far and near

As a former Yue opera actor with a stable job, a single hobby, well-dressed clothes and a natural appearance, Zhao Lan, now the senior deputy section of the Publicity Section of the Baizhou City Cultural Bureau, knows that she is not the material for promotion at all.Because she has to cook for the children when others go out for research.Colleagues worked hard to get a qualification for a serious subject, but she got out of the pile of materials and got off work on time.

After someone mentioned Zhengke, Zhao Lan looked at the position of the party group and the deputy director drooling, and Zhao Lan wondered in his heart: It has been 24 years since he joined the troupe.According to the policy, she can apply for early retirement after six more years of work. 30 years of service was dedicated to socialist construction, and the rest of her life, she devoted herself to taking care of her senior sister and daughter.

Except for her good voice and good looks, she is no different from ordinary people.She would haggle over the 50-500 cents of green vegetables, and she would complain about not being paid overtime pay for working overtime on Saturdays. A 23-yuan lipstick can last for a year and a half, but wearing a [-]-yuan dress will cause pain.She is conservative and upright, shrewd and impatient, wanting nothing, and she can do it for a penny of her salary.No wonder, if she was more career-minded, she wouldn't have left the troupe in her early [-]s.

All Zhao Lan's rebelliousness and boldness in this life were given to Wang Li, and she felt flustered after using up these reserves.

Even if her husband Lao Bai left suddenly, she never panicked.

Lao Bai was in the seafood business, and he ate a lot, and he drank too much for a while, and after he died of a cerebrovascular accident, he left Zhao Lan's mother and daughter with a homestead in the country and 20 yuan in deposits.

In the mid-90s, Zhao Lan felt at ease with this figure.The deposit bank is indeed insurance, but compared with the gradually rising housing prices, this amount of money is thin.It happened that her elder brother's aquatic product processing factory was expanding its production, so he borrowed this money from her at an interest rate that was one cent higher than that of the bank.No matter how unhappy she is, she still has to consider: Lao Bai is dead, she is orphaned and widowed, and she has to be supported by her natal family in case of trouble.

It's different now, Wang Li can support her.Zhao Lan looks down on this point in her heart: she always depends on others without a main axis.Of course, her daughter Bai Maosheng's crying and soft side has been inherited by her.

She was proud of herself again: when Wang Li was sick, she pushed them both hard.The most wanton and daring thing she has ever done in her life.

She was so flustered and proud.

Recently, Zhao Lan wanted to buy an apartment in the Jinhu community where her senior sister lived. Although the price per square meter there had increased by several hundred, she was not afraid of any further increase.

She has another consideration: Bai Maosheng will not be able to get married and step into the man's house to live a life of palms.She has to have her own small family business, and if something happens, the child will have a way out.

Obtaining debts, retiring, and buying a house are the three most important things that Zhao Lan thinks about in the past five years.

In front of these three major events are Wang Li's body and Bai Maosheng's emotional problems.

Wang Li could fool her to make her feel at ease for a while, but he couldn't fool her for a month.Zhao Lan panicked even more.

Originally, she was also relieved that her daughter was late in development and awakened late.Compared to her mother, Fang Shisan, who realized that she had "unusual feelings" for her senior sister this year, Zhao Lan thought that Bai Mao would only find true love when he was born in his early twenties.

But her daughter made a pilgrimage to love every Sunday, saying that she was going out to play with her little sister, but Zhao Lan saw that she only went to the 170 bus stop.

The daughter, who changed clothes for almost an hour in the morning, was always carrying food, drink, watching and playing, her hair bouncing happily, jumped into the car, and then dozed off in the car with her head propped up.She couldn't see the indescribable words in her mother Zhao Lan's eyes behind her.

Zhao Lan also wanted to let go, but Bai Maosheng was too active.It was so exciting that Zhao Lan wanted to torment Wang Li when she thought about it, and she was the only one who could torment her, "What do you say depends on fate, and you also know that in our country, her situation is destined to have no fate." From the brainwashing of the senior sister Zhao Lan regained her senses and thought about this question with her heart: If Usheng couldn't sing, what would happen if she caused Yu Ren to drop her grades?That's the top student in No. [-] Middle School. Once he is affected by a relationship and delays his exams in Qingbei, he will harm him for the rest of his life.

Wang Li said that there are countless unborn students. You can see that she only goes out for half a day on Sunday and returns home before [-] o'clock in the evening.Explain that she also understands not to affect the learning of the little sisters.

Zhao Lan said that she would leave the house at [-]:[-] noon and arrive home at [-]:[-] pm.Nine hours can do a lot.

"What's the matter?" Zhao Lan stomped her feet anxiously when Wang Li was very upset, "Oh, first, they are not yet adults, so they shouldn't enter that link. Another day I'll ask you what step Uo has reached. Second, it counts. At that step, you don’t have to worry about being a grandma early.” The little sister’s family went shopping, read books and ate snacks, and at most found a corner to suck their faces. Wang Li said that she absolutely believed that the two children would not mess around.

"How do you know it's not Maosheng who has a sweet head?" After all, her own mother, Zhao Lan was still worried that Bai Maosheng Mingyue would go to the ditch.

"Isn't that better? To save you from worrying." Wang Li knew that Zhao Lan would not be relieved after all, so she shook her head slightly when she went out with Uno on weekends, "Human."

People, when I wasted more than ten years and felt that I could finally make up for the regrets of the past, the regrets still exist.Zhao Lan herself covered the scars and stretch marks on her stomach so that Wang Li wouldn't see them, saying, "It's too ugly."

She is not only talking about the scar, but also the impulsive choice in the past, and the disappointment of time.

People still have a deep-seated inferiority complex, even if they finally stand up and face the iron walls of social rules and carve out a little light.I still think this is "wrong" in my bones, and I still panic and fear.

Zhao Lan's axis Wangli has been taught and admired for decades.She drank tea at home and waited for Zhao Lan and Maosheng to go home. At six o'clock in the evening, Zhao Lan came back with a livid face.

She sat there blankly when she got home, just like the day she heard that her senior sister was sick, she threw herself into her thoughts and twitched. That's what it means."

As she spoke, Zhao Lan burst into tears. When Cui Yingying cried decades ago, she didn't have the pungent and sad heart of a middle-aged woman. She put her head into the arms of her senior sister like a little girl back then, scolding her daughter, "After eating Hand in hand to the station, I took a taxi and followed to Muyang Road in the east of the city, and they sat in KFC for three hours. Yu Ren did his homework, and Mao Sheng slept on the table."

Cui Yingying of the old school said that Yu Ren was a teenage girl, staring deeply at Uosheng.After writing for a while, I will hold Uosheng's hand, or touch her face, "eyes that are about to drip water." This is not emotional, what is it?

"I went to the riverside at 05:30, and we had to hug each other in the cold wind. They hugged me for half an hour and I blew the wind for half an hour." Zhao Lan sniffed, and the senior sister had already drawn paper for her, and hugged her again, " Just hold it?"

Zhao Lan's face suddenly flushed, "Senior sister, you care about these unimportant things." In fact, it really doesn't matter, it's really just like what the senior sister said, just smacking your face.As for whether he has further explored other things, Zhao Lan does not know.What is certain is that if this continues, it will not be too late.

Zhao Lan regained her senses under the comfort of her senior sister, "Senior sister, she is not you or me. We have a stable job, and we can count on the days to come. They are only teenagers, and if everyone knows about it, they will be ruined. I want Uno to transfer to an opera school in the provincial capital."

After more than 40 minutes of sitting still, Zhao Lan had already considered three ideas: transfer to another school, move house, and come forward to dismantle her.

The senior sister's eyes showed concern, "Alan, what will happen if Uzuo knows?"

Zhao Lan said that her daughter was only angry for three days, if she wanted to hate her, she would hate it, and she would forget after a little longer, "She is short-tempered and has a poor memory."

Zhao Lan panicked and chose a path, even if Wang Li objected again, Zhao Lan would find other channels in the cultural and educational system, and went back and forth from the provincial capital to complete the procedures.Before the Spring Festival, Zhao Lan was finally close to success, not to mention that people watched Bai Maosheng's game video and learning process, and said that Wang Li's students who entered the house would naturally accept him.

Zhao Lan breathed a sigh of relief, feeling warm all over in this extraordinarily cold twelfth lunar month.She had argued with her senior sister several times these days, and told Wang Li to shut up with the phrase "the child is mine".

No matter how close and how much they love each other, even how mature two people are, there are always things that cannot be settled.Zhao Lan pretended to be deaf and dumb for a month, and finally raised her voice.

Even if the child is named because of the senior sister, the child also worships the senior sister when he learns art, but it is related to Bai Maosheng's safe future. Zhao Lan and the senior sister care about it. You haven't had a baby, you don't understand."

Playing an ugly old tune just once is a deaf ear, and playing it a few times seems to have something in it.Zhao Lan, who also understood how ugly her face was, was waiting for a taxi on the bumpy roadside in the provincial capital. She was shivering from the cold and took out her mobile phone to dial Wang Li, "Senior Sister... I'll do it—"

Zhao Lan didn't finish the phone call, which was half announcing and half repairing. She was scraped under the wheels of a muck truck.

Wang Li "Hello" and only the busy tone remained.Half an hour later, the police from the provincial capital called, saying who is Zhao Lan to you?Wang Li paused and replied that it was my sister.

The police sent the family members to the provincial hospital, "She is still undergoing first aid." Wang Li stumbled out of the dressing room regardless of the makeup on her face, and took Bai Maosheng directly to the provincial capital in the car of her work unit.

When Bai Maosheng heard that her mother had a car accident in the provincial capital, she held onto her master's arm and asked, "Is my mother important? Why is she in the provincial capital? Master, have you been unhappy with your mother recently?"

Wang Li looked at the students in a daze and didn't know what to say.

Said that Zhao Lan secretly repaired the plank road in order to let her daughter have a stable future as an ordinary woman?Said that her mother wanted to use distance to dry out her childhood sweetheart's feelings?Said that she actually couldn't figure it out, there were obviously other ways to go, why did Zhao Lan choose the most stupid one?

Is this kind of feeling so shameful?Or, because the children are young, it is taken for granted that they are hotheaded and ignorant of emotions?

Dongyu slid down the car window, and Wang Li hugged Bai Maosheng in her arms, "Your mother will be fine, sleep for a while. After arriving at the hospital, the master has something to tell you."

But her heart was bleeding, "Alan, you are always so impatient. If you want something to do, how can I live?"

Emotions are muddled accounts, no matter how much you care about them, they are worthless in the face of the separation of life and death.Wang Li touched Bai Maosheng's head, "Master will never force you, never will."

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