After losing his memory, he was chased by his green tea ex-boyfriend

Every autumn rain is like the approaching footsteps of winter, bringing the chill that stretches into the bones.

Mu Shaoai doesn't like rainy days.

Probably because of the impact of the car accident, the low air pressure in the rain always made him feel out of breath, and the chill penetrating into the bones also made him feel uncomfortable in the joints.

But at this time, he was completely embraced by Qi Fengyu, and the body temperature belonging to another person drove away the moisture brought by the rainwater lingering around him, and it was warm from head to toe, like the feeling of sunbathing.

He likes to bask in the sun.

The arm around his shoulder was too strong, and Mu Shaoai's ribs were squeezed against Qi Fengyu's chest, which hurt a little, but the trembling breath spouting on the side of his neck made him unwilling to push Qi Fengyu away at all.

He rubbed his forehead against Qi Fengyu's ears, crossed his hands behind Qi Fengyu's armpit and behind his waist, leaning against him and asked in a low voice: "Do you want to continue listening?"

"Listen." Qi Fengyu said firmly, but his voice was a little choked up.

Mu Shaoai raised his eyebrows in surprise, but his mood, which was dull because of talking about the past, gradually eased up.

He seemed to be soaking in a hot spring, and even his spirit was indescribably lazy and relaxed, and the resistance and strength in his heart gradually disappeared with the warmth.

He let himself be soft in Qi Fengyu's arms, as if he understood why he couldn't speak when facing the doctor.

The doctor will never empathize with him like Qi Fengyu, sad for his sorrow, ache for his pain, rejoice for him, and shed tears for him.

He seemed to be holding on to something heavily in his heart, and as he spoke quietly, the rope that had been tightly holding him was gradually loosened.

"I have a very good relationship with Yu Wanwan. I can't accept the fact that she died. In addition, I hit my head in a car accident. At that time, my mental state was not very good. My parents saw that I was in so much pain every day, thinking that maybe Leaving here will make it easier for me to accept this, so I will be sent to study abroad."

At that time, Mu Yan and Li Qin wanted to send him to study abroad out of good intentions. With the mentality of compensation, they spent a lot of money to send their younger son to the school where their elder son had studied. Make up for the lack of fairness for 18 years.

However, for Mu Shaoai, being sent away by his parents gave him the final spiritual blow.

In a completely strange environment and people, Mu Shaoai couldn't open his mouth to tell his parents his thoughts distorted by fear and anxiety - he kind of hated them.

He hates them for never being willing to walk into his heart, always arrogant and aloof to decide his future, his life.

Even with the pain in China, he still wanted to stay in Shengjing.

He felt as if he was waiting for something. It was the hopeless waiting that made him more and more abnormal, but he didn't know what he was waiting for.

Yu Wanwan's existence filled the missing gap in his memory, but he was still anxious and uneasy, until Yu Wanwan's death became the last straw that broke the camel's back.

Mu Yan and Li Qin semi-forcibly sent Mu Shaoai to study. They thought that changing to a brand new environment would make Mu Shaoai gradually recover from the shadow of the car accident and Yu Wanwan's death.

At first glance, Mu Shaoai seemed to have walked out.

Every time Mu Shaoai wants to video-video with his mother, he will prepare himself for a long time in advance, and use his last strength to pretend that he is still a normal person, just to make Li Qin feel at ease.

Then hung up the phone, and he let himself fall into the abyss.

When he first arrived abroad, Mu Shaoai's life was completely out of control.

In his perception, time does not pass by second by second. Sometimes he does not know what happened, or nothing happened. Four or five hours have passed, and sometimes time seems to be suspended. He opened his eyes , until the eyelids were dry and painful, but he couldn't wait for the end of the day, sometimes it was reversed, he thought he had done something, and when he opened his eyes, everything went back to the beginning.

He accepted Yu Wanwan's death, but still felt that he had lost something forever.

Something he was unwilling to lose no matter what, something he had seen as hope...

However, for drowning people, struggling to survive is instinct.

Mu Shaoai endured it in such a muddled way, and unexpectedly he survived it day by day.

But part of his reason seems to be always awake, and he clearly knows what he has lost.

At that time, he felt that he might lose the ability to love forever.

After returning to the country, he subconsciously looked for a shadow of a person in each of his lovers, but when they really approached him, he would feel depressed and disgusted from the bottom of his heart.

The throbbing forehead and flashbacks made him want to push away everyone who was close to him.

Until Qi Fengyu appeared at that banquet.

It was Qi Fengyu who pulled him out of the lake, allowing him to breathe again, regaining the ability to love and the courage to love.

"I used to think that Wanwan would be a hurdle that I would never be able to overcome in my life." Mu Shaoai rubbed the tip of his nose against Qi Fengyu's neck.

Because Yu Wanwan is like another him.

Because of Yu Wanwan, he regained the courage to face life, learned to imitate her posture, faced the injustice that he could never let go of, and then learned to let go.

But she died.

Before she could touch the future she worked so hard for, her dream was shattered.

Fate has its consistent cruelty.

For example, Yu Wanwan was diagnosed with a terminal illness just after entering university, and could only watch herself go to death. It seemed that he had once obtained hope for the future, but was crushed in that car accident.

Even though he was still held in Qi Fengyu's arms, Mu Shaoai could still feel the pain like a gangrene and the unbearable sadness when thinking of the feeling at that time.

Maybe he was too immersed in the memories of the past, that kind of sadness covered his soft facial features with a sense of distance, which not only made Qi Fengyu feel distressed, but also made him extremely uneasy.

Along with it came an irrepressible jealousy.

He knew about Yu Wanwan, but he never thought that she was so important to Mu Shaoai.

He always thought that he was the only one who could make the little fox's eyes shine brightly.

"But..." Qi Fengyu's voice was hoarse and hoarse than expected, but his gaze was fixed on Mu Shaoai's body like a nail, and he would spare no effort to break the past that he could not step on, "...she is dead, Isn't it?"

Mu Shaoai's whole body trembled, he was abruptly pulled out from the memories covered by a soft light filter, feeling a sense of loss.

yes, she died...

Mu Shaoai raised his head to look at Qi Fengyu, his face, which was always calm to the point of being fake, showed a kind of rigidity that he had never seen before, as if the owner of the body had exhausted all his strength to successfully keep them in place, No shifting occurs.

Qi Fengyu still wore the mask that protected him behind, but it was no longer indestructible.

He is shaking.

Mu Shaoai thought of the rising temperature in the air, the passing gazes, the alcohol and tenderness, the care and the warmth of palms...

The scenes after the acquaintance flashed before his eyes, and he realized in a trance that it seemed that he hadn't been immersed in the past memories for a long time, and he didn't feel a splitting headache because of the lack of feeling.

And all these changes were brought about by Qi Fengyu.

An incomparably real emotion dragged Mu Shaoai's soul, took him away from the untraceable past, dispelled the never-ending sense of emptiness deep in his heart, and made him feel the real reality in front of him. world.

Just because the person in front of me...is real.

The emotions in Mu Shaoai's amber eyes flowed and changed, and finally settled into some kind of blazing heat that could shake the soul.

He didn't hide it at all, and let those emotions appear in front of Qi Fengyu's eyes openly, like cutting open his chest, holding out his heart for him to touch.

look.

Now it beats for you.

That kind of blazing heat can burn away all hesitation and hesitation.

Just now, Qi Fengyu desperately hoped that these gentle almond eyes would fall on him, but now that they really fell on him, he began to feel a great panic again.

Too many things have settled between them, he doesn't know, the day when Mu Shaoai knew the truth, when Mu Shaoai knew that the source of pain that made him collapse was brought by him...

When that day really comes, will there really be no hatred in those eyes?

He is not afraid of getting, but he is afraid of losing after getting it.

Reason and emotion tore apart Qi Fengyu's soul again.

The young man who was only allowed to appear in his sleep waved to him with a shy and hearty smile, and appeared interlaced with the young man who was watching him with enthusiasm and sincerity. He saw from a higher perspective that the once lively boy Gradually stained with grayscale, more and more dim, but the youth in front of him has become colorful, so clear that he seems to dominate the whole world.

Mu Shaoai's gaze was giving him supreme joy.

Painful pleasure.

And sanity failed.

The mask on Qi Fengyu's face was completely broken, his cold and hard features softened little by little, his deep and indifferent eyes turned into streams illuminated by the sun in spring, gurgling, gently caressing every inch of Mu Shaoai's skin.

Mu Shaoai confessed to him with his eyes, and Qi Fengyu answered him with his eyes.

I accept.

"...you're still alive." Mu Shaoai whispered in an admiring tone, he squeezed out his hands to hold Qi Fengyu's cheeks, like holding a fragile glass cup, afraid of being shaken and shattered by the air driven by the sound Yes, a pair of amber eyes are shining.

"I'm still alive." Qi Fengyu said.

The eyes of the two intertwined into a net, covering each other deeply and densely.

The air enveloped the whole body like cotton candy, and the temperature rose slowly.

Mu Shaoai's gaze gradually slid down along the lines of Qi Fengyu's outline, and finally, like the two poles of a magnet attracting each other, they were firmly attracted to Qi Fengyu's lips.

Qi Fengyu's skin color is very light, and the lip color is also light, which is a kind of off-white pink, which looks extraordinarily cold.

...but should be soft.

Mu Shaoai couldn't look away, a feeling of hunger gripped his heart, and he subconsciously licked his lips.

Qi Fengyu's black eyes deepened, and he licked his lips reflexively.

Mu Shaoai seemed to be bewitched, stood on tiptoe, and moved closer.

When he really touched the soft pair, he unexpectedly found that the distance between the two was much closer than he had imagined.

Probably because Qi Fengyu also bowed his head and came over?

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