Vodai Ecstasy

Letter 2087

August 8, 30

Dear Abraxas Malfoy:

I think this is probably an unwelcome letter.

But I have no choice but to ask you to forgive my recklessness again.

Maybe you have almost forgotten my existence, but I hear news about you from time to time—and they are mostly good—I think you have successfully fulfilled your youthful ambition and successfully assumed the responsibility of the Malfoy family , became an excellent leader, so I dare to beg you to take care of this messenger-my only relative in the world now, if my next actions will affect him, I hope you can take care of him I tried my best to protect my brother under the coercion of my brother, after all, he knew nothing about what his brother had done.Of course I know that he has become a Death Eater that that person relies on (I guess this is probably out of malicious revenge against me), but this does not mean that I don't need your help, after all, we all understand that person's dependence and his Like your "friendship", it's just a shiny velvet cloth to cover up rotting flesh.

I understand that I have no right to beg your promise.The incident itself is so absurd - a man who has been missing for nearly 36 years suddenly appears, and you don't even know if he himself has become a ghost wandering in some cemetery.Now, this soul that should have disappeared long ago actually wants to ask you for protection with the help of the friendship of classmates many years ago!But I don't think you can tear up this letter in a hurry. If you are still half curious about this missing ghost, please allow me to explain.I don't expect you to approve or understand what I did, but I think this memory cannot be completely erased from the official memory by that person like Miss Lin's existence-although it does offend someone's negative scales , this story still has a lot to do with Ms. Lin.

I know you are quite disgusted to hear any information related to the ghosts of the East, and that is probably the beginning of all your unhappiness, and it is also the moment when we start to diverge from the future we imagined.But I think this is coming to an end, just a little more patience, she unintentionally led to the beginning, and now, I want to try to achieve the ending she arranged.It never occurred to me that the lady who looked so weak could actually see better than any of us. Unfortunately, her lover was a devil after all.She clearly saw the doomsday fire, but she chose to walk into it without hesitation.

Maybe we have to go back to the summer of 1944, that unpleasant hour, hot, rainy, crowded with too much fiery moisture in the air, it should have been no different from any ordinary summer vacation, but in fact that long vacation Brought too many unexpected partings.

Saying parting, in fact, a more appropriate word should be murder.

At that time, I was only thinking about revenge, but I ignored that the Goddess of Fortune had been following my footsteps, and every move was missing, or every move I made was counted by that person. I think, he deliberately let go It's like a child caught a Bowtruckle and let it go again and again when I was a child. Perhaps it was through this repeated teasing that I saw my own powerlessness and stupidity more clearly.When Yaxley, our old "ally" who betrayed us, died "accidentally", Alan sent me a letter, but it was not in his handwriting.The moment I opened the envelope, the familiar italic words suddenly dragged me back to the nightmare I had many years ago. I suddenly understood that he might be warning me not to do anything against his will, but he was actually laughing at me. Overwhelmed over the years.He got the pleasure of teasing his prey in my defeat. Maybe it was my encounter with Ms. Lin that aroused that person's few angry emotions. This is probably the reason why he insisted on making fun of me.

Since then, I have completely lost contact with everyone in the country, and I have been tossed around in various places. I don’t know if that person can still track down my footprints. He has indeed lived a prosperous life in the past ten years, but I have indeed gained There was a brief moment of peace, if not considering the growing influence of the Death Eaters.

You should know what I am still obsessed with, maybe when you get this letter, you are already frowning and cursing: "This hateful guy who doesn't know how to restrain himself is going to start harming people again!" Of course, I don't know. Whether the Goddess of Fortune will still stop me this time, and I don’t know who I will be implicated in, but I don’t know if you have ever been to the cave where he imprisoned you, and the bottom of the lake is full of mourning corpses murdered by him. The sound was sharp and piercing, and I will never forget that sound.He not only took the lives of those people cruelly, but also enslaved the bodies that had been separated from their souls.Those cries and screams haunt me every night and keep me up at night.

I have nothing left now, my only brother has chosen to surrender, I am ready to sacrifice my life, I heard that he has become more and more violent these years, if he can give me a fatal blow in his anger , That's the end of my obsession.I'm tired of being teased, tired of him showing off the existence of us insiders after forcibly erasing all information about Miss Lin in various records, let us appreciate how omnipotent he is.

But after all, I am thankful for his small mind, this arrogance will surely become a sharp sword piercing his heart.

You may think that I am really arrogant when I speak like this. After all, he is now in full swing, and few people can resist his coercion, let alone me who has been defeated repeatedly.But in the first two years when I was away from other countries, depressed, and thought I had got rid of his haze, he was the one who sent me the news about the death of the last person who knew about our youthful past. So far, how many people have appeared? victim?Shell, Myrtle, Miss Lin, Angelique, Rosie, Stian... that person is always surrounded by the black mist of death, he makes me unable to completely abandon all of this, as if nothing happened Pass.As long as I still exist in the world, his shadow will never dissipate from my world.I was so drunk that day that I got on a train full of Muggles alone, curled up in a rickety warehouse and fell asleep. where.I got off at an unknown station, and it was night, just because no one got off here at that time, and I only wanted to go to a place that no one knew.That place is really cold, the eyes are covered with silver-white snow, and there is still a cold light under the dim blue sky. I didn't use a warming spell, and I didn't dodge the cold and hard rain and snow particles under the platform. Wearing thin clothes, he staggered towards the darkness deep in the forest.

The dark forest at night is undoubtedly like a hell full of ghosts, with weird and twisted branches everywhere, and the lonely and shrill night owl.Of course, as a wizard, I am not afraid of all of this, or the cold has paralyzed my senses. These Muggles seem to be horrified like purgatory. .

Perhaps in my mind I should have preferred to see a wandering ghost or two, and neither talking nor joining them was more pleasant than any hour.

But just as I was about to fall down on the hotter snowfield, a whole piece of rippling light blue suddenly appeared in front of my eyes, swaying back and forth in the rain, like floating clouds.The cloud-like mist drifted to my side, fell on me, and turned into a large blooming flower.

This flower has different memories for me.I cannot describe to you the shock I received at that time in the current language. I did not expect to meet such a gentle old man in such a foreign country at the moment when I wanted to end my life.

You can't imagine that I fell down in that blue snow and wept bitterly.

After the wind and snow subsided, I saw the extremely shocking night sky under the sky. When the clouds and fog cleared, those diamond-like stars flowed out a vast silver Milky Way.

One always sees the brightest vision in the deepest despair, right?

After that, I tried to go back to the past, yes, you read that right, even though it is written in the laws of time and space that all changes are doomed, even though I am full of restrictions from the Ministry of Magic, I still want to change the current situation beyond my control situation.

Can you imagine?When I finally broke through the restriction and entered the space-time tunnel, the goddess of doom came again, and I saw that nightmare in the space-time tunnel.His face is no longer as bewitching as it was when he was young. The whole face looks like a strange mask that has been scorched by fire. It is twisted like wax, and the whites of his eyes are bloodshot. Riddle connected.

"My dear old friend, it was a surprise to meet you here."

His voice was hoarse and sharp, and it sounded like a knife cutting through glass, which made the scalp tingle.

That was not a past worth remembering, it was still his cynicism, he told me bluntly that the road to the place I wanted to go had been closed long ago, and it seemed that it was not something that idiots from the Ministry of Magic could do, so I His attempt was completely like a gnat shaking a tree and a pebble hitting a rock. He naturally felt that someone had broken into the space-time orbit before he ran in (I later heard that unlike most other departments of the Ministry of Magic that have delegated powers, he seems to have always placed the Space-Time Control Department in his own under strict control).He seemed to have expectations after knowing the specific identity of the person who opened the space-time orbit, hoping that I, who had also traveled through time and space, would make any difference, but unfortunately, he seriously laughed, I was still an out-and-out trash.

After finishing speaking, it was as if the old things were repeating itself, and he pushed me into the gap of time and space again.He probably didn't expect that his unintentional act of revenge would bring me one of the few lucky things in my life.

I fell into London in 1935, where I met an oriental soul wandering around a street corner.I thought about taking her away, then all the following things might have unexpected changes, but she was really too transparent and quickly saw through my disguise and intentions.I have no choice but to tell the truth about what will happen in the future, hoping that she will make a different choice after knowing such a fate.But my hope failed again, she still did not choose to leave after pondering, but decided to find the crazy boy who was still in the orphanage.

I couldn't understand her choice, but at her insistence, I could only take her to the door of Wu's Orphanage.

She said: "Those things haven't happened yet, how can I judge a child in advance? And if you ask my current heart, as you said, I have been looking for him for so many years, and now that he is so close, I want to see it with my own eyes no matter what, so that I can fully realize my thoughts like this.”

After finishing speaking, she sighed softly again: "I already know what you said. If I really traded my life for his in the future as you said, I would probably be willing at that moment. But I always feel that I If you are willing to give him a life, you definitely don’t want to let him go crazy.”

Her words gave me new hope like a flame bursting suddenly in the night sky. If the past cannot be changed at all, will she be able to retain the memory of my encounter with her in the future?So did she remember this dreamlike prophecy at the end?

It took me a long time to go back to the time and space that belonged to me, and that's when I started to study all the information she left, the traces of her existence, but you know, since the rise of that person, the first thing he did The thing is to completely erase all traces of her existence, which really aggravates the difficulty of my work.But luckily, I found her clue at the end.I can't explain to you in detail how it was, but I finally saw her afterimage in a ring wrapped in evil, like a jasmine wrapped in mud, lying alone in the dark.

For so many years, maybe she avoided it on purpose, or maybe it was because he disliked this ring, but he didn't find the existence of this afterimage at all.

But it's just a shadow.

"I've been waiting for you for a long time, Ian, you are finally here," she said when she saw me, "Please bring this ring to him. Since you can find me, he should have sensed my existence by now, He'll definitely wear it again. But you have to be careful."

Her warning was right, the magic of the ring was still strong, tempting me to put it on every moment, and one night I woke up in the hotel, only to realize that the ring was tightly in my hand , I almost became its slave in the dream.But in that muddy dream, a warm white light finally appeared, and she was calling me to wake up.

Maybe you will laugh at my recklessness, but I choose to believe her.

Perhaps to calm me down, when I was wandering in front of the Death Eater's contact point in front of Knockturn Alley during the day, I met a witch who looked a little crazy, wearing a pair of big glasses and hanging around her neck. With a clear chain and beads, she walked straight towards me with a crystal ball in her arms, and whispered to me with her wine-smelling mouth: "... here comes, death and love come... the seventh At the end of the month, the lonely Dark Lord finally meets the person he misses, and the moment he sees that person... the gifted life has reached its deadline, and he will be completely crushed by the phantom of love..."

After she said this, she walked away quickly. I heard from the ridicule of others that she came from a famous magical family.But none of them seemed to catch what she was saying.I couldn't help but breathe a sigh of relief.

After all these years, I still recall from time to time the night when the fire was ignited, the crazy fire dragon devoured the entire manor, and the dark and remote valley was illuminated almost like daylight, and the huge skull and coiled snake pattern rose like a curse, and everything was silent It's like a mystery.

It was no different from the silence tonight.

Whether the skull and coiled snake pattern is still rising or falling sadly, maybe tomorrow, maybe at the end of the seventh month, we will know the final answer.I don't know if I'll ever see that, but even if I'm destined to sink to the bottom of the lake and be part of the Howl, I'll do my best to fight that dragon until then.

I can no longer give Alan the blessing of my brother, I have missed too much time in his growth.But he is always a smart person, if you are still unwilling to help, please forward this letter to him, and hope that Merlin can deliver it to him for good luck.

Thank you very much for reading this letter.May we all walk out of the shadow of youth, and hope that those corpses that sink to the bottom of the lake will no longer whine.

yours sincerely

I·N