[Wen Ye] Miss Nakahara's Revenge

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Osamu Dazai's sleep quality has been poor since he was a boy, and it was because of turmoil during the PortMafia period.At that time, Osamu Dazai always had all kinds of wounds on his body, the wounds he suffered in the black/road Rush, left when he wanted to die, and was beaten by his partner because of some deadly/excessive decisions...

It's a moment of pleasure to seek death, but when it comes to the crematorium in the middle of the night, ah no, it's because I can't sleep at night.The wound is paired with the silent night, which has a sense of presence. In addition, he used to like to live in isolation for a long time, and he could not sleep alone during the long night. It is true that he could not sleep.

It's not that he didn't try to solve this trouble with drugs, but because Osamu Dazai had a history of trying to achieve death by injecting excessive amounts of anesthetics to keep him awake, Mori Ogai strictly controlled his use of analgesics. I can actually experience why life is better than death every night.

As for defecting and preparing to be a good person later, the nature of insomnia began to change, the wounds were not as fresh as before, but Osamu Dazai began to dream again.

All kinds of emotions suppressed during the day turned into endless nightmares. Enemies who had died in his hands in the past, colleagues who died because of his calculation strategy, and friends who took the initiative to die and could not be stopped anyway. The cases encountered on the daily washing white road... time and time again, repeated cycles, nothing can be changed.

I often wake up in a state of panic or despair, looking at the dark ceiling with my chaotic eyes than in the night, and start to think whether the reason for my dreams is because something happened somewhere in my heart during this period of experience. The emotion of regret.It's a pity that I often didn't draw an appropriate conclusion until I thought of the whiteness outside the window.

The young man who once thought that the world is transparent and boring, and life has no expectations, when he thinks about being sleepy but unable to fall asleep, he can't help but think, maybe this is what Chuya Nakahara cursed when he was so angry that he couldn't choose what to say before he defected , about the retribution he deserved.

Thinking of this, Osamu Dazai, who couldn't sleep for the time being, pulled Nakahara Nakaya's sideburns scattered on one side as if in revenge—this was something he had always wanted to do two years ago but had no chance to do it.

"Pull my hair again... Bastard Dazai, are you annoying?" The person lying on his side in his arms also closed his eyes and cursed, grabbed his wrist resting between his temple hair, and patted his wrist a little harder, then Continue to breathe evenly.

Osamu Dazai: ………Single-celled organism, sleeps so heartlessly, do you really trust him so much?

He held the opponent's hand backhand, and interlocked his fingers with the opponent's fingers, with an inexplicable expression.

Compared with him, the single-celled slug is much happier. Really, she can sleep with her eyes closed and will not dream.

This was observed by Osamu Dazai himself when the two were 16 years old, after the "that incident" and they officially started working together, and he tricked Chuya into admitting it himself.

In the first year of entering PortMafia, Nakahara was also guided by Ozaki Koba. Although the older PortMafia female cadres were cruel in the way of teaching the younger generation, they were also very responsible and considerate protectors. She guided and handed over I taught Nakahara Nakahara the common sense and etiquette that a girl of her age should have, taught her how to take care of herself, and blocked the inappropriate use of her by the outside world. In the first three months, Dazai Osamu and Mori Ogai did not lose She was slapped in the eye and even scolded for sending Zhongyuan to do inappropriate tasks.

In the next few months, because of the gradual clarification of her abilities and the fair accumulation of qualifications, Mori Ogai deliberately arranged for her to be in charge of PortMafia's gemstone business and secretly ordered the members of the "Youth Club" to monitor her—before that, it was Osamu Dazai's work.

Osamu Dazai, who was transferred, had no objection to this, and was even happy to see the joke of Mr. Mori's overturning - he watched the members of the Banner Club who were supposed to monitor Nakahara Chuya become her companions, and even went against Mori Ogai's order to replace her Looking for information about his life experience, while planning a strategy to deal with the assassins from Europe, so as to ignore the subtle discomfort in his heart.

Why did the person who was obviously picked up by himself establish a bond with other people first? Chuya is obviously his dog.

Until the first anniversary of Zhongya entering PortMafia, on that day, those partners who celebrated her birthday were all killed by the assassin king Verlaine who came all the way from Europe. After that, a series of incidents happened, and more than half of the people who organized abilities were killed or injured. ", Dazai Osamu was arranged to start binding partners with Nakahara Chuya.

——Ozaki Koyo was so angry that he smashed the chief's office once.

This kind of thing between boys and girls has nothing to do with innocence, and it is very easy to produce various situations. Of course, Mori Ogai, a person in power who is good at controlling people's hearts, would not have imagined it, but he is not a kind person. Chuya Nakahara, who is a self-contradictory singularity, can only be relieved by the invalidation of Osamu Dazai's ability. In order to maximize the use of the two people's abilities and reach the optimal solution, he ordered the two to have There is a tacit understanding, going in and out together, living under the same roof, it is best to be able to bind on this.

Although he can't say some things, it doesn't mean that Ozaki Koye doesn't understand.

But Nakahara Chu couldn't get along with Osamu Dazai.

The girl who prevented Verlaine recovered from her initial grief, and was somewhat aware of the roles played by the leader and Osamu Dazai in that series of actions.The best solution, that's the best solution, she thought about it and was depressed in her heart, even if she hung Osamu Dazai upside down on the wall once, she still couldn't let go of it completely.

As for Dazai Osamu, who was troubled by dreams because of seeing certain pictures in N's laboratory, he actually found it difficult to accept this arrangement by Mori Ogai.

However, the orders of the leader of PortMafia cannot be disobeyed. Dazai Osamu and Nakahara Chu also demolished their residences several times due to various disagreements, but failed to change the leader's will. After that, they could only learn to endure and endure...

At that time, Osamu Dazai discovered that Chuya Nakahara's sleeping state was very strange——

She is vigilant, like a dangerous and beautiful beast. After Ozaki Koyo's training, anyone approaching can make Nakahara Chuya open his eyes and draw his sword or activate his ability. At the beginning, Osamu Dazai, who was curious and close to observe, was often caught by her. He drew his knife to his neck.

But at the same time, her sleep was extremely peaceful.

No matter what the situation is: on the eve of the upcoming operation, after cleaning the battlefield, on the bed in the apartment, or in the bumpy car on the way to the mission, no matter whether it is intact or injured, when Nakahara Chu also intends to rest, orange hair color The young girl can immediately fall into sleep when she closes her eyes, her breathing is even and deep sleep, and she will never wake up unless Osamu Dazai wants to cause her some trouble.

Osamu Dazai, who was very curious about this, spent a lot of time observing and probing. For this, he paid the price of being beaten several times by Nakahara Chuya who was teased and bombed. Chuya Nakahara, who was temporarily unable to act due to the use of "dirty", explained his situation himself.

Central Plains also does not dream. For her, sleep is the return of consciousness to darkness, unconsciousness, non-existence, and complete darkness. She floats in it until her consciousness decides to wake up. She will not dream of things and things like normal people. Every sleep is like this.Ever since she realized that people around her had "dreams" but she didn't have them in the [Sheep] period, she knew she was a different kind.

"I'm really envious, that feeling is no different from death." Osamu Dazai blurted out at that time, sincerely, but was scolded by his partner who couldn't move with glaring eyes.

"What's so enviable about such a thing!!! You bastard who always thinks about committing suicide!" She was always worried that she would never wake up from being immersed in the darkness!

This is the difference between the two of them. In his dreams, Osamu Dazai always wanted to die in such a ignorant and corrupt world. He wished that that moment would come sooner and earlier. When he was a boy, he deeply envied the "dreamless" Nakahara Nakaya However, Nakahara Chuya himself didn't want it.

She is very likely to be "inhuman" and she is extremely eager to become a human being. Chuuye has always wanted to live like a human being, and her words and deeds have always fit the category of a human being, laughing like a human, and experiencing sadness like a human.

So I really really hate Chuya the most. When recalling these things, Dazai Osamu closed his eyes and thought, when he was 15 years old, he thought he could find a companion who was as distant as himself, but he deceived him Only when I came here did I realize that it was a "non-human" who wanted to be a human being, or the kind that didn't fit me the most.

Her existence seemed to be mocking and denying herself.

...was he blind at the time?Why did you make such a big mistake...

As a result, it was Nakahara Chuya who woke up first the next morning. She opened her eyes, and her consciousness returned to her body, like a bubble floating from the endless darkness.

It was slightly bright outside, and the electronic clock beside the bed showed that it was just after six o'clock.

"Inhumanity" brought her excellent physical fitness, and after a good night's sleep, Zhong Yuanzhong also regained her energy. The drowsiness and discomfort of last night disappeared, and she felt that she could get up and go to work directly.

As a result, when I opened my eyes, I saw Osamu Dazai with some natural curly hair. During the sleep, the positions of the two of them changed quietly, and it became Osamu Dazai leaning on her chest, so big. Bowed like a shrimp, the two of them interlocked their fingers, their bodies were close, and they could feel each other's body temperature, which was ambiguous and natural.

It seems that the scene of every morning when they lived together when they were 16 years old is reproduced.

Zhong Yuanzhong also squinted her eyes, feeling suddenly in a bad mood, she hesitated for a moment between pushing people awake directly or tolerating them.

Of course she knew about the fact that her partner didn't sleep well. Although Osamu Dazai seemed to her to be a bit self-inflicted, but it was rare for him to fall asleep, so he might as well bear with it.

But she endured it and felt uncomfortable. Her heart seemed to be blocked by something, which made it difficult for her to breathe.Why tolerate him approaching like this, she asked herself, Osamu Dazai is such a person, every time he is gentle and lingering, he will be coldly treated and stay away without hesitation, she knows, how could she who has jumped over the pit once I don't know how fickle the people in front of me are.

The fingers want to be pulled away from the clasp.

Just then, the phone rang next to the pillow.

Zhong Yuanzhong also glanced at the name of the correspondent. She sat up, picked up the phone and pressed the call button: "Hello? Four-eyed boy, you better give me a reason to call before dawn." Because she was in a bad mood, she His tone was extremely rude.

"I'm sorry for the Zhongyuan cadres, but I want to confirm with you where you were last night because of official business?" Sakaguchi Ango actually wanted to say that he really didn't want to call PortMafia so frequently...whether he would be monitored or not Attracting other distrust, just the fact that he is facing Zhongya Zhongya is enough to give him a headache...

Hmm...Although Nakahara Chuya himself is good enough to talk, but...

"Huh? Why should I tell you where I am?" Nakahara Nakahara on the other end of the phone replied very rudely. How could it be possible for a PortMafia cadre to report his itinerary to the investigator of the Supernatural Secret Service Division, but Ango Sakaguchi He would not call himself for no reason, it must be something other than something, so Zhongyuan Zhong also patiently turned his back on the customer: "What happened? Four-eyed boy, please tell me the matter first."

At this moment, a hand reached out and took the phone from her. Osamu Dazai who woke up took the phone. After waking up for an unknown amount of time, his voice was so soft that it could be called sweet: "Hi, Ango, Chuya told me last night Together, have I made it clear enough?"

Ango Sakaguchi: ...

His expression was distorted and his stomach began to colic. He was still single so far and wanted to scold his mother.

Did you two bastards ever consider his feelings when a car just ran over your face so suddenly? ! ! ! !

The author has something to say:

It is really difficult to write purely emotional descriptions without external objects stimulating emotions... just wait and see_(:з)∠)_The BGM when this chapter was written was "Confessions" by Nagisa Kuroki, and "Confessions" by FZ Sky High Wind Song" and "The Truth Is True", just look at the playlist and you will know how chaotic and distorted the thinking is.

Ango said it was very careless, really, even though it was his cheap phone call, Dazai Osamu drove over like this...

As for the incident at the age of 16, you can read "Storm Bringer" in detail, and Chiu was also in it. It was miserable. The little friends were assassinated, and the corpses fought for eight hours. They were beaten by their half-brothers, looking for the mystery of life In the end, he was poisoned, stabbed, hanged, tortured with electric shocks, and forced to repeat passwords... Here, Chiuya (♀) also had a similar experience, so... what Rabbit Zaizhi saw at that time was emmm...