The past ignites old dreams

The bluish-white ceramic incense lies, Xiangyun incense has been burned out, leaving only the warm and charming aftertones of Qiong Huo and Vetiver.

The jade-glazed fish swimming lotus-bottom bowl, the clear soup is already cold, the Lantern Festival has been swollen, and the medlar is quietly floating.

He is back.

Push open the door, bringing in a gust of cold wind.

"Cui Yan..." Qiao Ran was stunned, and closed the door behind his hands. He leaned against the door, looked at the back of Cui Yan sitting there, thought for a long time, then walked over slowly, and sat down next to Cui Yan. .

Qiao Ran saw the narcissus on the table blooming for the first time this year, and he also saw the cold Lantern Festival in the jade-glazed bowl.

"Are you waiting for me?" Qiao Ran was slightly embarrassed, picked up the spoon and picked up the Lantern Festival, "Why are you waiting for me... This is for me?"

Cui Yan's gaze seemed to be gentle, neither happy nor angry, but Qiao Ran was so panicked that his eyes became soft.

Qiao Ran scooped up a spoonful of Lantern Festival and was about to put it in his mouth, but Cui Yan knocked it down before he entered it, and the soup spilled on Qiao Ran, Qiao Ran frowned and shook his head, "You can't see me being comfortable."

"It's cold." Cui Yan said, "It's bad for your stomach if you eat it."

There is a stove in the room, and it feels warm when you come in.It happened that the clothes were also dirty, so Qiao Ran got up and took off the black lamb fur, and put it on the shiny lacquered Mu Shi.

"Pao? What do you mean?" Cui Yan suddenly asked.

"Uh!" Qiao Ran's scalp tingled, "How do you know this word?"

"Cui from the Qinghe Cui family, the inkstone of the pen, ink, paper and inkstone. I heard that he is your wife?"

Qiao Ran leaned back and almost knocked Mu Shi down.He was dumbfounded, pointing at Cui Yan's trembling hands, "It's fine if you send someone to follow me, and watch me!"

At this moment, Cui Yan had already got up and approached Qiao Ran step by step.He took one step forward, Qiao Ran took two steps back.

Qiao Ran: "Hey! Don't come here!"

Before he could finish speaking, his back hit the pillar.Qiao Ran hurried around, if Cui Yan went to the left, he would go to the right, and if Cui Yan went to the right, he would go to the left, feeling much safer in his heart.

"Qiao Ran."

"What, what?!"

"Don't sing for others in the future."

"Fuck, can you control it?!" Qiao Ran raised his head angrily and shouted, "I can sing if I want to! I can sing to whoever I want!"

While talking, Qiao Ran suddenly realized that Cui Yan was missing, oh my god!Qiao Ran hurried forward around the pillar, but before he could lift his legs, Cui Yan caught him by the collar.

Cui Yan pulled the struggling Qiao Ran into his arms, forcing him to look at him.

Knowing that she fell into Cui Yan's "devil's claws", it would be useless to struggle no matter how hard she struggled, so she just let him go.

"Qiao Ran, I think..."

The words fell between the lips and teeth, a long kiss, and the world spun, Qiao Ran recalled in his mind the day Cui Yan got married, the sky was full of fireworks and brilliant clouds.

Those are all celebrations that do not belong to me.

Qiao Ran pushed Cui Yan hard, and really pushed him away.Fingertips touched the lower lip, blood—"Cui Yan, you fucking bit me?!"

Qiao Ran licked his lips, and sure enough, his mouth smelled bloody, "I said, do you have a tendency to s?m! Second Young Master Cui! Please do me a favor and let me go!"

Cui Yan approached Qiao Ran again, and suddenly put his hand on the pillar of the room. The wind blew across Qiao Ran's face. The moment Cui Yan made a move, he thought Cui Yan was going to hit him, so he covered his face and moved away in fright.

But there was no movement, Qiao Ran separated his fingers and observed the "enemy's situation" through the gaps between his fingers. Cui Yan just supported the pillar with his hands, confining Qiao Ran between his arms.

"Oh! I really want you to suffer a heart attack." Qiao Ran was helpless. Cui Yan was too close to him now, and his heart was beating wildly, but he could only pretend to be casual while drinking tea and chatting with birds, "Cui Yan , didn’t you say forget it?”

"Ah."

"Huh?" Qiao Ran rolled his eyes, "Yeah, shit!"

Qiao Ran stood up straight and threw herself into Cui Yan's arms, "Do you want this?"

Qiao Ran withdrew her hand again, held Cui Yan's cheeks, and pecked him on the mouth, "Do you still want to do this?"

He shook off Cui Yan's arm with a sneer, and quickly walked towards the bed, taking off his clothes while walking, but the ancient clothes were really troublesome, Qiao Ran tore them into a mess, and sat down on the bed in a messy manner, he patted the edge of the bed, " Or think so?"

Qiao Ran exerted force on each other with both feet, and threw the shoe towards Cui Yan.But he is not born to practice martial arts, one goes east and the other goes west, but none of them hit Cui Yan.

Cui Yan picked up Qiao Ran's shoes and put them under the bed.

"Cui Yan." When Qiao Ran saw Cui Yan bent over to pick up the shoes, she felt inexplicably in a daze. She wanted to tie this person up and hide her. She would only talk to herself forever, stay with herself forever, and go to the fucking border guards. Fuck the political assassination, go fuck the martial arts!

"Qiao Ran." Cui Yan sat side by side with him, and the two shared the tranquility of this moment.

"You're leaving tomorrow." Qiao Ran took out the wooden box that Huo Li gave him when he bid farewell to Huo Li from one of the drawers on both sides of the corridor on Ba Bu's bed. "I don't have anything to give. This is The things my adoptive father gave me, I didn’t expect that when I turned around at the beginning, it would be the difference between life and death. I really hope that time will stop like this. In the hearts of living people, there has never been death.”

Qiao Ran opened the box, and inside was a butterfly sleeve arrow, with the word "Tian" engraved on the lid.

Qiao Ran said, "This is the weapon my adoptive father's wife used before. My adoptive father asked me to use it for self-defense, but I don't think I need it. I was followed by your dark feather when I went out. So, send it to me." Here you go. When you leave Shandong, you have to be extra careful. Seek good fortune for yourself!"

While Qiao Ran was speaking, Cui Yan kept playing with the butterfly sleeve arrows. The arrows were 7 inches long, and the arrowheads were 1 inch long. There were 12 arrows in each paperback.Cui Yan rubbed the word "Tian" and frowned suspiciously. Could Huo Li's wife, the former head of Huashan, be a woman from the Tian family?

"Huh? Talking to you!" Qiao Ran changed her posture and sat cross-legged facing Cui Yan, "You don't even have a thank you?"

"Qiao Ran—"

"you are welcome."

"..."

Cui Yan took out a red ribbon from his sleeve pocket and handed it to Qiao Ran, "I have something to give you too."

A red ribbon?Qiao Ran tugged over depressedly, but when he saw the words on it, they were in simplified characters!

"Qiao, Xiao, Ran, To, Here, Yi, You!!!"

Qiao Ran was shocked and puzzled, "Where did this come from?"

Cui Yan asked, "Haven't you never been to our Dayang Dynasty?"

"Yes!" Qiao Ran affirmed.

"I picked this up from the Bixia Temple in Mount Tai." Cui Yan said, "In front of the Bixia Temple, there are two sweet-scented osmanthus trees that have lived for an unknown number of years, and they are covered with blessing ribbons. Yours is also one of them. "

Qiao Ran was so nervous that his temples twitched, his whole body was tense, and he felt hot and cold at the same time.

How could a childhood dream come true?How is it possible, how is it possible...

"Qiao Ran?"

"Did you know that sometimes people have a feeling of déjà vu, and at a certain moment, they always feel that they have experienced it personally. In psychology, it is called 'déjà vu phenomenon'. Sometimes people don't need real memories at all. It is possible to create a familiar feeling by yourself. And some familiar feelings come from unconscious memory, so sometimes, I really can't tell whether the former me is real, or the current me is real, or, It's all fake, it's all hallucinatory memories."

"Qiao Ran." Cui Yan rolled over Qiao Ran's arm and held his pulse for a while, "Don't think about it."

Qiao Ran was pressed by Cui Yan's wrist, as if a force flowed into his arm and circulated throughout his body, which was more effective than psychological suggestion, and he calmed down within a moment.

"Is there any hope of going back now?" Cui Yan asked him.

Qiao Ran still stared at the crooked words, "I don't know... maybe... Cui Yan, I haven't heard anyone mention your brother's name so far. Is he called Cui Xuan?"

"Yes, his name is Cui Xuan. What's wrong?"

"..." Qiao Ran was shocked again, unable to recover from the name "Cui Xuan" for a long time.

"It's nothing...it's done, don't think about things you can't figure out." Qiao Ran pressed the red ribbon under the pillow.

"about to sleep?"

"Hmm." Qiao Ran blocked Cui Yan with his elbow, "Hmm?! What do you want to do?"

"Don't you know what I want to do? Just now you made a fuss, but now you are pretending to be confused." Cui Yan bullied himself, "Whether you cooperate obediently, or let me acupoint you, choose yourself."

"No." Qiao Ran was categorical, "In our country, messing around after marriage is not only condemned by everyone, but also sentenced to prison."

"Don't forget that you are now in the Dayang Dynasty." Cui Yan ignored Qiao Ran's resistance, put his knees against his legs, crossed his hands and pressed them on the pillow, "Don't deceive yourself any more."

"How can I deceive myself!"

"How dare you say you don't want it?"

"I—" Qiao Ran stared dryly, "I can masturbate myself!"

"From what?"

Playing the piano to a cow, Qiao Ran cried silently.

"Cui Yan, I forgot, I still have something to give you. Really, really! It's in the lower drawer! I taught you how to play last time, remember? Let go of me first—ah! Fuck——" Qiao Ran gasped, his facial features squeezed together in pain, "Damn pervert!!! You're going to die if you say hello before you fucking come in?!"

"Relax."

Cui Yan stroked his face, Qiao Ran bit his finger when he opened his mouth.Naihe couldn't bear to really bite.

"Qiao Ran, is this what you want to give me?"

"My tablet, when did you take it away?" Qiao Ran was so uncomfortable that she gasped for breath while speaking.

This solar panel is a souvenir that Qiao Ran bought at a technology conference in Tokyo. The other functions are average, and it doesn't even have a camera.The only advantage is that it automatically charges against the sun.When you were bored in ancient times, thanks to the games stored in it, you passed the time!

"I found something interesting—" Cui Yan clicked a few times, and pointed the tablet at Qiao Ran.

Circle you a fork!I knew it would be no good to teach him!Cleared my Angry Birds not to mention, but also peeked at my video! ! !

The two men on the tablet are passionately making love, and their actions are extremely bold, comparable to GV!

"What is this?" Cui Yan asked, "If you don't tell me, we'll keep doing it tonight."

"Tell me! Let me tell you!" Qiao Ran blushed, "This is a passionate scene in "Xue Xue", we didn't do it for real, it's fake, I swear to God, it's absolutely fake! It's just a borrowing! "

Seeing Qiao Ran's "please believe me" expression of wanting to cry, Cui Yan twitched the corner of his mouth and smiled.He threw away the tablet, pressed Qiao Ran's leg, and sucked Qiao Ran's swollen lip bitten by him.

"Then let's play it again as it was played just now." Cui Yan stepped in sideways, regardless of Qiao Ran's objection, and started again and again.

It's late at night, people are quiet, the tide has receded, and □□ rests.

Qiao Ran was too tired to open her eyes, she turned her back to Cui Yan.

My whole body was sore, and I felt that my bones were about to fall apart when I moved a little.Very tired, very sleepy, but have no desire to sleep, my thoughts are messed up, and I feel bored.Especially depressed, gloomy, and heartbreaking for no reason.

Qiao Ran struggled to turn her body, changing from lying on her side to lying on her back.He performed a very ordinary movement at an extremely slow speed. Firstly, his back hurt like walking on thin ice, and secondly, he was afraid that Cui Yan would be crushed.After lying down, he relaxed himself, took deep and long breaths, trying to hypnotize himself, but unfortunately, the more he wanted to sleep, the more he couldn't fall asleep.

"Qiao Ran..."

Qiao Ran sighed heavily, opened his eyes and said, "Oh! You pervert, why aren't you sleeping?"

"I think--"

"No!" Qiao Ran patted Cui Yan, "I'm going to die if I do it again!"

Cui Yan: "..."

Qiao Ran: "What about morality? What about temperance?"

"I just wanted to talk to you about Bamboo, and—"

"You don't need to explain Xiao Zhuzi to me." Before Cui Yan could finish speaking, Qiao Ran cut off Cui Yan's words and started talking about himself, "I know that it's no big deal for you people to have the power to kill someone. This is Historical limitations are similar to force majeure factors. I have nothing to do with killing anyone, and I have no position to criticize."

Cui Yan looked at Qiao Ran's serious face, and pinched the flesh on his face. Qiao Ran lost a lot of weight, but his face was still chubby like a child's, "Sometimes even I can't understand you. Qiao Ran, At first you were like a nasty, ignorant little boy, but now you are like a bad old man who sees through the world, and you are also very annoying."

Qiao Ran patted his hand away and rubbed his face, "I am older than you. The roads I have traveled, the places I have been to, the wine I have drunk, the people I have met, and the stories I have heard are more than you. .”

"One day, I hope I can be like you in the past, drinking, listening to books, enjoying the snow, staring blankly, and waiting for a gust of wind."

Maybe it's because the night is too deep and people are too perverted, Qiao Ran didn't expect Cui Yan to say such words, she couldn't help but look back at him, his amber eyes are so beautiful, just one glance, I'm drunk in his love, why bother? Think about it again, is he really affectionate or vain.

Cui Yan stretched out his hand and clasped Qiao Ran's ten fingers tightly. He had regrets and reluctance in his eyes. He said, "It's a pity that it's hard to send away and stay in the world. After death, we will share the same mound. Qiao Ran, I know You blame me, but I don't know who to blame."

The warmth of the palm is like a force that regenerates everything from winter to spring.Qiao Ran suddenly asked him, "Cui Yan, have you ever loved anyone? Even if there is only one."

"I said yes, do you believe it?"

"letter."

Cui Yan smiled, "It's a child again."

"I really believe it." Qiao Ran endured the pain, and lay on her side facing Cui Yan, "People are not grass, how can they be ruthless? It's just that everyone treats their feelings in different ways. Some people are crazy about love and don't hesitate, while others People are vigorous and vigorous, some people flow slowly, and some people, even if they love to death, will not be soft when it is time to stab the knife."

"Then do you think I love you?"

Qiao Ran's heart skipped a beat, but she couldn't say a word.

Cui Yan pressed Qiao Ran's forehead and said softly, "I will never tell you."

He gently touched Qiao Ran's neck with his fingers, the blue and red marks left after intercourse.

"Does it still hurt?"

Qiao Ran let go of Cui Yan's ten-fingered hands, lifted the quilt and stuffed it on both sides of her shoulders, "Next time, I will take it for you."

Cui Yan: "There will be a next time."

Qiao Ran: "There won't be any."

Cui Yan raised his eyebrows, "Are you afraid that I won't come back?"

"Where are you going?" Qiao Ran gave him a sideways glance, "You promised me that we would not continue this relationship, not even friends. Cui Yan, you have your choice, and I have my bottom line. I tolerate your choice, and you should also respect my bottom line, otherwise you won't even be friends."

Qiao Ran spoke righteously, but Cui Yan had a calm expression, "Qiao Ran."

"Why? Did you listen to what I told you?"

"Man can't count, and there are exceptions to everything. Don't tell Qingya what I said to Lu Liao that day. If I... If I really can't come back, he will have no relatives in this world from now on. If you can find He, just for me—”

"Shut up!" Qiao Ran covered Cui Yan's mouth, "Why don't you think about it for me? As long as you live, no matter where you are, I will always have something to offer. If you die, I will be the loneliest person! "

Seeing Qiao Ran getting angry in a hurry, Cui Yan showed his face, and his contented smile swam past the corner of his eyes like a small fish.Qiao Ran's palm was hot and humid, and his heart itched unbearably, so he quickly withdrew his hand.

The two remained silent for a while.

At some point, Cui Yan picked up the tablet again, the audio just now didn't quit, it continued at one click, Qiao Ran ignored the pain in his body, rushed to grab the tablet back, and even pressed delete for the entire video folder.

The world is clean.Qiao Ran was done, felt relieved, threw the tablet away and let him play with it.

Cui Yan: "You have a guilty conscience."

Qiao Ran huddled under the quilt and argued, "I'm just afraid of being seen by Tian Yunshu. Xu Tang and Sheng Linya are indeed very similar."

"There are a lot of things in it that I don't understand."

"It's okay if you don't understand."

"..."

"Here, look here. When I open it, there are some photos and stills of me. Although I am the person, all settings are for acting, and they are all unreal. Do you understand? Well... and this software, It’s listening to music. But unfortunately, I listen to it online, without downloading, without downloading and without wireless, so——” Qiao Ran uninstalled him without any hassle, “It’s useless. But here, have you seen it? Click it in, save a song I sang, originally planned to put it in the new album as the title song, but I never thought that I would travel through time, not to mention the album, even the film festival disappeared.”

Qiao Ran was still chattering, but Cui Yan grasped the point, "Listen."

Qiao Ran hesitated there.At the beginning, he thought the song was too artistic and almost didn't want to include it, but the manager, Sister Sai, insisted that the ancient music is popular now, and it would be easy to sell if it was labeled as "Chinese style", so Qiao Ran listened to the demo. It's too sad, the building is empty, the tea is cold, and the music is over and everyone is gone.At that time, I felt that it was too sticky, but now I hear the song, it fits the scene, and "Old Dreams of the Past" couldn't be more suitable for the occasion.

With the touch of the index finger, the prelude rises——

Green plums wrapped in snow? A little sigh

Thick ink that can't be dizzy? Ask the date of your return

Migratory birds returning to the south in spring? The cracked river bank disappears

my chest? grow tender thorns

Ice cliffs shattered into tears?

The old man is far away without knowing the day and night? Perhaps it is thousands of years and thousands of years

Is the river rain tired? Looking back, it disappears late

There is no hope for swimming fish? There is no rest in the bamboo forest

The cool wind at night blows the galaxy? You are alone in the distance

A rock in the water? A calamus on the shore

A leaf in a back-tracking boat?

The clothes are thin? The dream is long? The frost is white, the reeds are empty, and the birds are empty? The temple is empty.

Waiting for winter to pass and spring? Calling cicadas and wild geese? Waiting for catkins and ripe cherries? Abandon the round fan and add a little red coat

you still haven't come back

(opera part)

The lotus does not touch the water? The sun and the moon do not live in the sky

Four seasons revolving door? The year will be late

Where is the beloved? When will the beloved return?

Make love together when awake? Disperse when drunk

The past is like a smoke cage? The old dream is like a fog lock

Beloved is wrong in this life? Beloved will change in the next life

……

"Actually, I don't like the word 'back'." After a long time, Qiao Ran said slowly, "The reason why I came back is because I left before."

Cui Yan didn't respond to his words, and the two of them fell asleep in the sound of the single looping music.

A person who will leave anytime and anywhere may not always come back.

The author has something to say: Mu Shi: Ancient Clothes Hangers

Immediate phenomenon: "Déjà vu" (from the French "Déjàvu"), can also be translated into "illusion memory", which refers to the feeling of deja vu that has never been experienced before.

About the lyrics: Please don't complain about QAQ