far and near

Yuan Liu finally met Yu Ren in late July, and her sister who came to see her right after returning to Baizhou said Xiao Liu, you will be a junior high school student soon, besides studying, do you have any other interests or specialties?Yuan Liu said that I used to charge phone bills, but now I can wash dishes cleanly and quickly.Seeing Yu Ren's thoughtful expression, Yuan Liu thought it was because she was not good enough to make her unhappy, so she asked cautiously, "Sister, I have read all the books you gave me during the Chinese New Year three times. Is this considered a specialty?"

Yu Ren said it's fine, next time I go to my sister's house, I'll pick some books for you.Would you like to learn something new?This child grows so fast that Yu Ren has to straighten his arms to get on top of her head, "When you were young, your eyes were dark, and you walked by the wall and touched me from your own house, and you also liked to accompany me to write Homework." Today, she is like an old man recalling the past, pouring out the fate between Yuan Liu and herself when she was a child.

Gesticating with his hands, Yu Ren said that you were so little before, and my sister watched you grow to such a height.

"No wonder, sister, you came to be my teacher a long time ago." Yuan Liu had a happy smile on his face, "But why can't I remember you?"

Yu Ren ordered another ice cream for Yuan Liu, "Most people's memory is very vague before the age of two. Eat it and think about it while eating."

Yuan Liu felt that Yu Ren who came home this time was different from the past. It turned out that she was full of people around her. Sister Bai, Huai Fengnian and Sister Doctor would always have someone to accompany her. Now Yu Ren felt lonely. .She dug half of the ice cream into Yu Ren's box, "Sister, I can just learn by myself, it will cost money to go outside."

I really learned that it is nothing compared to the little money spent.Yu Ren said that your mother still gives you five yuan pocket money?

Yuan Liu said that it had been added to ten yuan, and she basically saved it.If it wasn't for some time and Mr. Su Hai bought spicy sticks to eat, I could save more, "I bought Go for my sister." Yuan Liu took out the gift box she had prepared for a long time from her schoolbag. Chess is on my mind.I spent 200 yuan and saved it for five months.

Seeing the child's expectant big eyes, Yu Ren's eyes moved, "Thank you Xiaoliu." After taking it apart, she said that her sister likes it very much, and she will teach you how to play chess too.

"Is it you who are good, or is the doctor's sister good at chess?" Yuan Liu was curious about where the doctor went, she smiled cutely, and had to chat with Su Hai in class.

Yu Ren said she was amazing.But she stopped playing chess, she just put away the chessboard and changed places.Yuan Liu didn't quite understand this, so Yu Ren let out a sigh of relief, "Where is the chess you've been playing all the time?"

For some reason, Yuan Liu was a little worried about Yu Ren like this. She always seemed to hesitate for a moment when she spoke, as if there was a heavy weight in her heart.After eating fast food, she and Yu Ren walked to the park where they played since they were young. Yuan Liu sat on the swing with both feet on the ground, and Yu Ren sat on the other side, stepping on the ground and swinging lightly.

"Sister, what do you like?" Yuan Liu asked suddenly.

Yu Ren raised his head, "When I was young, I loved reading graphic novels. When I grew up, I loved reading classic novels, science fiction and social science books. Oh, I also like to accompany my grandparents to tea gardens." Yu Ren said that she In fact, I don't have much talent, I just have a stuffy temper that loves to read since I was a child.

Yuan Liu also swung on the swing, "I want to learn how to make money." The little girl's ponytail swayed with the swing, "This way my mother won't have to work so hard, and I can also take my sister and Xiao Hai, let's go out to play."

Have you never envied your classmates who can play the violin or dance the ballet?Yu Ren asked.

Yuan Liu said that those were very expensive, and she didn't have time to practice, "Sister, I know my biological parents are in Yuzhuang, and they gave me to my mother." The little girl expressed her meaning in the look she gave Yu Ren A: She can't ask for much.

Yu Ren suddenly discovered that even a small child has endless things to hide.Yuan Liu looked cheerful, but in fact, he kept looking carefully at his surroundings.The little girl and Yu Ren just had a heart-to-heart relationship, "Sister, I'm afraid that Liu Maosong will come to trouble my mother again. They are divorced, but Liu Maosong came to the store once, this time he didn't dare to smash it, but borrowed money, saying that he has no money to take medicine when he is sick.”

Yuan Huifang didn't give it, and the people in the village in the city said that it was for the sake of money.Anyway, it's too cold-hearted for a couple to be together.

"What's wrong with him?" Yu Ren asked.

"It's a gastric ulcer." Yuan Liu still remembers the way Liu Maosong pointed at their mother and daughter and scolded them before he left, "If you don't let me have a better life, you just wait." Children under the shadow of fighting for many years are still afraid.

"Before I go to bed at night, I will carefully check the doors and windows upstairs and downstairs, and I will block the table next to the store door." Yuan Liu bit her lip, "Sister, why don't they want me?" She stared at the ground, stepped on it again, "Is it because you want to save Yu Tianlei, a registered student?"

Many nights, Yuan Liu recalled that when she was a child, she only remembered the steep stairs in her adoptive mother's house, and Liu Maosong's beating and scolding. Why couldn't she remember the details from her biological parents?Except for a warm embrace, she would coax herself to sleep at night, "San'er, be good." That person was not her biological mother, Hu Muzhi.

Yu Ren said it was Yu Juan, your eldest sister.She is also tall and has good academic performance. She runs as fast as a small train on the playground.She will take you after school and at night, your eyes are a bit like hers, vigorous and clever.Yu Ren and Yuan Liu had never mentioned Yu Juan before, and this girl was never mentioned at her parents' house, as if she had never been in this world.

When a person starts to wonder about his own life experience, it is also when the inner embryo begins to grow.Next time I go to Yuzhuang, my sister will take you to see your eldest sister, okay?Yu Ren found Yuan Liu's eyes were full of tears, walked over and hugged her, "Don't force some feelings." Yu Ren's sister's words may sound a bit difficult to understand, but Xiao Liu, a person who stands alone in the world, is not to pursue those original things. Something that doesn't belong to you.You have your mother, you have your sister, and Xiao Suhai, right?

When Yu Ren said this, his heart was pounding: Is the relationship between her and Xiao Qi considered forced?

After returning home, she tidied up the bookcase, put away the set of Maugham that Uosheng had given her before, and then selected the ones suitable for Yuan Liu from the rest of the books.Yu Xiaomin knocked on the door of her room and said that Zhu Chaoyang had also returned to China for two weeks. His father always said that the children of the family hadn't seen each other for several years. How about we make an appointment for dinner tonight?Your old classmate Zuo Heming is also back.

Yu Ren wiped the back of the book, "Mom, I won't go, I have nothing to say to them."

Yu Xiaomin lowered her face, "Why are you so stupid as a college student? When you were young, you were quite sophisticated, why did you become so autistic when you grew up?"

"You just said that this kind of sophistication is your own, so I understand, right?" Yu Ren looked back at his mother and smiled, and read the helpless answer from Yu Xiaomin's face, "Okay, then I'll go."

"Oh, don't be too honest when people ask you what you want to do. After all, it's not time for you to apply for a transfer." Yu Xiaomin reminded her.

"I know." Yu Ren said that people's sophistication is just another word, exchange information in the circle and spread it irresponsibly. I would say that I am not sure yet.Seeing that Yu Xiaomin hadn't moved, she turned to look at her mother, "Huh? Is there anything else? Oh, is that my netizen?"

Yu Xiaomin frowned, "Caicai, I found you..." Yu Xiaomin wanted to say the word "skinless and shameless", but she restrained herself, "I disagree, 1 people disagree."

Yu Ren said that I understand your attitude. My attitude is that I like girls by nature.

Sure enough, Yu Xiaomin was so angry that she turned around and left, Yu Ren paused her hands that wiped the ashes—is it not only with Yiguo, but the relationship that is not tolerated by the world is all forced?

She sat on the floor and rested for a while, remembering that there were still books in her schoolbag, she opened the bag and started to tidy up again.The side pocket of the schoolbag was bulging, and she didn't remember what she put in it, but when she opened it, she saw a crimped envelope, and she knew it was from Usagi just by looking at the ugly characters.

Yu Ren opened the envelope and found that inside was the emerald water droplet that had been with her for several years. She had replaced it with a bright red string and put it on again. Two words, Uosheng's letter is also among them.

This guy came here secretly.Yu Ren smiled and opened the letter paper, which was very thin, only half a page.Uosheng said that she kept the drop of water by her side for several years, and always wanted to give it to Yu Ren.I hope you will think of me when you see it, and find me when you have something to do.

She played with jadeite for a while, and sent a message to Uosheng: One thing with two uses, very economical.

Uogi quickly returned a smiley expression, and attached the text: The mountains and rivers meet each other, what a fate.

Yu Ren's nose was stuffed up, but she finally put back the emerald water droplet. She stroked this old thing that contained new ideas, and then hid it in her collar.

In fact, there were more than three families having dinner at night, as well as Secretary Qi, Lao He and his wife, plus a female distinguished guest.Yu Xiaomin said that she didn't expect this person to come, and then whispered something in Yu Ren's ear, "This is Lao Zuo's high school classmate, from the Provincial Disciplinary Committee, and may be transferred to Baizhou."

Yu Ren had an idea in his mind, and only then did he realize the painstaking efforts Yu Xiaomin had made him do.

In private gatherings of friends, no one talks about business affairs, and children are naturally the focus.Old He, who had the most promising child, had the worst expression on her face. She listened to people praising Qi Yiguo, but she had to keep answering, which city and hospital is her daughter in?When can I practice medicine independently?What is the salary?When are you going home?

Lao He played a sloppy eye: On the west coast, I don’t understand the hospital that her mentor helped to contact, and the rest depends on her own luck.As for the question of when to go home, Lao He's eyes dimmed, and Lao Qi answered, "I told her that her career is the most important thing, and coming back is too troublesome. When I retire, we old couple will go to see her."

Yu Ren's heart skipped a beat when she heard these words. She glanced at Lao He and found that he was also observing her.Yu Ren naturally moved her eyes, and happened to meet the person with the highest position in the meeting. She nodded with a smile. The aunt was obviously more interested in Yu Ren, and asked her how old she was and what major she was studying.

Hearing that Yu Ren was the city's top scorer in the college entrance examination, Auntie looked at Yu Xiaomin with admiration, "Dean Yu is amazing."

During the dinner, the other two peers Zuo Heming and Zhu Chaoyang became more mature in appearance, but their personalities did not change much. Zuo Heming still looked like a deep scholar, not talking too much to grab the limelight.Zhu Chaoyang watched Yu Ren many times, and was spotted by others. His father Lao Zhu hurriedly matched him up, "Chaoyang, give your old leader Yu Ren a toast."

Yu Ren said that uncle, you are too serious. If you want to talk about the old leader, Zuo Heming is the squad leader of Chaoyang and me in Yucai. We should drink this cup with Zuo squad leader.With one sentence, Zuo Heming, who was unknown in the crowd, was lifted out. Zuo Heming's parents were very happy, and Yu Xiaomin was also relieved. Although her orientation is still stubborn, her daughter's basic skills of understanding the world are still there.

At the end of the meal, the elders asked a few young people if they hadn't gotten together for a long time, would they like to go out for a cup of coffee?Yu Ren and the others bid farewell to everyone one by one, and finally left early.Walking to the hotel lobby, Zhu Chaoyang caught up with Yu Ren, "Yu Ren, are you interested in having a drink?"

Zuo Heming followed behind him unhurriedly, watching the two people's decisions vigilantly.

Yu Ren smiled, "I actually made an appointment to meet someone, so I'll drink coffee another day." For Zhu Chaoyang, who was splashed with instant noodle soup by himself, Yu Ren actually didn't want to talk to him.Zhu Chaoyang mentioned it himself, "The whole grade knew about the fact that you threw me in the face back then."

"Yeah," Yu Ren kept smiling and took a step back, "I don't know if I still disgust you?"

That little dispute actually started because Zhu Chaoyang said that Yu Ren and Bai Maosheng were "disgusting", so Yu Ren simply asked him.Zhu Chaoyang scratched his head, "Oh, I'm...too young. In fact, it's normal between girls. I only found out that it's true love when I was in Canada. You were nothing at all back then."

Yu Ren saw Zuo Heming's eyes light up, and she said, "Really? I met Bai Maosheng a few days ago and told her that you also owe her a bowl of noodles."

Zhu Chaoyang was provoked a few times, "Hey Yu Ren, with your mouth, when I was in middle school, I was not afraid of anyone but you." He said, let's make an appointment another day, and he will stay in China a period of time.Zuo Heming only followed at this time, and agreed.

A small-scale risk of coming out of the closet was quietly resolved by Yu Ren. She walked on the street for a while, but found that the depression in her heart was accumulating more and more.Before she even started working, she had to patch up her personal image like a pudding.She began to understand Qi Yiguo's theory of what is in the closet. It's not that they don't want to express themselves and live a happy life freely, but that invisible thick cloud is always piled above their heads, and they don't know when the thunder will strike.

Lao He's phone rang. Yu Ren stood by the side of the road, and Lao He hid in the hotel lobby and asked, "Caicai, can you tell the truth to Auntie? Your sister Guoguo... is her lover you?" "

When Yu Ren didn't speak, Lao He became more and more anxious, "I found the card she hid in the drawer in her car. It should be that she received flowers. The day I sent the flowers was Valentine's Day, and the signature was 'Caicai'."

Yu Ren's heart was fiercely fighting left and right, and an irrational voice kept shouting: I admit it!Mad they got it.This may not necessarily lead to a way out.Let the group of zombies all over the world know that she and Yiguo are lovers. She flew over to find Yiguo after graduating from university.In this way, they can get along day and night, and live their own little life with Yiguo.

Another voice reminded her: Yu Ren, you see your position clearly, and you have to give a precise answer.Everything about you may be preserved by this answer, or it may be destroyed.

After a while, Lao He finished his chatter, leaving only "Hello?"

"Auntie," Yu Ren said, feeling that Lao He had already held his breath, "I know a thing or two about Miss Qi, I wrote that card too, and we send flowers to each other every year and festival. But, We are not what you think. I think you should ask Miss Qi."

Old Hexiang breathed a sigh of relief, "Caicai... Auntie didn't mean that, she just guessed randomly..." Yu Ren hung up the phone without listening to her.She sat weakly under the bus platform, her heart was so heavy that she was about to suffocate.

Truth and wisdom, Yu Ren, hid twice in one night. She hugged her head and didn't want to cry. The girl finally raised her head and yelled at the sky twice, "Ah—ah——"

The fucking world, the fucking self.