[Comprehensive martial arts] The wind and smoke leave incense

That book is a slightly sad story. The scholar's mother was the head of the oiran of a period and was favored by the local officials.Regardless of whether the two are in love or not, the ending is good after all.

The official wants to take a concubine, and the oiran is willing to marry, but all the good things are ruined by an accident when the official is on a tour.The young official was finally buried under the torrential flood, and what the oiran waited for was just the unexpected child in her stomach, which was her only memorial.

The oiran who is not an innocent household, the sons and daughters are implicated by him.The oiran also thought about sending him away after giving birth to this child. Even a white family is better than a lowly one.But when the child uttered its first cry, when she saw the child's wrinkled little face, she changed her mind.

Sometimes people have no way to define whether maternal love is great or selfish.

It's as if the oiran's mother resolutely decided to bring this life into this world, and asked him to read and read the books of sages.It also seemed that she kept the child who was clearly able to choose by her side.

As the child grows up day by day, he gradually realizes the difference in himself.

He has never been to a private school and has no friends who study with him, and the place where he lives is always more lively at night than during the day.

He could always see his mother weeping against the slowly rising sun in the early morning, and always sitting in front of the dressing table with a forced smile when night fell.

The mother during the day is completely different from the mother at night, but as he grows up, he knows that there are high and low identities, he knows that his future is not what his mother said, he knows that he has been determined s future.

It's just because of his mother's humble household registration and his love for the father who has never met.

The young scholar left his hometown and traveled to many places. Those who met him praised his knowledge.But when they knew his identity and his origin, they all felt contempt or deep regret.Girls who admired him ridiculed him for wanting to climb high, and students who admired his literary talent ridiculed him for copying others.

However, an identity and household registration defines his conduct and knowledge.

The wound that was intended to be healed did not heal, but split open as time went by, turning into a huge wound, with blood and pus left day and night.

But when he returned to his hometown, what he saw was his mother, who was heavily made up and preoccupied with the little money of the guests.She has lost the charm of the past and has become old and weak.

The wrinkles clinging to the corners of the eyes can only be covered with thick powder, and the gray hair can only be covered with gold and silver locks.

This small building bound him when he was born.

Looking at the mother who was smiling happily while holding the silver, looking at the mother who was waving a handkerchief and saying that the guest officer would come again.

He thought of the days when he talked with his friends outside, and the days when he sat in the school and listened to his teacher's lectures.

Then erase the shame, why did you bring him into this world?

Lu Jingyan looked at this man, his howling, his anger, his dissatisfaction and his injustice, but in the end they all turned into deep sadness and unstoppable love.

Such sad and distorted feelings, is it the person who brought him to this world, the scholar who vented his dissatisfaction with the person he loves, or the world?

Lu Jingyan didn't want to listen to the rest of the story anymore, so she grabbed Lu Xiaofeng's red cloak, wrapped it around her and stepped out of the room.

"You..." Chu Liuxiang chased him out, and he stopped Lu Jingyan at the corner, but he didn't know what to say.

"Suddenly discovered that my initial hostility towards you was because you deceived me." Lu Jingyan said slowly with his back to Chu Liuxiang, "But when I think about it carefully, I really think I'm an even bigger liar." Having said that, Lu Jingyan laughed softly, "Sometimes it feels like all this is not a coincidence."

"Miss Fengyan met you, and Lu Jingyan got to know you."

The time was too close, if Chu Liuxiang really turned around and returned to Beimo, then this person would gradually disappear in Lu Jingyan's heart.

But he didn't, he met Lu Jingyan in the first month when he said goodbye to Miss Fengyan.

"Miss Fengyan has known you for half a year, and Lu Jingyan has known you for half a year.

You may be hesitating between two people, but for me, I have loved you for a whole spring, summer, autumn and winter. "

It was the first time that Lu Jingyan was honest with this man, but behind it was a reason that neither of them expected.

"I've known Miss Fengyan for half a year, and I've known Lu Jingyan for half a year." The smile on Chu Liuxiang's face disappeared, "Then when I meet an old friend again, I just feel like seeing someone for the first time. It's novelty, excitement, joy, and doubts." He took a deep breath and said, "You are Fengyan from Bai Yujing, Jingyan from Changgemen, the pearl of the Hua family, and the treasure of the desert."

"You know I'm Chu Liuxiang from the Iron Blood Banner Sect, but I've never really known you before."

"You see, this is the reason why you and I don't get along. I care about your lies, but I can't open my heart to you. I care about your deception, but when I turn around, I find that I am the one who is not honest.

I wanted to confess my love to you, but I was worried that you would turn around and leave, and in the end, things would get worse and sooner, and you would end up like this. "

Lu Jingyan sighed, and turned to look at the bright moon beside him: "You have your desire to control, and I have my distrust. In the end, you and I are both to blame for this step."

"So, it's impossible for you and me?" Chu Liuxiang lowered his eyes.

As a man, his inner strength made him care about Lu Jingyan's past.

No man wants his woman to fall in love with the wind and smoke, and no man wants his woman to show his face outside.

Most men want to be depended on, trusted to know all they need to know.

But Lu Jingyan is not such a person, she is like a wind, free and unrestrained, with her own arbitrary consciousness and decisions.

She has too many secrets that she does not go back to tell, and she has too many deceptions to those she cares about.

Chu Liuxiang couldn't give Lu Jingyan absolute freedom, just like Lu Jingyan couldn't give Chu Liuxiang absolute trust.

After all, they are not suitable to be together.

Such moonlight can only be silent for the two of them.

In the end, it was Lu Jingyan who broke the silent night. Looking at the bright moon and the night, what she thought of was the woman who died with a smile in Chunyu Building.That woman made her want to do something for the first time and change her fate: "Speaking of which, do you know how the scholar's story ended?"

Chu Liuxiang shook his head, on this night when he was destined to lose love, he was not in the mood to care about other people's affairs.

"Well, then you might as well go and listen."

"Listen to his story, and you will know that in this world, there is no distinction between high and low."

Lu Jingyan wrapped Lu Xiaofeng's red cloak, and disappeared on the side of the arc door of the county government mansion.

The irritability of cicadas chirping in the air, like Chu Liuxiang's inner anxiety, climbed steadily, and finally stopped abruptly when it reached the climax.

More than ten years ago in Bai Yujing, a woman knelt in front of Lu Jingyan, willing to use her life savings in exchange for her son's future.

In Bai Yujing more than ten years ago, there was a woman standing at the gate of Chunyu Tower, who spent the rest of her life waiting for a man who would never come back.

The former Lu Jingyan laughed at those romantic people, knowing that one day she suddenly understood, everyone said that she was ruthless, but when she had a heart, no one believed it anymore.

Lu Jingyan didn't want to hear the ending of the scholar's story, because it must be a sad story full of love.

She has seen a lot of love, many of which are unforgettable, and some of which are ordinary. Many stories end in the middle of the story, and some are lonely one-man shows.

As for her story, her love, let it end like this.

The girl Fengyan from a year ago stood in the Chunyu Tower, watching Chu Enke leave.

A year later, Chu Xiangshuai stood where he was, watching Lu Jingyan turn and leave.

Just like Miss Fengyan wouldn't chase a prodigal son, Chu Liuxiang wouldn't chase a woman he couldn't control.

They are all grown-ups, and no one can live without them.

Girl Fengyan may be very suitable for Chu Enke, and Lu Jingyan may be very suitable for Chu Xiangshuai, but when they become one person, they are no longer so suitable.

Love built on falsehoods will eventually collapse one day.

That's it, let's go with the wind like this, and when we look back, at least there is still a memory.

So be it, this big river and lake will never be seen again.

The author has something to say:

At this point, apart from the disagreement between the two of them, Chu Liuxiang is a straight man, there is actually an element of Lu Jingyan's work in it.

The ending of BE is finally held back! ! !