Chase the train

It was after five o'clock in the afternoon when the two of them woke up. They were so sleepy during the day that they were exhausted. Lin Yousheng hugged Song Shi's waist, not wanting to move.

"Aren't you hungry?" Song Shi pinched her face and asked.

"Fortunately, I just don't remember." Lin Yousheng blinked, trying to get closer, but Song Shi pressed his forehead.

"Go to the supermarket nearby."

Lin Yousheng pouted, and reluctantly got up.

Not only did this completely unfamiliar city not make them feel uneasy, but it made them feel a great deal of freedom.

Lin Yousheng went to buy ice cream, Song Shi stood by the side of the road waiting for her, with his back to the shop.The surface of the sea, which is close in front of you, reveals an extremely warm color under the evening sky. It is boundless, inclusive, and broad. Watching it quietly makes people feel a sense of peace.

The sea breeze blows, and the worry turns into a kite, flying farther and farther in the wind.

After Lin Yousheng paid the money, he saw the back not far away.Song Shi was wearing a loose T-shirt, and he didn't feel it when he was in the room, but now that the wind was blowing and the clothes were sticking to his body, Lin Yousheng realized that his figure seemed to be a little thinner.

She held up the ice cream and jumped in front of Song Shi, "It's very sweet."

Song Shi took a cooperative bite, and was kissed by someone in the next second.

The streets were crowded with people, and they occupied a corner, kissing quietly until the ice cream melted in the heat of summer, and the sweet juice dripped down their fingertips.

"Why am I still so lonely even though I'm here?"

Song Shi couldn't answer, but just raised his hand to touch her forehead, "Let's go."

Compared to the outside, there are no people in the supermarket, only some local residents are shopping and speaking dialects they don't understand.

Lin Yousheng held Song Shi's hand generously, "I like this. In a place where no one knows, no one will feel strange about what you do, and no one will discipline you if you go too far. It's great."

"You're quite rebellious."

"That's it." Lin Yousheng put a box of fruit into the shopping cart, "Can you cook?"

"Yeah." She paused, and then added: "It shouldn't poison you to death." She is actually not very good at cooking, her grandma taught her before, but she really doesn't have any talent, Ting Potian just looks like she can eat .

"It's okay, I will, and the workmanship is good."

Song Shi glanced at her, doubting her statement.At first glance, Lin Yousheng looked like a young lady who didn't touch her fingers, she didn't look like she could cook at all.

They discussed shopping all the way, looked at the prices of vegetables, and obviously knew nothing about the market, but they could discuss for a long time. The aunt passing by gave them a strange look, as if seeing two mentally retarded.Song Shi looked helplessly at Lin Yousheng, who laughed so hard that his stomach ached and fell into her arms.

"Scrambled eggs with tomatoes, braised pork ribs, fried vegetables, do you want some seafood? Shrimp, crab? I'm not very good at this..."

"Okay, I can't eat that much."

"Okay. But you have to eat more, you're already skinny like this."

"……Um."

The two of them wandered back to the B&B with their shopping bags in hand. At this time, barbecue stalls had already been set up by the beach, and the lights were lit up. It was very lively, "Let's go tomorrow night, it looks so lively."

"it is good."

The sea breeze was salty, and the smile of his sweetheart was bright. At that moment, Song Shi really hoped that time could just stop like this.

If you don't go any further, nothing will happen. If you don't think about anything, you can have everything.

After entering the door, Lin Yousheng was ready to flex his muscles, and rushed into the kitchen, looking quite decent.

Song Shi leaned against the kitchen counter, watching her busy, the corners of his mouth slightly raised.

"Why don't you do it? You can't be lazy."

Song Shi stood up straight, looked at her and asked, "What am I doing?"

As soon as her eyes met, Lin Yousheng felt hot-headed. With water on her hands, she supported Song Shi's shoulder with her wrist, and kissed the corner of her mouth, "Why don't you go out? I'm getting in the way here."

Song Shi clasped her waist, "What's wrong with me?"

"Thinking and judging. Indulging in beauty is a major obstacle to human progress."

"Let me wash the vegetables." Song Shi let go of his hand and picked up a vegetable, "Don't you want to cook together?"

Lin Yousheng bumped her shoulder, "Why do you seem to have completed the target? It's not just this time."

Song Shi bumped back, and the two started fighting in the kitchen.

It was extremely difficult to make a meal, but fortunately, after a long time of tossing, the result was not bad, and the presentation of several dishes was very good.

"Let me tell you, I'm not bad at cooking."

Song Shi patted her on the head, "Well, that's great."

They moved the table to the window, watched the lively crowd on the beach, chatted while eating.

"Do you know why I know how to cook?" Lin Yousheng asked.

"why?"

"Because my mother doesn't know how, she is a useless beauty, she knows nothing but dressing herself up, so I have to know everything."

This was the first time Song Shi heard Lin Yousheng mention her family. She listened quietly without interrupting.

"She gave birth to me at the age of 17. She ruined her good youth by herself. She ran around with a child and was disliked by all kinds of people. She has no life experience and can only depend on others. In her life, except for men It's still a man, without a man, you can't live." When Lin Yousheng talked about this, his expression was calm, as if he was talking about someone else's business.

She propped her head up, "To be honest, I don't even know how I grew up. The heavens are so wise that I didn't die young. It's not easy to grow up to this point, so even if I'm exiled to this place, I don't want to give up."

Song Shi saw the enthusiasm and ambition in her eyes, and she asked, "Will you go back?"

Lin Yousheng shook his head.

It was already late after dinner, and they cooperated with each other to wash the dishes, and the gentle light shone in the small world, giving it an indescribable warmth and intimacy.

After tidying up, they nestled on the sofa, Lin Yousheng memorized words with his mobile phone, Song Shi doodled and drew with his notebook.

The cell phone next to him rang suddenly, and Lin Yousheng was startled. After a while, he realized that Song Shi's cell phone was ringing.And Song Shi had already got up with his mobile phone. At that moment, he didn't know why his heart was beating a few times. She and Song Shi had known each other for so long, and she had never seen anyone in contact with her on the phone.

Song Shi didn't stay for too long, and his expression didn't change when he came back.

"What's matter?"

"Xie Qingqiao, tell me about taking orders."

"……Oh."

The sea breeze in the middle of the night is less gentle and more chilly.Song Shi took off his shoes and walked on the beach step by step.The waves wet the trouser legs and smoothed out the footprints behind her. She walked forward, but she couldn't see where she came from.

That call was from Dr. Lin, reminding her to go to the hospital to get the medicine and urging her to be hospitalized.But before she came, she had already flushed all the medicines in the drawer down the toilet, one by one, as if to poison the life of the previous ten years to death.

She has been unable to support more drugs, mentally and physically.It seems that this flesh body has never merged with her mind, and the two are entangled and tormented by each other, never stopping.

Everyone thinks that her depravity is due to experiencing too many partings, but it is not, what is more profound and far-reaching than those pains is that all enthusiasm and expectations have been exhausted, and she no longer believes in the false so-called hope , let alone put all his eggs in one basket to give trust to the fiery love of young people.

It has been so difficult for more than ten years, how much courage does it take to walk into the future where there is nowhere to go?

She doesn't have that kind of courage.

She longed for 17-year-old Lin Yousheng, and she wanted to accompany her there.

But it was really hard.

The constant loneliness, the inescapable emptiness, the inevitable pathological reaction...

The waves beat against the calf, leaving a cold and sticky feeling to the touch...

"Song Shi, do you know? The sun will rise from that place soon."

Song Shi's whole body froze.

The world is quiet, the sound of the waves and the wind are far away, only the rustling sound of the feet stepping on the sand getting closer is left.

A pair of hands hugged her waist from behind, and her fiery body pressed against her.

She felt the man tremble and heard the whimper in her chest.

"The sun will rise soon, the sea will be illuminated, and the golden light will rise and fall with the waves, and everyone will be amazed..."

"Song Shi, don't you want to take a look?"

Song Shi lowered his head, his tears dripped into the sea, but he couldn't find him.

They hug each other in the sea in the middle of the night, wishing to embed each other into their bodies, because they don't know how to possess each other, and how to spread out their own hearts... So much love and desire of young people, in the At this moment, he was trapped in a cage called the other party.

Lin Yousheng held her face, his elbows were submerged in the sea water that kept beating over. "You asked me if I would go back, I said no, because I have nowhere to go, no one is waiting for me behind me, no one cares about my future except myself...but I still have to go forward, just because there is no The reason to stop..."

Their foreheads touched, and Lin Yousheng kissed her, "If I go backwards with you, will you believe me?"

"what?"

"Believe that I love you, and that I can give you a future that you will enjoy."

Song Shi didn't answer, Lin Yousheng pushed her back. In an instant, the sea water covered her shoulders, and she lost her focus, and she was almost unsteady.

Song Shi grabbed her arm and shouted: "You are crazy!"

Lin Yousheng just looked at her, his eyes were already red, flirtatious and crazy under the moonlight.

Soon the situation was no longer deadlocked, Song Shi dragged her to the shore, and the two staggered and collapsed on the beach.

Lin Yousheng closed his eyes, gropingly grabbed Song Shi's hand, leaned over and fell into her arms.

Song Shi lowered his head, looked at the person in his arms, and felt that his heart could not contain so many emotions, "Aren't you cherishing your life? Aren't you selfish and arrogant? Aren't you doing whatever you can to achieve your goals?"

"Will you let me die?" Lin Yousheng opened his eyes and looked at her, "In order to get you, I would not hesitate to let you live with me with pain, isn't that considered selfish?"

"Lin Yousheng..."

"I'm just so selfish and unscrupulous. I just don't want you to die, I just want you to live."

They waited for the sunrise on the beach, Lin Yousheng turned to share the joy with Song Shi, but found that the person leaning on her shoulder had not woken up.

Song Shi had a fever and his whole body was hot.

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Sorry, it's still a knife...