Chase the train

Song Shi has been abandoned all her life since she was born. She has tried to persuade her to stay, but the consequences have never been satisfactory. In her 19 years of life, no one has ever stayed for her, let alone rushed to her side.At this moment, apart from discomfort, it was more of an uncontrollable sadness. It was the first time in so many years that she felt a certain emotion so clearly.There seemed to be a big hole in her body suddenly, and she couldn't fill it no matter what, even for a moment, she wanted to rub this person into her body like this, wondering if it would be better?

There was a torrential rain outside the door, and the stench of the wet soil wafted in, which woke her up a little.

She looked down and saw the blue veins on her arms, and gradually relaxed her body.

"Let go."

Lin Yousheng didn't seem to have completely escaped from the shadow of the nightmare, and he didn't let go of his strength.

"Do you want me to throw you out?"

"Will you?" Lin Yousheng asked.

"you try?"

Lin Yousheng raised his head and looked at her with a naughty smile in his eyes, "Sister is so fierce~"

Song Shi took off her hand and threw it aside.

Lin Yousheng was not angry either, but just asked, "Where have you been? I have been waiting for you for a long time."

"leave me alone."

"Just ask. It's so cold, I think I might catch a cold."

Seeing her shivering, Song Shi said, "Put on your clothes."

Lin Yousheng had her coat on her lap.

It was raining heavily, and the weather forecast said it would continue until eight o'clock in the evening.

They sat side by side behind the wooden table, Lin Yousheng immersed himself in writing papers behind the pile of books, wearing Song Shi's coat, Song Shi was carving aside, holding the carving knife with his slender fingers, with a kind of sharp beauty.

Song Shi felt her gaze, and when he turned his head, he caught the little girl not doing her homework well and staring at her hand.

"What are you looking at?"

"Song Shi, you are really beautiful."

Song Shi paused, and heard her say again: "It seems that there is no part of the body that is not perfect, face, neck, hands... how did you get born?"

She could feel Lin Yousheng's eyes moving with the words in her mouth, picked up a book and threw it on her outstretched hand, "Are all the students now so profligate?"

Lin Yousheng groaned in pain, "Appreciating beauty is human instinct, besides, I can't praise you?"

The carving knife landed on the table with a soft sound, Song Jilue propped himself up, and with a turn, he was trapped between the back of the chair and the table. She grabbed Lin Yousheng's hand that had just been beaten, and fixed her eyes on him.

The people below were visibly nervous, and there was a different vigilance between their brows and eyes, "What are you doing?"

"Why?" Song Shi increased his strength with his right hand and felt the struggle in his palm, but he didn't let go. "Has anyone told you that you are also beautiful?"

She saw with her own eyes that panic gradually appeared on Lin Yousheng's face, and the mask covering the outside was cracked layer by layer, revealing the inside full of spikes.

"Song Shi, let me go." There was already a tremor in that voice.

"Didn't you say it looks good? Then look at it more." Song Shi said, and the distance between the two shortened again.

"Song Shi!"

Song Shi finally let go of his hand, sat back and calmly ended the farce with one sentence: "Look, I'm not a good person."

Lin Yousheng stared at her, his eyes gradually became wet, "Is it interesting!"

Song Shi watched the man get up and rush into the rain, his mind went blank for a moment.

"Lin Yousheng!"

When Lin Yousheng ran into the rain, it seemed that this was the first time Song Shi called her name.

Really boring.

Song Shi waited until the rain stopped before going back.The hood covered his face, and only a section of white hair was exposed. His feet stepped on puddles, letting the mud splash on his trouser legs.

When she got to the edge of the grass, she squatted down. After a while, the kitten came out from under the iron sheet not far away, and swayed over slowly. Although she didn't understand why she came again after noon, she still happily rubbed against it. Rubbed her instep.

Song Shi put his fingertips on its head: "Do you want to go home with me?"

"Even if I can't be responsible for you."

"Meow~"

The night wind made people shiver, she got up, wrapped her coat, and walked back.

When passing by the next door, she saw the window with the curtains tightly closed. She walked to her door, inserted the key into the lock, and the door opened with a click, revealing the dark interior.She waited for a long time, but did not wait for any movement from the side.

She got out of bed on the third train at night and turned on the light.Sit down at the table, but don't want to move.

Why did Lin Yousheng react so strongly?Is she doing something wrong?Or... is she homophobic?But I am not gay, what happened today can only be regarded as a joke at best... I guess.

"Fuck." She finally realized what she was doing, shook her head irritably, picked up her coat and walked out.

On the rooftop, the string of small lights was half-stretched, and the garlic seedlings planted by Old Zhao underneath were lush and lush. She leaned on the railing, pulling one stubble after another, staring at the lights in the south of the Yangtze River, in a daze.

The wine jug was empty, but she didn't throw it downstairs to disturb the sleeping people like before.It's only been over a month, and some changes happened quietly without her knowing.

When she was very young, her grandma told her that no matter how crazy or cold-hearted a person is in his life, there will always be times when he will become hesitant and unable to avoid it.

She had never thought that she could meet such an opportunity before. She had lived a terrible life. She could see the beginning and the end clearly. She was born in a hurry and died in a hurry. Her life can only last more than 20 years. Opportunity, how dare to approach that possibility?

"Boom—"

Behind him, the train roared and went far away, leaving only a lingering sound in the valley, but when the night wind blew, that faint sense of existence quickly dissipated.

Song Shi stayed for a while, and when she was about to go downstairs, she found that Lao Zhao's box of garlic sprouts was completely bald. She rubbed her nose in embarrassment, and smelled a refreshing smell, which made her scalp numb and strode forward. Go to the next bathroom.

The heat was steaming, she washed off the foam on her body, and when she reached for the towel, she swept a blurred mirror and suddenly drew a smiling face.She was dazed for a moment, and when she was putting on her clothes, she unconsciously raised the corners of her mouth.

It was two o'clock in the middle of the night when she went downstairs, but the light in Lin Yousheng's room was on, and there was a soft sound of pouring water and rummaging through things.

This afternoon, Lin Yousheng said that he might catch a cold... and then he got caught in the rain.

She knocked on the door, those voices stopped suddenly, and a vigilant voice came: "Who?"

"I."

The door opened quickly, and Lin Yousheng's face was flushed abnormally.Song Shi wanted to test her body temperature, raised his hand halfway and put it down again, "Fever?"

Lin Yousheng turned his face away, "...um."

"Drinking medicine?"

"No, I didn't buy it."

The two of them didn't speak any more, they just remained in a stalemate until a gust of wind blew, Song Shi took a step back and said, "Go in."

When she turned around, Lin Yousheng stopped her: "Song Shi."

"Ok?"

"I don't like women."

Song Yi tightened his hands, "Same."

The door closed behind him, Song Shi breathed a sigh of relief, and walked downstairs.

The nearest clinic is 10 minutes away, and her footsteps became more and more urgent, and finally she ran directly. The wind whistled past her ears, and she felt like she was flying.

The clinic at the intersection was run by an old man for many years, and his home was in the yard behind the clinic. Without even thinking about it, Song Shi climbed up the low wall, squatted on the top of the wall, and shouted: "Is there anyone, buy medicine! "

Due to his inherent sensitivity as a doctor, Dr. Zhou woke up immediately when he heard the voice, opened the door with his coat on, and looked around only to see Song Shi on the wall. He was startled, "Song Shi?"

Song Shi just jumped off the wall, took off his hat and walked in front of him, "Buy some antipyretics, hurry up."

The old doctor sized her up and said calmly, "Do you have a fever? Put a thermometer first..."

Song Shi impatiently walked towards the front hall, "It's not me. Don't talk nonsense."

"It's not you? Who are you buying it for?" It is well known that there is only one person in Song Shi's family. Besides, with her temperament, how could she come out at night to buy medicine for others?

"……Neighbor."

When Lin Yousheng ran home with the medicine, the light in Lin Yousheng's room was still on. She was about to knock on the door, but found that the door was unlocked, so she opened it and walked in.

Inadvertently observing the room, he only saw Lin Yousheng who was wrapped in the quilt and was burning red.The person who is usually coquettish and playful has lost his vitality, nestling on the bed like a tired cat.

She took the cup on the bedside table, went to change for a cup of hot water, sat on the side of the bed, "Get up and drink the medicine."

There was no movement.

"Lin Yousheng?"

Song Shi reached out to touch her forehead, it was hot.

She frowned: "Lin Yousheng, get up and drink your medicine."

The person on the bed finally moved, and he muttered a little, not knowing what he was talking about.Song Shi lost his patience, fished her out of the quilt, supported her back with one hand, held the cup in the other, and fed her in small mouthfuls.

She had never done such meticulous work to anyone in her life, and after taking half a cup of antipyretic medicine, a layer of sweat broke out on her body.Putting the person back lightly, still not daring to relax, he probed his forehead after a while, until after five o'clock in the morning, when he felt that the heat had almost subsided, he couldn't help falling asleep.

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