jinjiang's arms immediately came up and hugged his body.

For well-understood reasons, the bodies of the two people are not close together, and there is a little distance between them.Wei Tan's skin was smooth, and the lines of his waist and hips formed a smooth arc.Su Jinjiang's palm slid across it, as if hugging a mermaid.

"Say something." Su Jinjiang poked him from behind, "Otherwise I might foul."

Wei Tan really couldn't think of any nutritious topic in this situation, so he could only say: "The photos of you when you were young are very cute."

"That's right." Su Jinjiang said, "I have been a well-known handsome guy in our area since I was a child. Everyone loves flowers when they see them."

"Yeah." Wei Tan moved his body a little awkwardly.

Su Jinjiang warned him: "Don't move around, you caught me just now. If something goes wrong later, will it be your fault or mine?"

"Then don't do this." Wei Tan was a little helpless.In this posture, if he moved casually, he would bump into the people behind him.

"No. I just want to feel what it's like to have a skin-to-skin relationship." Su Jinjiang put his arm around his waist with strength, "With a layer of clothes, it doesn't feel so real."

Wei Tan fell silent.After a while, he asked in a very soft voice: "Are you still in touch with your mother?"

After leaving Su Jinjiang's house, the photo album was always shaking in front of his eyes.The sudden blank page is like a dream that suddenly wakes up.Su Jinjiang's life seems to be divided into two parts by that photo album, the former part is colorful, and the latter part is blank.Su Jinjiang himself felt to him like a complex of these two impressions, sometimes radiant and sometimes dull.

"We still kept in touch in the first few years." Su Jinjiang sighed, "My mother would send me text messages and even visit me. Later, she got married again and had another child. I saw in her space Yes. She posted a photo and said, 'Life has a new focus'. Then I quietly deleted her from my friends list, and also deleted her mobile phone number. I was afraid to see her posting photos again, and I was afraid that I would suffer Don't keep in touch with her."

Although it was deleted, but if mother really wanted to find him, it was actually not difficult at all - mother had his mobile phone number, and the phone number at home had not changed.But just as Su Jinjiang thought, his mother gradually faded out of his life from then on.She sent him another birthday wish and a few holiday wishes, and then the news gradually disappeared.

Wei Tan didn't make a sound.Su Jinjiang asked: "Do you think I'm quite hypocritical?"

"No." Wei Tan said, "If it were me, I might do the same."

Su Jinjiang froze for a moment.They have been together for so long, Wei Tan almost never mentioned his childhood, and never showed any concern about this issue.So that Su Jinjiang gradually ignored one thing, Wei Tan actually had more reason to complain than him.After all, Su Jinjiang grew up beside his father. Although the coldness of that home made him suffocate, it was indeed his home.However, Wei Tan's parents abandoned him.

"I'm sorry." Su Jinjiang kissed Wei Tan's back, "I just talk about myself every time."

"It's nothing." Wei Tan patted his arm, "Really. Before my parents divorced, they didn't care much about me. When they sent me away, I was quite relaxed."

It is said that autistic tendencies are both congenital and acquired.Wei Tan doesn't know which one he belongs to, but as long as he can remember, his parents don't pay much attention to him.They also ignored each other, as if they were strangers who landed in the same inn by chance.Only in front of outsiders, they briefly suspended the cold war and acted as a loving couple.They don't need to worry that Wei Tan will tell the truth, because Wei Tan doesn't speak.

When they saw their divorce, outsiders couldn't understand it, so they had to use their imagination to explain the matter: this couple who had a good relationship unfortunately gave birth to an autistic child. Tired, finally both parties were overwhelmed and decided to end this family relationship.

His parents were happy to accept this explanation.They are all people who love face very much, and face is almost the only reason for them to maintain their marriage.And this explanation can save their face as much as possible.They still don't need to worry that Wei Tan will tell the truth, because Wei Tan still doesn't speak.

After leaving his parents, Wei Tan suddenly relaxed.

A child who is unwilling to communicate with his parents is weird and has to bear a lot of discussions and eyes.But from this day on, he can justifiably not speak.Others looked at him no longer as looking at a freak, but with a compassionate understanding-"Parents don't want him anymore, no wonder he has become so withdrawn." He is no longer the perpetrator who caused the breakdown of his parents' relationship, And became the victim of parents' divorce.

So Wei Tan at that time liked a saying very much: understanding is the sum of all misunderstandings.If it is misunderstood by everyone, there is no need to explain it.Given enough time, they arrive at another sense of truth from another direction.