far and near

It has been two hours since Mao Xinxia's hair was done. Qi Yiguo was rejected by the proprietress when he paid the bill, "Xiao Qi, it's rare for you to return to China, remember to bring us food. Auntie can't accept this money." Xiao Qi just brought some surprises. Chocolate, she said she would charge for it, you have been busy all morning on my head.

Turning to Yuan Huifang's restaurant, the proprietress smiled, "Stuffed meat with dried plums?" She added several special dishes, Xiao Qi couldn't even eat it, Yuan Huifang held his waist and gently buckled the spoon, "Why can't I eat it? A small person can eat so much." She said that Xiao Yu came here to eat a lot at noon, do you want to wait for her?

Qi Yiguo's heart ached, "Don't wait for her, I have something to do after dinner."

It was only after 15:302 noon after she finished eating, and when she saw Yuan Huifang was busy packing lunch, she went to help her.Yuan Huifang said oops, today's box lunch is a doctor's brand, I would have known that I had advertised in advance to increase the price.The phone in the store was still ringing, and Yuan Huifang kept answering it. The conversation was simple, "Oh, [-] on the [-]th floor? Chicken rice. Okay."

"Actually, I'm just a little busy at this moment of the day, and I'm considering adding someone. But I gritted my teeth and could handle it, so I didn't want to spend that unjustified money." Yuan Huifang sneaked in to talk to Xiao Qi in his busy schedule, and his movements never slowed down.She tied the lunch boxes according to the adjacent floors and put them in the baskets.

After a while, Yuan Liu, who was speeding on his bicycle, came back.When she saw Xiao Qi, she greeted Xiao Qi with a smile, "Sister Doctor, I see you again." Then she tied the lunch box to the bicycle, "I'll deliver it first, see you later."

Su Hai also hurriedly said hello and went back to the shop to help wash her hair. Qi Yiguo saw that the two children were so busy that they didn't touch the floor, she said with emotion, "It's amazing."

"It's just living a life, be practical." Yuan Huifang praised his daughter. When she supported her waist, her face suddenly changed. She bit her lip and frowned and wanted to sit down. She staggered and leaned against the wall, and then she slid down.Qi Yiguo rushed to help her, but found that Yuan Huifang's left arm was hanging down weakly, and he couldn't even use the strength on her arm.

Yuan Huifang was embarrassed by her and said that she hadn't slept well in the past few days and had a headache.

Xiao Qi said I'll take a look for you first, checked his eyes and tongue, and asked some questions.Her expression became serious, "Auntie, you have to go to the hospital for a full-body examination. I'm afraid it's a sign of a stroke."

Yuan Huifang raised her dark and heavily tattooed eyebrows, "Isn't it? Isn't a stroke paralyzing me? I can move my hands and feet quickly."

Qi Yiguo didn't believe it, and she also knew that Yuan Huifang avoided medical treatment. After Yuan Liu returned home, she told the child, "You must go for a check-up early, and you will easily be paralyzed if you are late." She looked at it with some sympathy. junior high school student, "I'll help you call my dad and talk about it, so you don't have to worry about going to the hospital and no one will receive you."

Yuan Liu was obviously taken aback, she nodded vigorously, she looked back at the boxed lunch in the box, and her mother who was busy answering the phone in the store, gritted her teeth and made up her mind.

"Xiao Liu, is there anyone in your family who can help? I mean relatives." Qi Yiguo asked.

Yuan Liu said that she and her mother were the only ones at home, "My biological parents are in Songyang, and they hardly see each other. Relatives here can't be counted on." Tears welled up in Yuan Liu's eyes, and she quickly wiped them away, "Sister, thank you You. I will take my mother to the hospital tomorrow, can you tell my uncle, please?"

Qi Yiguo watched the child preoccupied as he stepped on his bicycle to deliver food to the dormitory area of ​​the University of Technology, and after thinking about it, he called Yu Ren.As soon as she finished speaking, Yu Ren immediately said, "Okay, I see, thank you Yiguo. I will also ask for leave tomorrow to accompany me."

The two were speechless after finishing their business, and finally Xiao Qi asked you how are you?

"Yiguo, I'm fine." Yu Ren heard the entanglement in her tone, and endured it for a while, "You should focus on the people you care about."

Qi Yiguo smiled wryly, "I know."

She went back to the hotel alone, and the messy room inside had been tidied up, and the half bottle of wine she drank was left on the bedside, and the cups were thoughtfully washed by the cleaning staff and put aside.She lay down lazily and forced herself to sleep a little longer.After a few minutes, he sat up and poured a glass of wine.

The loneliness in Baizhou is different from that in the United States. There are neither things nor people here. Although Yu Ren gave her a decent ending, Qi Yiguo felt even more uncomfortable.She drank the wine in one gulp, hugged her head and began to cry silently.

Other teenage children can devote themselves to an uncomfortable life so energetically, but she has a degree and a bright career future, and escapes the control of her family. When she is about to climb out of the pit, she sees the outside world In the end, I just felt tired, and even wanted to let go and let myself slide down.

When Cao Yun was taking care of her, she once said, Guoguo, you seem to be competing with your family and yourself, but in fact you are not competing.She said that I have a deep understanding of the powerlessness brought about by life, but you haven't.

Qi Yiguo said that she had had enough, being separated again and again, being forced to suffocate by the stubborn old He again and again, how could she not understand it?Doesn't the sense of powerlessness mean that you don't even have the courage to fight it out?At most it's just yelling twice.Sometimes Cao Yun looked at her as if she was looking at her son, and it was the same at that moment.

Cao Yun asked on the phone last night, "Do you still love her a little?"

"Hmm." Qi Yiguo said that it was difficult to describe the spiritual compatibility between her and Yu Ren.She has a good temperament, and she leaves enough space for the other party in her speech and actions. She hides the grinding sand under her feet and leaves the clear sky to her lover.

"What about you?" Cao Yun asked Xiao Qi, "You, there must be someone who can protect you."

I can withstand your one-way escape called struggle, I can withstand your eloquent but stumbling temperament, I can also withstand your fragile dissociation in the face of loneliness, and you can withstand the other side deep in your heart. the truth of a person.Cao Yun said that I have never been jealous in front of you, because your love for me is too violent, and I know that you can't tolerate others at that moment.But now I am inexplicably jealous of that girl, how can she look at you so deeply?

Yiguo, you are a very charming person.Even knowing that you are so weak, I still can't help but fall for the second time.But you obviously couldn't let go, why did you accept my rush?

"I don't want to describe you with such ugly words as 'the head and the mouse'. In fact, I prefer to describe myself as 'taking advantage of the situation'. It is disgraceful." Cao Yun was crying faintly on the other end of the phone, Qi Yi I was so worried that I couldn't sleep all night.

After sleeping all afternoon with the strength of alcohol, she took a shower and changed her clothes, trying to make herself look more refreshed.The room with five days left was left early, and she carried the suitcase back to the hospital's family area. When she knocked on the door and saw Lao He's surprised face, Xiao Qi smiled, "Mom, I'm back."

Old He, who was aging quickly, burst into tears immediately. She pulled her daughter in, crying and laughing, "Why didn't you tell me in advance?"

As soon as Xiao Qi sat down, Lao He started to work in the house, opened the window for her previous room to breathe, and squatted in front of the refrigerator freezer to find meat, "Hey, where are the ribs I bought yesterday?"

This home that once gave her a headache instantly calmed Xiao Qi down with its unchanging atmosphere over the years. She no longer looked around with disgust. The neatly placed slippers, the hallway mats that Lao He brushed once a day... and the various medals she has won since she was a child, are all stored in the filing cabinet in the living room.

She went to the kitchen and pulled Lao He up, "Mom, don't be too busy, let's go out to eat when Dad comes back tonight."

The rare good attitude made Lao He stunned. According to her previous personality, she would say, "How can there be hygiene at home outside?"At this time, she just said "oh", saying that's okay, wait for your father to come back.

The mother and daughter were sitting in the living room, Lao He was bored for a while, and said why don't you watch TV?

Xiao Qi turned on the TV, and Mr. Ren took out snacks and piled them in front of him, "Eat a little to fill your stomach."

Xiao Qi patiently answered Lao He's daily questions today.After talking for half an hour, Old He stood up and looked sideways out of the window, "Look at my brain, I forgot to call your dad, let's go see your grandpa after dinner."

Qi Yiguo found out that she wasn't hiding from Lao He, and her mother was also a little afraid of him.She said that I told my father that he would come back after the meeting at his unit.Mom, sit down, how is your headache?Is the rheumatism better?Washing vegetables or touching cold water directly without gloves?

Lao He said that everything is fine, that he is fine after retirement, and cooks at home, speculates in stocks, dances and dances.The conversation cooled down again, and Lao He obviously restrained her desire to ask questions. She only asked Xiao Qi whether he was still so busy at work?Don't American hospitals treat residents as human beings?

Xiao Qi smiled, yes.This industry is not easy.She and Lao He looked at each other for a while, and the mother and daughter looked away at the same time.In the end, Lao He said that the water was boiling, and I will make you a cup of scented tea. Your face looks yellower than it was during the Chinese New Year.

Qi Yiguo lived at home quietly for five days for the first time since leaving home for college.She accompanied Lao He to the vegetable market, helped her pull the sheets out on the drying rack, went to the hospital to see the old man recuperating, and rode a bicycle around the Baijiang River embankment to see the scenery.When walking side by side with Lao He in the community, an acquaintance greeted him in surprise, "Hey, Guoguo is back?" Qi Yiguo nodded and smiled, and the fighting spirit between him and Lao He disappeared quietly. Looking at others, "Guoguo, you are more and more like your mother."

Regarding Qi Yiguo's request, "I want to stay at home this time when I come back, and I don't really want to go out to eat with your friends and children." Lao He and Lao Qi also agreed, and it was even rarer to reach an agreement, "Yes, the meal is still Eating well at home is boring going out."

The separation caused the family of three to coordinate inexplicably. Lao He didn't bluff at home, but when Lao Qi threw the clothes into the washing machine without drying the tissues in his trousers pocket, he said a few words loudly, "You just don't know what to do." Memory! Why have you been a doctor for so many years? You know that I am tired."

They chatted slowly, although they were talking about the children's jobs, or the family's old friends becoming grandparents.Qi Yiguo turned his face slightly and listened quietly, not as angry as before, "What's none of my business? I won't have grandchildren if you want them."

"Caicai is not easy. She worked as an assistant to the secretary of the street party working committee for a year. I heard from her mother that she might be transferred to a unit below the high-tech zone. The child is not happy with it, saying that she should stay at the grassroots level." Old He Xiao Yu Renshi did not forget to take his daughter with him, "You children are all equally stubborn." Qi Yiguo noticed that there was a hint of surrender in this sentence.

There are no blind dates or friends, because she has been abroad for a few years and can't stay at home for a few days. Lao He's stubbornness seems to have been smoothed out. The night before Xiao Qi left home, he asked her if she had encountered any difficulties?

"Mom has a bad temper, I know you don't like to tell me. If you are short of money, Mom has prepared it here." Lao He handed over his bank card, "I asked, is the salary of residents like you higher than that in China? Wherever you go, don’t treat yourself badly in life.”

Looking at Lao He, Xiao Qi suddenly felt that her erupting active volcano, which had been emitting soot for many years, had actually stopped.Her eyes were not as sharp as trying to pry, nor was she complacent after she succeeded in tyranny. Xiao Qi couldn't speak, but Lao He still smiled shyly, "What's wrong with you?"

nothing.I thought I was Don Quixote, but I am far inferior to him.Xiao Qi said.

"Nervous." Lao He said to go to bed early, and tomorrow I will send you to Shanghai with your father. She hesitated for a while, and then said that they have applied for a visa again, and she doesn't know if it will be possible.

Xiao Qi once strongly resisted them going abroad to see her. At that moment, Xiao Qi felt that she was also an iceberg melting in front of Lao He. She said that she needed my invitation letter and visa information, and I would make it right.

The moment Lao He left the room, Xiao Qi wanted to stop her, but in the end she still bowed her head and cried for a while in the room alone.

In the evening, Xiao Qi said that he wanted to wander around the community, but Lao He didn't say to accompany him, "Come back early." Xiao Qi smiled, "Will you escort me?"

Old He raised his eyes, as if he had exhausted his breath and was let go more than half of it, "No."

Qi Yiguo was strolling in the family compound, her old car was driven by Lao Qi, and the elders took care of the car more than she did, not to mention wiping it clean, and even waxing it by themselves.She smiled, and continued to walk to the gate by the street lamp. Such a convenient and abundant night market smell was not found near her place of residence: the scent of cumin, chili, and oil wafted in the air.Qi Yiguo bought a few skewers to taste.

After taking a bite, Xiao Qi felt that the energy slowly lost in his body came back.

"Is it delicious?"

Xiao Qi turned around and saw Yu Ren with a bag on the side of the road looking at her. She walked over, handed one, and said it was delicious.

"Just got off work?" Xiao Qi asked.

"Well, there are a lot of things to prepare for the evaluation of the creation of spiritual civilization recently." In fact, there are a lot of things on any day.Yu Ren took the skewers and said that the taste of this restaurant was also good, but it turned out that there was a restaurant in the outer street of the village in the city that tasted the best.

"Are you at home these few days?" Yu Ren heard from Yu Xiaomin, and the vice president said that Lao Qi and his wife had changed, and the daughter finally went home for a trip, baby, so she didn't want to come out for dinner.She was also busy, so she gave Lao He some cooked bamboo shoots, a specialty of Yuzhuang, and asked her to make them for Xiao Qi to taste.

"Well, we're all at home." Xiao Qi said that it's different this time, and my mother has changed a lot.Maybe it’s because I’m really afraid that I’ll ignore them when I stay abroad in the future, or maybe it’s because the fragrance is far away and the smell is near, because it’s rare to see me for a few days, so I suppress my temper.

Yu Ren's clear eyes smiled, "Maybe it's a change of mind?"

"Impossible." Xiao Qi quickly concluded.

Yiguo, why is it impossible?I think this is a good thing for you.Yu Ren pondered for a while, "I have to go home, you have a safe journey."

Qi Yiguo noticed that she hadn't said something, so she called Yu Ren, "Can we talk for a while?" She said, why do I feel that I have regressed after going abroad for a few years? I have grown a lot.

She looked at the face of her ex-lover attentively, and turned her eyes away when Yu Ren looked up, "I feel like I'm in a mess and I can't do anything well. Today, I suddenly feel like I have been touched for many years, fighting with my mother, fighting with my studies , working hard to get ahead... now it looks like a joke."

Yu Ren didn't speak, but only listened to her, and when Xiao Qi talked about Cao Yun's "holding up" theory, his expression changed, "She really understands you." Yu Ren said, "She is more selfless than me."

"No, Caicai, I didn't mean to compare." Xiao Qi hurriedly explained.

"I know," Yu Ren sat facing Xiao Qi, "Yiguo, she's doing much more than that. You're too careful, you always like to stay in the most comfortable zone and let others adapt to you. Your foot stepped out of the China, the heart has not crossed the past. She can hold the imperfect you, and I am almost ready." Yu Ren's words are heart-to-heart.

Xiao Qi lowered her head and thought for a while, Yu Ren wanted to leave, she was a little anxious, "But we are all very sad now... I think, the three of us are all having a hard time."

Don't try to make things easier for everyone, Yiguo.You are confident in your intellectual abilities, which is why you have chosen your current career path.But you have never had confidence in this world, or in other words, in the world that looks at you naked.You see the surroundings as full of traps and fire pits, and you always want to find a safe place to pick up or put down.I always thought you had the sense of responsibility and self-confidence, but looking at it now, you can't ask for anything.

Yiguo, I'm sorry that I think you are sometimes the child in the relationship.Too much pursuit of a perfect and harmless vacuum state is the same as making everyone feel better, it is very difficult, too difficult.I understand your difficulty, and it is more difficult than my own powerlessness.At this point, let's not look back.Go ahead and find the best solution for the current situation.Love her well and help her go abroad, I believe she also has this wish.Make yourself stronger and change your parents' willingness a little bit. Look, isn't Auntie a little lax?

You are so happy.Yiguo, Xiaoliu doesn't have a shop at home these days, so besides going to school, she goes to the hospital to take care of Aunt Yuan.Three meals a day, help mother wipe and turn over, and accompany adults in the hospital at night while doing problems.Her life is full of fire pits, but she obviously knows what she should do most.

"You mean I don't have a clear idea? I don't know what I should do?" Qi Yiguo was a little at a loss, and really felt like he was several years younger in front of Yu Ren.

Yu Ren's smile had already told Qi Yiguo the answer, and Yu Ren spread his hands, "If you knew, you wouldn't have been hiding from me for so long."

"Why am I not even as good as a teenager?" Xiao Qi was really puzzled, but he also accepted Yu Ren's judgment.

"She doesn't have a choice, you have more options and more to rely on." Yu Ren's words made Qi Yiguo blush.

"What about you?" Qi Yiguo stared at Yu Ren who saw through her.

"Me? I lack self-knowledge." Yu Ren could see the fire pit, but he couldn't help but jump down confidently.So didn't it just fall on Qi Yiguo?No matter how clearly you think about it, it will not help you to break away. "Greed is inherent in people."

She may not want to be greedy for a while.Whether it is flowing water or falling flowers, spring will come again after it is gone, not in the sky but in the world.