Slag Gong wants to eat back grass [Quick Transmigration]

Sunscreen, or a couple of well-tailored suits and shirts, and a few snacks to satisfy his cravings.

As a result, Zhao Yunjin's things were filled on top of the cupboard and under the bed, as if surrounded by that person's breath, you and I couldn't tell each other apart.

A year later, Zhao Yunjin returned here with a huge travel bag on her back.

Many students remembered him and embraced him happily. They were bought by him with a pack of snacks each, and they happily called him "Teacher Zhao".

Zhao Yunjin hurriedly made a booing gesture and asked them, "Where's Teacher Jiang?"

"Teacher Jiang is in the classroom, I'll show you there." Those who are familiar with him dragged him to the door of the classroom.Looking in through the window, I saw Jiang Chengbi sitting on the podium to correct the students' homework.

His black hair was slightly longer, covering his eyes, and was pinned behind his ears by him.

The side face was still exquisite and unparalleled, and the light made the eyelashes into half dark shadows, which fell on his white jade face.

Before Zhao Yunjin could see enough, the student rushed in, waking up the beauty who was working quietly.

As soon as Jiang Chengbi raised his head, the gazes of the two people who had been separated for a long time met in the air. One was dusty and tired, and a smile emerged from his tiredness, and the other had thousands of stars in his eyes.

Jiang Chengbi helped Zhao Yunjin unpack his travel bag and took him directly back to his dormitory.

A few new teachers came to the school and occupied the room where Zhao Yunjin slept before, so the two of them can only squeeze together now.

Jiang Chengbi was afraid that the bed would be too narrow to sleep well, but Zhao Yunjin was very satisfied with this arrangement, took the hot tea Jiang Chengbi handed over, and did not forget to show off to him: "I finished my training and just found a new job, right next door to you In my middle school, I worked as an information technology teacher."

Jiang Chengbi: "Have you taken the exam yet?"

Zhao Yunjin: "Yes, now he is a veritable Teacher Zhao."

Jiang Chengbi shook his head and said, "I can't see it. I thought that you are lively and would find a job with more freedom."

Zhao Yunjin: "It's not too bad now."

While drinking tea, he peeked at Jiang Chengbi.

In fact, there is a reason why he didn't say it: he just saw the teacher's three-month vacation and wanted to have more opportunities to accompany him.

Jiang Chengbi: "When are you leaving?"

Zhao Yunjin: "The day after tomorrow."

Jiang Chengbi: "So fast?"

Zhao Yunjin: "Yes. The new semester is about to start, so I have to go to work."

Seeing that Jiang Chengbi was a little lonely, he quickly explained: "I'll be back when this semester is over. I can accompany you for two months."

Jiang Chengbi: "Don't say that, I'm under a lot of pressure."

Zhao Yunjin: "It's okay, just treat it as my wishful thinking. Anyway, if there is a suitor like me, it's still a pursuit. By the way, I bought you a new set of clothes, put them on and have a look."

As he said, he turned his head and rummaged in the bag.

Jiang Chengbi: "That's enough, you send me something every time, this room can hardly hold it."

Zhao Yunjin: "I'm far away, and I don't know what to do, so I can only buy things. By the way, you said that some new colleagues have arrived, do you like any of them?"

Jiang Chengbi: "Why? Ask about my friends, or about my private life?"

"No." Zhao Yunjin hurriedly dodged, cast her gaze into the teacup, and saw a pair of smiling eyes reflected in the cup.

Jiang Chengbi is waiting for him, he is very happy.

At night, Zhao Yunjin also behaved well, and did not make any overstepping actions.After honestly taking a shower, he went to bed, lay on his side in it, and left most of the space to Jiang Chengbi.

Jiang Chengbi thought he was asleep, and just after turning off the lights to go to sleep, he stretched out his arms and laid them on his arms.

"Pillow here." Zhao Yunjin monopolized his pillow, and pointed to his arm for him to lean on.

Jiang Chengbi pushed him and said, "What are you getting nervous about, your hands will be numb tomorrow."

"It's numb, let's go to sleep first." With his eyes closed, he rubbed against Jiang Chengbi's neck like a big dog.After a while, a slight snore sounded.

He has been running around for a day, taking the high-speed rail and car, and he is exhausted.

Seeing him like this, Jiang Chengbi didn't struggle anymore, patted his back lightly with his hand, and then fell asleep.

Zhao Yunjin was looking forward to the reunion after one semester, but she didn't think that Jiang Chengbi would be the one who came back first.

Jiang Chengbi asked for leave to go home, not because of anyone, but because the house was left unoccupied for too long, and some electrical appliances would be damaged.

Since Zhao Yunjin picked the lock and entered the door that time, she never rushed in again, and the furniture was still in place as usual.So Jiang Chengbi didn't notice his breaking into the empty house, but picked up tools and cleaned the house by himself, trying to make it look livable.

Just halfway through wiping, a phone call came.

It's an unfamiliar number.

Jiang Chengbi thought it was a harassing call and ignored it.After the bell fell silent, within a moment, it rang again.

This time Jiang Chengbi finally picked it up, and before he had time to speak, he heard the person at the other end call out his name accurately: "Xiao Jiang, are you free to come out and meet?"

Hearing the familiar voice, Jiang Chengbi was stunned.

As soon as get out of class time came, Zhao Yunjin ran faster than those students rushing to eat. She packed her briefcase and rushed a hundred meters away to enjoy delicious food in the commercial street near the school.

He was biting the skewers, and was just about to send a video to Jiang Chengbi when he saw a familiar figure passing by the intersection.

The corner of Zhao Yunjin's mouth twitched, feeling the novelty, and sent a message to Jiang Chengbi cracklingly: "Hey, guess who I saw on xx Street just now. A man, wearing a white shirt, looks like you."

Jiang Chengbi picked up the phone and glanced at it, and replied: "Well, I'm back, I have something to do."

After pressing send, he turned his gaze to the man sitting opposite.

Tang Yuming, his college classmate, is also his ex-boyfriend and first love.

Back then, Jiang Chengbi was not as bold as he is now. He was raised in an ivory tower, young and ignorant, and he was surprised to see everything.

He doesn't know what homosexuality is, he just vaguely feels that he doesn't seem to be interested in the beautiful girls around him, but he can't help but look at the sweaty and heroic boys on the basketball court.

The turning point happened one afternoon, when he was sitting in the dormitory watching a movie, his roommate Tang Yuming suddenly came over, put the computer screen in front of him, and said, "Look at mine, it looks better."

Jiang Chengbi nodded, and Tang Yuming put the phone on the table and turned on the full screen.

It took a long time after that before Jiang Chengbi knew the name of that movie: "Frost Flower Shop".

At that time, he just sat there obediently, admiring the unique characters in ancient costumes inside, and sometimes looked down at the Chinese subtitles.

He was watching a movie, but Tang Yuming was watching him.

His eyes followed his slender neck, slid to his collarbone, and then to his two long legs that were honestly bent.

There is curiosity, scrutiny, and desire in the eyes.

When Jiang Chengbi's ears turned red, it was when the bed||scene started.

The king and the guard, the guard and the queen, the guard fell in love with the queen, so the king wanted to kill the adulterer and adulteress.At the end, the king couldn't bear to do it, and was beheaded by the guards himself.

Jiang Chengbi looked a little sentimental, and maybe people who are engaged in art are a little sentimental. Seeing the tragic fate of the people in the movie, he also shed tears in empathy.

Just as he was reaching for a paper towel to wipe, he suddenly felt that Tang Yuming stretched out his hand and put it between his legs.

"You too, right?"

Jiang Chengbi was taken aback, and when he looked down, he realized that he had a reaction.

Two homosexuals were in the same dormitory, so they got together logically.

Jiang Chengbi was led on the road by Tang Yuming step by step, from clumsy kissing to tenderness on the single bed while other classmates were away.

Gradually, both of them reduced their interactions with outsiders and focused all their attention on each other.

Others think that the two of them have a good relationship, but they don't know that they have developed from classmates to lovers.

The two had similar family backgrounds and matched looks, Jiang Chengbi was at a disadvantage in bed, Tang Yuming felt that he had suffered a disadvantage, so he cared for him in other places.

The feeling of first love is like falling into a honeypot, opening your mouth, and tasting the sweetness in your mouth.

At that time, Jiang Chengbi also thought that they would live forever, and even made plans to come out to their parents and bring Tang Yuming home.

But before he could put his ideas into practice, Tang Yuming personally shattered his fantasy.

"Let's break up," he said.

"Why?" Jiang Chengbi obviously couldn't understand. After all, before this, the two were still inseparable, and they had never had any quarrels or any awkwardness.

Tang Yuming: "I'm going abroad to study in graduate school."

Jiang Chengbi: "I can wait for you to come back."

Tang Yuming: "No need, I may stay and work there in the future."

Jiang Chengbi: "Then what should I do? Are all the good things you have done to me fake?"

Chapter 57 From mosquito blood to cinnabar mole (12) Love is a knife. When it is wrapped in sugar, it is the most delicate flower, the softest cotton, and the most intoxicating wine; It is the sharpest thorn, the deadliest poison, and the most difficult to heal scar.

Tang Yuming looked at him with half-closed eyes, there was reluctance in his eyes, but more pity.He said: "Homosexuality, isn't it just for fun? Who would take it seriously? There will always be a step to get married and have children. Is it possible to live with a man for the rest of your life?"

He said it so eloquently, as if a homosexual can play with other people's feelings at will, enjoy it and then be irresponsible, and continue to live his "normal" life.

At that time, Jiang Chengbi was helpless to deal with such a situation, and could only watch Tang Yuming leave, and the man didn't even let him take the plane.

Xu Shi's first love caused too much pain, and after a long time, he didn't find someone new.Just be careful to hide his sexual orientation, let work and painting fill his life, so that he has no time to think.

Zhao Yunjin, it was a blazing fire that broke in rashly, which made his cold chest regain the feeling of dependence, and also made his limbs and bones warm up again.

He is also serious about new relationships.

But the response was exactly the same, Zhao Yunjin cheated on him while he was away, and said the same cruel words as Tang Yuming.

So he walked away, he left, he would rather not have this impure feeling, just seek a relief.

But now, the person who gave up on him came back and said he wanted to get back together with him.

He was full of melancholy and depressed, but Tang Yuming looked at him in this gap.

With short hair, he looks energetic and energetic.

She is much more mature than when she was in college, and her clothes are fashionable, but her appearance is still the same as before, she is still so good-looking.

In the past few years, Tang Yuming traveled abroad, but not all changes.

In the past, he regarded homosexuality as a shameful thing, even if he made out with Jiang Chengbi, he only dared to come secretly.

When I left, I didn't even think about taking him away.

But after studying abroad, he discovered that the world is far wider than he thought, and homosexuality is not so shameful. Many countries have passed a series of laws to protect their rights to marry, raise children, and provide for the elderly.

On the contrary, those who look at homosexuality through colored glasses are the alternatives in the group.

Tang Yuming's worldview was overturned.

He had to open up to those thoughts, and he began to think about being honest with his parents, which he eventually did.

Everything is so easy, as if his worries and doubts are unnecessary things - the premise is that he is financially independent and has a large enough right to speak.

When the standard of living stabilized, he began to think about his love life.

It is true that he has met many people over the years, and several of them have been in love.But once there are multiple choices, a comparative psychology arises.Although the flowers and plants outside are moving, he will always think of that young and ignorant first love, from their first clumsy kiss to the final decisive parting.

So he came back, wanting to bring back the person he had let go, and spend the rest of his life with him.

Tang Yuming: "I have never forgotten you."

"Really?" Jiang Chengbi took a sip of coffee, distracting himself by savoring the bitterness.

If someone who has loved for so long says they have no feelings at all, it is a lie.

But even though the old love is unforgettable, reason is still firmly on top of him, so that he dare not take a step beyond the threshold.

Love is a knife. When it is wrapped in sugar, it is the most delicate flower, the softest cotton, and the most intoxicating wine; but when the edge is drawn out, it is the sharpest thorn and the deadliest poison. , the hardest scar to heal.

Tang Yuming got rid of all these lightly, but he spent several years to forget the scars, let the time erase the memory, and let the sweetness and pain become the past together.

"What about you? How are you doing?" After a few years of separation, Tang Yuming could only try to find a topic to talk about, so as to get closer to him.

Jiang Chengbi: "It's okay."

Tang Yuming: "Do you have a new boyfriend?"

Jiang Chengbi: "There is one, I don't know if it counts."

Hearing such an answer, Tang Yuming was obviously more happy.

He paused, and slowly stated his purpose of coming here: "Will you come with me? I have stabilized now, found a very good job in Country E, and live separately from my parents."

The thing he dreamed of at the beginning was right in front of him, but Jiang Chengbi was a little bit lacking in interest.

Belated love, like roses with withered branches, is black and rotten, making people unable to bear the slightest desire to pick them.

Just kind of funny.

Laughing at this person's different attitudes before and after, laughing at him wanting to get back after so many years, laughing at him thinking that people's hearts won't hurt, if you say you lose it, you lose it, if you want it, you want it.

Jiang Chengbi: "I have relatives and a career here."

Tang Yuming seemed very considerate, and said, "It's okay, anyway, I'm on vacation recently, so I can accompany you. Country E allows same-sex marriage, we can become legal partners, and even come back twice a year, as long as you like."

If he hadn't known this man's way of speaking, Jiang Chengbi might have thought that he was on a blind date with him.

He looked at Tang Yuming's increasingly handsome face, but his eyes diverged a little, as if he was looking at someone through him.

He was thinking, do people's promises count?

Now that Tang Yuming can turn around and look for him, if his life becomes unstable in the future, or if he changes his mind, will he abandon himself without hesitation?

Also, what can Zhao Yunjin, who is a few years younger than herself, bring to herself?I am a few years older than that person, and there are some young and tender boys sticking to him. After the freshness wears off, will he really not be tempted?Betrayed twice, can I bear it?

"Let me think about it again." He picked up the cup, drank the coffee, and was about to turn around and walk away, but Tang Yuming grabbed his hand again.

Tang Yuming: "Where do you live now? Suggest me to sit there?"

Don't promise him, don't promise him.Just next door to the conversation between the two, Zhao Yunjin slandered.

Since Jiang Chengbi replied to the message, Zhao Yunjin has followed all the way, according to the time when Jiang Chengbi left and the distribution of nearby shops, he successfully locked the cafe, and found a seat next door to sit down and listen to the corner.

In just ten minutes, his heart was like a roller coaster, with ups and downs and ups and downs.

Originally, Jiang Chengbi's sudden return was enough to make him happy, and it was a godsend to meet him on the street.Who would have thought that Cheng Yaojin, who was also Jiang Chengbi's ex-boyfriend, would come out on the way, so the peach blossoms were also stained with stinky dog ​​feces, making them smell bad.

And Jiang Chengbi's evaluation of him, such as "there is one, I don't know if it counts", made him even more uncomfortable.

Yes, indeed, they have already broken up, and now it is only his unilateral pursuit, Jiang Chengbi did not nod in agreement.

But it's fine for him to know this relationship in his heart, let this love rival who doesn't know where he came from know, it really boosts others' ambition, destroys his own prestige, and loses a game before the game begins.

The sentence "I'll think about it again" made him even more uneasy.He was afraid that Jiang Chengbi's head would get hot and he would run away with this wild man.

He didn't know the virtue of a wild man, nor did he know how deep Jiang Chengbi's feelings for this man were.If it is a dewy marriage, there is still a way to break it up. If it is a vow of eternal love, I am afraid that I will be robbed of my love.

Zhao Yunjin secretly scolded herself why she didn't treat Jiang Chengbi better as soon as possible, and bound his body and mind tightly, making him deeply attached to her, and couldn't leave him for a moment.Otherwise, there is no need to put on this posture of eavesdropping. If you are wronged, you can just rush out and punch the wild man, hitting him all over the face.

Jiang Chengbi refused, so he could only vaguely agree.Watching the two leave the coffee shop one after the other, Zhao Yunjin was afraid that the other party would get his hands on the flowers he was optimistic about, so he rushed to pay the bill and chased them out.

Tang Yuming took a taxi, squeezed into the back seat with Jiang Chengbi, and didn't have much to say.

Tang Yuming had no choice but to ask warmly: "Are your parents okay?"

Jiang Chengbi looked indifferent, and said: "They all passed away."

"Ah, I'm sorry." Realizing that Jiang Chengbi had suffered a lot in these years, Tang Yuming felt even more guilty: "You must have suffered a lot."

Jiang Chengbi: "Suffering is the norm, happiness is a luxury."

Tang Yuming: "I will treat you even better in the future."

Jiang Chengbi smiled, but did not answer.

Promises that cannot be guaranteed to be fulfilled are the most unreliable.He said that Jiang Chengbi just listened, and didn't take it to heart, and didn't expose it.

The place where Jiang Chengbi lived was not far from the place where the two met, two stops away, and they arrived just as soon as they got on the bus.

He came out in a hurry, but the house was roughly cleaned, the windows were open, and the moist and fresh wind blew in from outside.

As soon as Tang Yuming sat down, Jiang Chengbi searched for tea cakes to make tea for him, boiled water, and washed the teacups.

"This house is quite big, do you live alone?" Tang Yuming asked.

Jiang Chengbi: "Yes."

Tang Yuming glanced at the dust covers on the TV and washing machine, and asked, "I just came back from out of town."

Jiang Chengbi: "Yes, Tibet."

Tang Yuming: "Go so far? Travel?"

Jiang Chengbi: "Support education."

Tang Yuming: "Why do you suddenly want to go there? It's so far away, and it's cold."

Jiang Chengbi: "Clean."

Tang Yuming looked at his busy back and said with emotion: "You have changed a lot."

Jiang Chengbi paused after washing his hands, and replied after a while: "People are always going to change, either now or in the future."

"It's different. You used to talk a little more, and you weren't so cold." Just halfway through his words, Jiang Chengbi brought the tea over and put it on the tea table: "Let's drink tea."

"Hey." Tang Yuming picked up the cup, blowing on the froth, and looked up at the person opposite from time to time.

Jiang Chengbi sat quietly on the stool, with his long legs resting casually, his eyes were a little divergent.The wind blew at the collar of his shirt, teasing him repeatedly like a lover's hand.

Exquisite and beautiful, but rarely smiles, like a white jade statue isolated from fireworks and unpopular.

Tang Yuming remembers many moments with him, remembering his slight weeping when he was in pain, remembering the shallow arc of his smile, remembering the creases between his brows when he was sitting in the library reading ancient and complicated articles, remembering that he ate a The cute appearance of candied haws coming over to ask for a kiss.

But these have become things that are close at hand but cannot be touched. They have all grown up, and they are no longer innocent, enthusiastic, bold and infatuated.

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Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!

Chapter 58 From mosquito blood to cinnabar nevus (13) Humans are animals that seek advantages and avoid disadvantages, and will reflexively avoid things that make them painful.

Tang Yuming: "At that time, when I was young, I always wanted to go out to see the world and wander around. After seeing a lot, I realized that all kinds of houses are actually the same; all kinds of delicacies are not as suitable as those in my hometown."

Jiang Chengbi didn't know whether he just mentioned it casually or meant something else, so he just listened silently without making a sound.

Tang Yuming: "Are you free recently?"

Jiang Chengbi: "Half a month off."

Tang Yuming: "Go back to Tibet?"

Jiang Chengbi: "Yes."

Tang Yuming: "Can't the teaching support end? I want to stay with you for a while."

Jiang Chengbi: "Call me if you need anything."

Tang Yuming: "It's not enough to make a phone call. Of course, it's interesting to see it with your own eyes all the time. Otherwise, don't go. It's rare for me to go across thousands of mountains and rivers to find you. I'm dizzy by plane."

He kept complaining, but Jiang Chengbi thought of other things.

Trek all the way through mountains and rivers, naturally very tired.Didn't Zhao Yunjin arrive at the small mountain village after taking a long, long journey in the car?But he didn't seem to yell at himself that he was tired, and he often contacted him when he arrived, and never said anything else.

Jiang Chengbi: "Are you going to have dinner here? I just came back, and there's nothing to eat at home."

Tang Yuming: "Eat here, ordering takeaway is fine, I want to chat with you for a while."

Jiang Chengbi was noncommittal.

Tang Yuming: "You liked painting when you were in college, do you still maintain this hobby now? Some friends I know like to collect paintings very much, and I can help you promote them when the time comes."

Jiang Chengbi: "Graffiti will not be elegant, there is no need."

Tang Yuming: "You are too modest. By the way, that friend you mentioned, isn't he coming to you?"

Jiang Chengbi: "He has his own job, and we are not dating."

Tang Yuming: "Are you waiting for me?"

Jiang Chengbi: "You think too much."

The two talked about the past from the past to the present, but Zhao Yunjin, who followed all the way, seemed to be a monkey scratching his head.He wished he could turn into a ninja and pass through that wall, or turn into a bee and go through that window, biting the wild man into a big pig's head.

He was guarding, reading, and looking forward to it. The sweet pastry that he couldn't bear to move with a single finger was remembered by others, so how could he not be angry.

The sense of crisis caused by his love rival also forced him to think about one thing - something he had prepared for a long time ago, but now he wants to do it ahead of time.

Tang Yuming spent the afternoon at Jiang Chengbi's house begging for nothing, and then reluctantly left, wanting to find a hotel nearby so that he could come often.

Before he had gone far, he was beaten by Zhao Yunjin who was squatting in the grass outside.

Tang Yuming hadn't reacted after being punched, so he heard Zhao Yunjin scolding there: "Fuck you, you dare to covet my family's Chengbi, you will die!"

Tang Yuming wiped the corner of his bleeding mouth, realized that this was the person Jiang Chengbi had mentioned, and quickly punched back: "I am his man, what are you!"

When Zhao Yunjin heard this, she wished she could directly strangle him to death: "I am also his man!"

Tang Yuming sneered: "Xinhuan? Heh, when I fell in love with him, you didn't know where to play with mud."

Not to be outdone, Zhao Yunjin said, "Then you should honestly go back to where you should go, and don't disturb his new life."

When the two love rivals met, they were extremely jealous, and before they could say a few words, they fought again, just like two gorillas fighting for a spouse.

Zhao Yunjin's beating became more and more fierce, and the beating became more and more uncomfortable. She just felt that she was really dizzy before, but she was hooked by that not-so-good-looking little Internet celebrity, and now she dared to ride on her.

Tang Yuming, on the other hand, saw every trick, and gave the opponent a ruthless blow whenever he saw an opportunity. He also felt that he should have taken Jiang Chengbi away with him in the first place, so as not to fight with this bastard now.

After the fight, both sides were hurt, and each went back to his own house, each looking for his own mother.

When they left, they did not forget to say harsh words, one said: "Let me see you appearing around Chengbi again, and I will beat you to death."

One reply: "I'll take him abroad to get married right away, I'm going to piss you off."

Tang Yuming is a miserly person. When he arrived at the hotel, after applying the red potion, he took a photo of his injury and sent it to Jiang Chengbi, with the attached message: "I was beaten by your friend."

Zhao Yunjin was young and energetic, and felt that fighting and being injured were not honorable things, so she didn't tell him.

After reading the message sent by Tang Yuming, Jiang Chengbi didn't feel much distressed, only ironic.

When I cared about him before, why didn't I play this trick?

Up to now, my heart has been frozen into ice scum, and you are fighting for it again.

So he didn't reply anything, just quietly turned off the phone, cleaned up the kitchen waste and threw it into the trash can, took a tired shower, and went to bed.

When the wound on her face was almost healed, Zhao Yunjin came to the door with her carefully prepared "big surprise".

Jiang Chengbi sat beside the bed where they slept together, and Zhao Yunjin knelt on one knee, presenting a ruby ​​ring in a gift box.

The gem is bright in color, like a heart, like rouge, like a cinnabar mole inlaid on silver metal.

Zhao Yunjin looked very solemn, although there was still a band-aid on his forehead to cover up the bruises, but his words were firm: "Chengbi, I know I can't enter the marriage hall with you, and I can't be perfect. I want to have you by my side for every quarter of the rest of my life. I will keep my promise and do my best to treat you well, regardless of life, old age, sickness or death, rich or poor."

Jiang Chengbi looked down at him, his reaction was not obvious, it could even be called indifferent.

Zhao Yunjin came here full of joy, seeing that he was silent, her heart beat a little.

He knew that his marriage proposal was rushed, and he should have come to this point after Jiang Chengbi's teaching ended and his job became more stable, but Tang Yuming's appearance disrupted his plan, and he felt a sense of crisis that he was afraid that his partner would be snatched away. , so that he had to advance the plan, resulting in the embarrassing situation now.

Will Jiang Chengbi agree?Although this person seldom shows resistance and can endure his own attacks, but that can only show that he has a good temper, not how deep his feelings for him are.

If he refuses...

He was anxious here, while Jiang Chengbi fell into long-term thinking.

He understood the reason behind Zhao Yunjin's sudden marriage proposal. Although he was surprised, he was more at a loss.

Tang Yuming's departure caused him irreparable psychological trauma. Even though that person returned, he also recalled the good times in the past and gave him a feeling of revival, but he didn't want to repeat the same mistakes.

He doesn't know about Tang Yuming's experience in these years, and he doesn't know if he has changed compared to a few years ago, and it is even more impossible to rush away with him.

But if he doesn't accept Tang Yuming, it doesn't mean that he must agree to Zhao Yunjin.

There are far more than these two men in the world, and he doesn't need to do 1 or 2 multiple choice questions.

He has a career, a salary, a life of his own, and is still in his youth, so he has time to meet better people and see a wider sky, without having to confine his eyes to this small world.

Zhao Yunjin's marriage proposal is not so much a confession as a bondage.Let his feelings be completely tied to this person, and everyone will be prosperous, and everyone will be hurt. If Zhao Yunjin changes his mind midway, I'm afraid he won't even be able to express his suffering.

So although he didn't say it clearly, he already made a decision in his heart.

He reached out to reach for the ring box, and Zhao Yunjin's eyes glowed with joy. When he thought that his wishes would come true, he closed the lid with a snap.

Jiang Chengbi: "I'm not ready yet."

Zhao Yunjin's smile froze in an instant, and after a while, he said slowly as if the ice had thawed: "Are you...rejecting?"

Jiang Chengbi: "Yes."

Zhao Yunjin was puzzled and asked, "Why? Are you going with him?"

"It has nothing to do with him, this is my own decision." He raised his fingers and rubbed the center of his brows, and after calming down, he looked directly into Zhao Yunjin's eyes and said, "You should be able to see that I have been emotionally hurt I did love him very much back then, and I paid a lot, but he, like you at that time, didn't take this feeling to heart.

Humans are animals that seek advantages and avoid disadvantages, and will reflexively avoid things that make them painful.It took me several years to forget the memories about him, and I mustered up the courage to do it again when you moved in, but you also know..."

Zhao Yunjin was dumbfounded for a moment, not knowing how to respond.

"To be honest, comparing the two, you are better than him. But a person's life is very long. You can go from not loving to loving within a year. After a while, when the passion fades and the love loses temperature, you Will you still care about me?

There is nothing good about me, except for a passable skin.I have a cold temper, and I don't have any new ways of dealing with life. To live with me, you must be prepared to be as plain as water.

Would you like such a life? "

"I..." Zhao Yunjin raised her head, then fell silent again.

In fact, he was not completely helpless to refute. Jiang Chengbi felt that he was boring, but in Zhao Yunjin's eyes, he was full of fun.Even if he simply washes the dishes, draws a picture, or writes a word, it is very interesting to Zhao Yunjin.

And an indifferent life also represents peace.It was what he, who used to hang around in the flowers and live in no fixed place, could not get what he wanted.

But he didn't say anything, because he could see that Jiang Chengbi's rejection was extremely strong, almost beyond words.

Jiang Chengbi didn't believe him, so no matter how gaudy he said, it was just empty talk in the eyes of the other party.

Those who have betrayed need to use more efforts to prove their determination.

It has only been a year since I made a mistake, which is not enough for Jiang Chengbi to rebuild trust in him and rekindle his love.

He didn't lose to Tang Yuming, he just lost to his original self, and this is not a long time.

[System delayed broadcast: The main character Zhao Yunjin loves +7, and the current love value is 97. 】

[System prompt: 70% of the wish of "one couple in one lifetime" has been achieved. 】

Realizing that it would be useless to continue kneeling, Zhao Yunjin had no choice but to put away the ring, and stood up embarrassingly.

Chapter 59 From mosquito blood to cinnabar mole (14) Those who wanted it but couldn’t get it turned into the white moonlight in front of the bed; those who got it but lost it became the cinnabar mole on the heart.

Jiang Chengbi: "Do you want to stay here?"

Zhao Yunjin: "Huh?"

Jiang Chengbi: "I'm going out."

Realizing that she might have delayed his schedule, Zhao Yunjin quickly apologized: "I'm sorry, you're fine, I'll go."

After expelling Zhao Yunjin from his territory, Jiang Chengbi heaved a long sigh.

In fact, he has no arrangements for today, he just... wants to be alone.

Man is a complex animal, rationality and sensibility coexist, likes and dislikes coexist.

Treating the same thing, the same person, in different psychological states, will have different trade-offs.

The existence that I didn't care much about before, under the tempering of time, has been covered with the filter of true love and first love, and it has become inseparable.

Those who wanted but couldn't get it turned into the white moonlight in front of the bed; those who got it but lost it became a cinnabar mole on their heart.

I thought it was love, but I was afraid that my eyes were covered by floating clouds, and I couldn't see the reality under this flashy appearance.

It's just self-impressed.

He didn't bother to tell the difference, he just felt a little tired.

So I went to the river and had a cool breeze for a long time.

The river was surging, rushing all the way down, but it couldn't take away the slightest sadness in his eyes.

It's strange, those things that he once dreamed of are at hand, but he has no idea of ​​touching them at all.

Perhaps during the ups and downs of these years, his expectation and trust in love also slowly passed away like a river.I only know how to stand still and fear temptation, like a wild beast that surrounds itself and refuses to be favored by others.

Tang Yuming, Zhao Yunjin, who is next?

Like a dwarf who is taller than a dwarf, he doesn't worry about being wanted, so why should he care about these passers-by?

But even if the mind is clear, the body still retains those beautiful or painful memories, which drags the heart to cry out.

Stumbled, walked all the way home along the road.

The neon lights meet in the eyes, like a colorful dream.

If you think about it carefully, isn’t that what life is like, always stuck in various choices, unable to see yourself clearly.

Even if you choose someone to spend your life together, how many can be happy?

Most are locked in never-ending squabbles, going back and forth over petty things