far and near

Tian'er was so cold that his nose almost froze, Fengnian came out of Xiaoximen and went straight to Changchun Garden Food Street, and arrived at the grilled fish restaurant where his classmates often had dinner.A senior sister got a teaching position in a certain 985 in the west in advance, and the recruitment announcement was still going on, so a group of people made a fuss about treating guests to dinner.

I have read a lot of books, but now I am talking about where to go. Those who are planning to go to a real estate company for planning, and the more "serious" where to go is the selection.According to everyone's unanimous cognition about "dual depreciation of academic qualifications and schools", the brothers and sisters advised Fengnian to make up his mind early while the tree was still big.

"You can't afford a house if you stay in Beijing. Let's say it's for the next generation. I grit my teeth and endure hardships for my children for decades. What am I going to do?" The seniors who were too drunk just broke up recently. Is it better to think that they will burn paper for me?

If they knew that someone wanted to buy a house for Feng Nian but she refused, they would stick out their thumbs with one hand and say, "You are worthy of character." Then they would stick out your little finger with the other hand and say, "Why is Feng Nian bothered?"

Feng Nian had the most boring meal today, because he had three words from Sister Song in his arms, "I'm back to Beijing." "Is it really gone?"

Feng Nian said goodbye a month ago, you go find the next place to live, and I will give you freedom.

Sister Song didn't say another word, as if she had completely evaporated from Fengnian's world.

Right now, the window panes are covered with heat, and the water droplets, no longer able to hang on the thin mist, are dripping down.Feng Nian felt that it would be better if it was colder today, what to eat warm?She deserved her heart cracking from the cold.

We broke up at 10:30, and the senior sisters thanked each other. When she arrived at Fengnian, she stroked her curly hair, "Fengnian, I don't expect to make any professional contributions in the future. Among us, only you have the responsibility." An important task." The senior sister went to the university to be the principal's administrative secretary.

Fengnian exhaled a few puffs of white air from his nostrils and mouth, put his hands in his pockets and walked slowly back, scolding Senior Sister and Sister Song in his heart—it’s you who don’t want to be ideal, you are lying in reality, why do you want me to conceive Fengnian Be a monument on the side of the road?

Professional ideals and romantic ideals, in your eyes, are like a delicate literary film, which is well-spoken in speech, but superficial in practice.Is the ideal subtext to be a fool?

Feng Nian felt that he was so stupid that he was so stupid that he was repeatedly entrusted with important tasks.When he got to the west gate, Fengnian suddenly turned around and didn't go in. He pulled up his scarf and shrunk his neck and walked towards the station, smelling of alcohol, Fengnian grabbed his mobile phone and dialed, "Okay, I'm going to Zuojiazhuang now, if you want Sincerity is there waiting for me."

After she finished speaking forcefully, tears fell quickly, forming a shallow trace, which hurt after wiping.

"Hello——" Fengnian said to the phone on the side of the road, "Song Yueqiong, hello? Don't you want to come and go with a wave? I do the same, is it fair? If I don't want your house, I want to be fair. Ok?"

Sister Song kept silent and listened to Fengnian sobbing for a while, "I'm here." Sister Song's voice trembled a little, "You want to be fair, I'm going to school now."

"Don't come!" Fengnian cried until his nose turned red, "Don't come, I can't afford it."

Feng Nian held back for several months and finally lost his temper, "What do you think of me?" Song Yueqiong hung up the phone.When Fengnian walked to the station, she found that she had lost her way. She didn't want to go back to the dormitory, so she went to the hotel to get a room.Tonight is destined to be a toss, and before I can lie down, the phone calls again, and there is Su Hai's aggrieved voice, "Bad Harvest Year, I'm at the train station."

which train station?Fengnian was a little dizzy.

Beijing South Railway Station.The eldest girl said that I came to join you, I don't want to stay in Baizhou anymore.

Fengnian woke up completely, "What?"

That's it, Su Hai said that he didn't want to go back to the barber shop in Zuojiazhuang, she, Glory, wanted to make a name for herself in Beijing, would you take me in for a bad harvest?Just a day or two, when I find a place to live, I will move out.Also, would you accompany me to find a job as a barber?If not, I will set up a stall on the side of the road for people to cut.

Fengnian said you wait for me, grabbed the down jacket and went out. Fortunately, the distance was not too far, and there was no traffic jam in the taxi. In [-] minutes, I received Suhai, who was like fleeing from famine—the big girl was wrapped thickly, and there was a pimple on her face. Dao has a long scar, holding two trolley boxes, and a dirty colorful doll bear is tied to the box.People are wronged, and bears are also downcast. Feng Nian's eyes fell on Su Hai's face, and she said I was hungry.

OK, let's eat next to my school.Fengnian helped her pull the box.

The eldest girl sat still and didn't speak. After eating a bowl of rice noodles, she took care of Fengnian's food and hiccupped. Then she told the whole story, "...I was criticized and educated, but he was not imprisoned either. Said it was a relationship dispute. My mother beat me, and I don’t want to open a shop with her anymore.”

Su Hai's hair was randomly tied into a half-sized ball on the top of his head, his bangs were hanging down, the plump lips of the big girl moved, and so did the oily, childish and angry lips.Fengnian looked at her face, "Does it hurt?"

It doesn't hurt, I beat him so badly that his eyes were swollen from my beating.The police told me not to do anything again, because I would not be able to get married.Su Hai felt a little embarrassed after eating, and put his hands on his knees, "Bad Harvest Year...I'm causing you trouble."

It's okay, I'm not used to you not giving me any trouble since I was a child.Fengnian and Su Hai looked at each other, seeing the big girl laughing at Lying Silkworm, she also laughed.

It's good of you to come, Fengnian said.

The room was ready-made, with Feng Nian lying on one side and the eldest girl lying on the other, with the dirty bear in between.Feng Nian said to bring it, it must be very important, right?

"Important, Xiao Liu gave it to me in the second year of junior high school." Su Hai said that it looked dirty, but it wasn't actually dirty. It was washed with the clothes and dyed.She turned her head and saw Fengnian propping his head to look at the ceiling lamp, "Bad Fengnian, you are so fast, you even opened the room for me in advance."

Feng Nian smiled wryly, "This is for me, I haven't slept yet." You must think there is something wrong with me, right?I haven't returned to the dormitory since the school is so close. I don't want to go back today.

"Is there something unhappy at school?" Su Hai stared at Fengnian's hair, "I also brought scissors, I'll cut it for you tomorrow."

good.Feng said in a young voice, I'm just a little numb... I'm afraid she will come to me.Feng Nian said Xiao Hai, you were stalked by Edison, and I was also stalked by Sister Song.

"The difference is that Addison is in front of you all day, right? Song Yueqiong is in my heart." Fengnian asked Su Hai if he was bored?How about turning on the TV?

Need not.Talking to you is not boring.Su Hai's cell phone rang again, but she still pressed it.The two were silent for a while, Fengnian said your mother was worried, right?

The eldest girl's eyes turned red immediately, "I left her a letter to reassure her. With my body and being able to fight, she should only be worried about me getting into the game." Fengnian laughed, and turned to Su Hai, " You are sad not only because your mother beat you, but because she doesn't understand you, right?"

Su Hai's tears overflowed, and Feng Nian wiped it for her. The eldest girl avoided her hand, pulled up the quilt and covered her head in a muffled voice, "When she was young, she was bullied by her step-grandmother. I don't want to interfere. But if I don't intervene, how can she be a rival?" Bad Fengnian, it's really not easy to open a store, my mother has a good temper, and sometimes she smiles when she is bullied by customers.A total of 80 yuan for a hundred children, is it worth it?

My mother said that if you are doing business with neighbors, if you have a big temper, it is not good to spread the word, and people will think that you are not sincere in doing business.

The big girl pulled down the quilt, and looked at Bad Fengnian with big deer-like eyes, "She can bear the store being smashed, but I can't bear it. That's my mother, and I can't be wronged. If my store can be smashed today, what will be smashed tomorrow? "

She kept saying she didn't teach me well.Su Hai choked up, but she didn't ask me about the divorce, and she married and had children again, and now she's divorced again.Did she give birth to Shao Junhan because she thought I was not good?

This is the crux.Feng Nian smiled, "No." In marriage, your mother has her unspeakable secrets, and it's not because you are bad that you gave birth to a younger brother.

What unspeakable secret?Su Hai said that I don't want to get married anymore, falling in love is so scary, let alone get married and have children.

Feng Nian didn't speak, still facing Su Hai, but her eyes wandered elsewhere. She said there were many, my mother didn't want to divorce my dad, and on the one hand she disliked him for not contributing to the Xiao family, on the other hand she was afraid that the divorce would be poked at by others.In our place, the people in the town even know exactly when the neighbor’s chickens lay eggs, so there is no privacy.

Fengnian actually thought of Sister Song, even in this situation, she was still looking for all kinds of difficulties for Sister Song, and even thought of some helplessness in the post-marriage period.

"Bad Fengnian, what does Sister Song like most about you?" The question of the eldest girl brought Fengnian back to her senses, she couldn't explain clearly.She said before that I was like her classmate, but then I didn't want to think about that.

You know, I think she should especially like your tenderness.Su Hai said that you are a very nice person, you will not get angry or be careless.

"If I'm stingy, I'll get angry too." Fengnian's phone rang again. She looked at "Sister Song", pressed it down and said nothing, rolled her eyes and looked at the ceiling and counted silently for 15 seconds. After counting, she felt a little bored.After counting to ten, she answered, "I'm going to sleep."

"Last time on Tiantai, you insisted on going back to Baizhou immediately, and you didn't want to listen to my explanation." Sister Song sighed at the other end, "We are 20 years apart, and our feelings are different from ordinary people's feelings. Why do you use worldly prejudices? How about kidnapping yourself?"

What worldly views?Feng Nian said that I have self-knowledge, we can't even accomplish worldly rituals.We can't get married, even if you have the opportunity to go abroad to go through the formalities, you can't pass Zhangzhang's test.You think I care about this, right?Song Yueqiong, you are wrong.I don't care if I can get married, or even if I can live together all the time, even if you can only spend twelve days a year to see me.

What I care about is that in your life, it is just a condiment, a bottle of black pepper, and you put it in a pepper grinder.When you want, turn it upside down, spin it, grind it, and the black peppercorns are the end.That's all.

Yes, I don't complain, I am your best gift, I just want to hear one sentence, just one sentence, "I am pregnant, I can't move my life, but you are not a gift, you are not a peppercorn, you are my love people." Fengnian said that I was so stupid, and I was quite happy making objects.Song Yueqiong, your exquisite algorithm is too deep, and I am not high enough to understand it.

Are you giving me a house because of guilt, or do you also hope that you can lock me up longer in this house?

Feng Nian rubbed his eyes, turned his back to Su Hai and confronted Sister Song.Sister Song said after a while, so you think so?

What should I think?Feng Nian asked.

Yes, I can't command and control your thoughts.Sister Song replied weakly, then go away, I wish you a bright future and find someone who truly loves you.

She hung up the phone, Fengnian looked at the phone in disbelief, "Song—" Song Yueqiong's voice was lost.Fengnian's heart was paralyzed, she lowered her head and sat blankly facing the wall for a while, Su Hai rolled over to her side, "Bad Fengnian?"

It's a real deal.Feng Nian murmured, she looked at Su Hai, "Xiao Hai—" Tears rolled down, Feng Nian was held in the arms of the eldest girl, tears were wiped on Su Hai's collar, "I...I am sad."

I know, I know, the big girl said, then you cry, cry out.

Fengnian let out her voice, she was desolate and warm, she was not hoarse, but her abdomen twitched and her voice was lowered.The eldest girl covered her neck with her hand, and gently scratched the hairy feet there. Infected by this situation, she cried out loudly.

Feng Nian was frightened and sniffed, "What's wrong, Xiao Hai?"

Being in love sucks, sucks.Su Hai is crying, bad harvest, I haven't seen you happy a few times.And Xiao Liu, she is also miserable.Ming love is uncomfortable, secret love is also uncomfortable...

Feng Nian wiped away tears, "No, no, there is something very happy about falling in love."

unhappy!You are all peppercorns, to be ground into powder.The eldest girl said I shouldn't have come, and everyone was sad.Bad harvest, I don't want to grow up, I like to live in a village in the city, perm my hair with pliers, eat, drink and have fun with you.

These words were so naive that Fengnian burst into tears, so she hugged the eldest girl instead, "It's okay, really. I'll take you to eat lamb and scorpions tomorrow, and serve them with red soup and white soup."

Fengnian's eyes were swollen from crying, and the next day he accompanied the eldest girl to eat sheep and scorpions. He still didn't forget to secretly send a message to Mao Xinxia in the middle of the night last night, saying that Su Hai was with him and that he would send her back to Baizhou after finishing her work.

Mao Xinxia is very grateful, and she guessed that she went to find you.Another 2000 yuan was transferred, and Xiaohuai told her to take her to eat something delicious.This kid doesn't have a few meals to coax well.

Su Hai gnawed on the bones while wearing gloves, and Feng Nian scalded vegetables for her.The eldest girl said that your phone was on again, and a long message floated over, one after another.

"Oh." Fengnian wiped the water vapor from his glasses, and sure enough, he saw many messages from Sister Song: Fengnian:

Literally.Although I am anxious to come back this year, I am also mentally prepared not to see you.I have known each other for two years and been in love for more than a year. This kind of scale is not a long time in my life, but it is not shallow.

I thought that the last time I visited the rooftop, I could express my thoughts clearly. Unfortunately, after many years of graduation, my writing and language skills have declined. This is the reason why I can’t express my words. It’s more because I’ve traveled too far. Our trajectories seem to overlap. In fact, Intricately distributed.

Marriage is a thing of the past for me. I am free and financially secure. I should be able to relax and enjoy love.But there are two points that have always made me in a dilemma: First, you are too young, and there are countless possibilities in life.I am greedy, on the one hand I want to be with you as long as possible, on the other hand I am afraid of delaying your life choices.So I hope that we face feelings with a more relaxed attitude.Get along with the idea of ​​​​"certainly lost, but cherished".I have always admired Beauvoir's saying "love comes from freedom", but I overlooked one point, "freedom comes from mutual equality."

Second, Zhangzhang knew about our relationship.This child is very sensitive, and he didn't mention it after a few words, and I have been restless for several months.

Maybe it is not necessary to strive for perfection in life. In the eyes of many people, I am considered successful, so I should look away early.

In addition, the purchase of a house in Baizhou is not to detain you. I think I can help you a little with my strength. After thinking about it, one is to settle in Beijing for work, and the other is to buy a house to help your parents, especially your mother, get rid of the difficulties of life as soon as possible. .You are a very gentle and kind person, and you always have regrets and dissatisfaction with your mother, and even more guilt.If this has hurt you, please accept my apologies.You are not a canary, so you don't need to use beautiful cages and Chinese food as bait, but there is still a good thing about building a nest among friends, let alone you and me?I have saved this money separately, if you need it, you can withdraw it at any time.

Good year, you are not peppercorns, nor are you any other seasoning.You are a small sharp sword, not deadly, but enough to cut through the disguises I live by.You don't want worldly status, you only want status in love.I thought I gave it to you, you thought you never received it.I think knives and wood and stone should be the best match. I am not wood and stone, but more like a bay that has seen its end.

Thank you for giving me a wonderful love.I can't ask for a sword, but your sword sank to the bottom of the water, enough for me to look back and imagine for the rest of my life. It's great that you came here.

I have changed my ticket and will go back to my parents tomorrow.I have been a woman for many years, and I have hardly served her wholeheartedly. From now on, it is too late.

I lost my manner in the phone call last night, I hope you understand.But the blessing has not changed. I hope you will have a love with one heart, be with you day and night, and not worry about the falsehood of your name.Goodbye, no need to be sad if we don't see each other again, good year.

Former lover Yue Qiong

Trembling, Feng Nian called Sister Song back, but there was no one answering that end, probably it was just before take-off.Inside the Yangxiezi shop, the charcoal fire is red, white steam is lingering, and the soup is tumbling. Outside the window is the noisy street, and inside the window are real faces.

Looking at Su Hai, she felt in a daze that this was not Beijing City, but Baizhou.Song Yueqiong was like the heroine of a novel she had read. She cried, laughed, made a fuss, sighed heavily, and finally closed the book.

After waking up from a dream, she fell into Zhuang Zhou's dream of a butterfly.Fengnian lowered his head and looked at the sauce dish in the bowl. The eldest girl had already picked up freshly cut meat with chopsticks, "Eat it, bad Fengnian, it's the most tender right now."

Feng Nian ate mutton, and it was so warm that her heart melted. She opened her mouth and breathed out, tears streaming down her face.Fengnian was still eating as much as he could, and Suhai on the other side who was shrouded in mist was also eating happily, "Are you happier?" Fengnian asked Suhai after pretending to wipe away his sweat and tears.

"Happy!" said the eldest girl, "Bad harvest, I want to open a shop and be the owner, and I will take you to eat this every day after I make money." You pay for this meal, right?

Fengnian wanted to laugh, but she held back, laughing didn't look like laughing, crying didn't look like crying.