Bai Yueguang, he only loves villains [Transmigration Book]

However, the most troublesome ones were not Gu Ran and Ye Xinghan at all.

During the busy days when Shi's father was busy, Shi's mother still persevered in doing ideological work.

Seeing that Shi Zhou was bored painting every day these days, she felt that the other party's mood had stabilized, so she asked tentatively: "Zhou Zhou, do you feel bored at home these days?"

Shi Zhou didn't say he was bored or not.

The other party said to himself: "Why don't I let Xiao Pei come to my house in a few days and take you out for a meal to relax? I heard that he has not been very busy recently..."

Shi Zhou felt that, compared to Gu Ran and Ye Xinghan, Pei Ziyan had always had the indifference of "the winner is in his hands".

He watched those two people scrambling for each other, making a big presence in front of Shi Zhou, but Pei Ziyan silently never disturbed him except for occasional appearances.

But this calmness caused Shi Zhou the most headache.

Shifu didn't like Lu Youyuan, but his attitude towards the three bamboo horses was equally vague.

On the contrary, Shi's mother had a clear intention that she wanted Pei Ziyan to be her son-in-law.

Shi Zhou has already developed an antibody to this inexplicable obsession, and his hand holding the paintbrush is still steady: "No, it's fine for me to stay at home and paint."

Shi Mu's eyes fell on the scattered portraits beside her.

Shi Zhou didn't shy away from anything, he generously placed the painted pictures on the bedside, and the portraits stood or walked, all of them were Lu Youyuan's face.

When he couldn't see each other, he used this method to keep his thoughts on paper.

Shi Mu's conversation also ended in failure, and after the others left, Shi Zhou quietly entered the attic again.

He looked at all the paintings in Baiyueguang's attic, and the more he looked at them, the more frightened he became.

There are paintings on the walls of butterflies compressed into vacuum bags, their guts broken and their wings exquisite.

There are also half-bored apples, lifelike on the outside, but empty on the inside.

Bai Yueguang always paints with such two extremes.

It seems that everything in the painting is a metaphor for himself.

Shi Zhou might not understand it before, but he thought of the sentence Ji Huaqing said: There is beauty and truth, but it looks fake.

Aren't the so-called true and false just two extremes?

Shi Zhou touched the words under the last painting—the air was taken away, the vocal cords were controlled, the burning, dumb environment shrank into a vacuum, the days faded into silent movies, living became specimens, specimens were silent, specimens Delicate, specimens are always perfect.

If you live in the eyes of everyone's expectations, then the pressure you have to bear must be tens of thousands of times that of ordinary people.

Shi Zhou and the three bamboo horses have only been together for a short period of time, and they can all feel how suffocating the three of them will bring to people.

They use so-called "likes" as shackles to force others to become what they want.

But if people want to maintain a long-term and comfortable relationship, they rely on commonality and attraction.

Rather than blindly giving and moral kidnapping-style self-moving.

Bai Yueguang has been living in this environment for so long, and while unable to let go of the friendship with the three bamboo horses, at the same time, unable to show her complete self and imperfect side.

He tried his best to be the moon hanging high in everyone's heart.

But no one asked him if he wanted to be that moon.

After the car accident, the Shi family blocked the news because they felt that this trivial incident was enough to become a stain on Bai Yueguang's life.

So that small group of people in the know will take the drag racing thing with cynicism.

The "moon" just came down from the sky and tentatively stepped on the dirt where everyone walks, but everyone despised it for being no longer clean and bright.

Shi Zhou's heart was inexplicably clenched into a ball.

Although he and Bai Yueguang had never met, he was lucky enough to occupy the other party's body, and because of this reason, he was lucky enough to meet Lu Youyuan.

Thinking that the other party has been living in pain, Shi Zhou took a deep breath and opened the cabinet next to the easel.

There are several diaries inside.

What Shi Zhou saw before was only when he was a teenager, and the rest were locked here by his master.

He took the one above and turned to the first page, both himself and the date were closest to now.

The diary is very long, and I write it almost every day. Shi Zhou glanced at ten lines, and searched for the names of the three bamboo horses in it.

Shi Zhou discovered that these paintings were just the tip of the iceberg in Bai Yueguang's heart.

"The freshman class is very simple, but Teacher Ji is very strict. He may think that I don't understand no matter how I give advice, so he told me to go to his office alone."

"He said that my paintings are as vain as my people, and I think so too. But there is no way, I have worked very hard, and I may not be suitable for painting."

Shi Zhou turned to the next page.

"I felt very tired, so I said I wanted to travel by myself, but they firmly disagreed...Gu Ran sent me a lot of roses, but I couldn't be happy..."

"It seems difficult for me to be happy. I told Pei Ge that he said that I might have some psychological troubles and asked me to go to him for consultation every week."

"But he is also one of the reasons why I am unhappy. I don't want to tell him what is on my mind, so I have been procrastinating."

"Brother Pei said that his teacher's research results have made new breakthroughs. It turns out that memories can also be modified, and painful memories can be erased. It sounds amazing... 囒祓...Memory is such a precious thing, it will Is anyone willing to be erased by others? Even the painful part, I want to keep it in my heart."

"I seem to be getting weirder and weirder. I don't like the three of them around me all the time."

"I don't dare to let others see these paintings. I feel that they are shouting: the me in your eyes is fake, and the real me also has a bad side, disgust and frustration, but do you really dare to look at it?"

Shi Zhou quickly turned to the last page, and there was only one sentence on it.

——If you want to do something different, some people say you can try drag racing, so rebel this time.

"..."

Shi Zhou closed the diary.

He felt that the amount of information was too large to accept for a while.

Thinking of something, Shi Zhou turned to one of the pages again, focusing on the content about "memory" and "erasure".

No longer skimming as fast as before, but reading word by word.

Qi Qingqing also said before that Pei Ziyan is best at brain and psychology.

When he wanted to retrieve his memory, he also went to the other party's research institute. In that room full of white, there was the world's most advanced brain equipment...

Why did Chen Weihe, Pei Ziyan's teacher, say those things when he saw him?

Why did he forget the time he spent with Lu Youyuan for no reason as soon as he came back?

At this moment, Shi Zhou felt belatedly thinking about it, and his heart felt as if he had fallen into an ice cave.

While he was in doubt, someone knocked on the door suddenly, Shi Zhou hurriedly stuffed the diary into the drawer, and sat back in front of the drawing board.

The person who comes is the time mother who goes and returns.

Thinking of the portraits that filled the room, she hardened her heart and said to Shi Zhou: "Zhou Zhou, Mom and Dad are all for your own good."

"You have been weak since you were young, and you often get sick. We are afraid that something will happen to you. The white-haired person will send the black-haired person, but Xiao Pei... he is good at medicine and caring. I entrust you to him." Most rest assured."

"I'm in good health now." Shi Zhou frowned, "Besides, if you're sick, you can see other doctors. Is there only one doctor in the imperial capital, Pei Ziyan?"

"Different."

Shi Mu paused, hesitated and said: "Xiao Pei said that the car accident hurt your head, and one day in the future you may start to have headaches, and the frequency of headaches will become more and more frequent..."

Shi Zhou thought of the splitting headache he had before, and suddenly raised his eyes to look at the other party.

"Chen Weihe is the best brain doctor. Pei Ziyan inherited Chen's medical skills and research institute. He promised us that even after your father and I die, he will do his best to treat you."

"You have been obedient since you were a child, and if you have something on your mind, you don't talk about it. Shi's family is small, and I'm afraid that we will disappear and you will be left alone..." Shi's mother choked up when she said this.

"What's the use of keeping more money? Can money buy people's hearts? Who in this world can really treat you well except us."

This is a mother's heartfelt worry.

Shi Zhou couldn't take himself as an outsider and watched coldly, he clenched his fists and remained silent.

"Even if it's not for yourself, for the sake of making parents feel at ease, you should think about it again."

Shi Mu's tone gradually became stable: "You have known each other for so many years and you have feelings for each other. My idea is, before your headache symptoms appear, get engaged to Pei Ziyan after graduation."

Shi Zhou's chaotic thoughts finally pointed to an answer.

No wonder.

No wonder Pei Ziyan was so confident.

It turned out that he had already made this "deal" with Shi Mu. He used the future as a bargaining chip in exchange for Shi Zhou's second half of his life.

Shi Zhou slowly released his clenched hands, and said in a low voice, "I won't be engaged to Pei Ziyan."

Shi Mu was startled, and wanted to continue to say something.

Shi Zhou interrupted him. He looked at Shi Mu and asked, "Is Pei Ziyan my attending physician after I got into a car accident?"

Shi Mu nodded in confusion.

Shi Zhou continued to ask: "Why in that car accident, the driver was only slightly injured, but I, the co-pilot, stayed in the intensive care unit for so long?"

Shi Mu frowned: "You have been in poor health since you were a child, and the severity of your injuries sometimes has nothing to do with driving or riding."

"No." Shi Zhou said calmly, "Did I enter the ICU before or after Pei Ziyan took over the treatment?"

"......after."

That being said, the trauma he suffered at the scene of the car accident was not enough for him to enter the intensive care unit.

When Shi Zhou thought of Bai Yueguang's diary, an unclear clue gradually unfolded in front of his eyes. Maybe the truth was even more frightening...

Shi Mu didn't believe it at all: "Why do you think of asking this, how could Pei Ziyan harm you."

"You also said just now that people's hearts are unpredictable." Shi Zhou's voice was very soft, "Of course there will be people in this world who will do anything for their ends, even if it's for my own good."

Seeing Shimu's dazed expression, he thought it was amazing.

The other party left the room in dismay.

Shi Zhou thought to himself that Pei Ziyan was too reliable in the eyes of others, so that he could not tarnish the perfect image of the other party with just a few words.

He had a premonition that the memory that had been locked in countless locks must be avoided by someone who couldn't see it.

But he just thought about it for a moment, and the pain that made every nerve spasm hit his brain in an instant.

This time it lasted longer than last time.

There were fine beads of sweat on the corner of Shi Zhou's forehead, and he pressed his throbbing temples, thinking, he must retrieve that missing memory, otherwise, if he hurts like this a few times, he will be gone.

Enduring this headache, Shi Zhou forced himself out of the room.

He had to find a way to meet Lu Youyuan.

As soon as he reached the study, the servant guarding outside the door stopped him tremblingly: "You can't go in, there are guests inside."

Shi Zhou's face was still a little pale, and he struggled to speak: "Who's here? Is it Pei Ziyan?"

The other party couldn't bear to see his situation, hesitated for a while, and told him in a low voice.

"It's the president of the Lu Group."