Eat this toad [Entertainment]

The person interviewed was Su Jinjiang's stepmother, Pan Yulan.She talked about the past when Su Jinjiang's biological mother ran away from home when he was young, and about the unharmonious relationship between Su Jinjiang and family members.Her words were not sharp, and could even be said to be gentle.But it was precisely because of this that the Su Jinjiang she described was indifferent and selfish.

At the end of the interview, the author of the article cites some materials, expounding the importance of the family of origin for the formation of a person's character, especially the influence of a person's mother's behavior pattern in his childhood on his life.

Although the article did not expressly draw any conclusions, combined with Pan Yulan's words, it seems to imply that Su Jinjiang, who grew up in an unhealthy parent-child relationship, has relatively serious psychological problems.

Seeing that the expressions of the two of them were not quite right, Su Jinjiang got out of the bed and walked over, reaching out his hand to Wei Tan, "What's the matter again, show me."

Wei Tan had already browsed the full text at this time, hesitated for a moment, and slowly handed over the phone.

Su Jinjiang froze when he saw the title, but immediately recovered his expression, and quickly scrolled down, "Oh, no way, the backyard caught fire so soon."

He didn't deliberately tell Wei Tan about his family situation, but the two of them have been together for so long, Wei Tan understands more or less.

"Brother." Tang Wanran called out to Su Jinjiang, and then didn't know what to say, so she quietly pulled Wei Tan's sleeve from behind to let him say something.

"It's okay, you don't need to be so nervous." Su Jinjiang finished reading, returned the phone to Tang Wanran, smiled, "I didn't say anything."

"Yeah, yeah, haha." Tang Wanran laughed twice, "Well, I'm going back to my room first, I've been tossed to pieces today. Brother, you stay with my brother well." She lost it to Wei Tan With a look, he quickly closed the door and ran away.

Wei Tan still didn't speak, walked up to Su Jinjiang and squeezed his hand.

"I'm really fine, really..." Su Jinjiang pinched him back, "Actually, it has to happen sooner or later, I just didn't expect it to be so soon."

He is now more famous than before, and the price of high exposure is that the space for personal privacy has become smaller and smaller.Whether you like it or not, some things will inevitably be dug up and displayed in front of the public.There have always been a lot of media reports about artists' family and personal problems, and he didn't expect himself to be spared.

"Then what do you think now?" Wei Tan asked softly.

"No matter what I think... I don't think much about it." Su Jinjiang hugged him and put his chin on his shoulder, "I plan to go home when the film and television festival is over."

"Let me accompany you." Wei Tan whispered in his ear, "I can stay in a hotel near your home. If there is anything to do, I will rush there immediately."

"Okay." Su Jinjiang said, "You haven't been to X City yet, have you? We have a lot of delicious food there. I'll take you there to eat your fill."

It's not that he doesn't want to take Wei Tan home, it's just that even he himself is like a guest in that home, so Wei Tan is definitely more uncomfortable.Just imagining Wei Tan's bewildered appearance made him feel distressed.

Wei Tan wrapped his arms around him, and patted his back lightly, "Don't be afraid."

"Yeah. Don't be afraid, okay?" Su Jinjiang turned his head and sucked on Wei Tan's neck, "With you here, I'm not afraid of anything."

It was the first time Wei Tan was kissed on the neck by him, and he seemed to hide back as if he was ticklish, and his movements were a little too big.Su Jinjiang's chin was still resting on his shoulder, and he didn't let go of his arms around Su Jinjiang. As a result, the two of them dragged each other down and fell onto the bed together.

"Damn, why are you hiding!" Su Jinjiang supported the bed and smiled, "Or did you deliberately aim and fall on the bed? No way, this kind of coquettish operation is not like your style, it's almost the same if it were me. "

Wei Tan was pressed on his back, and pushed Su Jinjiang's shoulder with one hand, "Let me get up."

"Don't worry." Su Jinjiang put half of his body on it, "Coach, I want to do an exercise to exercise the buttocks muscles, can you guide me?"

"Don't make trouble." Wei Tan turned his face away, and the hand on Su Jinjiang's shoulder didn't exert any more force.The snow-white sheets made his hair as black as ink and his eyes as picturesque as ever.A pleasant scent of sandalwood escaped from the neckline of the thin shirt, blended into the body temperature of the two people, and turned into a ecstasy and bone charm.

Su Jinjiang felt that something was wrong with him, turned over and rolled to the side, "I said, don't tease me if you disagree with me? Although I am an upright gentleman with high morals, I can't stand you being so shameless. .The next time I do it again, I can't guarantee that something won't happen."

After speaking, he waited to be despised by Wei Tan as usual, but the expected despise did not come.

Wei Tan lay on his side, stroking his hair, "If you feel uncomfortable, just say it, don't be bored by yourself. As I said, two people working together are better than one."

"Okay, I understand." Su Jinjiang pinched his chin, "You worry about your life."

"No." Wei Tan was very serious, "If you keep silent, I'm afraid you will collapse suddenly one day."

"Wait a minute, did I hear you right?" Su Jinjiang said, "You delete your mouthless attribute first, and then talk about me, I might find it more believable."

"It's different. I don't like to talk, but you like to hide things in your heart." Wei Tan said, "The more you talk to me, the more things you hide in your heart."

"I'm really not hiding anything." Su Jinjiang put Wei Tan's hand on his chest, "Look, after the two of us got together, you helped me carry everything I encountered, and I didn't want to hide anything from you." I have to hide it. As for the old ones, they are all old sesame seeds and rotten millet. I have to sort them out before I can take them out. I have to clean up the drawers layer by layer. Bar."

Wei Tan nodded and accepted the statement, "It's fine if you know it. Some things can't be stored in your heart. If you store too much, you won't be able to clean it up."

"Okay." Su Jinjiang grabbed Wei Tan's hand and rubbed it on his heart a few times, "Now I have you, help me clean up every day."

Wei Tan smiled, but said nothing.

"I'll call my dad." Su Jinjiang said, "I'll tell you after the call."

"Okay, then I'll go back first." Wei Tan stood up and straightened his shirt, then suddenly leaned down again, propped up the bed with one hand, and kissed Su Jinjiang on the forehead, "If you need anything, remember to call me .”

After he left, Su Jinjiang lay in a daze for a while.Just a few minutes ago, the room was so lively.The voice of the fan group prompting news, the voice of Wei Tan playing games, and the voice of Tang Wanran talking and laughing.Then, as if in the blink of an eye, the world fell silent.

It was as if a person was suddenly thrown off a train, and when he came back to his senses, he was standing alone beside the desolate railway track in the dark night, watching the train full of laughter and laughter rushing towards the brightly lit city.

The world is good, but I have been forgotten in the land of no one.

It felt like he had.Once when he was in primary school, he couldn’t remember whether it was the fifth grade or the sixth grade. On Sunday, he took a nap and suddenly found that there was no one at home.Coffee mugs and pastry trays from afternoon tea are still in the dining room on the ground floor, but the house is empty.He called his father, only to learn that the three drove to a neighboring city for dinner.

After returning, his father explained that Su Jinxi suddenly wanted to eat seafood, so they went.Su Jinjiang was not called because he was sleeping and they didn't want to wake him up.

"You don't like seafood anyway," said my father.

Since then, those three people have often disappeared suddenly, and there are more and more things that Su Jinjiang "dislikes".Just because he didn't ask for those things doesn't mean he doesn't like them.His mother had told him that when a grown-up person said "whatever you are anyway," what he really meant was "I think you have to be."Just like my father once said to my mother, "Anyway, you are so idle at work, so do more housework."

Su Jinjiang opened the phone's address book and found his father's number.

Father's number has been removed from the blacklist.He was angry at the time and didn't really plan to cut off contact from now on.However, the effect of removing the blacklist is the same as not removing it. These days, his father has not called him again, nor has he sent a text message.

Su Jinjiang held his mobile phone and leaned against the head of the bed for a while to build up his mind.Putting his hand on the place where Wei Tan lay down just now, he touched it, and felt at ease again.As long as Wei Tan is by his side, he will not be afraid of anything.

After several beeps, the phone was finally picked up.

"Hello." Father said only one word, and then waited for him to speak.

Su Jinjiang wanted to hang up the phone the moment he heard the "Hello".It was the tone of "refused to communicate" that he had long been familiar with, and it made people feel as if they had hit their heads against the wall.

"I want to go back in a few days." He completely lost the desire to talk, and just wanted to finish what he wanted to say quickly, "I have something to talk to Auntie Pan about."

"Oh." My father said, "Jinxi is about to start school, and we are planning to go to the Maldives before the end of the month. If you want to come back, you should come back earlier, otherwise there will be no one at home."

"Okay. Just next week." Su Jinjiang said.Both ends were silent for a while, and my father hung up the phone with a click.

Su Jinjiang let out a long breath that was pent up in his chest, and he didn't know whether it was a sigh of relief or a sigh.In fact, he didn't think about what to say when he saw Pan Yulan, and he wasn't even sure what Pan Yulan wanted from him.

But he knew that Pan Yulan was a very purposeful person, and almost everything she did had a common goal.Just like her circle of friends, each one is to show others how well she is doing.Other emotions in life, such as anxiety, sadness, weakness, hesitation, and embarrassment, can never be seen in her circle of friends.

In a sense, Su Jinjiang thinks this can also be counted as an advantage.I dare not say whether she has lived the way she wanted, but she at least supported the character she wanted.Her life seems to have merged with her circle of friends, going on and on for likes.

Perhaps, Pan Yulan is more suitable than him to survive under the high exposure rate of the entertainment industry.

The morning sun is very bright.

With two police cars clearing the way, the bus convoy of the organizing committee drove out of the hotel parking lot one after another and headed for the scenic spots outside the city.Today is relatively relaxed, going out of the city for a full day of sightseeing, and having a reception in the sightseeing boat on the canal in the evening.

Su Jinjiang sat on the sunny side, a little dizzy from the light, and drew the curtains.A golden light penetrated through the gap at the edge of the curtain, and it swayed slightly on the back of his hand as the car bumped.

Su Jinjiang's eyelids gradually became astringent, he yawned, and leaned on the back of the chair to refresh himself.He didn't sleep well last night and had a lot of dreams.It was very real, but after waking up, I couldn't remember exactly what I dreamed about.Only one picture remains relatively clear: he is wearing the ancient emperor's dress, with a white jade pendant hanging from the front of the crown, climbing up the steps step by step, suddenly stepping on the air, and falling down from a high place.He woke up with a start, so he remembered the scene.

The feeling of falling in the dream is palpitating.What does that even mean?

Seeing that he was dozing off, Xiao Ning was afraid that he would catch a cold, so she adjusted the air conditioner above her head, and took another coat to cover him.Su Jinjiang opened his eyes, smiled at Xiao Ning, and said in a low voice, "It's okay, you can rest for a while. You have to run outside for a whole day today, thanks to your hard work."

"It's not hard." Xiao Ning was very excited, "It's great to travel for free and gain knowledge. I grew up so much, and the first time I took a car was a police car to clear the way."

"It's so far away, where can I see it?" Su Jinjiang glanced ahead, only seeing the buttocks of the car in front, "If you don't mind whether the police car is in front or behind, it's easier to achieve. Next time I Just take you to drive over the speed limit."

"Let's go, big brother." Xiao Ning also smiled, "I'm afraid of being in an ambulance."

After a few jokes, Su Jinjiang became less sleepy, and the conversation around him became clearer.

Yao Jing was across the aisle from him, took a few cards and spread them out on the dining table, and was explaining something to Mr. Bianco sitting next to him in a low voice.Look carefully, those are not cards, but paper cards about the size of playing cards, each with words written on it.The two portraits are studying ancient Egyptian writing, making gestures, and adjusting the order of some of the cards from time to time.

After a while, Yao Jing put the card away, as if the conversation was over.Turning around, he found that Su Jinjiang was awake, so he changed seats with Xiao Ning and sat next to Su Jinjiang.

"You don't want me to play cards, do you?" Su Jinjiang looked at the card box in his hand, "My card skills are very bad."

"No, these are my scene cards." Yao Jing smiled, "I like to shuffle some scenes in the script and recombine them, just like playing cards, to see if there will be better results. How about you Don't say it, sometimes you can find a particularly clever idea."

"That's it." Su Jinjiang nodded.

Yao Jing took the card and played it back and forth in her hand, "If you are free in the evening, sit in Director Cheng's room and read the script of "Song of White Snow". Director Cheng said, read a line and listen to it." , if you feel right, then you don’t need to audition, your appearance will definitely be fine.” Looking Su Jinjiang up and down again, “You have a good figure, but you still need to practice. There are a lot of scenes in this scene, you need a little muscle , that spirit can come out."

"You're a screenwriter, and you're also in charge of modeling?" Su Jinjiang teased him.

"Hey, I'm just worrying about it." Yao Jing laughed again, "It's my first notebook, I definitely hope that the final result will be better."

The phone in Su Jinjiang's pocket vibrated, and he took it out to see that his father was calling.

"Come back today." As soon as the answer sounded, my father immediately threw this sentence over.

"Today?" Su Jinjiang restrained his voice, "I have something to do today, and I'm almost out of town."

"Isn't that the film and television festival?" Father said, "You come back today, anyway, there is nothing wrong with that festival."

Su Jinjiang held up his mobile phone and didn't speak.

The father continued: "Your Aunt Yulan has booked a flight ticket. I didn't know yesterday. Jinxi also plans to go to Sri Lanka to visit a few more places. The schedule is quite tight, so I have to get ready in the next two days."

Su Jinjiang said "Oh" without emotion, "It's true that there are a lot of things." He wanted to say, since you have so many things to do, then I won't go back, and it's not that I am eager to see each other.

Father paused, "I was in a hurry that day, so don't take it to heart. That TV series of yours really put a lot of pressure on your Aunt Yulan. You also know that she wants to save face the most. Now that you are famous, the media will come to your door We don’t know how to deal with us. If you say something wrong, it’s not good for you or us. There will be a media appointment with your Aunt Yulan tomorrow. If you come back today, let’s have a good talk and know what to say. In the future Trust each other."

Su Jinjiang understood that his father was probably worried that he would say something unfavorable to his family to the media.Perhaps in my father's view, entertainers have a stronger voice than ordinary people, and can even manipulate public opinion.

"Okay, I'll go back today." Su Jinjiang rubbed his forehead, suddenly felt tired, and didn't want to compete with anyone anymore.Since I have to go back home sooner or later, it's better to go back sooner.What my father said is right, it is better to be at ease with each other in the future than to know what the other party said through the media every time.

Su Jinjiang called Xie Zixin and said that he had something to do at home and couldn't follow the car to the scenic spot today.

Xie Zixin was on the first bus. He probably also saw the interview yesterday. He didn't ask any more questions and agreed directly, "Okay, then you can go back. Do you want to call a car for you?"

"No need, I haven't left the city yet, I can take a taxi myself." Su Jinjiang said, "I'm sorry, Mr. Xie."

"You're welcome." Xie Zixin laughed over there, "Family matters are important. You don't have to rush, and when will you be back after finishing it."

The driver pulls over on the side of the road.Su Jinjiang didn't let Xiao Ning follow, he sent a text message to Wei Tan, and got out of the car by himself.

Wei Tan's text message quickly followed: 【Are you gone? 】

Standing under the sun, Su Jinjiang simply replied: [Well, I'll call you later. 】

This place is very out of the way, and it took a long time to call a car.Su Jinjiang turned back to the hotel to get some necessary things, and then went to the train station.In order to avoid unnecessary trouble, he put on a hat, sunglasses and a mask to completely cover his face.The sunlight of this season is so strong that it is outrageous. The streets are full of men and women with the same equipment as him, and no one pays special attention to him.

From this city to X City where his family is located, it only takes one hour by train, which is not as long as driving from the east of the city to the west of the city.Despite being so close, he hasn't been back since college.If you count the three years of rebirth, he has been away from home for a long time.

Just as the car was driving, Wei Tan's text message came again, 【Are you in the car yet? 】

Su Jinjiang took a picture outside the car window and sent it, writing: [I will send you another picture when I get to the station. 】

Wei Tan replied [Be careful].But Su Jinjiang seemed to be able to hear Wei Tan sighing on the other side of the phone screen.

An hour later, Su Jinjiang got into a taxi in X City.When he gave the address to the driver, he had a slight trance.This city has not changed much from what he remembered, but it seems that everything is different.The main road is still the main road, but there are many shop signs on both sides of the road that I have never seen before.

"Are you here for tourism?" The driver brother saw him staring at the street scene all the way, as if he had never seen everything here, and immediately introduced to him enthusiastically, "There is a snack street over there, go ahead It is a pedestrian street, and there is XX square..."

Su Jinjiang listened quietly.Each name is like a small stone, stirring up several circles of ripples in his heart, and then quickly returned to calm.He has a sense of closeness and alienation to this city, and because he is close, he is alienated.

Just like him and his family.

The taxi drove for a while, and Su Jinjiang arrived at the destination specified by him.A row of single-family small buildings appeared far in front of them. The buildings were already old, but they could still be seen to be as chic as they were when they were first built.

"That's the earliest high-end villa area in our area." The driver brother pointed, "At the beginning, the richest people lived in our area. But in 30 years in Hedong and 30 years in Hexi, now the rich people live in × I went to the X district, look here, what a mess it is."

Su Jinjiang thanked the driver and paid to get off.

In fact, what he was going to was the villa area.But he has developed a habit since he was a child. When he took a taxi, he only said the address nearby, and did not let others know that he lived there.Because he always went out alone when he was a child, afraid of being targeted by bad guys.

His house is in the middle of the villa area.The security guard let him go after a few simple questions. This place is no longer the high-end residential area of ​​the past. There are many people coming in and out, and the security guard didn't bother to ask him in detail.

Su Jinjiang found his own building.At this moment, he didn't feel anything, and his inner peace was almost numb.Compared with when he left, the building has obviously been repaired, and the piece of carving that fell off the roof has been replaced, but the color is too white and does not match the surrounding stones, like a piece of toothpaste that fell on the clothes.

After standing downstairs for a full minute, Su Jinjiang rang the doorbell.