far and near

After Fengnian’s interview and vocational skills test, she bid farewell to the judges and teachers politely. An old professor from Baida University stayed in her seat to review her resume, "This little girl is amazing." The quality of her articles is unmatched by many old teachers at the University of Cypress. "The key point is that she is still simple. The 90-year-old looks as steady as the 70-year-old."

After walking out of the office building, Feng Nian, who was comforted by Yu Ren's "new first three days of ugliness", stroked his hair, and took out his mobile phone to take a picture of himself, "Hey, it's really three days of ugliness, and it's much better now."

Fengnian, who has a steady temperament in 1970, is wearing a navy blue formal suit and walking in Baizhou University. Yinxiu's phone call can't wait, "How is Fengnian?"

"It's not bad." Fengnian felt that the one-day interview and test were quite formal, and she performed freely.I heard from Yinxiu that she was waiting outside the gate of Baida University in her car, and Fengnian trotted all the way there, her feet hurt from being squeezed by the small pointed leather shoes.

After getting in the car, Feng Nian wanted to change her shoes. She said that the shoes Yu Ren had picked out did match the suit, but the toes were too crowded.

Seeing this appearance, Feng Nian was slightly taken aback, and smiled and said that this set met the requirements of the interview. She swallowed the last part of the sentence, "It just looks older, from head to toe."

"Yu Ren is busy these days, so it may be late to go to the store at night." Yin Xiu said that she asked me if I wanted to recruit people, and told me about the little girl. There is no shortage of people here, but she contacted my previous job. The restaurant, where people are needed, also includes food and lodging.Yinxiu saw that Fengnian's feet were switching positions uncomfortably, "There are spare shoes in the drawer, let's put them on."

It is not changed in a good year, and it is said that it was born by Bai Mao.

"I prepared them for you." Yin Xiu smiled knowingly, "Yu Ren told me specifically that your shoes look good but are uncomfortable, so let me bring a pair of disposable ones." She said that Yu Ren is thoughtful and meticulous, and he is good at studying and working , is really promising.

Feng Nian happily stepped on and took off her shoes, "She is just too tired, she has to work a lot of overtime, and she has a rest before she comes back, and she has given all her thoughtfulness to others. I think she has no time to take care of herself after she is promoted to a regular department, and she still wants to pick her up." Little Willow."

Yin Xiu, who was driving, nodded, "What about you? Will you take care of yourself?"

Fengnian said that it is not a big problem for him to live alone, and he can cook and maintain hygiene. "I don't have any requirements for life. I just need a bed and a bookshelf, and I can eat in the cafeteria in the future." If you resubmit your undergraduate, master, and doctoral degree or the domestic 985 undergraduate and master's degree plus a doctorate from a famous overseas school, if you are admitted in a good year, the total of the settling fee and the start-up fee for scientific research will be 20.Watching it in her unadorned substance is enough.

Yinxiu took time to glance at Fengnian, and suddenly felt that the silly girl who was muffled in front of the ironing table in the garment factory that year had also grown more mature and handsome, with a low-key and calm expression on her face.The car drove to the "Yinji" teahouse. Yinxiu said that the three of us had dinner together in the shop today. I ordered the "Fu Linjiang" dish in advance, and Yu Ren told us not to wait for her.

Mentioning the place "Fulinjiang", Yinxiu had mixed feelings in her heart, but Fengnian's eyes darkened when she heard about this place.The two sat down in the teahouse, and Fengnian said, "She... came to Baizhou for the second time, and I took her there to eat." Sister Song also praised Fengnian for choosing a place, saying that the old restaurants in the old city taste old, and there are delicious dishes in the dishes. The taste of poetry.

Yinxiu had only heard about Fengnian's relationship sporadically, and she only found out some time ago that she had already broken up.Feng Nian talked about the arrangements in Sister Song's breakup letter, Yin Xiu only said "I understand", feeling sorry for Feng Nian for a long time.

The two sat down and tasted the dishes. Fengnian's mood hadn't fully recovered from the depression. Yinxiu picked up the dishes for her, "We Baizhou people can't get tired of eating meat." The crystal clear pork forefoot trembled on the chopsticks After putting it in his own dish, Fengnian took a bite, sucked his sore nose and smiled, Yinxiu handed her a tissue.

"How did you come here these days?" Yin Xiu asked Fengnian.

"Reading materials, writing papers, checking manuscripts for tutors, dealing with publishing houses... I went to Dali after I was busy with these things."It's just that the love is too heavy, and the mountains and rivers can't hold it.

"Why don't you contact me anymore?" Yinxiu said that she didn't want the house anymore?

"I don't want it." Fengnian said that it's nothing if I want it, it's so affordable, but the relationship between me and her has changed in my heart.Our breakup is a gentleman's agreement, and her heart is enough for me to cherish. If I want it, it is not a treasure, but a "fulfilment".I also thought about contacting her. I was afraid that it would be difficult for her to explain to her children, and I was also afraid that she would not reply, "Miss Xiaoying, I am actually much better."

A few words from Feng Nian seemed to dispel Yin Xiu's doubts, and she toasted Feng Nian, "Then I wish Feng Nian a successful interview."

Feng Nian raised his glass and drank the rice wine. Yinxiu answered the phone while squinting his eyes to reflect on it. Her expression was very respectful and polite. Finally, she said thank you, and I will bring the most popular tea in the store to see you another day.After the phone call, Yinxiu said that it was Fulinjiang's boss, Sister Zhang, and told me that Yu Jin was working hard to adapt today.

The day before yesterday, Yu Ren went out after ten o'clock, and later said that he would not come back to sleep. Shi Fengnian was still curious. The next day, when Yu Ren got off work with dark circles on his face, she found out about Yu Jin's matter. She didn't want Yin Xiu to help solve it in the end.

"That girl, Yu Rendai, met me once. She looks a little like Xiao Liu, but they are completely two people." Yin Xiu said that Yu Jin was very nervous, unlike Xiao Liu Yangguang. Aren't you embarrassed?"

Yinxiu also came here when she was a teenager, and now her life is stable, and sometimes old customers who have eyesight say, "Boss Yin, you must have gone through a lot and suffered a lot." Yinxiu just smiled and did not answer directly.Who doesn't want to be elegant, noble and relaxed in the womb, but don't always show your grievances and sorrows to others.

Yu Jin's child's embarrassment was written in the expression on his eyes and face, but Yinxiu asked her, "I will only introduce you to the place where you stay once, and you will be responsible for what you do in the future. Are you willing?"

At that moment, Yu Jin's eyes flashed with a stubborn fire, and she said yes.

"Earning more or less is not what she has to consider now. The energy in her heart has to be released slowly before she can give up that family." Yinxiu said that I had a hunch that she could do it.

Miss Xiaoying, when you first entered society, what gave you the motivation to keep fighting?Feng Nian asked.

"Successful and unborn." Yinxiu answered quickly, she lowered her eyes in embarrassment, and changed the subject, "Yu Jin has a lot of reconciliation, I have never met her, and she still cried in front of me for more than an hour There are ladders, ropes, and ferries for the unwilling ones, and she will find them.

"What motivates you to be admitted to Peking University?" Yinxiu turned to Fengnian.

I thought about it very carefully. At that time, my biggest wish was to live away from home, so that I could get a bonus for college entrance examination and not let myself ask my parents for money.Feng Nian finally blushed a little, "Yu Ren is also the reason for studying hard, she is too good, I...I don't want to be too far away from her." Yin Xiu pursed her lips and smiled, and said "Yes".

Feng Nian drank a sip of wine and calmed down, "I said before that the ideal of life is to idle around and lose one's mind, because I really love reading and I would like to read for the rest of my life. As long as you have less free time, I thought it would be a good idea to go to university, so I have been moving towards this goal all the way.

"I don't know if I'm a lucky person. The goals I choose can always be quantified, such as how many points I get in the test, grade points, posting articles, etc. But many people either have no goals, or they don't know what to do if they have goals. Work hard."

She is always called a "scholar" or something, but compared to the hardships of life, studying is nothing, especially when she is always on campus.

Feng Nian's words made Yin Xiu smile, "Looking for a target depends on the opportunity, and working hard is a science. Those who have no target are like Yu Jin now, looking for someone to borrow money to go to Shenzhen to find a boyfriend like a headless chicken. Fortunately, Yu Ren exposed it to her. It’s gone.” I was the one who was aiming for something, and the firewood was so hot that I burned myself.Bai Maosheng is the one who doesn't work hard enough, "They said they would take the plate of the Plum Blossom Award back and put cold dishes on it for me, but their progress has been delayed by love and love all these years."

"The one who has a goal and can't make an effort is me." Yu Ren's voice came from the door of the store, and Yin Xiu went out to meet her, "I came on time, and I even left a meal for you."

"Take out and eat." Yu Renren sat down and looked at Fengnian, "Hey, you look so good, Fengnian, you are fine."

Immediately, Fengnian sat Yu Ren on the left, and Miss Xiaoying on the right. One was full of poetry and calligraphy, and the other was shrewd and introverted.She pushed the round-framed glasses, and she said happily, "Ah, I didn't expect that." I didn't expect such a day to come, "What can I do." Yu Ren and Miss Xiaoying on the left and right stretched out their hands to stroke her little curly hair at the same time .

"You are virtuous." Yinxiu said.

"You're floating." Yu Ren smiled.

With Yu Ren joining, the three of them chatted more happily. Feng Nian looked at his watch, "Are you going to pick up Xiao Liu later?"

"En." Yu Ren's answer came out after a little hesitation. She said it was cold and it was convenient to pick up by car.She put down her chopsticks to drink tea, cleared her throat blocked by thoughts, picked up her chopsticks to eat under the watchful eyes of the other two, and calmly accepted the scrutiny.

"Have you seen enough?" Yu Ren finally asked Fengnian and Yinxiu, holding back a smile, "Don't gossip."

Feng Nian said that she did not gossip, but was just curious.But if you don't say it, I'm embarrassed to ask, "But can I just ask a question?" Feng Nian obediently raised his hand to speak, and Yu Ren said yes.

"Yu Ren, in love, do you prefer the mind or the body?" Feng Nian's bold question made Yin Xiu laugh.

"In stages, when you are young, you will look at your feelings and appearance, and when you are older, you will look at your personality and appearance. Now—I don't know." Yu Ren said that she has a superficial side, "Don't deny yourself."

The other two were speechless, and then agreed, "That's right."

Yu Ren didn't lie, she doesn't know if she is in love now, let alone mind and body.She was thrown by the little girl from time to time, and fell into the chaotic vortex of her soul.

Whenever Yuan Liu wanted to go further, Yu Ren would sink his heart and swallow the waves.Whenever Yuan Liu took a step back tacitly, Yu Ren would see the clouds and the moon shine, and the years would be quiet.

She understands. How far is the distance in 11 years, how many responsibilities are in 11 years, and the gap in 11 years will only continue to expand as time goes by.She feels that separation is inevitable and normal, and if the ending is clear, the process will not be desperate.

She was confused again.The increasingly inexplicable relationship with Yuan Liu pushed her every step of the way.Because she is not used to seeing Yuan Liu, she will pick her up when she is free.Because she knew that she was still a child, she was trying to find every part of Yuan Liu who was "not a child".

She seems to be bound in a cocoon, and like a trapped animal fighting in a trap.The rational part of her told herself to rush out in the middle of the night when no one was around, and the emotional part of her told herself to sit down the next day as if nothing had happened.

The cocoon is getting thicker and thicker, and the beast is getting more and more tired.The tighter the cocoon wrapped around her, the more at ease she felt - because this was done from the heart, and her heart needed Xiao Liu.At this time, Yuan Liu's "not a child" side is standing next to her, warming her, warming her, cooling her, scaring her, stabbing her, touching her, grabbing her, and entangled her.

She saw how beautiful the moon was, felt how impatient and excited Yuan Liu was before that kiss, and understood the foreign words and the inner words of her daily messages...

Mystery, subtlety, consonance, sincerity... She fully understands the full youthful love, because Yu Ren has experienced this age.

Wouldn't it be nice if you could just play dumb all the time?But Yu Ren couldn't pretend, she felt that this "similar to love" state was like a fermenter rotating in time, the air, temperature, air pressure, bacteria flora and fermentation raw materials chemically interact...they formed their own laws and twisted into Another Yu Ren with his own personality, "seems to be looking for love in the ambiguous Yu Ren".

As soon as the new mental inertia broke out, Yu Ren would observe the off-duty atmosphere of the day and ask about the progress every 09:30, and even went back to work overtime after picking up Yuan Liu at night.

She probably looks at the heart.She taught Yuan Liu, who was extremely sensible and extremely intelligent—using an understanding beyond her age to maintain Yu Ren's ambiguity that had always been pretending to be confused.Occasionally out of bounds, but also immediately return.

Yu Ren didn't drink, Feng Nian drank some, his old classmate stared like a torch, "Yu Ren, be more patient."

"Huh?" Yu Ren said that I was very patient.Patiently wait for that day to come, patiently prepare for the next self-soothing.Patiently, even furtively, she sucked the little honey of her ordinary life in the innermost layer of her heart, thinking and consciousness.

Shameless.Yu Ren's heart was pierced by these three words.What you say doesn't affect Yuan Liu's future, doesn't affect her decision, why are you still obsessed with the illusion created by two people singing and harmonizing, you come and I go back and forth?

Yu Ren, are you so lacking in love?

Yu Ren found that Yin Xiu and Feng Nian hadn't spoken, and they looked at him with distress and bewilderment.

"I'm fine, I've always been fine." A smile gradually emerged on Yu Ren's face, "It's rare for the three of us to eat, so don't try to make me cry." She said that there are some things that I really can't do, even Can't exert force.

I have the numbers, so try to use as little force as possible.I can't bring her into my little home with a gentle tug before she has really seen the world.I can do that, but five years from now, ten years from now, what will she think of me?

But I didn't count, I still tried my best.

"Hey." Yu Ren scratched his head, "I have to pick up people." She smiled wryly, "It's only a few months, and the birds' wings are hatching at an accelerated rate." We returned to the nest early, there was nothing we could do. Where.